:: 2004 1 March :: 11.11 pm
:: Mood: Predatory

thursday is playing at the kelsey club this weekend and i want to go. marisa..wednesdayyyy!




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:: 2004 29 February :: 6.09 pm

i'm a bad friend
friday night tommy and martin came and picked me up. they have no sense of direction whatsoever and claim i live in the middle of nowhere, haha yeah okayyy. we went back to tommys house to drink the pops (codename for the captain). We went to beach to meet with a bunch of people and just ended up back at tommy's house with ross nicole louis and sean. dropped some people off and went to ross' house. my parents picked me up and i got home around 1 something. i was supposed to go out with tyler and will but things went too late and everyone was tired and went home or to bed. my parents have been going to bed really late now it sucks. my dad thinks its a great idea to just sleep on the couch for a couple hours and pretend to watch tv. And when i tell him to go to bed he says no.
saturday i worked. hung out with mark that night. he wasnt allowed out so we stayed at his house. but we made a trip to super walmart with richie and i ran into will sean and tyler. seeing them seriously made my night :). i made too many plans this weekend and i broke some promises. im really sorry. i would take it back if i could. <3
today is sunday. i worked again. i saw jenny when i was on break and she bought me lunch. i love how almost every day i work someone i know comes into the store. i wonder if they think its cute or something. someone should tell them it isnt MOM. but anywho, today im very bleh. i fell asleep on the couch last night and my dad woke me up at 7 this morning to go to bed. im really quiet today also.

my dad has stomach pains. he went to the doctor yesterday and he thinks it might be a gull stone. :-\ hopefully it wont get worse bc he'll have to go into surgery.

my grandma left today for australia for an entire month. im so jealous. the only part i hate facing is thinking of 3 of my relatives flying over water for that many hours. i dont know it just seems like if they would crash on land it wouldnt be as bad, but in water finding any trace of them would be near impossible. i shouldnt be thinking of that anyways.

i really need a vacation.

im gunna start buying cards for no reason and sending them to people just for fun. i mean i do work at a card store. they need to have cards that just mean "im sorry" besides sympathy cards. not all sorrys relate to death. i got a bday card for katie today. her bday is two months away and im itching to send it. everything about it reminds me of her, it's insane. allthough, my intentions were for erica. oh well

-jessica

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:: 2004 23 February :: 10.54 pm

it's like it's been this way all along..
i m s o b o r e d
i've cried 3 times in 3 weeks
what the hell
i never cry anymore
so i lied to my rents last night because i wanted to get out of the house
i had a cooper project to do and it left me with 5 hours of sleep
aw fuck it i probably still would have done the same thing even if my cat hadn't of died
there's a cross there now. <333
my music isn't working
it's very depressing
i think my mom is going to crash my computer tomorrow
yay, jessica loses everything. no
marisa drives in 8 days, haha taco belllllllll
wow i must be so boring to read
i hope you're not reading this
my sympathy
the words cheese doodle just popped into my head
i wish i had the urge to explain all the feelings that you're making me feeeeeeelll!
haha ok wow that was NOT supposed to break into song
but what i meant was i never talk about how i feel about things
this is becoming too much of a log
jessica

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:: 2004 22 February :: 9.31 pm

they buried punky today.

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:: 2004 21 February :: 5.54 pm
:: Mood: Drained

i love will
so me and justine hung out last night with jon travis joey and ducky and met up with donna and them to get drinks after jessica maupins bday dinner. travis got a 170 dollar speeding ticket. justine slept at my house and we went out later. first we saw richie at 7-11 and then we drove to south beach as planned. the only reason we even went was to make fun of the homeless and the postitutes. we walked for hours and went on the beach yadda yadda but decided to call it quits around 330. We pile in the car and drive around looking at all the pimped out cars and head towards 95. the car shuts off and we glide to a stop. the alternator is fucked and so are we. we had to leave jons car in miami and take a taxi all the way to delray. out of the 5 of us we scap up 82 dollars. We need 120. will offers to pay the difference when we get to his house. everyone fell asleep on the way there and it ended up being a buck 40. he drove us back to my house and the guys to travis'. about 20 minutes after we layed down one of my parents got up and turned on the hall light. ::whew:: damn fuckin close.

and this morning i had to get up at 11 with only five hours of sleep beacuse i had work. then to find out that punky's eye is filled with blood? and he was running into walls and shitting on the ground. my parents took him to the vet and i guess they kept him for the day. hes downstairs now in the laundry room with the baby gate constantly running into things. its so sad, i hate watching it. the doc said he thinks it might heal and that the eye is one of the fastest healing body parts. if its not gone by monday i think we're going to have to put him to sleep. :'-(

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:: 2004 19 February :: 8.04 pm
:: Mood: fucking exuberant

omgosh work is so exciting
haha that will probably be the only time you'll ever hear me say that
i started today
they hired two other ladies at the same time but theyre working morning and afternoon shifts
i met two other girls today, allie and mary, besies colleen which i already knew
they both live in my neighborhood, weird huh?
allie is really nice. she gets to train me
she knows mike decanio, kandace, ariana, tyler, and steph barb.
and she drives a jetta and offered to take me home
HELLO CAN YOU SAY NEW BEST FRIEND?
haha no jk
so the hardest part so far is remembering what all the series of dust collecters are called and where they all are
haha i hate everything im working with except for the cards
did you know they have cards for things like "congrats on getting a new car" and "child accident" i mean, come on now...

today was a good day. i need to get crackin on that spanish. i know tomorrow i wont get to put it off so i need to be ready for sure. i hate oral presentations.

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:: 2004 18 February :: 9.58 pm

wow the OC is so good
i should have listened to all the hype before.

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:: 2004 16 February :: 10.46 pm

one dollar shorter

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:: 2004 14 February :: 11.59 am

son of a
sean and billy picked me up last night. we went to billys house and stood outside while they had a 12 pack. billys g/f came over and then sean had some chick come over that he's tryin to get with and she brought her 13 year old cousin. dude, NOT FUN FOR ME. i cant be a cock block and im not gunna play with her little cousin so i just sat..sat..sat..
i was damn tired all night and i think i went to sleep around 1. oh, nicole called to see if i wanted to come out with her and ari again but..that tired thing, yeah. thanks, though.


was supposed to go to the beach this morning with nicole and jessie but plans changed and im going over nicoles soon. damnit i really wanna go. oh well, jet skiis tomorrow WOOOOOOO!!

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:: 2004 13 February :: 7.20 pm

she's got the laughies
nicole p justine katie jon stephanie liz and ari last night
i love fucked up people

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:: 2004 10 February :: 8.38 pm

[7:56 PM]: i love how you call me and talk to me like you said you would
Auto response from BaBiGuRlL315 [7:56 PM]: be right back
[8:03 PM]: youre different from when i knew you

my gosh. could you get off of that already? my fuckin bad. you can't even look me in the eye. why is different always bad with you? you've succeeded in making me feel bad, congratulations. i see it as i've grown and learned. now it's your turn. get over it.

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:: 2004 9 February :: 11.11 pm

We get to dress paper dolls for our next project in Spanish class. It seems to be more difficult than I had anticipated. Progress reports will be sent home on Wednesday. English should be 200% better because I actually put the time and effort required into my work. I'm so freakin lost in math. I cant do any of my homework. It sucks. The truth is I can very easily go for help after school but I just decide not too spend any extra time there than what's necessary. I dont know what electives to take for next year. I'm definetly signing up for Drawing and Painting and possibly Weight Training. TV Production could be interesting. I planned on taking an extra year of Spanish just so I could get the honors credit but I dont think I can get into honors this year. Damn. I downloaded limewire last night finally. Oh man, it's ridiculous. It takes me an hour on average per song. I would give anything right now to have dsl. The thing is I think my dad actually wants to get it but it's going to be on his computer and he wont let me download on his computer. Hmph. THAT'S IT. OUT ON THE STREETS FOR ME. I mean it's only an extra 50 bucks a month. :) Oh, and another realization today. Lovers Day is less than a week away. How.............depressing. But then again, I've never had anyone on Valentines so I can't expect things to be an worse. Well, I think it's time to sleep. Maybe tomorrow I can actually get up with the alarm.

goodnight love

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:: 2004 8 February :: 8.12 pm
:: Mood: Uneasy

as if my moms laugh isnt annoying enough..we put a couple drinks in her

i know a movie star, i've got her plastered to my wall
just like we're dear old friends, like she already knows me
she's perfect as she seems, lifts me right out the Mezanine
i finally fell in love, i've been waiting forever
4 3 2 1 went out the barrel of the gun
keep my head way down
stay out or stay in
half dead and half numb
she's enough to make me warm
it's all so safe and sound
lie back and fast asleep, if you could see what i could see,
drip, drop a lovely dream,
God damn you movie star, can't you just play a minute more
we'd be the best of friends, you could stay here forever
4 3 2 1 went out the barrel of a gun
keep my head way down
stay out or stay in
half dead and half numb
she's enough to make me warm
it's all so safe and sound
she will be sweet on me, just like a mystery
its not so hard to see, if im not mistaken
she comes from far away, and gets closer every day
and all that i can say is that she's all i want and all that i live for
4 3 2 1 went out the barrel of a gun
keep my head way down
stay out or stay in
half dead and half numb
she's enough to make me warm
it's all so safe and sound


well saturday im not sure what i did during the day but i ended up at katies house.
i had a very bad start of the night
i am very insecure about myself and i pretty much lowered that to another level out of stupidity and i was, or am, upset about it.
we went out with justine jon matt jesse and kids from the kava bar.
drank at some kids house
i cant drink anymore
i just havent wanted to and it doesnt seem to be changing
w.e it keeps me out of trouble i suppose

i guess things about katie have been bothering me lately. she becomes annoyed very easily and get pissed off for the stupidest reasons. justine noticed it too.

do you think that if you met someone almost exactly like yourself with the same interests, morals, and humor that you would be the two most boring people together? or would it be the best friend you could ever find?

slept at justines and eveyone left early this morning
i did a poster board for the spanish food pyramid and cleaned for a couple hours.

we have a 3 and a half day school week and a 4 and a half day weekend. rock
and my last free, full weekend before i start work

i drive in 41 days i think. not that im counting or anything.


-jessica

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:: 2004 7 February :: 11.26 am
:: Mood: bah-humbug
:: Music: soty

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:: 2004 5 February :: 9.05 pm

"hey guys lets smoke weed druing class" harharhar
mike is 19 tomorrow, its unbelievable.
i went to dinner tonight with the ryans
happy birthday mike.
he seems to be doing well
he has a new gf now
i wasnt to sure about everything seemings he hadnt been with anyone since that mexican bitch.
TTTAACCCCOOOOOOOOOOOO haha

tomorrows another friday
pep rally
does anyone else pronounce it pepper ally or is that not the cool thing anymore?
i probably just made it up in my mind that it was.

im schedule seems to be filling in quickly for this weekend.
marisa and i tomorrow night
and martin wants me to hang out with him tommy and ali on saturday sometime
you dont think that my boss lady would call me in on friday to work saturday do you?
i sure hope not

im busy right now but im gunna come back and write a whoooole bunch of useless information that wont mean anything next week.

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