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:: 2005 19 April :: 3.04pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: Swing swing - All American Rejects

It's been awhile since I've wrote I guess...oh well.
Today in Biology we had to disect something. He told us to bring in whatever it was alive, thought it had to be an invertabrea or whatever. So, I bring in a worm. Easy enough. I had thought we were going to kill it before we disected it...Mr. Terry had other plans. Tessi went first. She had a crawdad and just like freakin ripped its legs off and cut into it without it bothering her at all. She's got every intention of becoming a forensic pathologist...i think that's what it's called. anyway, she wants to do autopsies. ok, we spend forever watching the poor thing die while she's having fun and laughing while cutting it up.
My Turn!
I had Tessi pin it down because i couldn't. that should have been my first clue Not to do this. actually, the first clue should have been when i was like almost in tears because the poor fucking crawdad was in like so much freakin pain or whatever. anyway, i start to cut it and it just won't. i'm like gaging at this point because it Will Not cut. so, Mr. Terry told me to move up to where the heart is. I do so, and it cuts and all this blood just starts pouring out and all i did was like make a little poke in it. i gagged, ran out of the room and threw up. i didn't go back in there until the bell rang, and only then because i didn't have my stuff.
Hopefully ill be ok in advanced biology because the pigs will at least be dead.
anyway, the bells gonna ring and i gotta go. schools finally out. fucking woohu.
Rach

:: 2005 14 April :: 6.40pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: Skin on Skin - Queens of the Stone Age

Either tonight or tomorrow night is my last. After that the second phone line is cut off and my life ends.

I'm starting to get depressed about the seniors leaving. I grew up with all of those people. Only because I always hung around Ashley when she didn't want me to. Still...Ashley and I were never all that close and this last year we've become really close. She'll still be living at home, so it's not like I'm exactly losing her or anything, but she won't be at school. Joey and Ryan are also graduating. They are basically loved by every single person in the entire school. They're hilarious and will do anything at all.
Today during the senior Vs. faculty game, they stripped off their regular clothes and Joey was wearing a pink wife beater, a pair of girls boxer shorts and slidders underneath those. Ryan had a yellow belly shirt on that had like cuts out of the side and a pair of cut off wranglers that came up to like mid thigh.
Now, everyone reading this is probably like "wow. thats really fucking gay" but it's hilarious. You would just have to know them.
School is going to be pretty boring next year.
Now that I think about it, they're like the Van Wilder of our high school...only they're actually graduating when they should.

Alright, I have to go finish writing a retarded English paper.
Rachel

:: 2005 12 April :: 10.19pm
:: Mood: bitchy
:: Music: Midnight in Montgomery - Alan Jackson

Fuckin randomness
Tomorrow they are having an assembly for National Honer Society. You're actually not supposed to know if you get in until they day they tell you...but I got my hands on the envelope, and I got in. heh. Ashley was pissed because I found out, but she can eat a dick.
I'll look hot up there with poisin ivy, that's for sure. *cries*
lol

We're reading "To Kill a Mockingbird" in Novels. I love this book so much. There are so many people who hate it. What the hell is wrong with them? I just love the way it's written and the story it tells. Anyone who hasn't read it definitly needs to. No questions asked.

Ashley's staying at Jackies again. She's having knee surgery and needs someone to watch her dog. I hate that dog. Ashley was out until 9:30 tonight because of FFA districts or whatever. So fucking glad I didn't join FFA even though I got so much shit for it. Fuck them though. Anyway, she was bitching because I didn't get her shirt washed, mom didn't make brownies (for the NHS thing tomorrow) because mom forgot to go by and get her make-up, because dad didn't wake her up early enough, Taylor didn't take her dogs out...and omg it just went on and on. She's so fucking annoying now. I will never be like her, and if her "omg lets go fucking nuts over every little thing because my life sucks and I'm graduating" senior disease ever gets onto me, I'll fucking kill myself. I refuse to act like that and be an annoyance to every living person around me.
Anyway, Ashley finally left after telling me that it was in my best interest that I do not forget her shirt in the morning. I was like wtf would I forget it for? I really want to now, just to piss her off, but no, I couldn't be that mean on purpose.

I absolutly hate MAP testing. It's the stupidest thing ever. The state decided that we students "rush through the test, purposley not doing well" so that we "can hurry and draw, sleep or read", so now we can't do anything when we get done. They give us so much time to do anything. For the math today we had an hour and a half to do 11 problems. ELEVEN PROBLEMS!!! wth. i had like 45 minutes left to just sit there and stare out the flippin window. Fun fUn fuN for sure. Bastards.

Hmmm...life basically sucks for any teenager unless they are rich, have parents who care, but not about what they do, have a vehicle and don't have to pay for gas, have friends that care about doing things other than playing hide and seek (fucking Johanna and her childish ways) and partying every night and smoking pot or doing any other drug, good looking with nice teeth, have a nice body, and either has a boyfriend (in which they can actually see) or is not really concerned about settling down with one person at the moment, but still manages to Not be a whore.
Basically. Now, that may not all be true, but fuck you.
Rachel

:: 2005 11 April :: 7.27pm
:: Music: Tangled up in Plaid - Queens of the Stone Age

Definitly worth the 16 dollars. I love this CD. The sheep kind of scared me when I opened the case for the first time. I'm kind of creeped out by sheep and pigs. I don't know why either. And ladybugs.

I got kicked out of school at 8:20, before it even begins. Apparently they couldn't keep me in school because I "could be contagious". eh. So, I came home, crashed until 2:30, mom got here at 2:40 and we went to the hospital and got my first shot in the ass. I wanted to cry. I don't really mind shots, they're pretty cool actually...yeah that was a little weird, but anyway. lol I don't shoot up cause I like needles, swear.
Um...oh, the verdict was: Poisin Ivy on the torso, Poisin Oak on my neck. *Big sigh* I feel so nasty. I never went outside because I'm not exactly a very outdoorsy type of person. But I want to loose weight so I decide to jog every night and one night I get bored and go for a hike...last time I ever do that. So much for being spontanious. Fuckin outdoors.

Rachel

:: 2005 10 April :: 8.12pm

I got paid yesterday and I think I'm going to buy the Queens of the Stone Age album. There's a Lot of talk about them, and the album sounds promising, so I figure it'll be worth spending 16 dollars on.

on a different note, jaw breakers make me happy.

I'm feeling the need to hit quizilla and take a few quizes. So, if I get any good results, I shall update again and post 'em
[Anyone have any good quiz sites? I'm getting bored with quizilla.]

a friend of mine refered to herself as nothing but a crack in the wall. I like that.

RachEl

:: 2005 10 April :: 5.33pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: This night won't last forever - Sawyer Brown

Well...
the other night when i was jogging i got done and was still pumped up and whatnot, so i decided to drop off of this steep hill and go look at the creek below. i guess i got into something and now im like covered head to toe with a flippin rash.
disgusting i know...makes me want to cry. we don't know what it is, and i have to go to the doctors if it aint lookin better by tomorrow. fuckin a
alright, im gonna go sleep now.
ahh! jess was gonna have sex with joey for the first time. they stopped by this old abandoned house, didn't have enough room so they did everything but for about an hour and a half. lol she's so fuckin hilarious and he's a dork. gotta love 'em both.
i better have enough room when i decide to give it up or i'll be mortified and remain a virgin for the rest of my life.
he'll also have to wear about 3 condoms if we aint married.
Rach~

:: 2005 9 April :: 11.21pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Me and Charlie Talkin - Miranda Lambert

karls in alabama now. he also has access to a computer, so now we can talk. i don't know if he has msn or not, he wasn't to sure either, but we do have emails, and if worst comes to worst, we can meet up in the old chatroom and talk there. that'll be a trip down memory lane....

PASSIONATE LOVER. You love to love, always looking
for a relationship. You cannot live without it.
Your lover must be passionate and you want
that you and your partner melt into each other.
He/She should not try to take the domination .
You dont want a relationship without passion,
and the sexuality plays a big part. The first
moment you meet him/her is one of the most
important. There has to be something between
you , you cannot explain. From the first moment
on everything must fix. But when this passion
disappears you disappear to. For you it is
better to leave than to see your love
restrained.

PLEASE VOTE, I want to know what you think about my
quiz, I worked hard on it.You can always
message me or tell me how I can improve that
quiz. Ill sure write back.

~THE big LOVE TEST!! What do you need? With PICS! For girls and boys!~
brought to you by Quizilla
amoure
You like the sweet, shy type.

What kind of guy are you most attracted to? (CUTE anime pics)
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(indeed i do)

You are sad because you are suppressed

Why are you sad? [amazing pictures] For darker people
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You are a hopeless romantic person. You think of
love as an innocent light. You are a happy
person and you are also opptimistic. You like
the bright things in life. Many people like
you for your 'breath of fresh air attitude'.

Who are you inside????? (LOTS OF RESULTS)girls only
brought to you by Quizilla

-alright, im done. i love how my quizes sometimes contridict each other. oh well. im hittin the f-n sack now.
later ho's
Rachel

:: 2005 8 April :: 4.20pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: Forgive - Rebecca Lynn Howard

I don't know if it's just my computer that's messed up, but it hardly ever shows the pictures that go along with the quiz results that I and other people post on their journal. Just a minute ago I couldn't see the picture that went along with the quiz results that I had put on there at school. Maybe I should have hit refresh and seen if it worked then...but I didn't.

Tomorrow night at 5:00 my class is hosting an Oriental Dinner. We needed decorations and so a bunch of people were drawing and coloring stuff. I can't draw, and there was already Way to many people coloring stuff, and we didn't need any more pictures, so it was decided that I could make paper cranes. So, I called mom after I got home from school yesterday and told her to pick up some colored paper on her way home. She grabbed this Extremely thick paper, and refused to go back to Wal-Mart. I was up until one in the morning making them. I started at 7:30, and I only got 45 made before dad made me go to sleep. It took forever to fold them because I had to crease them and it was really hard to get the folds where they needed to be and oh, it was just horrible. I have to make 105 more tonight. I have until 12 to make them tomorrow too. I wish they would have told me earlier that they wanted me to make them. Ehh.

On the fifth, we did the little election thing for school board and new rules and stuff. We were also going to raise the taxes $0.60 for every 100 dollars worth of land that you had, because our school is in debt really bad. They had to fire ten teachers and drop a lot of our classes. We no longer have any Business related classes, no keyboarding classes, music, band, we only have 1 English teacher and she is Way to stressed out, and track is running only on donations. Anyway, the deal didn't pass so now the school may be closed down next year or the year before. I really don't want it to get closed down before I graduate. I would hate to have to go to another school. I would be pissy the entire time.

Anyway, I ain't got nothing else to talk about and I have to go get ready to go to grammas.
Rachel

:: 2005 8 April :: 1.18pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Nothing

In your eyes, people can't seem to see anything
because your eyes are covered up by tears! You
are constantly hurt and depressed... No one
seems to understand how you feel because
everyone is scared to get close to you... You
long to be able to reach out and tell someone
everything, and all of your problems... But you
have no one to tell, or they just don't seem to
want to hear what you have to say. You've been
hurt many times that you don't seem to have any
tears left to shed, or if you do, they're an
endless river flowing... You've started to hide
and bottle up all or your problems and
feelings, hoping that maybe they just will go
away... You want company, but at the same time,
you're scared of it. Your sanctuary is your
room where you can just be alone and try to
throw away all of your aching pains. You're
dark and mysterious and people like you for
that reason. Even if you think you're all by
yourself in the dark, someone is always there
with you. Your special someone wants to admit
and show their feelings towards you, but
they're afraid of how you'll take it. Get out
more and enjoy life because, it is far too long
to frown your way through :)

What Lies Behind Your Eyes?
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:: 2005 6 April :: 7.50pm
:: Mood: groggy
:: Music: Perfect - Sara Evans

well, i was all ready to update big because i felt like typing, but im really freaking tired because i just jogged for 40 minutes and im ready to die now, and so i don't feel like it.
im determined to get into shape in the next 2 months, well actually i have the rest of april, may and then a little bit of june...whenever karl comes. no fattness around him. well...maybe a little bit....
anywhores, i've been like barely eatting anymore and i jog and do like millions of exercises all the time now. its insane.

um...yeah, i've still got a really bad cold so that makes working out really painful because i like cough and weeze and can't catch my breath Before i start running or whatever and then it just gets worse when i start doing shit. sucks ardvark penis.

ashley got her new dog today. yay...no. actually, it's really cute. its only like 5 inches tall and its this reddish brown color. its legs are only like an inch tall. Friggin Hill-arious

Ooo sex scene on the tube...

well, i do believe i better go watch some television now. later
Rach

:: 2005 5 April :: 7.56pm
:: Mood: energetic
:: Music: Because you love Me - Jo Dee Masina

mom was all exercising in the living room and she was like "come on rachel, you need to do this too" but i can Not exercise in front of people. expecially not going along with a tape or something. i don't know why, but i just cain't. anyway, i decided to go for a walk instead. i was gone for like an hour and a half. i think i got like poison ivy now. Yes!!

i've been getting yelled at for quoting Napoleon Dynamite so much. the bad thing is that i don't even realize im doing it. ill just randomly yell out "Tina! you fat lard, come get your dinner!". apparently not to many people enjoyed that movie. you sad little fuckers.

wow i have nothing to write about. makes me very sad.

I love karl!!

Rachel

:: 2005 3 April :: 9.06pm
:: Mood: pensive
:: Music: Whisper - Cold Play

pretty much...today sucked. there wasn't even anything on tv. wtf is the world coming too? 300 channels and NOTHING!!! that's fucking bullshit.
it was to damn hot to be outside, i didn't feel like sitting down and reading, and i couldn't find a movie worth watching. the internet...well no one has been on msn all day, and that's basically all that i do when i get on here.

i think im gonna just go to bed early. there isn't anything else to do.

i Think i want to go eat. i want chinese food...but no. i'll have to settle for a freakin ham sandwich. fuckin yippe

Rachel

:: 2005 2 April :: 6.48pm
:: Mood: exhausted

i worked out today for the first time in a Long time. im going to be so sore in the morning, but it'll be great.

joslyn im sorry about everything. didn't mean to make you feel...how you felt. it was just a little joke.

i've had way to much chocolate cake. thursday i made one for dessert and then today gramma had one made for Elija's birthday and she sent the rest of it home with us.

ashley and i are switching rooms again. she said she wanted to so she could just come home and crash on her bed when she got home late from trips and baseball games (shes the manager). i really wouldn't mind being down in that part of the house. it would be even better if taylors room wasn't down there but she's hardly ever in her room anyway, so maybe i can still be away from the rest of the family.
mom said we could fix it all up the way i want it and everything. it sucks though, because im used to haveing a big bed and i'll have to go to a twin size bed down there. its a big room, but everything is set up weird and so it just wouldn't work. depresses me.

ashleys weenie dog was chasing a truck. how retarded can it get?

Rachel

:: 2005 2 April :: 9.32am
:: Mood: cynical
:: Music: Head strong - Trapt

dougs back. yay.

i don't think karl called last night. if he did he didn't leave a message.
i was at the elementry(sp) basketball games. trevor's class won and so did taylor's so it was a good night. i got the video camera so that made it all the more better.

seniors got all the benifits from the consetion stand if they worked it. someone stole 200 dollars from them though. that's 4 hotel rooms. they are all pretty upset. it was one of the seniors themselves though. they were the only ones who had access to the money. they all think it's this girl danielle. she was caught stealing money from her job earlier that week and she had also stolen from her parents, sister and boyfriend. all fingers would point to her wouldn't they? she also made 3 unreasonable trips to her truck throughout the night.
you konw when people defend themself just a little to much? she did just that, talking about how she had no money, all she had was change, how we could call her mom because she knew she had no money blah blah blah. it was like omfg everyone assumes you did it and you know that so just shut the fuck up.
watch it turn out to be an April Fools joke by a teacher.

ashley usually cleans Jackies house (the one we stayed at for them 2 weeks) on saturdays and gets paid for it. she's not been able to do it lately because of FFA stuff. mom volunteered me to do it. yay.
gotta get to that. later

Rachel

:: 2005 31 March :: 10.13pm
:: Mood: cheerful

karl called today. i hadn't heard from him since the 18, so obviously i was happy. all the other times he called i was to...not really shy, but nervous to talk and say something stupid. anyway, he gave me crap about it and told me to start talking and not just sitting there silent, so i talked his ear off this time. we've only ever been able to talk for like 5 minutes but this time we got to talk for pretty much an hour. it was wonderful.
He's actually graduated now. hes going to alabama tomorrow. i swear, after i get this address, i will have memorized 3 addresses for that man. he owes me so big.
so basically, what it all boils down to is...i love him.
(me)

:: 2005 30 March :: 8.53pm
:: Mood: indifferent
:: Music: Strawberry Wine - Dena Carter

I love Kelly for telling me I should start a journal here.

The problem with America is stupidity. I'm not saying there should be a capital punishment for stupidity, but why don't we just take the safety labels off of everything and let the problem solve itself?
- Amen -

:: 2005 30 March :: 12.15am
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Jumper - Third Eye Blind

feeling a bit quizish....at 12 in the morning
eienbaby!
the studious student. You are definitely pressured
and suffer from side effects from built up
stress. You are constantly occupying yourself
with books, studies, or some other hobby. You
feel squeezed in place and have litte movement.
Most of the time you are busy with work and
family, and would love to spread your wings and
relax. One like you needs to find a certain
time of the day to just sit and release the
tension. However, you are doing fairly well in
school, but that does not mean that you can
continue stressing yourself out. Take a
breather and head out with some friends.

You can consider going into a field like
librarian, polotician, journalist,
Archeologist, scientist, or lawyer. You have a
brain...NOW USE IT....but please...spare
yourself the pressure and create some down time
for yourself. Or develop a hobby that releases
tension, such as knitting (it worked wonders
for me)

What type of teenager are you?
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surprisingly only one...but just because i have to go so i don't get grounded. *sighs and glares at parents*
its weird though, i always get made fun of for looking like a librarian. personally i don't see it, but whatever., i thought it was cool that it said i should look in that direction or whatever

:: 2005 29 March :: 10.25pm
:: Mood: bored

joke
(i don't know all the details, i got told this in like thirty seconds over the phone)

this little boy was outside playing with some friends while over at his grandmas house. he comes in and he askes her what it's called when two people sleep on top of eachother. she decides to be truthful about it and tells him that it's sexual intercourse and she went into great details and everything. the boy looked at her with shock, then slow understanding, thanked her and went back outside. about 10 minutes later, he comes back inside and says, "gramma, you were wrong, its called bunk beds"

:: 2005 29 March :: 7.46pm
:: Mood: thoughtful

-Richard Cory -
Whenever Richard Cory went down town,
We people on the pavement looked at him:
He was a gentleman from sole to crown,
Clean favored, and imperially slim.
And he was always quietly arrayed,
And he was always human when he talked;
But still he fluttered pulses when he said,
"Good-morning," and he glittered when he walked.

And he was rich - yes, richer than a king -
And admirably schooled in every grace;
In fine we thought that he was everything
To make us wish that we were in his place.

So on we worked, and waited for the light,
And went without the meat, and cursed the bread;
And Richard Cory, one calm summer night,
Went home and put a bullet through his head.

That is such a great poem. It's just truth leaking out and making you realize that you never Really know someone, no matter what you think.

i never did go sleep....now its to late to...life sucks
.:.Me.:.

:: 2005 29 March :: 6.29pm
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: Autobiogrophy - Ashlee Simpson

i picked up a cold from someone sometime. my throats swollen and im congested(?) beyond this world. it feels like my nose is going to explode, and i want to just lie down and sleep forever...well not forever but you know what i mean. sadly
lol um...omg i don't know where doug is. he's usually on by now...i don't know, i aint been on a week and i feel like i've lost touch with every single person that i have ever talked to which is stupid, but...yeah ok im done rambling.
im gonna go sleep for a few hours hopefully
+Rachel+

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