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2003 22 February :: 4.32 pm
:: Mood: Bored
4 30, Saturday...and bored. Going out tonight SOME WHERE with Mark. Hes making ME pick. And I hate it. :( Im so bad at this stuff. I dont wanna suggest something and hes like ok but really he doesnt want to do it. And he doesnt tell me anything either. This blows. Marisa said dinner. Mike said chill at his house then beach. Haha Mike is such a romantic. I love it hes so cute. Mark is at work now and I have to wait for him to get off before he can call me back. I hope hes not mad at me. I couldnt make up my mind this morning. And I really still havent decided. Grr.
I went to the Wellington mall with my mom last night. She was really nice. She can be fun when she wants to be.
Oh!!!!!!!! Im overly excited and extremely happy to say that me and 'him' are friends again. He came up to me yesterday in the hall and was like I need to talk to you but not now, later. I looked for him after school but he had play practice or something. He IMed me online and told me he read my letter and it just went great from there. Im so glad. I cant wait to see him. I wanna give him the biggest hug EVER.
:D Smile for friendship!
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2003 20 February :: 9.59 pm
.....NO REPLY BACK
yep, Uturn tonight. NO ONE went. It was empty. Today was fun in school, had a great time in Demarco's class. We had Mr. Dowling as our sub. He kicks ass. He put the movie on we were sposed to wathc and let everyone talk and mess around--we played "dont let the balloon hit the floor" for a long time. Great fun. Then ms.B's calss wa actually cool too. Hm, weird day.
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2003 19 February :: 9.03 pm
:: Mood: Cold
Ahhh I finally sent it and I'm scared.....
Im freezing. Ok day. Hmmm nothing really to say. K I guess Im done then.
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2003 18 February :: 9.01 pm
:: Mood: Happy
MMMMM :)
Just got home from the mall with my mom and Jenny. We had great fun. Ate at Ruby Tuesday's and the bar tender/waitor guy was really cool. He did a neat martini trick. Then I talked them into goin to the cd store. I planned on getting the Donna's haaaa I'm so glad they have those machines where you can listen to like 30 seconds of each song before you buy it bc I wouldve been dissappointed. I swear every song sounds almost exactly the same except with different words. I was looking for something good and I saw a sign that said somethin liek "if you liek Thursday, Jimmy Eat World, and Dashboard- Get this Album! .. It was Taking Back Sunday, Ive heard of them from Nicole and I listened to it and ended up getting it. Good stuff.
Today was good in all. I was extremely tired bc I only got 5 and a half hours of sleep last night. I was texting till I dont know what time, somewhere btw 11-12. And then I couldnt fall asleep for the longest time and the last time I checked the clock it said 12 30. Today after school Mark was no where to be found. Hah I sw him just as I sat in the truck to leave. Sucks. He called me at home. He said the same thing to me "Where were you!?" pish I looked, I swear, I did! Tomorrow is hmmmmmmmm Wednesday. Nothing exciting. I hope this week goes by fast, it should tho. It always seems to when we have a half day. OH! I wanted to meet Nicoles bf today at her softball game but it started at 4 and I'm gone by then. O well..next time. Marisa is still phyced (shit how do u spell that?) about TEC. It sounded really fun for what I was 'allowed' to hear. Im going next time. Most def. Welll I spose I should go in the shower.
<3 Jessica
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2003 18 February :: 6.29 pm
:: Mood: Happy
:: Music: Country..Yee Haww!
AHHHHHHH!! :D
It happened last night. It's finally official. Im very happy. Excited..
finish later! going to dinner!
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2003 17 February :: 9.32 pm
:: Mood: Feeling Lonely
:: Music: HAHA NORA JONES! NOTT
G Unit...what! what! p i m PPPP!
I had to clean the house today and then my dad brought me to Laurens house. We went to the Btown mall and expected to see Nicole working bc she told me she was on til 4. We got there and no sign of Nicole. So I called and she had just left early I guess and was on her way to softball. Left shortly after. Stopped home real quick and drove to Matt's house. Ahhh :) I love Matt. So cute. He's like a big teddy bear lol....anyways! Stayed there for a while and then back to Laurens. My dad picked me up round 7 30. I have extreme feeling to see Mark. lol I called him so I can ask if he can possibly drive to my house to say hi. Haha Sexual Tension Lauren! I left a message for him to call me back but no reply yet. Im guess no bc uhhhhhh its 9 30 now, but ::sigh:: so much for that. Its now been 2 weekends without hanging out. Ahhh. Geez Jessica! shut up! your sounding desperate! But oh wait? am I?
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2003 16 February :: 8.38 pm
Quiz Time:
Your Heart is Blue
What Color is Your Heart?
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Bwahahahah! If you say so.
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2003 16 February :: 8.16 pm
:: Mood: Disappointed
My childish fun ended. It all started when I decided to krimp my super-cool Betty Spaghetti doll's hair that I got in a happy meal. Everything was gravy until one of her hairs burnt off completely and another melted and now sticks straight up. Man, she will never look the same.
Hm. I guess nothing is going on tonight for me. Weee fun night at home. Not. Im bored, wishing I was out. Wishing certain other things also. If they could read minds.
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2003 16 February :: 1.54 pm
:: Mood: Silent
Friday- The trip to Tampa went fast. wait:
I dont think I ever mentioned that I finally met Sean again, or maybe I did. I dont remember. But I just wanted to say thats hes such a cool kid and super nice, always there when you need him. I love him.
ok. So the trip was fast and we checked into the hotel. We decided to go to the "International Mall" to eat, it was cool. It was like a mall of all restaurants. We were all joking around on our way back to the truck I got in and then my dad locked it so my mom was stuck outside in the cold hehe. When they both got in we realized that everything was open, the center councel, the glove box, and the 2 compartments on the top. There was stuff thrown around all in the truck. It was obvious that someone broke in. We drove it over to a lighted area and tried to find where thy got in. It was on the passenger door. Someone used a crobar and undid the lock. They were obviously just looking for cash bc they didnt take my cd player or anything in the back of the truck. We found the security guard and they had already called the cops bc another guy had his window smashed in and they stole his wallet. The police lady came and dusted for finger prints on all the doors. Its soo cool. I always thought that the dust was white, but nope, its black. But after all that we went back over to where we were parked before and found the guys wallet laying on the ground with all the money gone. My dad called it. We returned it to the guy and he was happy-er. I felt soooo bad for the guy. He had just cashed his pay check ($300) and now he has to pay for a new window. And he was a young guy and you could tell that he didnt have the money. I wanted to give him some, but I didnt have any. We went back to the hotel and slept. Our first 3 hours in Tampa werent very pleasant.
Saturday- Off to BusCh Gardens. It was really nice outside. We were there from 10-5 30. We saw almost everything. My mom and I went on every ride. ahhhh :) How I love rollercoasters. Montu is the best. We were sposed to stay another night but neither of us wanted to stay in the yucky hotel. So we went home.
Now its Sunday, about 2 o clock. Havent heard from anyone. Im on page 30 of the book I have to read before I can go out anywhere. I hate reading.
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2003 15 February :: 11.37 pm
:: Mood: Tired
I came home early. Just walked in the door 10 minutes ago. I slept all 5 hours back. It was a long 2 days. A lot of drama.
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2003 12 February :: 4.12 pm
:: Mood: Sick
:: Music: Orchestra Music on the Tube
Yup, I'm officialy sick. No cough. Nope, no fever either. Just the miserable congested feeling and runny nose. I didnt sleep well last night. I woke up around 5 30 this morning bc i had to pee and blow my nose. It was the thing where it all clogs up on one side and then you can only breathe out of that side. I hated that. I decided to get up again at 6 and force myself to go to school. I wasnt gunna go but I hate making up work. We got our progress reports:
Biology- C
Geometry- B+
History- C+
Spanish- A
Bible- B
English- A
P.E.- A
....not bad. About the same as I always get. Maybe better. Tomorrow is a half day :D. I think Im going to go to the beach with Nicole A. , that or the mall. Beach is nicer though.
Oh yeah. My mom pissed me off once again on the way home in the car today. We arent coming back from Bush Gardens til Sunday now and it sucks. Why the fuck do we have to spend TWO nights there if the freakin place will only take up half a day!? She just kep going on and on and on and I put on my headfones and I could still see her talking and her body language and the funny thing is she thought that I could hear her, nope. Not one word. I feel like I am wasting the weekend away. All im going to have left of it will be Sunday night (maybe) and Monday. Woohoo.
You know when you want something so bad and then you try for it for so long, and then when it finally comes to you-you dont want it anymore. Im having that feeling.
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2003 11 February :: 6.14 pm
:: Mood: On the Verge of Sickness
Nooo, I hate being sick, make it go away!
I just took my temperature when I got off the phone with marisa. 98.1 Nope, nothing yet. I feel hot though. I have a sore throat and my nose is running. I was fine all day too. Being sick is on my top 10 list of things I hate most. It seems to last forever, the most miserable week or two. Today was ok. My whole body is drained. My eyes fall shut if I sit comfortable in one spot in class for too long. And when I actually first lay down to bed, I fall asleep right away. Dad picked up Marisa and I after school and we went for our usual ice cream. But instead today we decided to have sandwhiches. It was good. I went to the dentist after to pick up my retainers. Woo hoo. Im only wearing them at night so it's cool with me. Mark I guess thought I could take him home today, and any other day I could, but i couldnt today. I felt kinda bad. O well. Nicole took home Stephanie today I think. I hope everything is good with them.
Kristie and Thomas worked everything out I guess. Im glad she isnt crying anymore. That hurt me. They're still taking their break though. I guess if it will help their relationship then it will be good. She loves him. I hope he loves her too.
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2003 10 February :: 6.08 pm
Just spent some time reading through some things. I have the feeling where I would do anything for anyone right now bc the people I know, that make me happy and who i am, are pleasing and all...i forgot what i was trying to get to.
Ive thought about jsut going away. Without telling anyone and not caring about the consequences. But then comming back with be more fearful. I want to take on a lot in my life. Feeling as if I just dont want to take things so personal, but more lightly. Things will seem to go better so I hope. Maybe ill see a change.
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2003 10 February :: 4.00 pm
:: Mood: Dorky
NICOLE ARE YOU ALIVE?
Just came home from school and im munchin on some munchies. Yuck, i just had a sip of my Dr.Pecker and it tasted like asshole. School was good today. I couldnt keep my eyes open for the 1st two classes. But at the end of the day I was energized, just like the bun bun. All i have is history for homework tonight. Yay :) There was that silent akwardness again today. Bleh, theres that taste agian. I got to see some of my grades for pregress report, A in english and B in bible so far. Sounds good. We have a half day on thursday and no school friday (also Valentines Day)
OOHH! On Vday im going to Bush Gardens with my parentals. Im so excited :D. Ive never been there and i can get a real fix off of rollercoasters. It will be fun. We are just staying the night and coming back on Saturday.
Gotta PEEEEE! heh ttyl!
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2003 9 February :: 5.30 pm
:: Mood: Sympathetic
:: Music: Dashboard- So Impossible
Friday- Called Lauren Braun that night bc we were sposed to chill. She bever answered her cell phone and after 7 I made plans. I went over to Katie Kesl\'s house and Steph Barborini was already there. We walked to Dominos and 7-11 with Tommy Bello, Chas, Bobby, and Sean Melloy right when I got there. It was fun. There were about 10 all ghetto 6th or 7th graders and everytime me steph and katie would walk by theyd be all \"look at those ugly girls\" and were bein all gay and shit. So then we walked off and theyre all \"WHOOS THE HOOO\" haha so I turned my ass around and gave it right back to um n said \"YOOOUS DA HOOOO\". Good Times, good times. But yeah, walked on office depot\'s roof and then went back to tommy\'s house. His room is so chill. The whole place is one big sleeping/sitting area. There\'s his bed, a couch, and then a fouton. Ahhhh his closet is so pimp too. The whole floor is lined with pillows and he has a blacklight in it. Its most def. a hook up spot. We all spent time back and forth between his closet and his room. Being sure to give Steph and Chas some time alone :). Enough said. Maupin, Emily, Liz Hayes, Jess Engleke, and Bivona showed up later on and stayed for bout 2 hours. Kinda pointless. They were leaving when me steph and katie came back from a smoke. The guys were gay about it too. Saying like its so bad when they do it anyways. Fuck that shit.
Saturday- Tommy woke up me and Katie from tapping on the window. We walked to get bagles and bought some stuff at Eckerds. Went back to Tommys house and then Bobby and Sean came back over. Everyone was sposed to go to Jordan\'s house that night bc her parents werent gonna be home and ppl could come over. Bobby was being mean to Katie and we left. Jordans sounded gay and no one was gunna go. Got picked up around 6 30 and dropped Katie at the movies in Boynton.
When I got home I called back Nicole and she said shed pick me up round 8 30 so I jumped in the shower and then right when I got out she called again and said she was on her way. So i hurried and got dressed, plastered my hair, and then did my makeup in the car. We drove to Marisas dads house for refuge, Chris and Ryan were there. Marisa hit her nose on her won knee and she was crying and we left shortly after that. I havent talked to her since, I hope its ok and it didnt swell or anything. We picked up this girl Samantha and met more people at the Mc-D\'s near pope. Wow this other girl Samantha is really annoying. (haha and cant take a hint) We followed some seniors in their car and we didnt know where we were going but we ended up at some Wendy\'s in Deerfield. We had to leave right when we got there so Nicole could be back home by 11. I crashed at her house.
Sunday- Woke up around 9 something but didnt leave her room. She had already gotten up. So I turned the tv on. I came out about 45 minutes later. She is real sick. Was freeeezing and it wasnt a bit cold. Was wearing all sweats and a blanket. Obviously had a high fever. We watched tv for a lil while and then her and her mom brought me back home. Took a shower and ate. I was brushing my hair and I remembered it was Mike\'s Bday so I quick got the fone and called him. :) I love Mike. Best anal partner Ive ever had. Muahahah.
I didnt see Mark at all this weekend. That hasnt happened in a VERY long time. Nicole A. feels as if she is depressed. She got in trouble for ehr grades, and she cant go out, she cant go skiing anymore on wednesday, her grandma has to get x-rays bc she fell, and bobby doesnt like her. Hm, I feel for her. I wouldnt necessarily call it depression. Im not sure she knows the meaning of that. The worst thing you can do is sit by urself all the time and think about things, esp when you turn on ur mushy music, which I tend to do, she just needs to try and not think about it all. Katie might make one of these things if she can get her email to work. Yay, that would be cool. School is tomorrow. This weekend went quickly for me.
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