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2003 29 November :: 9.31pm
Happy Birthday to my 325 entry for my woohu.
Your so pretty look at you..soooo pretty lol
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2003 29 November :: 8.50pm
Its uncomprehendable....how I look back a year(s) ago. Things that were happening. How I was feeling. It was only just a year ago..it seems as if it was decades ago. All the fighting and how people were so childish...things were childish things wern't right..they didn't feel right anymore. I feel like I've changed so much..Not even around the same people who I was before. Who knew that my 6th grade secret santa would become my best friend. Who knew I'd find new people that would be so accepting and would just be...everyone who I thought I would never even talk to. I've made alot of things possible that I never could have dreamed about. I've been able to look past the word group and I've been able to see people just as indivisuals... It's mind boggling...way beyond mind boggling. I feel overwhelmed in the sense that this is my life and I've been able to mold it into whatever I want yet some things won't take their new shape. I wished for a new life and in a way..I have gotten some of that.
But it doesn't change how I feel about things..inside I'm the same Amy...the same Amy whos been trying to get out of hell for years..same Amy whos been trying to prove that I can do things on my own and that I just want to be loved. That's all it comes down to in the end.
I stand alone....
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2003 29 November :: 7.43pm
:: Mood: thirsty
:: Music: You'll be in my Heart by Phil Collins
Another night under the Moon.
Greetings fellow Earthlings! Hi its aproximately 7 hours 39 minutes and 54 seconds. I am in the grocery store in the grape produce section. It is very tempting to steal one and bite it and have the juice fly all over an old lady! But I can resist for I am now distracted by the lucious peaches. I am writing on my Notebook software technology laptop that I recieved for completing a invention that I am submitting to the government called the "Floating Planter". This invention realisticly floats over the meer store floor. My client Jeffery Pegzino has recently tried out for the new movie James bond 4 and has been called back just yesterday to try out again for the James Bond part. I, tomorrow, plan to succeed in the movie business just as young Jeffery did yesterday. The film I will be directing is Apollo24... Return of the Martians. Wish me luck. I am now in the check out line with my half squeezed grape and my purified glass of peach milk. Want some? Get some. Bring it on. Represent....... word!!
I MISS YOU KEVIN DON'T LEAVE ME!!
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2003 29 November :: 7.53pm
slightly obessed with Gauge 32 -wink-
Verse 1
Woke up on the bathroom floor
Like I've done for long before
Alone I lie an empty shell
Trying to escape this hell
But where to go, and who to see
All these questions torture me
The questionns burn inside my brain
Pushing me to go insane
Chorus
Why
Do I
Even try
Nothing ever changes
Life just re-arranges
Crushing me..and why
Do I
Even care
You're not even there
You're nothing now to me
why don't you let me be
Verse 2
Is there ever something more
Something that's worth fighting for
Something that will clear my eyes
Saving me from black demise
Year's I've searched and never found
And now I'm lieing on the ground
Left alone, a broken soul
Leaving me without control
CHORUS
Verse 3
Now I wonder where you were
When everything became a blur
I passed out by the bathroom door
And fell onto the bathroom floor
The cries for help you didn't hear
Were muffled by my angered fear
So I lie upon the floor
So I will forevermore.
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2003 29 November :: 7.29pm
:: Mood: tired/content
I stayed up till like 2 in the morning watching "The Breakfast Club" That's one of my favorite movies. (note to self..get on dvd) I woke up like 11ish and we started cleaning and there was unpacking of various boxes. We got out the fake xmas tree and put it together and got the lights and ordiments on it and all that jazz..... So Christmas is almost here...Jesus couldn't just hold it back another month could he. Although I'm happy that we will have 2 weeks off from school...but I'm sure it will go by fast. By the way..I think I personally am an Atheist...lol yeah it does sound funny but... I still can't wait for spring break. Last year I did alot of thinking when I was there. Thinking and writing...it felt good. I hope I can put myself in that element again this time....
I do have something to live for..something ahead of me to look forward to...it just might take longer for me to get to it....gradually..baby steps...
I just have to keep telling myself there will be an end to it soon. That's what I live on, my own word. Even if I'm wrong, atleast I will have made it that far...
I feel as if I have just been swept up in complete randomnesss...
Later...
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2003 29 November :: 12.58pm
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: i cant stop loving you- the chicago song
another day under the sun
i watched apollo 13 last night. im positive i want to go to space now. and i think i actually have a chance at it. although, i have to put that excursion on hold until i get my pilots license. that means i have to wait until after december 22nd. i called and they were like, "im sorry, we have no openings until the 23rd of december." and i got really upset, but thats okay i guess, its not like i have the money right now to pay for it anyway.
we put our christmas tree up today. it looks nice i guess. i love chirstmas time, its so wonderful. now all thats missing is the snow and carols. i cant wait until we kick the season into high gear.
its been about 5 days now since i've seen kevin. its upsetting, but on the bright side i only have 3 days until i see him again.
yesterday me and lindsay and kari went out to woodland on a hunt for christmas gifts for kari's momma. she did really well. another aspect of the trip was to find and outfits for both me and lindsay, however, we did not. so i guess it was a successful failure. :)
i think im gonna try and redo my room. i have ideas. but i dont know how im going to accomplish them. all i can to is try though.
well, im gonna take a break for now. maybe i'll write later.
until then.......
this is rachelle- signing off
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2003 28 November :: 8.29pm
Turkey day was pretty much boring. Cooking followed by cleaning. Nothing much new...just same old shit. Same old shit every day.
I feel bothered. By what now, I have no clue. I feel like punching someone something.
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2003 27 November :: 1.56pm
:: Mood: Content
:: Music: Lions game
What a lovely surprise. To see the Cohens. And the Dines. On Thanksgiving. Rejoice.
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2003 26 November :: 2.35pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: beautiful day//U2
~~NEWS FLASH~~NEWS FLASH~~
Rachelle Gigowski went swimming in her lake today. She claims that she had to save all of the little fishies from getting frostbite.
over and out
*i miss you kevin*
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2003 25 November :: 7.14pm
I feel like shit and I'm not in a good mood. I'm so fuckin pissed off. I hate my family all fucking idiots.
argggg...
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