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2003 28 May :: 9.51am
:: Mood: gay
:: Music: none
at school
found a funny word.
Bizotch... lol omg that is so funny.
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2003 28 May :: 9.21am
I know shes sorry. I know that she truly is but for now I just want to keep it on the back burner.
I've avoided and possibly confrontations by not really saying anything.
Our future is undecided..I need to decide how I'm going to deal with forgiveness and friend issues in the future. Obviously I have forviged many times...but It does get kindof confusing.
I dont know raither or not to trust anymore....
To you: We'll see, We'll see.
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2003 28 May :: 8.29am
:: Mood: happy
I love you, like water.
David smells good today.
XD
Let it be known.
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2003 26 May :: 10.05pm
:: Mood: ok
:: Music: none
::Biore Strips and Ice Water::
I must say he has changed and I think i did think about giving up on tryin to talk to him. But...I know I cant. I'll give him some more time.
God. Guys. I must kill them all except for like 4. lol
My life is content right now.
I cant wait until school is out. I'm going to try harder on my summer fasting. I'm going to go t champion every day when school gets out. Probably either early in the morning or late at night. Whenever its not so packed that I cant breathe. Theresa is coming fo sho. Her and I have to come up with some kind of summer stay fit program lol. No more muffins theresa...no more LMSTBSAO.
If i could sum up my life in one sentence it would be: "Buried my self alive on the inside." And i'd take that back if i could and when i could; have more confidence in other people.
But its too late...
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2003 26 May :: 7.27pm
:: Mood: Fine
:: Music: AudioSlave- Like a Stone
"Well this time i'm not going to watch myself die"
Today was ok.
I redid my bottle rocket...Julie..its still going to be named "rocket" lol
I finished my us history project. Started my cooking project. Called dannie and couldnt get a hold of her so I still have one more day to make our pizza before we have to present it. Tomrrow my sister is takin me to the dollar store and Ride Aid to try to find some hawaian decorations and if i still cant find any I think my dad is going to take me to a party store.
I hate procrastinating.....But its what I do best.
My last minute projects that I throw together usually turn out better anyways.
I still have a damn cold
I think i'll probably just go to dannies tomorrow and do the pizza real quick. IF not I'll just make it alone.. Not that big of a deal. I hope I didnt make her feel like I was trying to take over the project. I do that sometimes but I like to feel like Its going to be done. then i dont have to worry if someone else got it done or not.
Better safe than sorry.
My dad got me a sketch book XD thank you dad. I shall tresure it.
I'm out.
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2003 26 May :: 7.12pm
:: Mood: Preditory..lol
:: Music: Get Over It [Ok-Go]
When you were young and your heart was an open book, you used to say 'Live and let live.' But if this ever-changing world in which we live in makes you give in and cry; Live and let die.
BOOM!
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I smell of treehouse and fire... Only a Hovingh could get me into this mess.
...Got those nice copper pipes.
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2003 25 May :: 9.45pm
:: Mood: fine
:: Music: Completely Miserable- Lit
No Turning Back
I'm not going to go back on something that I've already decided. Sorry but I wont.
Its that important to me.
Its a new step in life and I know I'll be thanking myself later on.
Damnit. I never got a sketch book at meijer. I'll ask my dad to get one tomorrow.
I was talking to kyle about elementary school and how stupid we were. Actually it was more of me talking about how stupid I was lol. We've had some good times. I'm glad I've gotten to know him pretty good because next year I'll finally get to go to school with him again. Hes a great friend and he makes me laugh. Not many people can do that. And not to mention Jesse. Jesse is like the nicest person I've ever met and seriously hes like going to be my best guy friend. Hes the best. He listens pretty good and tries to relate. Not many guys do that at all. So Jesse- You are one awesome sand niger. LOL I'm your cousin from forest hills and no matter what people say i'm not white.
Theresa is my first pick for a lesbian experiance....there i said it theresa...now the secrets out LMSTBSAO! and speaking of the "LMSTBSAO" this summer we're going to have to work on the whole skinny ass thing ok? CALL ME!
My mom seems ok. Shes fine. The doctors said that it could have just been some weird thing that only happens once I still think its weird though. Life goes on. I'll play the worlds smalest record player "my heart cries for you" LMAO
(Katie...Mr. Pettigrove)
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2003 25 May :: 8.21pm
:: Mood: none
:: Music: Pieces Mended- The used
I feel special
want me to make your journal pretty?
Email me your username and password and I'll do it.
Peoples journals that I have made pretty:
Zach -www.woohu.com/defmonkey4u
Katie-www.woohu.com/dream
Me- your here right now
Sheely- www.woohu.com/sheels21489
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2003 25 May :: 5.53pm
:: Music: Rest In Pieces- Saliva & now Send the pain below-Chevelle
I am aware now how everythings going to be fine again
Apparently shes ok. Shes home. Feeling fine.
Its still scary though.
When I took a shower today I kept replaying what had happened over and over again in my head. I've never seen anything like that...it was almost unhuman...it was ...like just weird. I went to Meijer w/ my dad to get grocerys and I got a carmel frappachino. It was good. It reminded me of Krystal. Hi Krystal.
I cant wait until school is over. I want to see the talent show. Those are always fun. Although we have to share the bleechers with the 7th graders its going to be packed.
Oh well. Thats the least of my worries.
I redid zachs journal. I hope he likes it. I dont think he's seen it yet. Zachs a good friend. I think I should talk to him more. I never got mad at zach when everyone else did...I may have pretended to for other people but I never really did because I knew Zach was a good person. Keep it Cool Zach.
you almost always pick the best times
to drop the worst lines
you almost made me cry again this time
another false alarm
red flashing lights
well this time I'm not going to watch myself die
I think I made it a game to play your game
and let myself cry
I buried myself alive on the inside
so I could shut you out
and let you go away for a long time
I guess it's ok I puked the day away
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
and if you want me back
you're gonna have to ask
nicer than that
I think the chain broke away
and I felt it the day that I had my own time
I took advantage of myself and felt fine
but it was worth the night
I caught an early flight and I made it home
with my foot on your neck
I finally have you
right where I want you
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2003 25 May :: 3.03pm
:: Music: Sanitarium- Limp Bizkit (remake of Metallica)
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The doctors are sending her home.
They never found out whats wrong
She still has more tests to take.
You dont just pass out and go into a seizure and not have anything wrong with you. It pisses me off. They cant just send her home without knowing whats going to happen.
"If it happens again, come back to the hospital" Well Duh.
God I hate doctors.
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