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2003 15 November :: 6.10pm
Went shopping today and got a shirt from abercrombie and a sweater from Charlotte Russe. We went into Bebe Sport and they got some jacked up prices. Thats what you get from big city stores coming to little cities. Damn inflation and taxes. We went to olga's first and all the sudden i see allen olson watching me eat..it was kindof scary. Then I saw lauren Haik in Charlotte Russe. I think that was the only people I managed to see thank god. They have these cute black pants at Deb that have hot pink pin stripes through them. Note to self: get those next time I go shopping. I only have like $5 left and my sister owes me $10 from me buying her lunch. mmm..olgas. MMMMM... orange creame cooolllerrrssssss mmmmm left over snackkerrrss for a snack laterrrrr mm.. lol
My parents are fucked up. To them: Go to hell and i will poop all over you lol
Pretty boring day, I left out alot but thats ok.
We might have a fire tonight. Probably not.
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2003 15 November :: 12.29pm
:: Mood: tempted
how u can tell who writes what entry
to tell wohse journal entriy is whose, we will put our initials at the end of our subjects
rachelle (gigowski)= rlg
rachelle (grandia)= reg
got it?
*regards
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2003 15 November :: 12.17pm
:: Mood: lethargic
:: Music: country
hey! guess what!
ok, heres the deal--- im not gonna be the only one using this journal anymore, if its woohu at rachelle, then we should BOTH be able to use it. so thats whats gonna happen- both of us (rachelle's) are going to use this journal.
much love - rachelle squared
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2003 13 November :: 5.26pm
today went by fast and thats good. Tomorrow is friday and it will fly by fast so I can return to my sleeping and such...
Damn economy.
Jennifer Granholm looks like peter pan.
I think i'll go to bed early tonight. Nevermind...extreme makeover is on lol.
im out
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2003 12 November :: 7.24pm
I had a bad dream lastnight and woke up crying. It's those kind of dreams where when you wake up you have a lump in your throat and your so upset. The thing is that my dream is reality it's exactly how things are.
The dream was that it was my birthday and we didnt do anything and my mom wouldnt talk to me instead she just kept yelling at me and I just kept yelling at her "you never listen to me you never take the time for me". I've never had a dream thats been like that so maybe the whole birthday thing bothered me more than I thought..I guess it wasnt that big of a deal though....Other people thought it was and I did but I kindof forgot about it.
I really dont think that i'll ever patch things up with my mom.
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2003 11 November :: 4.51pm
School is gay..I was kindof pissed off all through out the day because of some things...I dont know...I guess I just have to forget about it. Nothing good would come out of it if I were to tackle this "issue", if it even is an issue...grr.
I went to champion after school and didnt get home until a while ago. I was going to go to Carinna's game but my sister found people to talk to and I didn't end up gettin home in time. That blows. When I was at champion I saw jesse poos and kyle. I talked to them and they went to subway lol then came back and I watched them play bball while i was waiting for my sister. It was chuck full with a lot of guys on the court. Most hot. I guess thats it.. I have to do homework tonight which sucks but its all good.
Does anyone else secretly actually like sloppy joes? lol
Just a random question for you to ponder about.
APROX. 5 MONTHS UNTIL FLORIDA. I CANT WAIT!!! I WANT TO GO TO THE CONDO AND BE SURROUNDED BY WARM AIR!! AND GO INTO THE KICK ASS SURF SHOPS.
later gators
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2003 11 November :: 3.13pm
:: Music: Elephant Love
We could be heros..
...it's only Tuesday.
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2003 10 November :: 6.26pm
:: Music: The Used
Finally...
"my foot on your neck I..finally have you...right where I want you...right where I want youu..Right where I want youu..."
I found something i can do for myself. I have to do this for myself. It may be the only thing to cure this. No more just talking...I will do this and succeed
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2003 9 November :: 10.47am
:: Music: Our lady peace- innocent
"I remember feeling low, I remember losing hope, and I remember all the feelings and the day they stopped...."
I don't know what to call this...low point.
Lower than the usual low.
How am I going to pull through this? How am I going to do better in school? How can I prove to myself that I can do this? When is this going to end?
When can I finally say that I feel alright...
Tormenting me inside my head
standing on my knees
watching my writs patiently
untill I see them bleed
tears streaming down my face
falling into my brittle hair
locking my hands into fists
as break away the wall
falling forward
persperation on my brow
antisipation breathing out my chest
satisfaction from my bleeding hands
down I fall
into this unknown land
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2003 8 November :: 7.08pm
This is the way I deal with shit. I'll just have to get use to it.
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