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:: 2003 1 November :: 6.59 pm

im reading this book that someone recommended to me....it's called "the perks of being a wallflower"......i read half of it a lil while ago.....and the little boy in the book finds this poem.....and i love it. it talks about losing your innocence and realizing how fucked up this world is and that's exactly what happens to the boy in the book...it's amazing.

once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines
he wrote a poem
and called it "chops"
because that was the name of his dog
and that's what it was all about
and his teacher gave him an A
and a gold star
and his mother hung it on the kitchen door
and read it to his aunts
that was the year Father Tracy
took all the kids to the zoo
and he let them sing on the bus
and his little sister was born
with tiny toenails and no hair
and his mother and father kissed a lot
and the girl around the corner sent him a
valentine signed with a row of X's
and he had to ask his father what the X's meant
and his father always tucked him in bed at night
and was always there to do it

once on a piece of white paper with blue lines
he wrote a poem
and he called it "Autumn"
because that was the name of the season
and that's what it was all about
and his teacher gave him an A
and asked him to write more clearly
and his mother never hung it on the kitchen
because of its new paint
and the kids told him
that Father Tracy smoked cigars
and left butts on the pews
and sometimes they would burn holes
that was the year his sister got glasses
with thick lenses and black frames
and the girl around the corner laughed
when he asked her to go see Santa Claus
and the kids told him why
his mother and father kissed a lot
and his father never tucked him in bed at night
and his father got mad
when he cried for him to do it.

once on a paper torn from his notebook
he wrote a poem
and he called it "Innocence: A Question"
because that was the question about his girl
and that's what it was all about
and his professor gave him an A
and a strange steady look
and his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because he never showed her
that was the year that Father Tracy died
and he forgot how the end
of the Apostle's Creed went
and he caught his sister
making out on the back porch
and his mother and father never kissed
or even talked
and the girl around the corner
wore too much makeup
that made him cough when he kissed her
but he kissed her anyway
because that was the thing to do
and at three A.M he tucked himself into bed
his father snoring soundly

that's why on the back of a brown paper bag
he tried another poem
and he called it "Absolutely Nothing"
because that's what it was really all about
and he gave himself an A
and a slash on each damned wrist
and he hung it on the bathroom door
because this time he didn't think
he could reach the kitchen.

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:: 2003 1 November :: 1.59 pm

Cold
by Matchbox 20
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Submitted by : Kasey
Corrected by : duckie
Rated : 9.8 (31 votes)


AND I WILL DO WITHOUT
THE SPACES IN BETWEEN
IF YOU CAN TELL ME NOW
WHAT IT MEANS TO BE
YOU HAVE BEEN FOUND OUT
I HAVE BEEN DECEIVED
BY THE ONE THAT I NEED

TELL ME WHY YOU GOTTA BE SO COLD
HOW'D YOU GET SO HIGH
WHY YOU KEEPING ME LOW
YOU DON'T KNOW, DON'T KNOW
TELL ME HOW WE'RE GONNA MAKE IT LAST
YOU'RE READY TO FLY
I'M READY TO CRASH
DON'T GO

YOU WILL GO WITHOUT
THE BETTER PART OF ME
THERE WILL BE NO DOUBT
WHAT THIS ALL COULD MEAN
YOU WILL BE FOUND OUT
I CAN NOT BELIEVE
IN THE ONE THAT I NEED

TELL ME WHY YOU GOTTA BE SO COLD
HOW'D YOU GET SO HIGH
WHY YOU KEEPING ME LOW
YOU DON'T KNOW, DON'T KNOW
TELL ME HOW WE'RE GONNA MAKE IT LAST
YOU'RE READY TO FLY
I'M READY TO CRASH
DON'T GO
DON'T GO AWAY

TELL ME WHY YOU GOTTA BE SO COLD
HOW'D YOU GET SO HIGH
WHY YOU KEEPING ME LOW
YOU DON'T KNOW, DON'T KNOW
TELL ME HOW WE'RE GONNA MAKE IT LAST
YOU'RE READY TO FLY
I'M READY TO CRASH
DON'T GO

TELL ME WHY YOU GOTTA BE SO COLD
TELL ME ANYTHING ABOUT YOU I DON'T KNOW

TELL ME WHY YOU GOTTA BE SO COLD
HOW'D YOU GET SO HIGH
WHY YOU KEEPING ME LOW
YOU DON'T KNOW, DON'T KNOW
TELL ME HOW WE'RE GONNA MAKE IT LAST
YOU'RE READY TO FLY
I'M READY TO CRASH
DON'T GO
YEAH DON'T GO

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:: 2003 29 October :: 9.05 pm

kick-ass songs

Don't Think Of Me
by Dido

So you're with her, and not with me,
I hope she's sweet, and so pretty
I hear she cooks delightfully, a little angel beside you
So you're with her, and not with me,
Oh how lucky one man can be
I hear your house is smart and clean,
Oh how lovely with your homecoming queen
Oh how lovely it must be...

When you see her sweet smile baby, don't think of me
When she lays in your warm arms, don't think of me

So you're with her, and not with me, I know she spreads sweet honey
In your best friend, I heard he spent last night with her
Now how do you feel

When you see her sweet smile baby, don't think of me
And it's too late and it's too bad, don't think of me
Oh it's too late and it's too bad, don't think of me

Does it bother you now all the mess I made
Does it bother you now the clothes you told me not to wear
Does it bother you now all the angry games we played
Does it bother you now when I'm not there

When you see her sweet smile baby, don't think of me
When she lats in your arms, don't think of me
And it's too late and it's too bad, don't think of me
Oh it's too late, oh it's too bad, don't think of me


song from the matchbox 20 cd....i like it

Hand Me Down
by Matchbox 20

Someday they'll find your small town world
On a big town avenue
Gonna make you like the way they talk
When they're talking to you
Gonna make you break out of your shell
'Cause they tell you to
Gonna make you like the way they lie
Better than the truth
They'll tell you everything
You wanted someone else to say
They're gonna break your heart, yeah

(Chorus)
From what I've seen
You're just one more hand me down
'Cause no one's tried to give you
What you need
So lay all your troubles down
I am with you now

Somebody oughta take you in
Try to make you love again
Try to make you like the way they feel
When they're under your skin
Never once do you think that they would lie
When they're holding you
Then you wonder why they haven't called
When they said they'd call you
You'll start to wonder
If you're ever gonna make it by
You'll start to think
You were born blind

Chorus

I'm here for the hard times
The straight to your heart times
When living ain't easy
You can stand up against me
And maybe rely on me
And cry on me, yeah

Oh no, no, no

Someday they'll open up your world
Shake you down to the drawing board
They'll do their best to change you
They still can't erase you

(Chorus)
Lay them down on me
Oh yeah
You’re just one more hand me down
And all those nights
Don't give you what you need
So lay all your troubles down
On me

song i heard on the movie my girl 2

Smile
by Diana Ross

Smile,
Though your heart is aching
Smile,
Even though its breaking
When there are clouds in the sky you'll get by

If you smile,
Through your fear and sorrow
Smile,
And maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear maybe ever so near

That's the time
You must keep on trying
Smile,
What's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worth while
If you,
Just smile

That's the time
You must keep on trying
Smile,
What's the use of crying
You'll find that life
Life is still worth while
If you just smile

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:: 2003 29 October :: 6.28 pm

since my birthday's comin up.....
haha i found this hilarious birthday song...


Once a year we celebrate with stupid hats and plastic plates,
the fact that you were able to make another trip around the sun.
And the whole plan gathers round' gifts and laughter do will bound,
we let out a joyful sound and sing that stupid song.

Happy Birthday, now your one year older.
Happy Birthday, your life still isn't over.
Happy Birthday, you did not accomplish much.
But you didn't die this year i guess that's good enough.

So lets drink to your fading health, and hope you don't remind yourself
your chance of finding fame and wealth decrease with every year.
Does it feel like your doing laps, and eating food and taking naps,
and hoping that some day, perhaps, your life will hold some cheer.

Happy Birthday, what have you done that matters?
Happy Birthday, your starting to get fatter.
Happy Birthday, it's downhill from now on.
Try not to remind yourself your best years are all gone.

If cryogenics were all free then you could live like Walt Disney and live
for all eternity inside a block of ice.
But instead your time is set this is the only life you get,
and though it hasen't ended yet some times you wish it MIGHT!

Happy Birthday, you wish you had more money.
Happy Birthday, your lifes so sad it's funny.
Happy Birthday, how much more can you take?
But your friends are hungry so just cut the stupid cake.

Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday, Dear.....
(muttering)
Ralph, Bill, Graphton, Stanley, Frank, Skippy the Butch Kangroo, Bob,
Starts with a G.. G.. Blah! Blah! Blah!

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:: 2003 26 October :: 8.37 pm

hahah hilarious convo wit armando......
Archangel8852: here is a funny ?
Archangel8852: have u ever wondered how spern know where to go?
Archangel8852: sperm*
babaloo181: hehe.....can't say that i have...but now that u pose the question....i must say it is quite mind boggling.....
babaloo181: hehe
babaloo181: like in that movie
babaloo181: look who's talking
babaloo181: when all the lil sperm r like swimming
babaloo181: hahaha
Archangel8852: i know
babaloo181: that always makes me laugh
Archangel8852: yup
babaloo181: but obviously not all of them know where to go.....cuz most of them end up dying anywayz....
Archangel8852: yup
Archangel8852: yup thts funny
babaloo181: hehe
babaloo181: haha i dont think i've ever thought so long and hard about sperm
babaloo181: hahahahha no pun intended by those adjectives
Archangel8852: hahaha
Archangel8852: long and hard
babaloo181: hahah
Archangel8852: lmao
babaloo181: i didnt even notice i ddid that till after i read it
babaloo181: hehe
Archangel8852: tht is some funny crap
babaloo181: heheh

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:: 2003 26 October :: 5.34 pm

part of this yellowcard song it's called empty apartment....i like it....reminds me of *insert name here* hehe

It's okay to be angry and never let go
It only gets harder the more that you know
When you get lonely if no one's around
You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down
We came together but you left alone
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I will see you again
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend

found another poem on some chick's journal ........ she writes so well! i wish i could write like that.....

Let Go

Nevermind the heartbreak
Forget about the love
T'was so very long ago
T'was so very short.
Clinging to a lost love
Does the soul no good
Eats away at your heart
Kicks you while your down.
I have been there
Hoping love will return
It ruins your mind,
your body, your life.
I am not much of a loss
Let me go! don't hold a grudge!
Not intentional breaking
Only trying to love.
Forgive me; I love myself.

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:: 2003 26 October :: 5.04 pm

Were you born?:cuba
Do you want to die?:nyc
Were you happiest when you were little?:my cousins' house
Were you happiest during your teenaged years?:miami
Are you happiest now?:i guess.....tampa
Do you fear being?:my backyard when it's dark......pathetic i know hehe
Is fancy bred? In the heart or in the head?:fancy? is that like who u like? alright i'll say heart
Would you go if you could go anywhere?:new york or italy
Would you go if you could go anywhere in the continental US?:new york
Do you want to be married (if you do.)?:venice
Can you concentrate best?:sitting at my livin room table listenin to my cd player
Do you like to eat most?:candy store!
Do you like to be touched?:hmm...face
If you're touched, causes you to freak out?:ears haha weird i know! but it's the truth!

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:: 2003 25 October :: 9.57 pm

another good poem i found on someone's journal....

Boredom strikes me so easily it seems
Will I ever find someone good enough?
This time i'm not falling for your schemes
These experiences have made me tough
My skin has thickened
Takes longer for the pain to absorb
I'm not falling for these schemes again
Enough of these tears have poured
I've awakened to these lies
Does it make you feel more like a man?
One day you'll realize...
A real man doesn't scam
All your wrongs will catch up with you
I have had enough of you
Enough of falling
Falling for you

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:: 2003 25 October :: 4.16 pm

i heard this song on a commercial to buy this REM collection cd and i love it...i think i want the cd.....this song.....it's so......uplifting....wow....see it for urself.

Everybody Hurts
by REM

When your day is long and the night
The night is yours alone
When you're sure you've had enough of this life
Well hang on
Don't let yourself go, 'cause everybody cries
and everybody hurts, sometimes ...

Sometimes everything is wrong,
Now it's time to sing along
When your day is night alone (hold on, hold on)
If you feel like letting go (hold on)
If you think you've had too much of this life
Well hang on

'Cause everybody hurts
Take comfort in your friends
Everybody hurts
Don't throw your hand, oh no
Don't throw your hand
If you feel like you're alone
no, no, no, you're not alone

If you're on your own in this life
The days and nights are long
When you think you've had too much
of this life, to hang on

Well everybody hurts,
sometimes, everybody cries,
And everybody hurts ...
sometimes
But everybody hurts sometimes
So hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on,
hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

Everybody hurts
You're not alone





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:: 2003 21 October :: 9.05 pm

current clothing:black shorts and a middle school tshirt.....hehe attractive im sure...
current mood:eh....not happy but not sad...in betweenish
current taste:yellow starburst in my mouth..
current hair:loose......i just washed it so it's coocoo rite now hehe
current annoyance:my leg keeps falling asleep!!!
current smell:some fried yucky thing my grandma made...i didnt eat it..hence the starburst
current thing you ought to be doing:hw...ought being the key word
current jewelry:my heart necklace and my earings
current book:middle passage...there's a lot of graphic rape in that book yuckadoodle!
current refreshment:water
current worry:hmm....not really worrying bout anything rite now
current crush:still tryin to get over my old one
current favorite celebrity:justin whooo!
current longing:um.....none that im aware of....
current music:goo goo dolls
current wish:i wish this year would get better
current lyric in your head:"cuz you and i both love" from jason mraz you and i both
current makeup (if you're a girl!):im a girl....and no makeup on
current undergarments:um.....bra and underwear....what kinda undergarments SHOULD i be wearing? u freak! hehe
current regret:i dont like to regret the things i do
current desktop picture:justin timberlake on the cover of rolling stone.....hmm..yummo
current plans for tonight/weekend:tonite....nothing....weekend- going to the aquarium wit my family to celebrate my mom's bday
current cuss word du jour:du jour? i think that means of the day in french! whoo! and i guess it's shit...i dont cuss all that much..
current disappointment:it looked like someone was gonna talk to me this afternoon but this person got interrupted oh wellz
current amusement:there's a sticker on my desk im tryin to get rid of...hehe it wont come off!
current IM/person you're talking to:talkin to alex, mark, and arthur
current love:not in love rite now......maybe in like
current obsession:chocolate...but that's not a current obsession...its more of an ongoing obsession hehe
current avoidance:avoiding hw
current thing or things on your wall:nsync posters haha sad i know....
current favorite book:go ask alice, nothing lasts forever
current favorite movie:city of angels

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:: 2003 19 October :: 9.47 pm

hmm.....found these quotes on jeff's away message and i like them.....they got me thinkin hehe

"What you risk reveals what you value."

"Pain is inevitable; suffering is optional."

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:: 2003 19 October :: 1.35 pm

i found this poem on someone's journal and i thought it was really good

Whats wrong with me?
i hate you.... i love you....
you hurt me.... i hurt you....
i cry.... you laugh....
when will we ever just get past all of this shit?
hey, feel like doing me a favor? stay the hell away from me until you've made up your mind....
call me when you think you know.... and i'll go on with my life like you dont even exist... sound like a plan?

But then you win me back when you make jokes, or when you smile...

Fuck


+ Basics +
Are you emotional ::yep yep
Do songs make you cry? If so, name a few ::yea...iris....and there's a lot of others but i cant think of em right off bat
What about moves ::wat bout moves.....oh i think u mean movies hehe city of angels, pay it forward...lots of others
What emotion do you usually feel ::im either really sad or really happy....no real in between..
+ Sadness +
What does it take to make you cry your heart out ::a lot....
How many times have you done that ::not many
Where do you cry ::anywhere i'm alone....
Do you hate crying ::sometimes it helps to cry...but i hate crying in front of people
Do you like it when others cry ::of course not...
Do you think tears make eyes look pretty ::they can..
Who looks goo when they cry ::i suppose u mean good....and i dont know...haven't seen many ppl cry
How else do you express sadness ::writing....or just not smiling....that's how u know im sad
Are you sad all the time ::no
+ Anger +
What does it take to make you mad ::a lot....
What do you do when you're angry ::i usually don't talk to the person...i dont like confrontations....so i just avoid the person
How short is your temper ::not very short....
How long does it take you to calm down ::sometimes i just dont calm down at all...but normally...maybe a few hours depending on y i was pissed in the first place
What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad ::said some things i prolly shouldn't've said.....
Do you freak out when others are angry ::sometimes i do....depends if it's me they're angry at and what i did
Has anyone ever recommended anger management to you ::haha no...im not THAT bad.....
What's the worst thing someone's done to make you mad ::george....that sums it up
Do you anger people ::i can and i have
+ Joy +
How often are you happy ::often...
What makes you happy ::ppl....and things going my way
What do you do when you're happy ::smile....hehe what else would i do?
How optimistic are you ::eh....depends what it is....when it comes to school work and such im very opt. but when it comes to guys and stuff like that....not at all
Do happy people make you mad ::sometimes if they're too happy and im pissed off or something like that
What's the worst thing someone can do while they're happy ::rub it in someone's face who's not having a good day
Ever been so happy you were dying to tell everyone ::yep
Ever been so happy you cried ::yea
Do you smile a lot ::yea
Kiss people a lot::when i have a bf...yea
Who really makes you happy ::certain ppl who will remain unnamed tank ya very much...
Do you like doing things for people when you're happy ::depends on who it's for
+ Fear +
What do you do when you're scared ::scream?.....hehe
What scares you ::lonliness...being sad
Do you like scaring people ::only when it's funny...hehe
Do you like the trill of being frightened ::heck yea..like roller coasters and scary movies...hehe
Does fear accompany anger in your case ::nopies
Ever been so scared you couldn't breathe ::yea...damn lizards..
How often do you panic ::not very often...i dont see that many lizards
What's the one thing that scared you more than anything else EVER ::almost losing my mom...
What do you do to calm your nerves ::listen to music...call a friend...
Do rollercoasters scare you ::yea but that's what makes them fun!
+ The strongest emotion +
What song never fails to get your strongest emotions going ::iris
Movie ::city of angels
Commericial ::u guys never spell that right! .. and i dont think there is a commercial that gets my emotions going.....
Person ::george
Thing ::my notebook
Sight ::when it's pitch black outside.....
Sound ::hmm..not sure bout that one
Food ::hmm.....i dunno chocolate maybe? hehe
Thing you're looking forward to/want ::i want a lot of things right now.....
+ What do you do +
When the emotion suck ::listen to music and mope around
When the emotion rocks ::listen to music and daydream bout what it is that has me feeling that way...or who it is
When there's no emotion ::just lay around....waiting for SOME emotion..
+ Would you rather +
Never feel again ::sometimes i wish i did....but then what would be the point in living?
Feel loneliness or anger for the rest of your life ::anger....cuz u gotta feel strongly about someone in order to be angry with them...where as if ur lonely..there's no one to feel strongly about
Be happy forever and never experience bad times ::that would kick ass.....but i wouldn't appreciate it as much
Cause misery ::i think i'd rather feel it than cause it...but either way...like if i caused misery to someone...then i would feel miserable...
Feel misery ::^^^^^
Be alone ::depends on how im feeling....if im sad....go away
Be with everyone you know ::^^^^^
+ Who +
Cheers you up more than anyone else ::no one right now.....
Angers you more than anyone else ::i dont need to say the name...they know who they are
Scares you more than anyone else ::^^^same person..i guess cuz sometimes they do things they really shouldn't be doing...and i no longer have any say in what they do....that kind of scares me...
Makes you think about your emotions more than anyone else ::myself
Makes you really care about how they feel and what they think ::probably yara.....we get into some heated debates hehe cough cough homecoming...

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:: 2003 18 October :: 3.23 pm

Have you ever hit someone forcefully?:yes..me and my cousins used to play wrestling..hehe long story
Have you ever thrown anything at a moving car?:nope
Have you ever been in a fist fight?:......the whole wrestling thing....but other than that no
Have you ever laughed so hard you cried?:haha yea all the time
Have you ever hit an animal on the road?:no...i almost hit a duck once but he got in my way!!!!!
Have you ever seen a Beatles film?:nope....they have films?
Have you ever cussed?:haha...no shit dumbass...<--- see?
Have you ever been on a subway?:nope...but i will when i live in nyc!
Have you ever taught a little kid to cuss?:not on purpose.....
Have you ever cheated on a test/exam?:yea
Have you ever skipped school?:on like club days.....but otherwise no
Have you ever egged someones house?:nope
Have you ever gotten a computer virus?:ya
Have you ever cried for no reason at all?:yea
At last but not least, have you ever missed someone?:yes

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day at school:i dont remember it but i was in cuba....
kiss:it was yucky and sloppy...but i didnt' know better at the time hehe
girlfriend/boyfriend:i didnt really like him but i got pressured into it .... pathetic i know hehe
time getting high:hasn't happened yet and never will
time drinking:it was like soda and some liquor in it...i was wit my cousins
date:hmm...i guess it was at the movies wit a group of ppls
time having sex:has yet to happen
time you asked someone out:turns out he was gonna ask ME out.....so i did it for no reason hehe
time you ate sea food:my step dad lied to me and told me it was chicken....
time getting in trouble for something really big:...dont think it's happened yet....
detention:it was cuz i didnt do my hw in like 5th grade but my mom lied and said i was sick... hehe
time getting a filling:hmm...it was different....but i got used to it..u kinda have to when u have 18 more to go!
fist fight:never had a REAL one.....
time you cut yourself:i dont cut myself....
questioned existance:hmm...i dunno.....

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:: 2003 17 October :: 5.07 pm

People have you loved?:one
People have you kissed?:french?...6....pop?...9-10 ish
Commandments have you broken?:i dunno what the commandments r so i dunno if i've broken them
Places have you lived in (for over 3 months)?:whew....like......over 20
Countries have you been to?:3
Languages can you speak fluently?:2 (spanish and english) currently learning 2 more (french and latin)
People are you talking to right now?:3
Times have you been in a car today?:twice
Different kinds of meat have you eaten?:....hehe odd question.....but quite a few i guess
Different kinds of liquor have you tasted?:quite a few as well
Jobs you have held?:none....i start in november
Years of school have you attended?:10
Shows have you been to this month?:shows?.....if u mean concerts, i've never been to any so 0
Friends would you call "close"?:like 2 or 3

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:: 2003 17 October :: 12.45 pm

aww i want this.......

My Best Friend
by Tim McGraw

I never had no one that I could count on
I've been let down so many times
I was tired of hurtin'
So tired of searchin'
Till you walked into my life

It was a feelin' I'd never known
And for the first time, I didn't feel alone

You're more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh, we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Every time I look at you

I don't know where I'd be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You're my best friend
You're my best friend, oh yeah

You stand by me
And you believe in me
Like nobody ever has
When my world goes crazy
You're right there to save me
You make me see how much I have
And I still tremble when we touch
And oh the look in your eyes
When we make love

You're more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh, we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Every time I look at you

I don't know where I'd be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You're my best friend

You're my best friend

You're more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh, we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Every time I look at you

I don't know where I'd be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You're my best friend

You're my best friend
You're my best friend

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