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2003 7 May :: 7.00pm
:: Mood: fine
:: Music: none
Point Proven
Amy:"Mom can i have allowance, then you wont have to complain about me borrowing money because i'll make my own.
Mom:"No. If you had allowance you'd be in the hole."
Case Closed.
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2003 7 May :: 5.30pm
:: Mood: ok
:: Music: none
Lindsey is going to kill me. I just finished a #7 w/ diet coke lol
Today sucked. It was shitty outside all day. I was so tired. I took a 5 min nap in L.A. got -5 on a cooking test and then got -2 on my computer test. woo.. boring boring boring
On the way home we got hit by a bus. Whiplash. no one hurt. got home 5 mins late. Woopdy do.
I have to finish copying libbys section review and finish it then do another one. Due tomorrow. Must finish. I'm tired. Took a nap when I got home.
Sam Baldwin tried calling me.. my sister didnt say if she wanted me to call her back. Oh well.
I was going to meet emily at north for the track pratice but i could go.
oh well. i hope she didnt wait too long for me.
the end.
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2003 6 May :: 1.19pm
:: Mood: dorky
:: Music: one heart, faith, i drove all night
finely
hey, i dont have much time, but i'm at school. sorry i havn't updated in a while, it's because at my house my computer is screwed up and the only thing i can do is im, mainly because i didn't have AIM on when we caught our virus. anyhow, these flowersack things have got to be the most annoying things ever...who knew 10 pounds could be so heavy. my mom takes this so seriously too, as me and lindsay got in our car, my mom exclaims, "oh my gosh! what are we going to do, i forgot the carseat?!?!" we just laughed as lindsay says, "Mrs. Gigowski, its a flowersack, i think it'll be ok.." lol. and i am screwed over for sure on my power point b/c i dun have the program and mine is due monday, along with my stand alone in which i dont have a poster for. well, thats pretty exciting..not... but here's what is, me and whitney have been writing these songs, and i must say they are pretty cool, though i have no music background in order to write like the song part, all i can do is the lyrics, and i'm not sure i'm that good at them either, its just that, well, that is the fun part. and kim and kendra (and u 2 lindsay) are like obsessed with my doll, and i'm not complaining, b/c that means they want to have it all the time, which is fine by me, cuz u know, its 10 less punds to carry around, sorry u guys, but i do consider that a benefit, lol...and kari, ur mom will love the necklace, i know it...have fun on ur trip...and for those of u interested, i really want to go to apollo 13 and space station 3d, if u are the least bit into seeing one of those with me,.....i will like worship you, well, not really, but i will come pretty close....hehe, well, i'd better go cuz i have 3 minutes to close up, oh ya, mrs d let us bring our cd's and cd players to the computer lab today...yay! music!...i hope mines not on too loud, well, g2g..nice talking to ya!
much love
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2003 5 May :: 7.13pm
:: Mood: Engergetic
:: Music: One step closer- Linkin Park
Today ...
Today was ok i guess. Boring and it was crappy outside. The rain messed up my hair in the moring. I was mad. Kennen stole my peanutbutter m&ms. Well. He saved me from some calories. Thank you Kennen. Umm...Food didnt sound good at lunch. I have a cold and my throat hurts...didnt feel like eating.
We always eat crappy food for dinner.
For an expressive essay for L.A. I wrote about how unexcepting my mom is and how i cant do anything or talk to her and that people wont except me for how I think and who I am.
I hate our group right now. I do. I'm not going to deny it. I cant trust anyone...other than those i've already told that I could trust. Everyone back talks eachother once again...I knew it wouldnt stop.
Maybe our group wasnt ment to be.
I agree with alot of carinnas views...well actually all of them.
I hate people walking up to me and talking about other people behind their back. I cant take it. I'll nod my head...act interested..but truely I'm not..There are too many people not being good friends.
They shouldnt call their selves friends.
Im out.
Makin a cd.
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2003 4 May :: 5.42pm
:: Music: Headstrong-Trapt
None
Diognosis: Trying to get acceptance through those who arent aceptant.
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2003 4 May :: 3.26pm
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none
I cooked the damn potato salad for you what else do you want. She came in the door…took the potato salad out. “Why did you make this?!?!! I TOLD YOU NOT TO!”
Ashley-“I heard you tell her to make it.”
Mom-“No I didn’t.”
Mom: “What’d you do to it? Its too soupy. You shouldn’t have made it.”
Then she acts all irritated and yells at me.
Its stupid. She doesn’t need to yell at me. I cant take much more.
Mom inspired poem #4
Good Enough
Never going to
Be good enough
For you
Never going to
Cry less
For you
Always going to
Make my life a mess
Because of you
Never going to be the best
Because of you
I hate the crying
The yelling
The way I don’t do
Anything Right
The fighting
And the way
You always win
You’ve defeated me
And
Made me nothing
Because that’s all
I’ll ever be to you
Nothing
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She makes me want to hate my life.
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2003 4 May :: 2.09pm
:: Mood: fine
:: Music: none
Today
Boring today. School tomorrow. 5 weeks left.
My mom made me cook today.
It was boring ...
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2003 3 May :: 8.20pm
:: Mood: Good
:: Music: none
Pine-sol stings my cuts
Today was pretty shitty until I went downtown w/ Sheely and Amanda and got ice cream.
I cleaned for the first half of the day. Accidentally put my moms pants in the dryer and she got all pissed off at me and told me if they didnt fit her anymore that she wouldnt buy me clothes for the rest of this year and next year and that i'd have to wear the same clothes over and over again.
The jeans didnt shrink.
"Your lucky."- Mom
After I cleaned and cried Sheely called and asked me if I wanted to go downtown. We went shopping and looking around and saw Krystal and Sam. I love them they are so fun.
I liked my ice cream
The shirt I got was too skanky. (on me atleast)
It will fit krystal.
Krystal= Skinny.
I had a #7 w/ diet coke for dinner. I saved a piece for lindsey but then ate it 5 minutes later.
I'm working on another poem. I have two more to write. The first three came easily. The next two will be hard. I have nothing else to right about.. I know the title of my next poem. Its "Good Enough" its about how i'll never be good enough for my mom.
She told me I was stupid once...and that i'd never make it any where in life.
She raised her hand to me.
I'll never forget that.....never..
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2003 2 May :: 9.52pm
:: Mood: Lovely..
:: Music: The Weather [Built To Spill]
"You would go through life licking things and instructing your eye-dog to find the plaque with the brail inscripted on it because you lost your sense of sight and hearing."
Mister
Hello Mister
You know you've been dancing in my head
You tip-toe you're way through
Burying yourself, but not by accident
Making it seem easy
All the while, I'm screaming
And gasping for air
You grin
You're too beautiful for words
You know why
There isn't a chance in the world
For this to unravel with my heart intact
So go ahead and take it
And break it if you need to
I'll grin
This is too beautiful for words
I know why
You're too harmless, Mister
I'd never blame you
As long as you tip-toe as quiet
And still dance as deep
(c)Theresa Marie Kline
^Let me know what you think.^
Special hello to: Arie. For keeping me company when I looked all lonely. Heather. For walking with me when David walked too fast. Katie. For helping me figure out the lyrics to 'Don't Dream It's Over'. Sarah. For helping decide what to do with that last line.
I <3 You.
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2003 2 May :: 6.57pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: none
Everything changes
Why does he try so hard to be someone who he isnt. I know is not him. Hes not the guy who I use to know. He just is trying to be like his friends...despritly trying just to find someone just anyone who will except him for being not him but for who they are.
I've seen him mould into someone who I truely know he isnt. I wish I could change that. The past 2 years have been thrown away and I dont even know who he is anymore... I just know that what he is now is not him.
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I'm going to hold off feelings for anyone I have right now. Its too difficult to stretch your feelings over someone who you dont even really know that well. I know what he looks like..thats about it...I know nothing significant about him. I need to restrict myself, and I have.
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