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babaloo181

:: 2004 1 February :: 8.43pm

john mayer
Great Indoors
check your pulse
its proof that you’re not listening to
the call your life’s been issuing you
the rhythm of the line of idle days

scared of the world outside you should go explore
pull all the shades and wander the great indoors

lamplight makes the shadows play
and posters take the walls away
the TV is a window pane
the view wont let you down

so put your faith in a late night show
I bet you didn’t even know
depends on how far out you go
The channel numbers change

scared of the world outside you should go explore
pull all the shades and wander the great indoors

though lately I can't blame you
I have seen the world
And sometimes wish your room had room for two

so go unlock the door
and find what you are here for
the great indoors
leave the great indoors

check your pulse
its proof that you’re not listening to
the call your life’s been issuing you
the rhythm of the line of idle days

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cutie2187

:: 2004 1 February :: 8.28pm

arg fuck all of you....i hate poeple...why do they use me as a punching bag...like when they are all in a bad mood htey tack it out on me...omg fuck guys....they are soo pmsing right now

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babaloo181

:: 2004 1 February :: 6.52pm

hehe
nothing i didn't know before.....
collegeguy
THE FUNNY GUY!!!!
Yeah, ha-ha, his dirty jokes are, like, sooo
funny... But isn't he exactly that guy who's
gonna be sittin' infront of the TV in 15 years,
asking you to bring him some more beer while
making,umm, jokes about you gettin kinda fat?


What is your guy-type?
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orange
You are Orange.
You are outgoing and optomistic. You always try to
find the bright spot in everything. You are
energetic and people are naturally attracted to
you. However, you are not always sure of what
your purpose or goals are.
Most Compatible With: Fresh Mint


Which Tic-Tac Flavor Are You?
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weird...and i dont think it fits me but w/e i felt like it:
You are Proverbs
You are Proverbs.


Which book of the Bible are you?
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cutie2187

:: 2004 1 February :: 3.21pm

I can hear your heart slowly breaking before me. I love it...I love to hear you in pain. To know your killing. That my words can bring you down you knees. All this time I was the one at fault...I was the one who fucked up in your eyes. The times you tied me up, beat me to the floor and screaming my faults. Who needs who now?! Maybe you didn't notice all these fucking bruises the first time, I hope you do now! I need you to crawl...How fucking dare you make me look like its my fault once again? Dare you! I'm so fucking sick of your lies...so sick of your abuse. All those times I begged for you not to, you did it anyway...because you’re the one always on top and the one who’s always the boss. Damn you...Now it's my time...my time to see you fucking crawl...I know you'll make me pay for this like always...but right now...my time...never mind my karma...

I see: pain

I need: answers

I want: to find what im missing

I have: no-one

I love: things way too much

I hate: this world

I miss: my childhood

I fear: lonelyness

I feel: emotionally tired

I hear: tv

I smell: food

I crave: some happiness

I wonder: what im missing

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last cigarette: omg yuckyness

last car ride: mall to me casa

last good cry: i dont remember its been awhile

last library book checked out: white orleandor

last movie seen: bingo

last book read: umm something

last cuss word uttered: i dont knw

last beverage drank: chocolate milk

last food consumed: pringles

last crush: ummm daniel

last phone call: this morning with carrie

last tv show watched: even stevens

last time showered: few hours ago

last shoes worn: converse

last cd played: finch

last item bought: american eagle

last downloaded: something for my sister

last annoyance: sister

last disappointment: hmm life

last soda drank: eww

last thing written: song/poem

last key used: car

last word spoken: my head hurts

last sleep: umm i took a nap

last im: carrie

last ice cream eaten: rasperry sherbert

last time amused: carrie did that today

last time wanting to die: yesterday

last time in love: umm awhile back

last time hugged: this morning

last chair sat in: the one im in right now

last lipstick used: lip gloss strawberry

last bra worn: this wite one thats on

last shirt worn: im not wearing a shirt right now...its a tank top

last webpage visited: ummm my journal

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1.who are you? a dumbass

2.what are you doing while filling this thingy out? thinking about gay stuff

3.why are you filling this out? cause it was on a friends journal entry

4.what room are you in? my sisters

5.who is your bf/gf? daniel

6.where were you born? here in the good ol florida

7.how old are your parents? umm old

8.current music? none

9.one thing u would change about yourself? everything

10.how are you today? dazed and lost...hmm same thing almost

11.what did you do today? umm comp, nap, comp, and another nap...no point on being awake

12.what time is it? 3:09

13.what time did you get up this morning? 10

14.did you eat breakfast? yes

15.if so, what did you eat? pancakes

16.what did u eat for lunch? ice cream

17.who is your fav rock band? umm finch, blink 182, ataris, all american rejects, and a bunch more

18.who is your fav rapper? umm no

19. would you like to sleep with someone that goes to your school? sure if they got me drunk


GET SCARED EASILY? yes

CRY A LOT? not really

GET HURT EASILY? sort of depends from who

HAVE AN ENEMY? yea actually a few

SAVE YOUR ASSINGMENTS FOR THE LAST MINUTE? yup cant help it

PRETEND YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT A CERTAIN PERSON BUT YOU ACTUALLY DO? yes i do that too often

KNOW WHAT YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP? hell the fuck no...all i know i better do something good

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babaloo181

:: 2004 1 February :: 1.48pm
:: Mood: wonderful
:: Music: some john mayer song.....number 7 if u must know

sigh so much to say..
aloha! wowsers i have soooooo much to say! wellz yesterday was the latin forum (competition) and omg it was soooo much fun!!!!! omg the night before i had to learn like 5 new tenses in latin in order to prep for the grammar test......i had to learn the future tense, the future perfect tense, the pluperfect tense, the passive voice, the perfect tense, and the imperfect tense.......ay dios mio....hehe i learned them all though! well when i got there the first person i saw was alex......oh yea i forgot to say that i had to wake up at 6 30 in the morning on a SATURDAY! haha well anywayz my mom dropped me off and at that exact same time alex pulled up so me and him hung out for a while hahahhaha he's so funny! he kept makin fun of my beautiful drawing......that dildo! haha so ya then adamus showed up! we had such a blast haha. well we finally went inside and registered our creative projects and then went and sat down in the aud....after roaming for a lil while unsure of where to go....hehe. so ya we sat down.....me and adam were lookin around the aud talkin bout how much smaller it was than ours.....hahaha and how it was prolly cuz they spend all their money on actual edu.....while we just spend it on our aud....heheh so ya then i got up and bought a pop tart.....hehe. they did this whole welcome speech crapiola.......then we went off and took our tests.....they were so hard! omg they had like analogies in latin! i can barely work those in english! jesus christ! but w/e i took the vocab 1 test and the grammar 1 test. after that i met up wit carrolus and pulchra (these r their latin names btw cuz i dont really know their real names hehe) so yea we met up and we hung out and then we realized we had to go to certamen! which is like this brain bowl thingus where we're in a group and we go against other schools and buzz in to answer q's and stuff.....it's soo much fun! but anywayz certamen was starting in like 5 minutes and we couldnt find ciara the 4th person in our group! so we were like freakin out going all over the place askin ppls if they had seen her. finally we went to the cafeteria and she was there so we were like oh shit hurry up! hehe so we went inside the room to do certamen.....but apparently some other schools signed up at last minute and they didnt have enough ppls or something....so we got moved to this other room to compete with these other ppls.......hahah the funny thing is.....ok well hillsborough is known for winning this thing like almost every stinkin year...so we got this reputation of being really really smart....haha so as soon as we walked into that room wit our lil hillsborough latin shirts........both groups just look up, they drop their mouths and go "oh crap hillsborough" hahahahhahahhaaha it felt nice to have that power....to be intimidating! oh yea baby! hahahha but ya we kicked ass in certamen! it's 3 teams against each other and round 1 we scored 65 points to their 20 and 0 and round 2 we scored 40 to their 15 and 10.......the scary thing was that before they moved us the first time we were going against level 1 latin ppls just like us but they were in middle school so they were like 11 but they looked like 8! but the thing is i wasn't thinkin.....oh great this'll be a breeze......i was thinking aww crap what if we lose?! the humiliation! aww shit! hehehehe also in the second round all the latin 2 ppls from our school sat behind us to like cheer us on...kinda like groupies hahah it was great......of course anant was there.....he kept makin references to the whole me and andrew thing hahah....he was like oh thaimi i see andrew's behind u......so u wanna get it from behind? hahahah and then he got ansel to like stand over me while i was sitting and like lean over me .... i was like wtf r u doing! and he's like anant told me to stand here and wait for a signal haha i was like hahaha get off me! hehe. but ya ..... it was hilarious. in the beginning there was a lot of waiting around cuz we had to wait for everyone to get registered so me alex andrew and adam were standing outside and they were all making fun of my stature......or lack there of......hehe i was like u know what screw u! but then andrew came in my defense! he was like....uh alex u really shouldn't be talkin cuz ur not all that much taller than she is....heheh. yea go andrew! hehe. but ya it was funny we were jokin around......we developed this plan to have someone pee on all the drawings so that mine would stand a chance......hahahah! hilarious! it was such a blast! then after certamen me carrolus pulchra and adamus went to go see the olympics and they had this egg toss thingy ma bob contest! haha it was hilarious cuz sean mulligan and cameron were a team and in this one part they were like really far away from each other and cam threw sean the egg and it broke and he got egg goo allllllllll over him! omg! so then sean got the egg goo and started chasin cam wit it! hahahahha it was hilarious cuz cam starts haulin ass and his shoe flies off! hahahhaha so sean instead of followin cam just gets his shoe and starts runnin the other way putting the egg goo all in cam's shoe as he's running.......hahahhaha then cam turns around and realizes what sean is doing so he starts chasing sean now! and his second shoe flies off! so cam is chasin sean completely barefoot hahahah! in the middle of this egg thingus hahahhahah it was hilarious omg i could not stop laughing........priceless! so ya then we hung out a lil bit more and then came the awards ceremony! i got 1st place in the county in vocabulary!!!!!!!!!! YAY ME! then i got 7th place in grammar...not as good but still! haha the funny thing is i barely studied for vocab while on the other hand i studied like coo coo for grammar......so ya it was a lil odd....hahai was freakin out when they were callin the vocab awards cuz they hadn't called my name and im like aww crap i didnt place........and they said second place....i was like shit.....this is bad this is bad....and then carrolus sitting next to me goes....no no this is noto bad this is good watch! and then they go first place thaimi fina! omg i flipped out.......my mouth dropped open and i like freaked out hahaha so i stood up to go get my trophy and i look around and all the hillsborough ppls r like screamin their heads off and wit their hands in the air and i look over at alex and he's like "whooooooooooo thaimi!!!!!!!!!!!" hahah it was great....i felt so loved heheh. so ya that was a blast...i ended up leavin early though cuz the ceremony was takin too long and my mommy had to go to work so i dont know how we did in certamen or if hillsborough won all around....i told carrolus to let me know monday so ill find out soon enough.......i hope we win! *crosses fingers* if we do i get to go to state! 3 days.....u know what that means? 3 days in orlando for the french congres competition and then 3 days in idunno where for the latin competition! yay! im so excited oh lordy! hehe......wish me luck ppls! alritey wellz ima go know cuz i've typed quite enough don't ya think? buhz byez

tonite's song: if you could only see by tonic

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cutie2187

:: 2004 1 February :: 10.38am

i think im staying here on woohu...im not sure...im indisive...but hey ill have two journals...thats okay...it will work...ill write later

IF YOU COULD ONLY SEE BY TONIC

If you could only see the way she loves me
Then maybe you would understand
Why I feel this way about our love
And what I must do
If you could only see how blue her eyes can be when she says
When she says she loves me

Well you got your reasons
And you got your lies
And you got your manipulations
They cut me down to size

Sayin' you love but you don't
You give your love but you won't

If you could only see the way she loves me
Then maybe you would understand
Why I feel this way about our love
And what I must do
If you could only see how blue her eyes can be when she says
When she says she loves me

Seems the road less traveled
Shows happiness unraveled
And you got to take a little dirt
To keep what you love
That's what you gotta do

Sayin' you love but you don't
You give your love but you won't
You're stretching out your arms to something that's just not there
Sayin' you love where you stand
Give your heart when you can

If you could only see the way she loves me
Then maybe you would understand
Why I feel this way about our love
And what I must do
If you could only see how blue her eyes can be when she says
When she says she loves me

Sayin' you love but you don't
You give your love but you won't
Sayin' you love where you stand
Give your heart when you can

If you could only see the way she loves me
Then maybe you would understand
Why I feel this way about or love
And what I must do
If you could only see how blue her eyes can be when she says
When she says she loves me

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cutie2187

:: 2004 31 January :: 9.49pm

everyone join http://www.caleida.com/ becuase my new journal is there...i will update you all later....bye bye

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cutie2187

:: 2004 30 January :: 11.28pm

The more things change, the more they stay the same. I'm not sure who the first person was who said that. Probably Shakespeare. Or maybe Sting. But at the moment, it's the sentence that best explains my tragic flaw, my inability to change. I don't think I'm alone in this. The more I get to know other people, the more I realize it's kind of everyone's flaw. Staying exactly the same for as long as possible, standing perfectly still... It feels safer somehow. And if you are suffering, at least the pain is familiar. Because if you took that leap of faith, went outside the box, did something unexpected... Who knows what other pain might be out there, waiting for you. Chances are it could be even worse. So you maintain the status quo. Choose the road already traveled and it doesn't seem that bad. Not as far as flaws go. You're not a drug addict. You're not killing anyone... Except maybe yourself a little. When we finally do change, I don't think it happens like an earthquake or an explosion, where all of a sudden we're like this different person. I think it's smaller than that. The kind of thing most people wouldn't even notice unless they looked at us really close. Which, thank God, they never do. But you notice it. Inside you that change feels like a world of difference. And you hope this is it. This is the person you get to be forever... that you'll never have to change again.

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cutie2187

:: 2004 30 January :: 8.59pm

WOW!

Have You Ever
by Offspring

Falling, I'm falling

Have you ever walked through a room
But it was more like the room passed around you
Like there was a leash around your neck that pulled you through

Have you ever been at someplace
Recognizing everybody's face
Until you realized that there was no one there you knew
Well I know

Some days, my soul's confined and out of mind
Sleep forever
Some days, I'm so outshined and out of time
Have you ever

Falling, I'm falling

Have you ever buried your face in your hands
Cause no one around you understands
Or has the slightest idea what it is that makes you be

Have you ever felt like there was more
Like someone else was keeping score
And what could make you whole was simply out of reach
Well I know

Someday I'll try again and not pretend
This time forever
Someday I'll get it straight but not today
Have you ever

Falling, I'm falling

Some days, my soul's confined and out of mind
Sleep forever
Some days, my darkest friend is me again
Have you ever
Someday I'll try again and not pretend
This time forever
Someday I'll get it straight but not today
Have you ever

When the truth walks away
Everybody stays
Cause the truth about the world is that crime does pay

So if you walk away
Who is gonna stay
Cause I'd like to think the world is a better place

When the truth walks away
Everybody stays
Cause the truth about the world is that crime does pay

So if you walk away
Who is gonna stay
Cause I'd like to make the world be a better place

When the truth walks away
Everybody stays
Cause the truth about the world is that crime does pay

So if you walk away
Who is gonna stay
Cause I'd like to think the world is a better place
I'd like to leave the world as a better place
I'd like to think the world

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cutie2187

:: 2004 30 January :: 4.21pm

ARG!

Taking Over Me
by Evanescence

You don't remember me but I remember you
I lie awake and try so hard not to think of you
But who can decide what they dream and dream I do...

I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you
To live, to breathe, you're taking over me

Have you forgotten all i know and all we had?
You saw me mourning my love for you
And touched my hand
I knew you loved me then

I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you
To live, to breathe, you're taking over me

I look in the mirror and see your face
If i look deep enough
So many things inside that are just like you are taking over

I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you
To live, to breathe, you're taking over me

I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you
To live, to breathe, you're taking over me

You're taking over me...

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cutie2187

:: 2004 30 January :: 3.43pm

i just did something really dumb...wow...someone shoot me...

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cutie2187

:: 2004 29 January :: 9.00pm

i decided today no more writing for ahwile from donna unless its music lryics or poems i written no real entries...bye homies

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cutie2187

:: 2004 28 January :: 5.21pm
:: Mood: mixed!!!

okay well today i decided im not writing in this thing for a while...hmm i dont know why...but ill still post an entry every once in a while...maybe tomorrow and do it daily for once....hehe i dont know me and my indecisiveness...so now im going to make another complete entry...i think the moon is full...anywho...today was actually pretty interesting and funny...well i got my tests back in algebra 2 and on my tests i got one A, one B, and one C...yup go me!...then i work in the office and the last two days have been hell cause my teacher person has been absent...oh wellz...yea but it was funny today cause i had like a line of 10 ppl signing in and marcos walks in and i let him cut in front of everyone...i was like oops i didnt notice...hehe...umm 3rd...me and carrie are nuts and vince...hmm he is umm him...i dont know there is something about him...he is a cool one...then there is 4th...i refuse to do anything in that class cause i dont agree with what has happened in the last couple days...i hate the ib kids in there...i hate how they control everything...its not a fucking dictatorship now..then lunch hmm mike was there...so crystal was happy and i undressed marcos half way...its fun unbuttoning someone and they not noticing...its great...then 5th i was going to go to B lunch but then when i got the pass i decided to not go...i dont know what stopped me but w.e....its okay...then came 6th...i got out and went to C lunch...that lunch if alright...me and nessa went to the side so we could exchange shirts...well i had my top off but my jacket around me so i was fine...but some how it opened and flashed some girls walking by...then the bell rang so i had to rush and figure out how to get my shirt on...w/e hehe...then umm 7th i hate mr.zale...oh wellz...its okay..it was alright today...then hmm 8th...omg im going to kill someone there...me and jerrica was looking at andrew's ass and of course i get caught looking so the whole class thinks i like him...umm noo...he is good looking..but no...so now i concluded i have a love pentagon...its nuts..i like a few guys and a few like me...so its good in the hood but donna wants to be single...hehe whosh singleness rocks...i love flirting and having my fun..omg i forgot to leave the best parts out...the next two weekends are going to be a blast...this weekend im going to nessas house...me and crystal and her and daniel and cyrus and paul are going to her house and we are all going swimming and taking pictures and having a band meeting and stuff...yea it will be fun and for next week on friday with no school we are all going to the fair...me and crystal and mike and carrie...me and carrie are going off alone to go pick us up some hot ass high school guys that also have friday off...plus im hoping to see ppl from middle school for some reason to see what happened...it will be fun...i think marcos might go...i dont know...maybe who knows...i realized that cesar lives close to me if he lives close to nessa...thats cool...yes yes...well hmm anymore shit happened???...i dont know but if i left something out im me...hehe...bye bye carrie my lvoe and the carrier of my chilld...bye bye jerrica my turtle lover...bye bye cesar my muffin man...and bye to everyone i luv!...ill write tomorrow...brrr cold......PEACE BYE!~

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cutie2187

:: 2004 27 January :: 4.22pm

i can sit here and think about everything...i understand why people kill themselves...i feel it...i dont know how to explain it...but i just think why do they get that far...just why...i mean you know how many times i actually wanted to die and how many times i tried but something stopped me from going too far...i just think and then i realize why i dont kill myself and why some other dont...you know around every road you find a sercret, surprise, a learning experience, or just something worth living for...all these unexpected things just makes life worth coming...it may be painful or it may be beneficial...who knows...just that little thing in life that you dont know thats coming makes it worth while...i dont know anything...

like i say before...life is gay deal with it...and time is the only medication for anything..

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cutie2187

:: 2004 26 January :: 8.52pm

People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centered; Forgive them anyway. If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives; Be kind anyway. If you are successful, you will win some false friend and true enemies; Succeed anyway. If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you; Be honest and frank anyway. What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight; Build anyway. If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous; Be happy anyway. The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow; Do good anyway. Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough; Give the world the best you've got anyway. You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God; it was never between you and them anyway. - Mother Teresa

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