Life sucks sometimes... Friendships turn to lies

Life sucks sometimes...
Friendships turn to lies

:: 2003 4 June :: 8.21pm

What am I doing? I didnt want to update my journal all the sudden i clicked on the internet and it was here...weirdd..

Where the hell are you krystal.

I did go pee. I feel better now

lol

i'm watching fame.

great show...

1 made me bleed | take a stab

thedarkerside

:: 2003 4 June :: 8.09pm
:: Mood: 4

I have to pee.

Really bad..
lol

PEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

PEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
PEEEEEEE
PEEEEE
PEE
PEEEEE

KRYSTAL WHERE ARE YOU!?!? lol

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thedarkerside

:: 2003 3 June :: 8.14pm

And as if things couldnt get worse...

Mom had to go back in the hospital around 9 ish this morning...Same symptoms... And of course...Rockford schools knew about it..Someone should have called me. Another reason to hate school.

If she gets diognosed with a seizure her license gets revoked for up to year.

6 made me bleed | take a stab

thedarkerside

:: 2003 2 June :: 9.54pm

Untitled

These walls are clsing in
they wont stop caving
they cant hold
anymore emotion
theyve already
been painted
with hatred
and sorrows
push the walls
apart
make them separate
find their
shelter
where they hold
the unknown
release the cracks
in the walls
so the emotion
seeps through
to find what has
already
been forgotten
figure out
everything
about you

take a stab

thedarkerside

:: 2003 2 June :: 8.12pm

theresa and lindsey came over to make mouse trap cars...

neener neener neennerrr lol

It was great fun until lindsey all had to leave lol.

Theresa: CRAZY BUT THATS HOW IT GOOOESS

The slipper and bag was the funniest thing i've ever seen... came close to peeing just dindt tell you that lol.

It was fun I love you theresa and lindsey.

Krystal called me. I love krystal.

I hate school

Screw school

I'm out.

2 made me bleed | take a stab

thedarkerside

:: 2003 1 June :: 11.15am
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: none

LING LING..YOU FORGOT CHO BLING BLING

I had several dreams last night...

One was that i was in one of my classes..I dont remember wich one and my teacher said that I had a D and there was no way I could raise it by the end of the year. I just kept thinking that my parents were going to kill me.

Then my second dream was that we were at our condo in florida and my mom was like did you hear that Emily fell down the stairs and broke her leg and that shes in the hospital.. and I was like no way I just got off the phone with her. lol

Then the third dream was that we were goign to pick of kyle from camp or something so his brother drove me there...(i dont get it lol) and when we got to the place I saw like some guys I was good friends with from elementary school and I was like "hey guys havent seen you in a long time" and then I was walking down this hallway it looked like an airport, and then kyle walked out with his bags and stuff and was like hey howd you get here and I was like your brother drove me.

Weird dreams.

I'm working on my dekraker homework. Damn review sheet. Libby has the whole front side done so I'm thinkin about copying it. Some of the essays are hard. I have 3 out of 6 done. I'll finish them by the end of today. I also have to finish my mouse trap car paperwork and finish the car too. I have to spray paint the cds black then glue them on then put the string on. I'll be done after that.

I cant believe school is almost over.

Krystal came over lastnight and we watched the Hot Chick. Funny movie. I <3 krystal.

I'm feeling ok right now...just stressing a tad over homework and exams.

i'm out

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thedarkerside

:: 2003 31 May :: 4.58pm
:: Mood: I have to pee
:: Music: Linkin Park- One step closer (goin a little old school lol)

Old memories

A day filled with cleaning.

I cleaned my room today and now its sparkling clean. Its weird...too weird. So clean that my cat is now sleeping on my nicely made bed. Cute kitty.

I was seaching through my winter coat pockets for money lol and i found a bookmark that had a kitty on it and on the back it says "Amy Baird. I love you. You light up my life... Haw Haw Haw"

This ofcourse is from theresa.

Thank you theresa that made my day.

I love you too.

I'm out.

2 made me bleed | take a stab

thedarkerside

:: 2003 31 May :: 10.40am
:: Mood: ok
:: Music: Sanitarium- Limp Bizkit

Amys back in the poem business
Seeking through

The pieces
Of your mind
Never add up
To
Anything
The smile on your face
Lets them see
Straight to your heart
The hole that
Remains empty
Where your feelings
Would lay to rest
Where your world
Would come crumbling
(Start crumbling)
Down

(Chorus)
Seeking through the light
(Seeking through)
Where you can
Become one of us
Mind and soul
Show us the place
Where all your thoughts go
Lead me the way
To carry
You home
See the light in me
Reach out to the
Unknown
(Seeking through)

Breaking through
The darkness
Trying to find
The windows of
Your soul
Desperately seeking
To be secure
To be wanted
To be everything you hated
Lay down everything
You�ve ever had
Make this experience
Worth it
Worth living
Worth trying
Worth dieing for
Find what you�ve wanted
All along

(Chorus)

Don�t ever
Tell me
Things are going to change
Don�t tell me
Things will be ok
That everything�s just fine
And that you�re rearranging

Don�t ever
Tell me
That it wont be the same
Things are going to change
That you need me here today
And that you�re
Sorry now

(Seeking through�

Seeking through the light)

take a stab

Tbaby92588

:: 2003 29 May :: 11.02pm
:: Mood: peaceful
:: Music: Carry On My Wayward Sun [Kansas]

"This is a terrible inconvience." - Zachory Berta

I'm proud of my brother.

After school, he was grumpy; couldn't find his black dress shirt.

"Dammit." He said.

The problem was solved when he found a white one.

He left around four. I left at six thirty.

The arena was not as warm as I thought it would be.

We waited patiently with an enduring plastic grin painted on our faces and humming the tune of 'Pomp and Circumstance' to ourselves.

Hurried tapping toes and non-exsisting silence for ages...

..."Kurtis Michael Kline."

Graduated. With that perfect smile of his on his face.

In my heart he'll always be... forever young.

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thedarkerside

:: 2003 28 May :: 7.48pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: none

Fighing off a cold and emotions
I'm so tired. I slept when I got home. It felt soo good to sleep. Sleep, your my new best friend.

Today was gay as usual. I have to read in front of the class tomorow in la. and i dont even know what i'm reading yet. Oh well.

Today sucked ass. I already said that.
I just want school to be over with so i can sleep everyday
Sounds good to me.

uhh...I'm tired..yeah..thats it.

im out

take a stab