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2007 25 February :: 5.52pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: Suicide is Painless - Mash theme
*delete*
UGH! I accidentally deleted my last update. I'm so sad. I didn't mean to:(
kind of makes me laugh though.. but then not at all.
I have to give reasons on the turkey carcasses from the contest tomorrow. Not looking forward to that at all, it's hard as hell memorizing all that shit. I better get good at it though, during real contests we only have like 6 minutes to place and memorize it. Ack.
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2007 24 February :: 5.30pm
:: Mood: cold/tired/stressed/sad/lonely
:: Music: My little cousins screaming/beating each other up
Mom and I ordered two chicken salads for supper last night, and we hit a squirrel on the way to get them. It was really sad. I wanted to like... fix it, but then it was dead so I couldn't. I had an emo moment after that.
And THEN I went to bed at like 2:30 even though I knew I had to wake up at 4:45 to get ready and go to Feyetteville, Arkansas for a Poultry Contest for FFA. Suckage. As soon as we got back and I got home, my cousin called and wanted to know if I could watch his two little kids. I've watched them once before, but this time they're really going to die. They are killing me! The sucky part is that they're so damn cute I don't want to get on to them, but they're needing it. They're beating the shit out of eachother and mouthing me really bad. It makes me sad because I don't want to get onto them so they don't hate me, but I don't want to let them think they can walk all the fuck over me. *sigh*
I want to talk to Kelly. He would make me smile and not care about sucking at poultry and psychotic children.
I got the internets back after 7 days without. Woot.
... and then there was no more excitement in my life.
I do love Kelly though. That's some excitement in my life.
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2007 16 February :: 8.46am
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: Never Leave - Seether
So our second phone line that we use for the internet has passed away. I don't know what's wrong with it, and dad keeps "forgetting" to call the phone company. I'm becoming annoyed. I've not talked to Kelly since Tuesday night. That's just sad. I miss him!
Our play was yesterday. We sucked. The only person I communicate with during the play never got his lines memorized so he succeeded at making me look like a dumbass because he had specific things to say that made me say what I said and he didn't say them so I just looked like a dumbass who made up my part. I was very angry and upset because the judges killed me when they critiqued us. I cried a little but then I was like ok this is stupid, I'm going to go eat chinese food in a little bit, I don't need to cry so I sucked it up.... Sadly the food was lacking that day. It was definitly not very good.
Anyway, besides acquiring yet another strand of some awful cold/flu, that's all that's happened here lately.
What a boring life.
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2007 11 February :: 10.24pm
:: Mood: annoyed/pissed off
*rant*
Our fucking washer broke. Dad was working on it and then just quit and left all the shit scattered around the bathroom. Well I went in there to take my shower, only to find this out. I go ask him if he could clean it up or at least get it out of my way and he gets all pissed and yelled at me, asking me why I couldn't just take a shower in the other bathroom. Well, all my face cleaning stuff and fucking soap isn't in the other bathroom and I don't feel like taking it all in there and then taking it back, when all I want to do is take a fucking shower and go to fucking bed. He grumbles and pushes past me to go clean it up I assumed.
I waited, went to my room, fixed my bed, took off my glasses, brushed my hair, and then figured I'd given him enough time so I go back in there... To find everything in the exact same place and him fucking working on it again. I am so completely pissed off at him. I just want a fucking shower.
I'm getting a cold, Kelly told me to take medicine before bed so I did and now I'm like on the verge of passing out I'm so fucking tired and Dad's busy being a fucking douche.
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2007 11 February :: 7.05pm
:: Mood: thirsty
:: Music: Hemorrhage (In My Hands) - Fuel
Busy, busy weekend
Friday - Maroon and Gray day for Spirit week. I had worn all my school-ey clothes Thursday, so Jo and I went and raided her closet. We came up with this FCCLA shirt that's maroon and gray, that fits repulsively, and an old cheerleading skirt from 5th grade. Yeah. 5th grade. I barely got it over my hips, but it worked if I wore it on my waist and not my hips. So I wore that over my blue jeans, which I rolled to capri's and traded my shoes in for my ag advisor's purple boots. I was so damn hot.
We decorated for Homecoming and made it look effing amazing. I was being a dumbass and warming up with the cheerleaders before the pep rally and they were talking about "tricks" and I was like oooh I can do a cartwheel and land in the splits. The douche's didn't believe me so I did it. I'm not telling them this, but I pulled a muscle in my ass. Very uncomfortable, but they were impressed.
Went home, got ready, came back up to school with my family blah blah blah. In the middle of the third quarter Tessi show's up and we leave (we lost though, by 3 points after being ahead the entire game. It sucked so bad). We went to Wal-Mart and dicked around for about an hour, headed home, went BACK to Wal-mart because she forgot shit for her brother. Went home and went to bed.
Saturday - I wake up at 5, shower and get ready, then we leave at 6:15 for Webb City. We get there just in time, but all sad because Sonic wasn't open to fill our belly's and we instead had to go to McDonalds. That was alright because I love the mcgriddle.
Go, take the test, head on to Arkansas. Yeah, I know, "What?! Arkansas...wtf?" -- We missed our exit some how and were heading straight to Bentenville. This was not ok. I had work at 2:00 and she had to go see her brother. We cut across the one-way and onto the other one-way to head back. We were such badasses... and also completely scared we'd get caught but WE DIDN'T!! It was awesome. So we get back and I work from 2:00-8:30. Then I go out with Tessi and we drink with this guy Matt, and make up rules for Drunken Uno. It was awesome. I got shitfaced within an hour and a half, alternating between chugging Evan Williams and Bacardi. We had to get up and go to church the next morning, so opposed to passing out dead at Matt's house, we opted to just head back to Tessi's.
Sunday - Get up with an AWFUL ASS hangover, eat a bottle of ibprofren (not really), shower and go to Tessi's church where the sermon is about nonother than the sin's involved in drinking. I shit you not. I felt very uncomfortable sitting through that sermon, and we hightailed it out of there right after the closing prayer. Ha.
Get home, talk to Kelly, leave to sleep but I never got to because mom made me watch 2 episodes of MythBusters with her, then the washer broke so I had to help dad work on it. We're going to have to get a new one I think. Suckage.
Anyway, that was my weekend. It was crazy, and it was fun. Definitly a lot of good memories.
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2007 8 February :: 8.28am
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: A little less Sixteen Candles, a little more Touch Me - Fall Out Boy
Stupid Things
[x] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were talking/laughing.
[x] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were NOT talking.
[x] You have ran into a glass/screen door.
[x] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle.
[x] You have thought of something funny and laughed, then
people gave you weird looks.
So far:5
[x] You have ran into a tree/bush.
[x] You know that it IS possible to lick your elbow.
[x] You have tried to lick your elbow.
[x] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star have the same rythm.
[x] You just tried to sing them.
So far: 10
[x] You have tripped on your shoelace and fallen.
[x] You have choked on your own spit.
[ ] You have seen the Matrix and still don't get it.
[ ]You've never seen the Matrix.
[ ] You type only with two fingers.
So far:12
[x] You have accidentally caught something on fire
[x] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose/eyes.
[x] You have caught yourself drooling.
[x] You've fallen asleep in class
[x] If someone says "fart" you laugh.
So far: 17
[x] Sometimes you just stop thinking.
[x] You are telling a story and forget what you were talking about
[x] People are often shaking their heads and walk away from you
[x]You are often told to use your "inside voice".
[x] you use your fingers to do simple math.
So far: 22
[x] You have eaten a bug (on accident)
[x] You are taking this test when you should be doing something more important
[x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and
didn't realize it
[x] You've looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand
So far: 26
[ ] You repost bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen to you if you don't.
[x] You break a lot of things.
So far: 27
[ ] Your friends know not to use big words around you
[x] You tilt your head when you're confused
[x] You have fallen out of your chair before
So far: 29
[x] When you're laying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture of the ceiling
[x] The word "umm" is used many times a day.
So far: 31
Now count them up and put "I've done 31 stupid things out of 36"
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2007 7 February :: 8.43pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Fall out boy
I cuddled with your dealer because that's how I roll
It's True It's pick the month you were born in
1 - I ate
2 - I killed
3 - I ran naked with
4 - I cuddled with
5 - I needed
6 - I framed
7 - I smoked with
8 - I ran shirtless with
9 - I slept with
10 - I raped
11 - I stabbed
12-I fucked
Pick the day (number) you were born on
01 - a cat
02 - a dog
03 - a jew
04 - a mexican
05 - Santa Claus
06 - a homo
07 - your mom
08 - a prostitute
09 - a pornstar
10 -a bag of weed
11 - the trojan man
12 - the kool-aid man
13 - a bowl of cereal
14 - a whore
15 - a pickle
16 - a stripper
17 - a bisexual
18 -a condom
19 - an orange
20 - a crackhead
21 - a homeless guy
22 - JFK
23 - my ex
24 - you
25 - a jar of honey
26 - a lesbian
27 -Paris Hilton
28 - a french fry
29 - your dealer
30 -a glass of milk
31 - Ur grandma
Pick the color of shirt you are wearing
White - Because thats how i roll
Black - because I'm sexy as hell
Pink - Because the lil people told me to
Red - because I'm a pimp and you're jealous
Blue - because i have AMAZING boobs
Polka Dots - because I hate my life
Purple - because I'm gay
Gray - because I love marijuana
Other - because I have double D's
Green - because I'm beautiful
Orange - because I smoke crack
Turqoise - because I have a noodle in my nose
Brown - because i had to
Shirtless - because I've got abs
Other 2-For the assanation of JFK
YOU ONLY HAVE 3 MINUTES AND 69 SECONDS TO REPOST THIS AS WHATEVER YOUR RESULTS WERE OR YOU WILL HAVE BAD RELATIONSHIPS. And we all know that there's nothing worse than bad relationships!!!!
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2007 7 February :: 9.48am
:: Mood: stressed
:: Music: Fall out boy
Kelly got back last night!! I was so excited to see him, I missed him oh so much. I'm still amazed how perfect he is and I've known him forever. He makes me happy :)
I really need to study for my test in... *clock checkage* yeah, an hour and 15 minutes. I'm not going to do good, and I know this, so I don't want to bother studying. Bad. I need to study a lot. Obviously I'm not though, I'm updating. I'll go study now I suppose.
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2007 5 February :: 1.55pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: If you could only see - Tonic
Shitastic Week
Kelly left sometime this morning for Lansing(sp) to attend his grandmother's funeral. I know he had to go but I miss him dang it.
He should be back on Wednesday if all goes as planned.
We get our announcements, caps and gowns tomorrow. I'm uber excited. I think we got like silver for the girls and maroon for the guys. I don't even remember what our colors are.
Graduation is going to be so effing sad. We're leaving a seat for Justin with a white rose in it and we've got a slide show with some pictures of him on it and just a few paragraphs about him and... yeah. It's sad but he deserved it so we'll suck it up and make it through it alright.
-My Week-
(Monday)
*Accounting test
*Poultry test
*Concession stand - 5:30 p.m.
(Tuesday)
*Macbeth test
*Vocab test
*Get Senior stuff
(Wednesday)
*Poultry practice - 7:15 a.m.
*Sociology Test
*Talk to Kelly again -I hope-
(Thursday)
* ... I don't know
(Friday)
*Homecoming
*Homecoming Dance
(Saturday)
*Wake up at 4:15 a.m. get ready and drive 2 hours to take the ACT
Holy shit. I am going to have a very low score on my ACT this time around because I'll be out late with Homecoming. Now, yes, I could skip it, but ... fuck that. It's my last one! I don't want to. I'll just have to take the ACT again if I get a low score again. Last time I got a 21. Not ok. I need at least a 25. What I also need is to learn some fucking math. Math pwns me and kicks my ass everytime.
Anyway. That's that. We got out of school early because of a teacher meeting or something. Sweet. Renkoski, Tylor, Derek and I went to Taco Bell after school and ate. It was very delectible. We jammed out to Purple Rain and Unchained Melody. Good times, good times.
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2007 30 January :: 8.44am
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: A kiss to send us off - Incubus
The President
Everyone is so fucking sick at school. It's time to pull out a bio suit. Too bad I had to give it to the president when he needed one. Yeah, that's right. He came to me. I'm that dependable.
... Right, back to my story. My throat's starting to hurt so I'm living off of cough drops today. I swear if I get the shit they're passing around like a hacky sack I'll hurt them. I don't want or need to be sick.
I have a freaking Accounting test tomorrow. Oh joy.
We're getting to the part in Macbeth where Lady Macbeth (moi) goes crazy. I'm excited.
So it's 12 degrees outside right now, and our school is poor so our heaters aren't working too great. My fingers are blue, and if I didn't have pink lip gloss on, my lips would be too.
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2007 26 January :: 10.53am
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: Just a Phase - Incubus
I have drama practice after school every day but Friday for the play that takes place on February 15. Today should be my day off but I have to work from 3:30-8:30 and that just makes today really sucky because I have that to look forward to. I'm almost positive I have to work Saturday from 2:00-8:30. I better get to waitress tomorrow because we're always really busy and I want to make gobs of money in tips. That would make my Saturday being sucked up by difficult people semi alright.
I was going to come home straight from work and talk to Kelly since I won't really get to Saturday, but Tessi wanted to go watch a movie and everyone was busy and I was kind of feeling sorry for her, Lord help me, so I said I'd go see one with her after work. We were going to watch Catch and Release, but for some reason it isn't playing, so she wants to watch Dreamgirls. I don't know if it'll be good or not, I'm not exactly in the mood for a musical but ... whatever.
I miss Kelly and I just stopped talking to him 4 minutes ago.
This is going to be an extremely long weekend.
PowerFull
I decided I was dying of thirst and ran to get a powerade in between classes and it wouldn't spit it out forever and so I looked where they came out and there were two others already there so I got 3 all together. It was a sign. It means that I'm special and powerful.
Go me.
Our councelor is a creep head. She makes me laugh though.
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2007 22 January :: 10.58pm
:: Mood: dorky
:: Music: Love Hurts - Incubus
Much needed update
So school let out due to the crazy ice storm that took out trees, power lines, phone lines, and houses. It was totally cool. We were out of school for an entire week. That week made me not ever want to return, so today, the first one back, sucked so bad. I'm ready to be out of here, and I want money so I can just go to Michigan and not have to hang around here and work my ass off just for the trip up there and for a car and for insurance and gas and food. Maybe I'll not eat anything but like... oh what's cheap?!... Ramon Noodles. They're like 10 cents per package around here I think. Anyway, I'll cut food for the most part, and cut gas, I'll just syphone it during the night, wearing my ninja clothes. Insurance... geeze. That'll have to stay on the list. Other than that I'm good I think. I'll just let my clothes kind of wash clean in rain, or find someone's pool...
I missed Kelly's birthday because of this stupid storm shit that happened here. That was sad. It was also our 4th anniversary. I tend to be all "omg random anniversary!" and it makes me feel bad for him. Guys don't care about that shit, I'm aware of it... But I still like to go on about it cause they're like "oh ... shit I have to act like this is important to me and say nice things to them and... gah! what's something nice to say!?" and it's humerous. I'm sorry. I find humor in other's distress. I got something wrong with me, but It's been wrong for 17 years and I'm ok with it now.
Anyway. LAN Party thing. I do believe I'm going to allow myself to be drug away by Kelly to attend. I'll have to leave like the morning of the 5th and drive all day, then stop and sleep somewhere, then drive the rest of the day on the 6th. Make it there, collapse in exaustion and then wake up and go on another road trip to PA for however many days. Hotel room with Kelly? Fuck yes. Amazing.
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2007 1 January :: 12.34pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Look after you - The Fray
2007 is finally here and I've got a whole hell of a lot to look forward to.
* Contest season for FFA -hopefully making State which would take place in April.
* Senior Pictures. -I pray they'll come out good. I'm not too photogenic, but we'll see.
* Senior Trip to Orlando, Florida -April 25-30 Only class to ever fly. We be teh shit.
* My effing 18th Birthday which so happens to be taking place in Florida. Sweet? Hell yes.
* Graduation (!!! zomg) -May 10
* Fucking Graduation Party. That'll be a great night.
* (Something I won't be looking to forward to) Getting another job. Ashley wants me to get one with her at Wal-Mart -oh joy- and sell my soul to afford college. I might look into prostitution as well. Not sure, but it's a definite possibility.
* July something I shall finally be getting my shit together and going to Michigan. Hello Kelly. (... like hello kitty... but not... I liked it, f you)
* Finding a job up there, which I will totally force Kelly to help me with.
* Getting my ass to school a mere 3 months after graduating, only to start the whole 4 year shit all over again. This time it'll be alright though, because I'll be able to see Kell and make him take me places to destress. Doesn't he have lots to look forward to? Haha
That's the jist of it. Of course there are small things but so far that's all 07 has for me. It should be a good year, and if not, hopefully at least better than the previous one.
Christmas was good, lots of food and not-so-needed presents that i've no place to put, but that's alright, whatever. That's why they made little sisters, and rubbermaid tubs that fit under your bed :)
One more day of break and then school starts back up. I think I'll be even more annoyed with people so it should be interesting, I'll try not to be, but I'm definitly not making any promises.
I don't know if the mail runs today or not. Ashley said it doesn't but I think it should.
