::
2003 9 February :: 12.37 pm
:: Mood: Happy
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIKE!!!
Happy Birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to Miiikke, Happy Birthday to You. :-D
This wkend was pretty good. Hung out with a lot of friends. Ill get back to that a little later. Gotta dry my hair.
--> Leave Advice |
::
2003 6 February :: 10.02 pm
:: Mood: High Spirited
Greetings and Salutations my good Friends.
Just came home from Uturn. It was good. Dan wasnt there tonight. We had the guy speaker who talks for the middle schoolers. I think that the speakers are all taught how to talk to group of people, or at least for uturn and fuel. Dan and he Brian guy use a lot of the same styles for talking. But yeah hm. Haha Marisa noted that the guy was practically making out with the mic and he ended up saying it later on how its a little too big and he would put it in his mouth if he could. Hmm lets see...Mark and Mick didnt go. Mark hasnt been in school for 3 days so his mom wouldnt let him go tonight. And Mick was at his dads house and Nicole couldnt get ahold of him. So that is that. Mannnn That Noah Kid Is MmmmmmMMmm Soo Fine...(thinking dirty and smiling)...
School was ok. I got a demerit today for "eating in class" from Ms. Mulhall in homeroom. It was sooo gay, I wasnt even eating, I was chewing gum, but I wasnt about to tell her that so I could also pay 15 bucks. But yeah, Robin and I are the only ones who got them out of prolly 5 other people so we talked to her after school. I had to talk bc Robin didnt know what to say but Ms.Mulhall understood how we felt it wasnt fair and shes not sending them into the dean now. We have to come Mon-Thurs after school next week for 10 minutes to clean her room. Oh well. Tomorrow is Friday and i dont have any plans yet. I might go to the movies with Ally or something. Whatever I do, I hope it's fun. My parents are going to moroso at 5 and I JUST found that out so I gotta liek get home and change and figure out where Im gunna go otherwise I'll be screwed and stuck at home all night. OH yeah..supposed to hang out with Lauren Braun this wkend too. I dont know when yet. I hope we go to pimp co. Well im going to go wash up for bed. heh. right.
Sweet Dreams Everyone :)
--> Leave Advice |
::
2003 6 February :: 10.00 pm
:: Mood: Shocked and Appauled
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHA it just shows how critising you are. BUT UM I DONT FEEL LIKE WRITING IN THIS RIGHT NOW BC JOURNALS ARE GAY!! So I made one anyways.
1 Inspiration |
--> Leave Advice |
::
2003 4 February :: 7.57 pm
:: Mood: depressed
You werent there today. I was waiting for you. Looking forward to it. You didnt answer my call. Your not online. Please just call back and say your sick.
They say that your teen years are when you go through the most emotional changes.
TRUE THAT.
God how I need you.
I'm pathetic.
2 Inspirations |
--> Leave Advice |
::
2003 2 February :: 9.16 pm
Also....
Jackie just sent me this:
XxX DiViNe XxX1: do u like jessica
FaLCo866: yeah i do...
XxX DiViNe XxX1: y arent u 2 goin out then
FaLCo866: because i like i cant handle relationships
XxX DiViNe XxX1: oo
FaLCo866: its too tempting to do stuff with other girls
XxX DiViNe XxX1: i cant either
FaLCo866: like at the movies
XxX DiViNe XxX1: !!
FaLCo866: stuff like that always happens
XxX DiViNe XxX1: thats how it is with me everytime i get a bf its like i want what i cant have
FaLCo866: so i cant stick with one person because its like giving up gettin some even tho i like the other person
And now Im talking to her:
BaBiGuRlL315: can i ask you what really happend?
BaBiGuRlL315: like howd it all get to that...
XxX DiViNe XxX1: well i was on the other end of the muvie theator like at the end but my cousen was sitting behind me with his girlffriend and i really didnt feel confertable around them so i switched seats and then mark switched his seat and like we were tickleing each other and i guess then we just kissed i dont member who kissed who though i think it was mutual
BaBiGuRlL315: ooh
XxX DiViNe XxX1: i felt really shitty when rich told me that u liked him i know how it feels my friend did it to me last week but she knew i liked him
BaBiGuRlL315: yeah it sucks, a lot
--> Leave Advice |
::
2003 2 February :: 8.46 pm
:: Mood: I need to talk.
Hello.
Well since everything has happened I 'guess' we're back on ok terms. I need to talk to him. Last night we all went to the fair (Me, Nicole, Mark, Mick, Richie). Mark and I ended up sitting together on the ski lift. We still hadnt even talked when we got there and we started by mentioning how cold it was and talking about how I am afraid of heights. Then I dont know, I guess he was looking at me and he wanted me to look back, but I wouldnt and then it went a little something like this:
M: Im sorry.
J: I cant believe you! fucking Jackie Brown!! god how could you do that?! I hate her too!
M: I know, well she started it. She was like "can I go to sleep on you?" so I said sure and then I dont know.
J: Fucking Jackie Brown! I hate her!
M: heh, Why?
J: Because shes so stupid!
M: Yeah she is.... Yeah well im really sorry.
and we got off......
So uh yeah. Im mad at myself now too bc I left him be all over me anyways last night and we kissed and I wish I could take it back and I wish I could have said a lot more things. I want to make him feel bad. I feel like I just brushed it off and that he'll get the impression that Im ok with it. And that Im easy to persuade. But im not. I dont know what is next. Besides telling him how I feel bc it is still bothering me. Im talking to him now, Maybe I'll bring it up.
Today Nicole picked me and Marisa up and we went to the Greek Food Festival. It was ok. Its really small. Greek people dance weird. Its just folk dancing, nothing special. OPA!!! (we have yet to know what that means) But we went on the tea cup ride and the guy spun us sooo fast. It hurt. So we finally got off and Marisa and Nicole thought felt like they were going to throw up. We sat in the grass for a while and then headed to Marisas house to eat and watch Blue Crush. Nicole took me home after.
--> Leave Advice |
::
2003 1 February :: 4.07 pm
:: Mood: shut down.
FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU
I hate you, I cant belive you did this to me. Especially since everything is going so well. Dammit what the fuck were u thinking?! And for the slut that brought it on: I cant wait to see you.
--> Leave Advice |
::
2003 29 January :: 8.00 pm
:: Mood: Exhausted
:: Music: Sounds of Crickets
I am extremely tired and Im going to bed soon. Yes, it's only 8 but im exhausted. I really dont have a reason to be either. Today wasnt that exciting, just a normal, everyday school day. We worked on the computers in math today, it's soo gay, we dont have her tomorrow so if we didnt finish today we have to go back there after school one day and finish it on our own time. What bullshit. I feel as if something exciting will happen soon. I hope, I could use it. Rob is still annoying me. Tomorrow we have mass. Gotta wear the stupid oxford shirt I hate. O well. Its better tho I guess, makes our classes only 30 minutes each. Well I think Im going to talk a little bit longer, blow dry my hair and then hit the sheets. Good night.
--> Leave Advice |
::
2003 28 January :: 9.20 pm
:: Mood: Hoping
Please say this is more than sexual attraction
Will I break your heart?
Oh
Will I?
1 Inspiration |
--> Leave Advice |
::
2003 28 January :: 5.07 pm
:: Music: Country
You piss me off to no extent. You once told me you didnt appreciate me harrasing you for your boyfriend. Now your doing the same to who I like. And unlike you say, you obviously dont give a shit. I dont know if it was a spur of the moment thing bc of others who think its funny, and you who ply along with their childish games. But you should know better to do that, especially to me, your best friend. I hope that I can trust you not to say shit around me like that anymore. And if you still choose to then I better not be there.
Anyways. My day was verrry tiring. Ok though. I got a B on my math test. Yay. Ive been contemplating on things today, I cant decide on what I want anymore. I made this notbook last night into a poem book now, just for all the shit that I write all the time. I see all the bad now, and I hear it from other people, but I know Im not supposed to listen to them, but to my heart. By am I supposed to try it and go through the experience even though I know it wont last? Is it really worth it all in the end?
--> Leave Advice |
::
2003 27 January :: 8.52 pm
:: Mood: Tiiiiiiiiiiight
:: Music: Clapping From Emeril..BAM!
Im soo bored,nothing to do. No where to go. I gotta pee. But im too lazt to get up. Hm. I ust spent like 3 or more hours on homework bc im moving soooooo slow bc i feel lazy and feel like working like a snail, weeee. Marisa is gay and wont update this shit anymore. Man, now Nicole is my only sourse of intertainment on this thing since Megan and Mark dont write anymore either. Coke is so yummy. I wonder how they get the flavor, people say its chemicals, but arent chemicals liquid? And dont they put in a brown "powder" with the bubbles? I dont know. O well. Im going to shower and then do my most favorist thing--fold laundry...beacuse "IT HAS MY NAME ON IT". Mr.Meehan is having another surgery, I hope he feels better, having Mrs. Kip was cool but now we have an actual "teacher" for 3 weeks, Mr. Bennardo. He seems kinda tough but he makes u understand it well. But u cant screw around in his class so it sucks. The shower is calling me.
--> Leave Advice |
::
2003 27 January :: 3.52 pm
:: Mood: Hyper
Ahhhh I'm all out of coke!!
Frrrriday- Marisa's dad picked me up (because my mom was being a cunt and wouldnt take me there) and we went to Applebee's for dinner. It was a lot of fun, he dad is really funny. Haha learned some good stories from him and told him some I really hadnt planned. O well. I must of been really tired that night because we watched tv for a little while and then she put in Goldmember, and I fell asleep during the beginning credits. And I love that movie too. She said she watched half, went online and then woke me up and we went to bed.
Saturday- left Marisa's house around 2. Went home and took a bath. I got these cool dissolving balls for Christmas from "santa" and it was soooo cool. It's like one HUGE alkaselzer. Ha. But yeah, went over Marks house that night so we could catch a movie at 8. But his mom got home about 3 minutes after I got there and the movie started at 8 and there was no way we could make it. So we just stayed at his house and did what we always do, nothing. Nothing really, just go online and then lay in his bed. I feel so at home at his house lol Ive been there soo many times.
Sunday- It was Super-Bowl Sunday. Raiders against the Tampa Bay. HA the raiders got swamped, I hope Mr.D CRIED! Not like I care about football or anything though. Got woken up by the phone: it was Thomas. He invited me to Kristie's house so I told Marisa about it and we went over there. There wasnt as many people there as I thought there wouldve been. It was just Kristie, Thomas, Tyler and Jackie. We ate pizza and walked to the park. I havent been to the park in Pheasant Walk in sooo long. Haha I remember in the good 'ol days when Marisa and I would go 'treking' back in those woods. Haha there was this ooone funny time --I wonder if she remembers ;-) HAA!-- But yeah, we had fun spinning on this metal, round spinning thing that goes really fast. Me and Kristie walked back home to meet up with Marisa and Jackie and then when we got there Marisa was liek 'Oh Jessica, Nicole called, shes with Mark and Richie, theyre on their way here'. !!!!!!!!. Thats what I was thinking. Yup so they came and we left that place, wasnt that fun anyways. We went back to Nicole's, drove to Stephanies house and that was really a waste of time, but it was nice to see her get pissed off in a way. Then back to Nicoles, then dropped off Marisa, then went to this girl Cassies house. I looove her hair, I wanna rip it off her head and staple it on mine. :D Then we rusheddd to Marks house and I got picked up from there. We lied so much yestreday to parents, its so fun to just pull stuff out of ur ass right on the spot. Then went home and my dad was fucking PMSing or something but he was being a real dick. I couldnt sleep well that night. My neck was hurting me real bad and then the phone rang at 11 30 and it was the alarm people and my grandparents alarm went off so my dad had to drive over there. I woke up about every hour freezing.
Today- Back to school, another Monday. Wasnt that bad I guess. The math test today was kind of hard. I just heard the new Shakira song on trl a lil while ago, it sucks. So boring. Well thats really it for today, didnt see Mark at all til the end of the day. It was good though, worth the wait. I found something I wrote a whiel ago in m Bible notebook, I ripped it out:
.You.
Is this what you want
these things that mean nothing
I dont know whats happening
Seems as if your emotions got to me
I dont feel the same-
that feeling of questioning
Butterflies in my stomach-
excitement in my tummy
So finally Ive been accepted
In that lonesome heart of yours
Now I want the title-
from the one I oh so adore.
--> Leave Advice |
::
2003 23 January :: 10.05 pm
:: Mood: Pleasant
Sup essay? I jsut got back from U-Turn prolly 10 minutos ago. It wasnt as bad as I thought it was going to be. I hung out a lot with Thomas, Tyler, Grant, Stevie, Jon, and Kristie. They're such a fun bunch. Tonight we played volleyball with the whole room split in 2. But with beach balls. It was cool. Then there was a surfing contest on ps2 btw 2 girls and 2 guys, Ryan Losey won--surprise, surprise. Thennnn they had a calf contest for the guys and a foot contest for the girls. Kinda stupid. The talk tonight was about How we knwo that what we believe in, or our faith, is true. And well, we really dont know I guess. Im eating traditional chicken fingers, french fries and honey mustard. Mmmm mmm good.
1 Inspiration |
--> Leave Advice |
::
2003 23 January :: 3.47 pm
:: Mood: Hungry
Grrr! This sucks. I was looking forward to U-Turn tonight but nooooooo. Nicole has to work, and I didnt ask Mark, but Marisa said he has to work too! :*( this sucks. I guessss Ill go anways, better than sitting at home. But now it's jsut going to be me, marisa, ryan and maybe chris or jeff. Man. Today was ok, Me and Marisa had fun at lunch, they had the weird bread for suns today, nasty. Tasted like a cold hot dog bun. But yeah, we were looking for Nicole and I really wanted some cotton candy and then allll of a sudden there was Nicole behind us with a tub of cotton candy, haha it was like a dream. We had to leave early today after school. :( I didnt get to see Mark much at all. Ahhh it was one of those days when u just want to pounce on him. hehe. Well im going to go start my homework. Oh haha --Lets allll take a time now to laugh at Stephanie's headband today, bleh!--
See ya later, skater.
1 Inspiration |
--> Leave Advice |
::
2003 22 January :: 8.00 pm
:: Mood: My heart hurts--lol is this what they call heart b
Hello. About that last entry, I was on the phone with Mark and really didnt feel like sitting and typing and boring him by not talking talking bc these kind of things need my concentration. Heh yeah...but yesterday was good. It went by really fast for me, I was very tired but after school made p for it. Thank you Mark. :-) ... Yup and Today was ok i guess. Ahhh I feel a sneeze comming on. Grrr nevermind, I hate when it does that to me. Today we got back the test results from the NEDT tests buuut mine got mixed up with the other Jessica Brown and ugh, its such a pain in the ass. I had to give Mark a ride home today after school, not that I minded :) ... Nicole is working right nowww....heheh I hope shes having fun. Well I think Im going to head for the shower now. Past 2 nights Ive jacked my moms phone and been texting with Mark while im sposed to be sleeping, its so nice. I saw the journal Nicole and Mark made last night-today. Its cool. Ha noow I know what theyre talking about with the sparkly glue. Ok shower now---
Peace and chicken grease!
Muahahahhahahahhahh!
-Jessica
1 Inspiration |
--> Leave Advice |
|