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TaoMan1121

:: 2005 7 December :: 11.12pm
:: Mood: better
:: Music: Bob Dylan - Bye & Bye

TaoMan1121's Last.fm Overall Artists Chart

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angel_bob

:: 2005 6 December :: 7.51pm

look i'm emily dickinson
Poetry:
Death---
I don't leave my house!---
Thou hast doom;

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angel_bob

:: 2005 6 December :: 7.49pm

Did anyone have Mr. Wells for mathematics at any point in their high school career?

And remember any of his songs?

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Angel_Bob

:: 2005 5 December :: 10.54am

To those who were driving 20 miles below the speed limit on the East Beltline today:
Look, I know it's December and you're not used to the idea that it's winter in Michigan and it's going to snow every day until March. That's alright, I understand. A few weeks ago, on the first night we got snow, I was driving 30 down the East Beltline. And I drive the speed limit everywhere. I do 70 on the highway (which, if you didn't know, is the speed limit)!

However, when the snow is floating downwards, isn't sticking to the roads and looks like down feathers, it is completely unnecessary to drive 35 miles per hour! I might be a little more lenient if this was real snow but it's lake effect. I don't know if you get your memory erased every March and forget what snow is like, but the roads were barely wet. You don't need to go that slow in your stupid minivan.

Yes, I know I can just shut up and pass you but you're not the only one! The guy in the fast/passing lane was doing 40. It's like a disease!

So please, drive 55 like the sign says. It's okay. You're not going to end up in the ditch. I promise. Just try it and I know that tomorrow you'll be doing your regular 65.

Love,
Rachel

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TaoMan1121

:: 2005 3 December :: 8.53pm
:: Mood: undeclared
:: Music: David Gray - This Year's Love

is here to last...
Shitty things about today:

- It's cold
- I needed my parents to (temporarily) bail me out of my financial situation
- I found out that my step-uncle had a brain aneurysm on his way back from Florida last week. The goods news is he picked the best place in the country for it to happen; Indianapolis has the best facilities in the country for that type of thing. The bad news is they couldn't get at the problem with the first surgery, so they have to go back in on Monday with a new procedure. He could recover, he could die... won't know much until Tuesday. Seems like everytime I talk to my Dad lately, it's bad news.
- Part of my permanent retainer broke off and I can't do anything about it until I come home. Now I have the pleasure of running my tongue over dried cement for the next couple of weeks.

In spite of all that, my spirits are decent. Parents will do that to you. I find myself reacting to some things people say in ways that I never have before. Desperation will do that to you. "It's only after we've lost everything that we are free to do anything."

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angel_bob

:: 2005 3 December :: 12.43am

Nick hit a deer.

His car's pretty banged up but everyone's okay.

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TaoMan1121

:: 2005 2 December :: 11.49pm
:: Music: Johnny Cash - 25 Minutes To Go

I just want to bottle this feeling and return to it when I need it. I just want it to last a little while longer. I want this to be it. Not need anymore.

All I've ever wanted is to be happy and content. Simplicity is my drug of choice.

Wish you were here.

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TaoMan1121

:: 2005 2 December :: 2.12pm
:: Mood: worried
:: Music: Eels - Flower

For the first time in my life, I am officially a poor college student.

This sucks.

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TaoMan1121

:: 2005 1 December :: 9.20pm
:: Music: Aimee Mann - Ghost World

so i'm bailing this town--or/tearing it down--or/probably more like hanging around...
That Aimee Mann song hit me today on the way to my lab meeting, along with the beginning of the last verse:

"And all that I need now
is someone with the brains and the know-how
to tell me what I want"

Today was a good day, but after its effects have worn out, I feel as if I'm close to another uphill battle. Life feels like a chore as of late; funny considering how little I have to do. There's many reasons why I might not be deriving any joy from life as of late, but if can be simplied by merely stating that I'm not allowing myself to.

Not giving up quite yet:
"There is truth, old friend, if that's all you seek. But there's no justice or judgment, without which truth is a vast dead hollow... Awaken the sleep of reason and fight the monsters within and without."
- Deep Throat, "The Blessing Way"

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Angel_Bob

:: 2005 1 December :: 6.38am

If anyone got a call from me late last night, I apologize.

I keep my cell phone on my bed because I'm too lazy to look for it when it rings and because it charges as I sleep.

Last night I couldn't sleep very well and lately I've been tossing and turning a lot.

My dad just mentioned that I called him when he was downstairs, asleep and in bed.

He called me back.

So if I called you, I'm sorry. I shall find a better place to put my phone.

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angel_bob

:: 2005 28 November :: 3.01pm

You will not believe this.
Sigur Ros is coming to Calvin College in February.

Tickets go on sale December 8th.

Here is the site.

* feb 18 : 6pm concert calvin college fine arts center, grand rapids (mi)
general on-sale date dec 08

* feb 18 : 10.30pm concert calvin college fine arts center, grand rapids (mi)
general on-sale date dec 08

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TaoMan1121

:: 2005 23 November :: 11.12pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: Fiona Apple - Please Please Please

I can knock him 'cause he's dead.
A few things before I unleash these results:
1) Frued was a numnut that offered virtually nothing to the field of psychology. His psychosexual stages are nothing more than an amusing postulation and fodder for Trivial Pursuit questions and Introductory Psych courses around the country.
2) Psychoanalysis is a scam and IMHO can actually be determential to a client. How can you state that you helped someone with no way of proving it. I. need. data.
3) They say "bad press" is still press.
4) This test was still amusing...

Freudian Inventory Results
Oral (33%) you appear to be stubbornly and irrationally against receiving help even when it might be the more intelligent option.
Anal (76%) you appear to be overly self controlled, organized, and possibly subservient to authority, this effectively narrows your exposure to a wider set of options and ideas lowering the odds that you will make the best decisions in life.
Phallic (63%) you appear to have issues with controlling your sexual desires and possibly fidelity.
Latency (43%) you appear to have a good balance of abstract knowledge seeking and practicality, dealing with real world responsibilities while still cultivating your abstract and creative faculties and interests.
Genital (56%) you appear to be somewhere between a progressive/openminded and regressive/closeminded outlook on life.
Take Free Freudian Inventory Test
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Alanis Morissette - Excuses
Why no one will help me
I am too dumb I am too smart
They'll not understand me
I am lonely
They'll hate me
And there is not enough time
It's too hard to help me
And god wants me to work
No resting no lazy

These excuses how they served me so well
They've kept me safe
They've kept me stoic
They've kept me locked in my own cell

I'm too far from home
It takes far too much energy
And I cannot afford to
No one will ever see me

These excuses how they served me so well
They've kept me safe
They've kept me stoic
They've kept me locked inside my cell

These excuses how they're so familiar
They've kept me small
They've kept me blocked
They've kept me safe inside my shell

Bringing this into the light
Shakes their foundation
And it clears my side
Now my imagination
Is the only thing that limits
The bar that is raised to the heights

No one can have it all see
I have to they want me to
And I can't let them down
I'll never be happy

These excuses how they served me so well
They've kept me safe
They've kept me small
They've kept me locked inside my cell

These excuses how they're so familiar
They've kept me small
They've kept me stoic
They've kept me locked inside my cell

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angel_bob

:: 2005 23 November :: 4.21pm

funny! SPAM SPAM SPAM!
What is the point of these e-mails? What happens?

Read more..

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angel_bob

:: 2005 23 November :: 4.14pm

I got out of work early (3 instead of 5) and that makes me happy.

Sadly, since it's bad out, I'm not allowed to go anywhere. Stupid snow. Maybe I'll go cash my paycheck.

We all should hang out this weekend.

I'm gonna go write my paper that's due at 5. Yay!

I love you all.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2005 21 November :: 6.09pm

I know I've probably never told anyone this (my mom just heard about it today and laughed) but here's how dorky my siblings and I are:

Hannah, Nathaniel and I were playing some kind of shopkeeping game loosely based around Chrono Cross. I was the shopkeeper, Buddy was some pet and Hannah was the customer(s).

Once, Hannah came in as a "customer," snuck in the back of my shop and I was audited by an IRS agent (played by Hannah).

And apparently, NORMAL children don't do these things.

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