Out of Season

:: 2006 19 September :: 9.48am
:: Mood: dorky
:: Music: Calling you - Blue October

I found a(nother) song that makes me happy.

--Calling You--
Theres something that i cant quite explain
i'm so in love with you
you'll never take that away

and if i said a hundred times before
expect a thousand more
you never take that away

well expect me to be
calling you to see
if you're ok when i'm not around
asking if you love me
i love the way you make it sound
calling you to see
do i try too hard to make you smile
to make a smile

well i will keep calling you to see
if you're sleepin are you dreamin and
if you're dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me

i thought that the world had lost its sway
(its so hard sometimes)
then i fell in love with you
(then came you)
and you took that away
(its not so difficult, the world is not so difficult)
you take away the old
show me the new
and i feel like i can fly
when i stand next to you
so what if I'm on this phone
a hundred miles from home
i take the words you gave
and send them back to you

i only want to see
if you're ok when i'm not around
asking if you love me
i love the way you make it sound
calling you to see
do i try too hard to make you smile
to make a smile

i will keep calling you to see
if you're sleepin are you dreamin and
if you're dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me

well i will keep calling you to see
if you're sleepin are you dreamin and
if you're dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me

i will keep calling you to see
if you're sleepin are you dreamin and
if you're dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me

Blue October is almost my new favorite band. I need to go get their album.
Razorblade is kick ass
Hate me is sad, yet kick ass as well
Calling You... perfect example of my feelings. though i don't call Kelly 24/7...

:: 2006 19 September :: 8.54am
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: Pretty Baby - Spin Doctors

One more day!!!
*misses Kelly too much*
*sigh*
This is odd. I feel like a stalker missing him this much, always wanting to talk to him.
Hopefully I don't annoy him :s

... or scare him.
haha

:: 2006 18 September :: 9.03am
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: Call me when you're sober - Evanescence

I so did not know that I had an invitation code. I would have used it long ago, because I <3 Woohu.
Anyway, I've got 2 tests today. I thought it was 3 but I was wrong.
Coming up: Business Management test. It should be relatively easy, a lot of it is common sense. I still get nervous and stress about it though.
The Psych one is actually only a quiz, but I don't like the word quiz, so it's a test. We have one everyday after we take notes (which is almost every day) and it's a lot of shit to remember, but it Does make you memorize it, so I guess it does work in the long haul... but I still effing hate them.

Dramatic people annoy me... *sits and listens to 2 dumb girls in front of me* yep... hate them.
I hope I wasn't that dramatic and dumb when i was little. Actually, I can rest assured that I wasn't; they annoyed me then too. If you've got some drama, keep a journal at home. Takes care of that solution. Now if only I can convience about 98% of the female population to do this....

I kind of make me sad. Used to I could smile and listen to dumb things dumb people told me about. Now I'm finding it hard to smile at most people even if they're not telling me anything dumb. I'm annoyed but about 8/9 of the school now a days. ... *sigh* i've become a hateful person I fear. Can't wait to get the hell to Michigan and my love.

Speaking of my love, he's away. Up and left me. He went to ... Mackinac.... i think.... to do his job. He will (hopefully) be returning on Wednesday, though it could be on Thursday I've been forewarned.
He's so cute and I love him

:: 2006 16 September :: 6.24pm
:: Mood: content

Talking to the one I love, so all is well right now.

Still no news from Ferris. I'm really trying to be calm about this, but it's definitly getting to me. I never was one with patience.
Ashley got a new dog, and it's completely house trained so mom said we could keep it in the house rather than in the kennel... I hate dogs. that means that we have 2 1/2 inside dogs. the half is the only one I like, and only counts for half because she's outside most the time anyway. She's a white lab, and the dumbest/funniest thing ever. That's the extent of my liking of dogs.
Anyway, new dog's name is Piper, and I let her outside, and she started trying to kill my 2 cats. It was a freak out moment of mine, because I couldn't make her stop attacking them. It pissed me off, but Ashley wasn't here for me to scream at. *sigh*
The psychotic children that I called cute are definitly giving me a headache. Here's the line up
Marcus - 10
Kelsey - 7
Peighton - 5
Raygen - 4
Kendra - 2

Trevor basically has a non-stop conniption while they're here. He's used to 3 older sisters that don't touch any of his stuff because it's of no appeal to us, to 5 kids wanting to play with all of his stuff all of the time.
Marcus is Taylor's shadow, and an annoying know-it-all. sadly he does know most of it, he's one of those little kid geniouses.
Kelsey's a good kid, quiet and doesn't get into much, Peighton is probably the biggest whiner in the entire 5 year old population. Raygen is into everything, but it's almost impossible to get onto her because she's so sweet.. and, trueth be told, she's just a little ditzy blonde, which makes her even cuter. Kendra is a mouthy little shit. She can talk really freakin good, and uses the wonderful skill to put you in your place.
Anyway, I'm now bored with that, and tired of writing.

:: 2006 15 September :: 4.32pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: To love you more - Celine Dion

I've a new favorite song!

Pretty Baby - Spin Doctors

Look around your world Pretty Baby
Is it everything you hoped it'd be
The wrong guy
The wrong situation

The right time to roll to me
Roll to me

And look into your heart Pretty Baby
Is it aching with some aimless need
Is there something wrong and you can't put your finger on it

Right then
Roll to me

And I don't think I have ever seen a soul so in despair
So if you want to talk the night through
Guess who will be there

So don't try to deny Pretty Baby
You've been down so long
You can hardly see

When the engines stall and it won't stop raining
It's the right time to
Roll to me
Roll to me
Roll to me

And I don't think I have ever seen a soul so in despair
So if you want to talk the night through
Guess who will be there

So look around your world Pretty Baby
Is it everything you hoped it'd be
The wrong guy
The wrong situation

The right time to roll to me
The right time to roll to me
The right time to roll to meeee uuuhhhhhh

gorgeous hmm?

So tonight there's a party. i don't know if i'll be going or not. i kind of feel like putting on pj's and going to bed early tonight. It's been a really long week, and tomorrow some girls that we babysit a lot are coming over. Their mom was in a really bad wreck and was in the hospital for like 2 months so we kept them a lot. We're not needed anymore, but ... well it kind of seems like we're getting used, "oh, well i wanna go to the movies, so brian lisa and the girls can watch the kids." oh well though, the girls are so funny.

Still nothing out of Ferris.

Ok i just may go lay down, i've had an awful headache all day, and i don't need it turning into a migrain.
Love you Kelly.

:: 2006 14 September :: 10.10pm
:: Mood: ecstatic
:: Music: The Gift - Seether

Kelly & Rachel
IT'S OFFICIAL!!!!
He asked me!! We're happy and together now!!
Hopefully he doesn't realize how crazy I am just yet lol

*Thursday, September 14, 2006*
9:44 pm (my time)
10:44 pm (his time)

Isn't everything just perfect now? I think so too.

:: 2006 14 September :: 7.55pm
:: Mood: Nervous
:: Music: Remedy - Seether

I just realized that Ferris hasn't gotten back to me. I'm scared now.
Hopefully if they thought that I sucked and didn't want me at their school, they would tell me so in a letter right? Surely they wouldn't just trash my application while maniacally laughing... If I were them I'd be nice enough to let the person they're turning down know, rather than letting them hang in the air forever.
Unless of course they don't check the applications until closer to the start of the applied for school term? I bet that's it. I'm probably stessing over nothing.
*Crosses fingers*

:: 2006 14 September :: 7.38pm
:: Mood: horny
:: Music: Call me when you're sober - Evanescense

So, today was very well compared to yesterday.
I kind of forgot to bring home my homework yesterday so I had to hurry up and do it second hour when I have library. I also had to make up an interview with someone because I was simply too lazy to do that one. I need to stop being lazy and forgetful and do my stuff. It was a damn good made up interview though.

I'm slightly (majorly) disapointed because I've yet to tell the world that Kelly is amazing and that I love him whole heartedly. Again. lol
I never stopped loving him actually, just tried to pretend I didn't. But now we're together again, though not official, and where as that's pretty sad, I guess it's alright because ... hm. I can't think that thought out tonight. We'll let it go.

Fruit Sales for FFA started today, and I kind of don't like it. I'm not good at giving the sales pitch to people. But I sure can take the money!! .. ha.
*makes that invisible to Kelly's eyes*

Ah! speaking of which, I told him to update and I've not even read it yet!! I gotta go do that pronto.
<3

:: 2006 11 September :: 9.41am
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: Talk shows on mute - Incubus

Today is awful. It started out me waking up almost an hour late because it started storming in the middle of the night and killed my alarm clock. Ok. whatever, I get up and get ready, go to school and then go to the Senior meeting. We were going to decide where to go for senior trip today. well That didn't happen. We were supposed to get a presentation set up of all the things we could do at the location you chose, how much it would cost if we flew, how much it would cost if we rode a bus etc. only one person did this, and it was for Orlando, Florida. I don't give a hoot where we go so I didn't bother making a presentation. All of the guys have been to Orlando and said it sucked balls. Ended up only 5 people voted for Orlando, but we didn't have another place set up to go, so though Orlando is out, we're stuck without a destination. the Board will gladly take our trip away if it causes too much rucus. So I said we should be given one more week to set up as many presentations of places and it was voted that was alright and so ... next monday all hell will break loose once again. Jessica is a stupid bitch and was yelling at everyone. her reason? "they're opinion doesn't matter. i hate them and so they're faggots." so.. everyone that has an opinon is a faggot? hmm. that's crazy. the bitch should die. everyone hates her. Gah.
Then retarded accounting teacher gives us this list of shit we need to record and expects us to pick it up right away. we didn't. it was the first thing we had ever done like that and we was all lost as hell. she got pissed and started bitching us out and telling us that we were just lazy and didn't want to do it. ok. first hour into the day and already 2 bitches on my "die" list. sweet. luckily i have library this hour. all i had to do was put a few books away then plant my ass on the computer.
Too bad launch isn't friggin workin.

*sigh*
i think i need to go back to bed. i have a feeling i'll get into it with retarded Jessica. Eh

6 | <3

:: 2006 8 September :: 11.09pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: Rain - Breaking Benjamin

I became known as Raquel. hardly anyone calls me anything but that anymore. Teachers have even began refering to me as that... it's insane. i WISH i had some Mexican in me. curse the incredably white pigmentation in my skin.

Oh actually, my cousin's had a black baby. the pigmentation of it got all screwed up. whitest people ever. cute baby though.

:: 2006 8 September :: 9.46pm
:: Mood: groggy
:: Music: Hurt - Johnny Cash

Drunken Stories
Eh. i love having money, but i hate working for it. *sigh*
i have $193.50 left to pay for my Senior Stuff (my official name for it)
i have $250.00 to pay for senior pictures
i have $22,000.00 to save up for tuition and expenses to save up to move my ass up to Michigan to be with the love of my life.
i have 6 classes with teachers all too eager to give out homework like they're the only one doin it and have to give us enough to last all week. so after one day, i have 6 weeks of homework to finish in about 4 hours. deal with the stress of that one.

on happier subjects, i found out that at the end of last year my GPA was 3.7 I have weighted classes this year, and i'm doing really good in them, so that'll up it even more.

Geeze, doesn't it suck when you realize your life is, for the most part, pointless?
i've never anything to do but read or get on the computer and talk to people. when i'm really bored? i read the dictionary. Yeah. you read it right. i love words though... so maybe in my case it's not quite so bad? i like knowing words and not being so ... ordinary in my speech. I'm an eccentric person and i pride myself on it.

Gah, i have to babysit my neighbors bratty granddaughter and her friend tomorrow. i have to be there at 8:30. How inhumane. i'll be there for SIX HOURS. *gouges my eyes out*
Lord have mercy.

Tessi want's me to go drink with her tomorrow night. do i want to drink down $8.00? i don't know. last time i drank i threw up. people are ALWAYS like "Ooh Raquel, do a shotgun with me" "No you guys, i always throw up, i can't drink beer" "no no, i swear, you'll be fine"
-- they stab beer can, pull the tab up a bit (i'm incapable of opening cans of ... whatever) for me and stick it to my face --
"oh ok, i'll shotgun with you. sure"
-- shotguns --
"Ha! i told ya you wouldn't get si--- Raquel? dude, are you alright"
-- me over in the corner throwin my stomach up --
*chokingly yells "ASSHOLE"*

yeah. that's how it goes. i can't do beer. EVER. everyone knows, but amazingly forgets and forces it down my esophogus anyway.
Luckily Tessi love's my ass and always takes care of me.
Once i was really buzzed and i almost fell off of a bridge. lol it was crazy. Sean grabbed me and saved me though ... ok. that was WAY out there. it was like 2in. deep water because we never get rain. i wouldn't have died. but i would have spilt my Smirnoff.

Ah. once i insisted upon going home after a party, a night when i was just about drunk off my ass. it's almost 1 am Sunday morning. i was convienced no one would be awake. i walk in... OMG. there is my entire family is sitting in the living room watching tv and talking. i had a coronary. my eyes are bloodshot, i'm slurrin my words, i can't walk straight, i'm talking WAY too loud... luckily my room is right to the left of the front door so i just say hey and go to my room. a few minutes later, after attempting to sober myself up, i go get on the computer and talk to people. i don't know who i talked to that night though.

ok. i've bored myself with this... actually that's a lie. i enjoy recalling all these memories.
Oh!!! man, one more, then i'm done. i swear.
First time i EVER drank, i had a Bud Light. but before that, i took 3 shots of ... some whiskey. i can't recall the name. but... i was feeling wonderful at the time i finished my beer, so i screamed at the top of my lungs "HEY! ... HEY EVERYBODY! I JUST FINISHED MY FIRST FUGGIN BEER! SWEET!!" then i attempted to stand up and it didn't work.

*sigh*
ok. despite all that.... i'm not a huge ass drunk. i've been DRUNK 3 times. maybe four.

......
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ooook.
later

:: 2006 4 September :: 1.59pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: Far Away - Nickelback

Senior Year!!
that's about all that's new and crazy in my life.
I've applied to one college so far, in the process of applying to 2 more.
The one I really wanna get into?
Ferris University. I really hope I get accepted. like Really Really hope.
If I don't then I'm just going to pray fate takes my side and lets me move up to Michigan anyway, so that I can see my beloved Kelly.
*sigh*
Salt & Pepper's "what a man" song definitly comes to mind about now.
anyway, senior year is slightly crazy, but fun. and then not fun.

:: 2006 5 July :: 11.33pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Get Stonned - Hinder

Trip of a Life Time
I left for Utah on the 20th of June. actually, ashley mom dad and i drove down to Tulsa, Oklahoma where we caught our plane on the 19th... irrelevent information, but anyway. we got off at Vegas, hung out there for 3 hours until our next plane left for Salt Lake. it was a very long day. Karl had gotten to Utah the day before we did (ashley came with as babysitter. oh the joy) so he and his friend Mike picked us up... and sadly they didn't offer to take our luggage for us. I threw my carry on into Karl's arms, and he mouthed me about it... i was like wow. Southern hospitality must stay in the south. It should definitly travel West though. geeze. anyway, we didn't really do much the time we was down there. Karl took ash and i sight seein, his mom took me a few times... we went to the zoo and this air force museum the day before we left, and we played pool a few times. i kicked everyones ass at 9 ball. i didn't know what i was doing, i got the shot after Karl's friend Ben broke, and i hit the 2 which hit the 9 in. it kicked ass. i was pissed off though, because i didn't know i had done it because i didn't hit the 2 where i wanted it to go, and so i just stomped off, but then everyone was like "holy shit. she won" and then i was still pissed because i thought they had just hit the 9 ball in... but i really won. i was happy. oh and we went to the Drive In movies... it was so fucking cool. i had never been to one. oh and we went to this huge ass mall and out to eat a few times. it was a good trip... but the whole time i was trying to talk myself into believing that i was still in love with Karl. he was just different and i was different and we sort of clashed... it was hard, but i ended up breaking things off with him, and we caught the next flight back home.
i think i might have jumped the gun though, because the first time we was having sex the condom came off without our knowing. i don't know when this abomination occured... but it did. so i might be pregnant, because i do feel different, but then it might just be my mind playing with me and all the heat and stress and depression... i don't know. we'll know soon though. lol i really don't want to be pregnant going into my senior year though. that would blow some big dick. but whatever comes comes i guess. it'll work out. hopefully the way i want it though... which would be to not have a kid for at least another... 4-5 years.
whatever. i don't really care right now.
so... i'm single. i don't really know what to think about that. i've not been single in a long while. i need to get the flirtin thing back down.... or just jump right into bein a tease. i don't know yet. i'm debatin. i've gone from one relationship to another for the past 3 years, i'm ready to have some fun.
look out Boys... Rach is without a leash.

:: 2006 13 April :: 9.28pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Mary Moon

2 | <3

:: 2006 13 April :: 6.57pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: The Verve Pipe - The Freshman

long time no sea
man, we are in a drought. for like the 20th year in a row. that means: summers are long, hot, and DRY. gross. it got up to like 85 today. sweet. just what i don't want.
so next wednesday i'm leavin for Columbia, Missouri. sweet i know so far away *rolls eyes*. actually... i'm really excited. we're going for FFA, because...
WE MADE IT TO STATE!!!!
lucky!
I'm on Dairy Foods (check Napoleon Dynamite) and we got third at districts. it was the coolest thing ever. Lie. I really didn't want to go to state because we're going to be in this small ass room with five million Missourians, not that i don't love my own, but come on, i'm so not a people person. Plus we'll have to hang out in heels, pantyhose, skirts, long sleeve button up shirts, scarfs and hot courduroy jackets. sweet? no. gross. i <3 FFA though.
anyway, to share with you guys my "music" choice of the day, this has become my most favoritest song ever. I absolutly love it. if you don't agree, shut the fuck up.

The Freshman

When I was young I knew everything
She a punk who rarely ever took advice
Now I'm guilt stricken,
Sobbing with my head on the floor
Stop a baby's breath and a shoe full of rice

I can't be held responsible
She was touching her face
I won't be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place

For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and
We'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe
We'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen

My best friend took a week's
Vacation to forget her
His girl took a weeks's worth of
Valium and slept
And now he's guilt stricken sobbing with his
Head on the floor
Thinks about her now and how he never really
Wept he says

I can't be held responsible
She was touching her face
I won't be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place

For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and
We'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe
We'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen

hey yeah
hey yeah
hey yeah

We've tried to wash our hands of all this
We never talk of our lacking relationships
And how we're guilt stricken sobbing with our
Heads on the floor
We fell through the ice when we tried not to
Slip, we'd say

I can't be held responsible
She was touching her face
And I won't be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place

For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and
We'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe
We'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen

For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and
We'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe
We'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen
We were merely freshmen

also, we're gonna go back to a great one....

Let the bodies hit the floor

Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor

Beaten why for
Can't take much more

Here we go...Here we go...Here we go

One - Nothing wrong with me
Two - Nothing wrong with me
Three - Nothing wrong with me
Four - Nothing wrong with me

One - Something's got to give
Two - Something's got to give
Three - Something's got to give
Now

Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor

Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor

Push me again
This is the end

Here we go...Here we go...Here we go

One - Nothing wrong with me
Two - Nothing wrong with me
Three - Nothing wrong with me
Four - Nothing wrong with me

One - Something's got to give
Two - Something's got to give
Three - Something's got to give
Now

Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor

Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor

Skin against skin blood and bone
You're all by yourself but you're not alone
You wanted in now you're here
Driven by hate consumed by fear

Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor

One - Nothing wrong with me
Two - Nothing wrong with me
Three - Nothing wrong with me
Four - Nothing wrong with me

One - Something's got to give
Two - Something's got to give
Three - Something's got to give
Now

Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor

Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor

The floor...The floor...The floor...The floor

ok. great songs, I know. Now I'm gonna go.
2 days till Prom!!1 omg!!

:: 2006 28 March :: 7.51pm
:: Music: Your Cheatin' Heart - ??

LONG SURVEY
[The Basics]
Full name: Rachel Elaine Prewitt
Date of birth: 4/29/89
Gender: Female
Location: Missouri
Ethnicity: Caucasion
Zodiac sign: Taurus
Reason for taking survey: Bored as hell

[Going Deeper]
If any, name any phobias you have: Dark, Getting tortured and murdered, Getting my heart broken *again*, Heights, Ticks
Do you drink: I have once, want to again.
Do you smoke: No.
If any, what drugs have you done: None at all
Are you a junk food person or a healthy eater: A little of both
Living arrangements: I live with my parents, two sisters and brother
Name any pets you have: The only one I like is my cat Roxy... and the babies that she's gonna have!!
Siblings: Ashley 18, Taylor 11, Trevor 7
Do you like your school: All schools suck. Mines not as bad as some though. I like the people so I guess. ... well some of them. some need to fucking die :D
What is your favourite class: Mass Media (Yearbook)
What is your least favourite: Algebra II. (Mullins sucks dick)
What genre of movie do you prefer: Romance/Comedy
Are you into self categorization? If ya know what you are, then by all means.

[Favorites]
Time of the year: Fall.
Friend: I like almost everyone. Some I pretend to like so I don't start unnecessary shit. It's cool. no just kidding, I love all who love me. Mary sucks though.
Family member: Uh... they all kind of suck. Taylor sucks the most though. Everyone else is alright to a point.
Animal: Cat and Flamingo
Sweet food: Ooh... dunno.
Colour:Pink and Orange
Sitcom: Dharma & Greg, House, Nashville Star, What Not To Wear
Cartoon: Courage the Cowardly Dog, Dexters Labratory, Ed, Edd and Eddie
TV channel: CMT, USA
Pastime: Sleeping, Reading
Drug: None ... give me give me... No I'm joking... ok whatever stfu
Magazine: Modern Bride (!!), Cosmopolitan
Games console: Puh-lezz
Website: maddox.xmission.com, bash.org, ... alright alright, woohu.com
Swear word: Fuck.
Ice-cream flavour: ooh tough one. dunno
Clothing brand, if any: Anything I like
Store: Wal-Mart... lol no shit. mom rubbed off on me I guess (fuckin pervs)
Place to relax: My Room
Place to shop: anywhere, i love shopping.
Place to party: Jakob's field. lol.

[Do you believe in..]
God: Yessss Sir (or ma'am. choose what cha are as you please)
A counter-god, or devil: Yes, the Devil
Reincarnation: No
The Soul: Yes
Evolution: No
Angels: Yes
Karma: Yes
Do you celebrate Christmas: Yes.
How do you celebrate your birthday: Uh... usually nothing.
What is your religion: Southern Baptist
Does your family have any special customs: Besides all beatin the shit out of me? No.
Have you ever converted from another religion or atheism: No(pe)
Are you a vegetarian: OOh goodness no

[For the Older Kids, Sex!]
Are you a virgin: No
If applicable, did you like your first time: DUde.... it hurt. should have taken gramma's advice (wink wink to all who know)
Ever given head: Yes.
Ever done anal: No, and never will.
Does S&M appeal to you: huh?
Do you watch pornography: lol nah. ... not anymore. shup!!!
How often do you masturbate: Uh.. eww plead the fifth? no, i honostly haven't in ages.
Ever had sex while drunk: lol no, but it does have it's appeal
Do you regret any sexual incidents that occurred on your part: nah
Do you consider yourself sexually attractive: skip
Favourite sexual position: SO far... i'll keep it between me and my guy
Tell us about any of your personal beliefs regarding sex: Its better to wait until you find someone you truly love because you'll end up regretting it

[Your Love Life]
Are you in a relationship right now: Yes!
Describe your current, or most recent relationship: Completely In Love!
Are you, or have you ever been in love: Yes, I am in love
What's your sexual orientation: Straight.
Are you, or do you plan on getting married: Yes (plan on it)
Do you believe in soul-mates: Yes.
Do you think long-distance love is possible: Well.. my relationship is livin proof.
Could you see yourself being unfaithful: Never. never ever ever ever.
What do you notice about the opposite sex first: Eyes, hands, and smile
Biggest turn-offs: Jerks. ppl with no manners
Taller or shorter than you: Gotta be taller, even if it's by only like 2 inches
Ever broken someone's heart: Oops...
Has someone ever broken yours: Oh yeah. it was a killer
Do/would you have children: I want four kids (already have some names figured out too... teehee)

[Your Bad Side]
Do you steal, or have you stolen: only from Ashley when we was kids
If so, was it from a store or a person you know: lol yeah
Have you been intimate with someone else's significant other: No
Do you take advantage of other peoples' kindness: No
Have you lied to your parents: Oh yeah
Do you get jealous easily: Yeah
Do you have a bad temper: OH damn, you don't even know, i can hide it so well.
Have you ever made someone cry: yeah. go me!
Ever physically hurt someone: yeah...
Do you consider yourself racist: definitly not
Must you always seek vengeance: nah, not unless it's completely needed.

[This or That]
Alcohol or Marijuana: my liver and brain cells please.
Coca-Cola or Pepsi: Coke.
A quiet evening at home or a wild night out: Quiet evening at home
Extreme intelligence or unbelievable beauty: extreme intelligence (it'd get me outta school early, and into college for free, and then rich. then i could just buy a gorgeous man... sweet, i'm amazing i know)
A permanent, stable relationship or an insane sex life: A permanent, stable relationship.
Christmas without gifts, or Christmas without everything else: What is everything else? family fights? calling ppl names behind their backs? hoping they get all the shitty gifts because you despize them? definitly without the gifts in that case. how much fun is family fights, i mean really, come on people
Rock or Rap: Rock
The ability to fly or the ability to be invisible: Invisible
Hearing or seeing: Seeing
Depression or anxiety: anxiety.... I guess...
Immortality without the ability to die, or mortality: Mortality.
Death by freezing, or burning: Freezing.
Death by suffocation or being stabbed: Suffocation
Lots of acquaintances or a few close friends: Few close friends.
To be a singer or an actor/actress: Singer (Mr. Shannon don't tell me. what an asshole)
Eternal day or eternal night: eternal day
X-Ray vision or psychic abilities: Psychic abilities.
Sweet or savory: Sweet.
To never sleep or to never eat: Never eat.
To eat as much as you want or to sleep as much as you want: Sleep as much as I want.
World domination or infinite knowledge of all things: Knowledge of all things.
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera: Christina Aguilera
Bush or Kerry: Bush
To resort to cannibalism or to die: uh... touch... to eat, or be eatten... dude, i'd definitly be eatin, i couldn't do that. *gags*

[The Last]
Person you talked to: Ashley
Person you argued with: Ashley
Person you hugged: Woah... Johanna
Person you kissed: Karl
Person you texted: definitly do not text. no fone = no text
Person you had sex with: Karl
Phone call: Gramma Harrison
Thing you ate: Jello. I hate jello.
Thing you drank: Tea
Time you showered: Last night
Time you told someone you loved them: few hours ago
Time someone said they loved you: Few hours ago
Time you laughed: i never laugh. laughing sucks. LOL... so gay. i know. shoot me. but anyway, just a bit ago i guess. i don't memorize these things.
Time you vomited: friggin saturday
Paycheck: ha... *cries*
Time you had sex: November 13 *cries again*
TV show you watched: uh... i'm getting ready to watch Nashville Star. it's so great!!
Song you listened to: I miss you - Blink 182
Movie you watched: Just like Heaven
Dream you had: Kandace being a scary weird ass freak with no lips
Time you got drunk: few weeks ago
Party you went to: same as above
Item of clothing you bought: Bra? that count?
Person you would sleep with: As in the last person i would sleep with ever? i'd say patrick. but ... fuck that. he's so gross i would shoot myself. uh... your mom. ha.

[Have You Ever Been Called]
Bitch: Yes
Bastard: lol if so it was Caleb's doing
Beautiful: Yes
Talented: Yes
A waste of space: yep
Liar: Yes
Geek: No.
Nerd: No.
Loser: Yes
Peculiar: yes
Intelligent: yes
Skinny: um... when i was like 8
Fat: only by my loving mom. go me!
Pretty: Yes.
Preppy: Yeah because JT's a dumbass
Goth: N0...
Emo: lol yes ... sadly
Grunger: say wa?
Fiend: no
Innovative: no
Weirdo: everyday by Jakob.
Stupid: Yes.
Retarded: Yes.
Annoying: Yes.
Freak: Yes..
Brat: Yes.
Cute: Yes.
Interesting: yes
Boring: Yes.
Slut: Yeah
Whore: Yes.
Skank: Yes.
Asshole: Yes
Shitface: yup
Ugly: lmao by taylor. what a dummy
Disgusting: by ash... all the time... and jo...
Shithead: yes.
Cock: lmao yeah
Tit: definitly not.
Twat: thanks to Caleb yes

[Totally Random]
Tell us the first thing you'd do with a million dollars: right now? by an effing prom dress and accessories, NHS dress and shoes, and Baccaloret dress and Graduation dress. Keep a thousand for my trip to Utah this summer and then give the rest to my folks.
Why is the sky blue: Because God didn't like pink (sadly)
Do you consider yourself to be romantic: yes
What's the best thing somebody has ever said about you: Oh well... ya know I get so much good stuff said about me that I can't really chose... no, but I really don't know
What do you think of P.E.T.A: More power to them... as long as they let me keep my fur coat.
What do you think of South Park: Funneh
Do you like candles: Yes
Do you think emo people are idiots: no, they're put here for my amusement
Do you think goths are idiots: No, just scary
Do you think people who take ridiculously long surveys are idiots: Definitly. good heavens
Do you believe men and women are truly equal: to a point.
Do you read books very much: Me? oh no, i don't read at all. fuck yes i read all the time turd head
Do people consider you to be a bookworm: yeah
Describe your mother: asshole, but slowly becoming better. only took her 39 years. sweet.
What's one thing you would change about your body: lose some weight, smaller boobs
Would you kill one child to save the lives of 1000 children: Do I look like I have the ability of God to yall? no. I honestly couldn't do it
What one thing would a person have to do to deserve death: Torture and kill innocent people for a thrill.
The most romantic thing somebody's ever done for you: Drive over 500 miles to see me for 3 days (I love you hunny!)
Do you use bittorrent: run that by me once more?
What P2P programs do you use: I'm definitly not a nintendo freak. Next!
Have you ever skydived: Hell no, do yall not remember me sayin I'm scared of heights?
List three things you want to do before you die: Marry Karl and have a wonderful, healthy family, have a good career, become a better Christian
The world ends and you can only save three people and yourself. Who would you save: Karl, and some random guy and girl. we can't all be inbreds when we repopulate the earth can we?
If you could kick anyone's ass, who would it be: Mary. Oh wait, I could so kick her ass without worrying if i could. Um... Karl. He says I can't, I wanna prove him wrong.
If you could sleep with anyone in the world, who would it be: Julian McMahon (sorry hun...)
Are you bored of this survey yet: surprisingly no.
What is the meaning of life: To spend endless hours attempting to guess it, and never get it right. Silly Noobs

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:: 2006 28 March :: 6.03pm
:: Mood: complacent
:: Music: You can do it - Ice Cube

Welcome Back Me!! <3 Me
Well folks... I'm bored. Maybe I'll start updating again. A lot of people started up Myspace.com and got it's fame up and out. I didn't fall into that catagory. I <3 Woohu, but... I guess I got bored with No one reading my shit anymore. I loved all the random little messages I used to get, then... nothingness filled my journal. causes a girls heart to break ya know.
My loving Roxy is pregnant. I'm scared she's gonna be a bitch throught her entire pregnancy as she was last time. She got sooo big last time and only had one kitten. I think I can feel at least 3 this time. Hopefully they're cute. And not black. I don't like black cats, but I'm not supersticious, don't go getting your lines crossed.
Who knew you weren't to put glass bowls on the stove top? Not I says I. Crack Snapple Pop went the mixing bowl last night. Mom called me a dumbass. Sweet.
Is Harrison Ford not gorgeous? As well as Nicholas Cage? yummy.
What's the deal with "Change new lines to
automatically? I no comprenda. Anyone? Anyone at all?
.:.SOS.:.
lol today in Alg. II Caleb made me a little picture type deal with all the little faces we computer peeps make.
I'll share them.
(because you don't already know them)
^_^
o_o
-_^
^_-
O_o
o_O
<.<
>.>
-_-
>.<

If I missed any, please do share. It'll be so much fun, I promise!
Uh... Ashley and I were just talking about how much she sucked when she was little. She collected Pins for Pete's sake. LIke.. wear them on your clothes pins. And ... omg. it was so funny. I always made fun of her. She also collected Bouncy Balls. ... Moron. I always stole her candy too. I pigged out on my Easter candy and so I would always gp steal hers, certain that she wouldn't notice. She totally noticed. She was so anal. I always lied my way out of it though. I was such a bitch. A coniving little bitch at that. There was no way at all they could pin (ahaha) it on me so... whatever. lol I just came clean though. It's cool.
Oh boy.

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:: 2005 6 December :: 6.07pm
:: Mood: loved
:: Music: (I never promised you) A Rose Garden - Martina McBride

I was sittin in class doin nothing today, and I started thinking of all the little things that Karl does...
.:.Always finds my hand
.:.Always makes me smile/laugh when I'm upset
.:.Smiles to the side when he's being sneeky or trying to get away with something
.:.Kisses my hand
.:.Repeatedly tells me I'm beautiful/gorgeous/sexy (much to my dismay)
.:.Kisses my forehead
.:.Says "I love you" right when I need to hear it without me even telling him

And so much more, those are just the ones that popped in my head at the moment. I love him so much and it makes me happy that he loves me too.

I need to finish my Christmas shopping and quickly. I need to go to the mall this Friday and get it all done. Hopefully Ashley'll go with me. *crosses fingers*

I also need to get some shoes to go with my dress for the Christmas Dance. I don't really wanna go but every year my friends all get together and we take a picture. Started waaay back in 8th grade and so we gotta all be there to play our part. *sigh* It was fun shopping for the dress, though not laying down the $215 for it... ehh oh well.

My great uncle Gene died last night at 7:50. I really liked him too, so it saddens me to no end. All my aunts and uncles decided that Daddy had to tell grampa (uncle Gene's brother) and it was really sad. But, alas, life goes on and he's better off.

Christmas Break starts on the 21st and I truely cannot wait. I have had it with school. If it wouldn't kill me in life, I would drop out right now I loath it so much. I took on to many hard classes this year. Well, not exactly hard, just ones that you have to memorize a lot of stuff for, and so I'm constantly havening to memorize stuff for like 5 of my classes at a time and it's really getting to me.

Anyway, enough whinning i suppose, cause I have to go with Ashley to town real fast for some unknown reason...
Rachel