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thedarkerside

:: 2003 21 July :: 7.13pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: Lying from you- Linkin Park

no fuckin way

He will not move. I will not let him move. Hes not moving. Thats final. Nope...Not moving. So not moving ....soooo not. I'd miss him like hell if he moved. Its not going to happen. Hes not moving. no hes not...nope. I wont let it happen. Theres not an iceburg chance in hell that hes moving.

God..This isnt good...this cant be good...

hes not moving.

Finally something good happens in my life. I meet new people new peolple who take an interest in me. People who think im funny and want to hang out with me all the time...Someone who I could trust..someone who I could talk to someone who told me something hes never told anyone before. He cant move.. He just cant.
I've waited months just so i can go to the same school with him and others... He cant move....

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thedarkerside

:: 2003 20 July :: 8.38pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Linkin Park- Lying from you

I love linkin park. Their cd meteora is a must buy
ITS EASIERR TOO RUNNNNNNNNNNN

Time wont change
This damage anymore
Dont turn your back on me
I wont be ignored

lol 2 complete differnt songs lol

Easier to run and faint.



loveeee LINKIN PARK!! lovvvee themmm

I'm feeling better about things..the recent decision and all. I think I made the right one. Carinna sent me a funny email. She left for virgina. I hope she comes home soon I miss her already.

I see a good future ahead. Maybe things will be at their best. I hope so!

ITS EASIERR TOO RUNNNNNNNNNNN

I need to call arie in colorado soon. Need someone to talk to :-D

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thedarkerside

:: 2003 20 July :: 2.24am
:: Music: none

best quiz thing ever!

My goddamn rock solid ghetto shiznit name is Ass Machine Kawfi.
What's yours?
Powered by Rum and Monkey.

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thedarkerside

:: 2003 19 July :: 9.24pm
:: Mood: silllllyyy
:: Music: Linkin Park- Easier To Run

Ok...


OK! So i changed the background again. I promise this will be the last time. lol I dled more brushes for psp and i was inspired to make another background and it turned out better than my other bg.

Jesse and I are gunna get presents for dannies bday. lol I'm gettin her the Black Eyed Peas cd and jesses going to get her a 100 pack of pencils (inside joke) and we're going to combine our presents together and say its from "Jesse & amy" lol. Jesses great. lol funny kid.

I made up a new word today. Biznotch. Yeah...my usual Bizotch with an N added in it. Thus creating the awesome word..."Biznotch". it has flava to it dont you think? lol

When I turn 18 i'm going to change my last name to Biznotch. lol that would be funny. Everyone would like writing my last name...."Amy Biznotch" i love it.

Aries still in Colorado. Boo ya. No actually I take back that boo ya cuz i'm saddened that shes gone. I have no one to be anti-social with. That really blows too. blows big biznotches. lol

I must go....

I have a date with my diet coke...

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thedarkerside

:: 2003 19 July :: 1.07am
:: Mood: Awake
:: Music: The Used- Buried myself alive

Just got done watching 10 things i hate about you


Almost always pick the best time
to drop the worst lines
almost made me cry again this time
another false alarm
red flashing lights
well this time i'm not going to watch myself die
i think i made a game to play your game and let myself cry
buried myself alive on the inside
so i could shut you out
let you go away for a long
timmmmmmmmme
i guess its ok i puked the day away
i guess its better you trapped yourself in your own way
and if you want me back
your gonna have to ask
nicer than thatttttt

My foot on your neck
I finally have you
Right where I want you
Right were I want you
Right were i want youuuuuuuuuuu
Right where I want youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
- The Used.

Arie called me on her moms cell from Colorado. It was nice to hear from her. I miss her alot. and thats the truth. Lets take a walk down memory lane.

6th grade..someone ims me. Arie. We didnt know who we were talking to we just talked...i dont remember about what though. After awhile we met eachother at school. And thats how it got started. I really got to know her pretty good and we've been through the same things mentally atleast and we like the same kind of music. I think I have found a friend who can be there.....forever. No matter what....even though we have our own problems and there has been some periods of time where we havent gotten to talk to eachother but we still have a connection. I truely love that girl as a friend. I wish more people could see what shes all about. Theres a side of her that I dont think she lets out much but she wants to......Shes a great friend. Someone who you dont want to let slip away. She truely doesnt know how much she has to offer. Shes great.


-random burst of singing- "This is the last sooonnnggg"-AAR-Last Song

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thedarkerside

:: 2003 18 July :: 9.22pm
:: Mood: Amazed
:: Music: none

Ahh...


If I add anything more to my background..it might explode. I love it. FINALLY- SOMETHING INTERPRETIVE. Just sit and stare at everything in it and try to figure out what it could mean.

I love my little woohu! gimma a hug! lol

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thedarkerside

:: 2003 18 July :: 5.42pm
:: Mood: Hungry
:: Music: Weezer-The Sweater song

I've come unddoonnnneeee



EEEK! I AM SO ready for school to start. I couldnt go campin w/ dannie but thats ok We will hang out before school starts probably. Get the whole gang over to hang and watch movies.

-sings randomly-WATCH IT UNRAVEL I'LL SOOONNN BE NAKEEDD

I love weezer.

I was talking to Micaela O'hara about the slide show on hyperstudio that i made of mr.crosby. That thing almost made me pee my pants. Well it starts out with mr crosby yelling "PUSH EQUALS OR I SHOOT YOU!" then he pulls out a gun and has a ski mask on and then he goes and smokes a ciggarette and starts on fire then ends up as a pile of ashes ... .I hope it saved to my school file!!!!

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Tbaby92588

:: 2003 18 July :: 12.15am


A long, long time ago,
I can still remember
How that music used to make me smile
And I knew if I had my chance,
That I could make those people dance
And maybe they'd be happy for a while

But February made me shiver,
With every paper I'd deliver
Bad news on the doorstep,
I couldn't take one more step

I can't remember if I cried
When I read about his widowed bride
But something touched me deep inside
The day the music died

So bye, bye Miss American Pie
Drove my Chevy to the levee but the levee was dry
And them good old boys were drinking whiskey in Rye
Singing this will be the day that I die,
This will be the day that I die

Did you write the book of love
And do you have faith in God above,
If the Bible tells you so?
Now, do you believe in rock and roll
Can music save your mortal soul
And can you teach me how to dance real slow?

Well, I know that you're in love with him
'Cause I saw you dancing in the gym
You both kicked off your shoes,
Man, I dig those rhythm and blues!

I was a lonely teenage broncin' buck
With a pink carnation and a pickup truck
But I knew that I was out of luck
The day the music died

I started singing

So bye, bye Miss American Pie
Drove my Chevy to the levee but the levee was dry
And them good old boys were drinking whiskey in Rye
Singing this will be the day that I die,
This will be the day that I die

Now for ten years we've been on our own,
And moss grows fat on a Rolling Stone
But that's not how it used to be
When The Jester sang for The King and Queen
In a coat he borrowed from James Dean
In a voice that came from you and me

And while The King was looking down,
The Jester stole his thorny crown
The courtroom was adjourned,
No verdict was returned

And while Lennon read a book on Marx,
The quartet practiced in the park
And we sang dirges in the dark
The day the music died

We were singing

So bye, bye Miss American Pie
Drove my Chevy to the levee but the levee was dry
And them good old boys were drinking whiskey in Rye
Singing this will be the day that I die,
This will be the day that I die


Helter Skelter in a summer swelter
The Byrds flew off with a fall out shelter
Eight miles high and falling fast
It landed foul on the grass
The players tried for a forward pass
With The Jester on the sidelines in a cast

Now, the halftime air was sweet perfume
While The Sargeants played a marching tune
We all got up to dance,
Oh, but we never got the chance
'Cause the players tried to take the field
The marching band refused to yield!
Do you recall what was revealed
The day the music died?

We started singing

So bye, bye Miss American Pie
Drove my Chevy to the levee but the levee was dry
And them good old boys were drinking whiskey in Rye
Singing this will be the day that I die,
This will be the day that I die


Oh, and there we were all in one place
A generation lost in space
With no time left to start again
So come on Jack be nimble,
Jack be quick
Jack Flash sat on a candle stick
Because fire is the devil's only friend

Oh, and as I watched him on the stage
My hands were clenched in fists of rage
No angel born in Hell
Could break that Satan's spell

And as the flames climbed high into the night
To light the sacrificial rite
I saw Satan laughing with delight
The day the music died

He was singing

So bye, bye Miss American Pie
Drove my Chevy to the levee but the levee was dry
And them good old boys were drinking whiskey in Rye
Singing this will be the day that I die,
This will be the day that I die

I met a girl who sang the blues
And I asked her for some happy news...
But she just smiled and turned away
I went down to the sacred store
Where I'd heard the music years before
But the man there said the music wouldn't play

And in the streets the children screamed
The lovers cried and the poets dreamed
But not a word was spoken
The church bells all were broken

And the three men I admire most
The Father, Son and the Holy Ghost
They caught the last train for the coast
The day the music died

And they were singing

Bye, bye Miss American Pie
Drove my Chevy to the levee but the levee was dry
And them good old boys were drinking whiskey in Rye
Singin' this will be the day that I die
This'll be the day that I die

They were singin'

Bye, bye Miss American Pie
Drove my Chevy to the levee but the levee was dry
And them good old boys were drinking whiskey in Rye
Singing this will be the day that I die...

American Pie//Don McLean

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thedarkerside

:: 2003 17 July :: 7.05pm
:: Mood: tired-crappy
:: Music: Smile Empty Soul- Bottom of a bottle

Today

Its pretty shitty looking out. It made me wanna take a nap. I almost fell asleep but I didnt want to miss my internet time. I think I'm keeping my journal like this for now. I like it. It has character.

Bordom strikes me. So does lack of self confidence. I will find a solution to this soon...hopefully :-/

Night.

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thedarkerside

:: 2003 17 July :: 3.24pm
:: Mood: ok
:: Music: Watchin peoples court

Woohooo!!


Tomorrow I'm possibly leaving to go to Dannies cottage with Steph and maybe some other people. We're still trying to get Jesse to go but we dont know if he can yet..

It might just be steph and I with dannie. Other than that david, jeff, and jimmy might go.

I hope its gunna be fun!!

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