Eating Cold Pasta..mmm : )

My uneventful life has brought me back here again. I just probably spent 2 hours looking at random peoples journals. Woo-hu...great expression. Ahh whats wrong with me! My arms are being itchy. Weird. Im starting to yawn already too. My mom wants me to go to bed early tonight...heh riiight we'll see if that happens. I fell asleep around 3 last night. Now that we got satellite I gotta watch the tv every time I lay in bed and now Ive been going to bed later and later. Oh well, Im sure Ill be paying for it later on. Did nothing again today - at all. Slept til 12 45 when mommmy dearest woke me up and then took a shower. Was sposed to go to Marks again tonight, but that didnt happen. But we're trying again for tomorrow. I guess we'll see what happens. Grr I cant believe tomorrow is the last day. Sucks some big butt man. Im REALLY not looking forward to getting up at the ass crack of morning and then sitting in a hard chair for 6 hours and then coming home every night and doing another 2 hours of homework. Ugh, and parents think we have it easy. Im not even looking forward to seeing anyone either. The people that mean the most to me I hung out with over break anyways so it doesnt really matter. Marisa and I think we have a problem with attaching to new people (or girls should I say). I dont know what it is, but its like I can always find something that I dont like about that person and I can only handle them for so long. So now Im only close with those I knew before hand. Like RobYn, for instance, we were really close in the beginning of the year and she was my new close friend. But, as always, I have found hat I can only stand her for so long bc of her stupidity. I cannot, I REPEAT--CANNOT-- deal with ditzy people. Just some of the things she says is soooo completely dumb, and usually commmon-sense. But I dont know, I should probably open back up to her. Hmmmmmmm. I fucking want Kazaa back damnit! Haha wow I like this cd.

" Whats goin on? Shut the fuck up and give me a call"

"Fuckin take it easy, I fuckin love you man"

OOOh. I found some useless Personality Disorder quiz or some shit like that. So if your really interested go ahead and read it. Doesnt matter to me, I dont even know what half of the things mean anyways.

Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: Low
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Low
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic: Low
Avoidant: Low
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: Low

Once again another boring day. Had to get up at 11 30 bc we had to go to grandmas house and give her the christmas gifts we got her. Yeah I know, talk about late. Then I came home and did nothing again tonight. Kind of just a lazy, chill night. Made my mom take me to the mall so I could get my 2nd hole. :) Didnt hurt a bit. Really want my cartilage done now too. We had to go in the watch store across from PacSun for my mom to fix her watch. I wanted to go in there but couldnt build up enough courage. I mean, I dont even think he was working but still. I can be so shy at times. No one really did anything tonight. Well Marisa probably did something with Ryan bc she wasnt home all night and Mike stayed home and watched a movie and ate his chinese food. I called Mark around 9 some time, no answer. O well. Hopefully he'll call me back. Nicole came back from her cruise today--I think it was today. She told me that she got stuff stolen out of her suitcase and she got that sickness or virus thing thats been going around on cruises lately called norwalk or somethig and it makes you throw up. Yuck. She said she threw up and had a stomach ache for 3 days. She has Elspeth over now, theyre prolly doing some crazy shit. Haha Nicole (out of all people) was talking all hetto to me online...haha gee that was worth some laughs. Megan called me again tonight, she was at Shoe's house again. Feel bad for her right now, shes confused about guys and I dont really know what to tell her, I guess just to wait it out. Bc Ive been there in all but her situations a lil different, the Steve kid seems pretty moody. He can be a real ass at times. But Megan also doesnt know when hes kidding or not. So I dont know.

Hmm hmmm. Nothing to do. Today was gay and boring. Got woken up by the cleaning people this morning at 10 and I was told to go over Jenny's house, so thats what I did. When I got there I fell asleep in their big comfy recliner watching the food channel. Then they invited me to go to lunch with them and I did. When I got home I had to rush and get in the shower to get to the dentist. Then I topped everything off tongiht by watching Scary Movie with my dad. Yup, exciting--I know.

(((( yawn ))))

Man im a tired. Went over Marks house today, then we went to Mikes house. We all just hung out and watched the Dashboard DVD and Mikes cousin play Tiger Woods game. I really dont understand golf. And I think that Im glad. I has got to be one of the most boring sports. Especially to watch. Poor Mikey, him and Jess were arguing on the phone for a while. Seems as if she doesnt appreciate him when all he wanted to do was talk to her. Shes all mad at him and accusing him for lying when the lie he told her was for her own good, and she should of felt special that he said that. I dont really know where me and Mark stand as of now, but I think its good. I hope he does too. I have to go to the dentist tomorrrow, im scared...he always yells at me and Im sure nothing will be different this time. I wanna see him wear a fucking hockey puck in his mouth for more than half a day. What a crock of shit that is. Hmmm. Well my parents were fighting again today. All basically revolved around my mom and how she says things in her tone of voice and her assumptions. Im guessing things are better now, I dont really know since they were fighting when I left and then when I got home my mom was asleep. I REALLY wish you could draw pictures like you would be able to in a normal journal that you would write. U know? And you cant really add things in them either, such as like a note someone would give to you or something you would want to remember. Mark has this book that has all the journals of Kurt Cobain and its really cool. I wish someone would publish my journal, wellll..maybe. Might be too personal and out there. Im gunna try that bed out again now.

Yesterday- I woke up and called Lauren Braun and I went over to her house. MC and Christina were there and they left after an hour or so. Then \"Lauren and I\" washed her car and picked up Alex Bisson and went to Matts house. We hung out on Matts bed and watched the Simpsons while Matt and Alex went to the store to get some alcohol. Haha they\'re so gay, they playes quarters at 3 o clock in the afternoon. Matt won over Alex by something like 8 to 1. Then Matt pierced Alex\'s nipple and it was great. Haha it can be funny to watch people be in pain. Then we went home and figured out what we were gunna do for the night. We went to muvico and were gunna meet Mark and Mike there but when we got there everything was sold out so we all drove over to Matts house again ---going to go eat dinner be back--- ok, so we went there but they werent home and we called them and they we at Britney Knadles house so we went there next. And some people were already there and Tyler showed up and Joe Potter and we couldnt stay for long so everyone piled in the 2 cars and went to Christinas house. We sat and watched \"Riding In Cars With Boys\"...man did that suck. There was absolutely no point to it. Soooo after that we had to take Mark and Mike back to muvico and then we hit Mickie D\'s on the way home. We told er parents that we left our 9 \'o clock movie so we could there. Ha.

Today- ABSOLUTELY nothing exciting happened. Me and Lauren planned on going to the tanning salon but she didnt feel like it. So then she asked me if I wanted to go to the mall with her bc she needed to return some stuff but i REALLY didnt wanna go bc Ive been to the mall like 10 times in the past week. So I called my mom and she picked me up. Oh we have satellite now. The remote is kind of confusing. And tonight there is nothing to do either! HAHA when me and Marisa were on the phone I called Mark and he didnt answer so I left a message and clicked back over...buuut...I guess the line kept going and didnt hang up and we kept talking about whatever nonsense and I was telling her about the message I left and then all of a sudden it goes \"Please hurry bc ur message time is running up\" HAHA OMG! haha we were on his answering machine the whole time! o well he\'ll prolly think its funny. That fucker still hasnt called me back..I wonder where he is. I thiiiink he said he needed to tell me something last night as he got out of the car when we dropped them off, but Im not really sure. Ok im done.

Sunday- Well hmm I went to Nicole's house that day and we went on a 2 hour walk along the canals and everglades begind her house. It was kinda cool though. We saw 2 alligators and were easily amused by throwing sticks at it and we saw a momma piggy with 4 lil piglets. So cute so cute. Then that night we went to Mizner with her parents and Nicole was all excited bc Bobby had told us to go there that night and she actually thought he would've showed up, lol and of course..I was right. We spent 2 and a hlaf hours walking up and down Mizner and spent a lot of time in the new amphitheater thing they built. Haha I'm so fascinated by these colored lights they have in the floor that change colors. Its a pretty cool place. We went on the stage and Nicole was doing some ballerina moves (HA!). But that was about it.

Monday- Nicole and I were supposed to get up early around 7:30 with her mom and go to the mall and costco and Marshalls and stuff but her mom let us sleep in so I was glad. We did get up and 10 30 or something and go to some diner to eat while her mom went to publix. Eww the ketchup there was fuckin disgusting..haha it tasted like cow shit. Then i came home and took a shower and called Marisa to tell her to come over. She got here sometime around 7 and we were bored so we just went to the Boynton Mall..it turned out good bc Mark happened to be working and we stayed in Pacsun for over an hour but it was all good. They made me leave when I said I was thirsty bc Mark wanted to get me a christmas gift and Marisa was gunna help him but I really dont want anything. I dont feel like I deserve it and also bc i dont have anything to give in return. But we went back home 'round 10 and went online and stuff. Marisa was attacking me with this paper tube (which also makes a great thing to burp in --haha!). I dont know whats up with Mark now. He was like all sad and stuff and I asked him to tell me why and he was all like "I like this girl more and more everyday and I dont know whats going to happen bc I think I may have messed up too many times in the past" shit. Grr why the fuck is he doing this to me now?! I dont know, I didnt know really what to tell him but I just told him to wait and find out. He said that was good.

Today- Its Christmas Eve!! wawoo! wasnt that great at all. Mark called this morning (or afternoon I guess) and woke me and Marisa up. He wanted to give me my xmas present or whatever but we were sleeping soo. He went to work. I had to go to my aunts house at 6. It was sooo boring. Got a bracelet that my aunt made, cha-ching from my grandparents ($140), and some shitty ass make up and some fuckin hideous earings from my other aunt and cousins. Fuck those stupid ass makeup kits. Ive been getting those since I was about 10 and all I ever did with them was through them away. Well now im home and Marks away message is something like "Living out the worst fuckin christmas of my life" and I really wanna know whats happenin. O well. Ok I'm gunna go now...lol I GOTTA PEE! haha

Hola. Omgosh, Im so fucking full right now its not even funny. I feel like throwing up. Today, well i did NOTHING --AGAIN. Talked to Marisa on the fone agian this morning for like 2 or 3 hours and then she was gunna go get read for Ryans house. Oh Megan called this morning too. She said that shes either coming down next Saturday or Sunday. Yay. I miss her a lot. (((Yawn))) Man im tired too. And well tonight I got told that my parents were leaving at 6 to go to the gardens mall and I could go with them or I would have to make plans before that. So nothing really got offered to me so i went with them. It was actually a good turn out bc when we went the in the crystal store for my grandma I got a necklace for christmas. Its soo purdy. Its a star lined in crystals hehe. But i have to wait 4 more days. O well, Ill live. But yeah. Now ive been online ever since i got home and waiting for Mark to come on. Not really sure why though. What am I thinking? :-X

Yesterday- Well i had school til 9 15 and i dont know why they made us go. We shouldve just had 2 exams on Wednesday and then had off Thursday too. I found out from Ms. Mulhall that I got a C on my midterm and i have a C for 2nd quarter too. Oh well, she said that i did really well on the midterm and I guess a C is ok for her class bc i had a D before. But anyways, after school i came home and wrapped some presents while me and Mark decided on something to do. We ended up going to the mall for a while and then he came back to my house. We drove the golf cart around for a while and it was pretty funny cuz it started getting slower and slower and then all of the sudden it died and we were pushing it down my street for a while. Then we went to Mikes house around 7 30 and Mike's sister took us to this kid Kyle Kirks house (which i found out when i got there that it was Candices brother) and it was kinda weird. I was the only freshman there and there was only like 5 girls. Katie Peterson is soooo annoying, so is sooo dumb! she makes THE perfect cheerleader (which she is). And then we went back to Mikes house for like an hour and we were all laying on the bed watching tv and i fell asleep. I guess it was kind of nice tho bc it helped me keep my promise with Rob. Which was sooo hard to do. I talked to Mike for about a half an hour after Mark left and he understands i guess. Left there around 12.

Today- well i woke up at 10 30 and i took a shower and got dressed and then my dad called me up and told me that both him and my mom were on there way home and we were all going to go out to lunch. My mom had no work, and i guess my dad can just take off whenever he wants, bc he isss the boss. And we went to Mac. Grille (a.k.a. Garden- Marisa), which at first i didnt even want to eat but i didnt want to say anything either bc i didnt want anything starting up with my parents. But it was ok once we got there. Then i just came home and half slept and half watched tv ( Judge Jow Brown---no. not related.) . Then Mark called me and he told me to call him back when i got done sleeping. So i did and there was no answer. And i still dont know what im doing tongiht. I think i just wanna hang out at someones house. Maybe ill call Marisa. bye.

hey hey hey. Im really bored again, as usual, nothing to do. Today after school i had to go to my grandmas to have lunch cuz im not gunna see her til after christmas again. Haha at her house i played 'Shoots and Ladders' by myself and I still lost!!!! What kind of crap is that?!? Then i came home and sat on the computer for about 2 hours. Mark wanted me to come over today at school but he didnt say anything online to me, he said that he wants to hang out tomorrow after school so thats cool with me. Ahh last day of exams tomorrow. I have biology and i think its going to be pretty hard. Im gunna try and study some vocab tonight and see if that helps. Man im stuffed. Just had some crackers and dip and now im skippin dinner. So Full. Hmmm all of my fingers seem to be getting cut up lately..owwy it hurts too. Like right behind the nail, u know? Ha OF COURSE YOU DO! Maybe ill get back to this later.

"1Hundred Thou wit a platinum bangle..." haa i just couldnt resist, ive been so hyper tonight. IMA SILVA DOLLA HOLLA! lol when i was home alone i cranked up the radio as usual and put on my bandana and i was breakin out some moves around the house and actually cleaning but i havent figured that part out yet. Yup so computers was easy today, cept i coulnt figure out how to make the freakin tab stops to work..o well. English was..ehhh..kinda hard but kinda not. Too lazy to study for anything tonight. The days seem to go by so fast i love it! I wish we had half days everyday, its great. Me, Nicole,and Jill went to the mall today, saw Jenna and Lauren there and we all hung out. First time i actually had a conversation with Jenna. I never really wanted to talk to her before, she just has this 'bitch' look on her face. But shes actually really cool and funny. Then we saw Mark and Mike and Frankie there, that was cool, didnt expect to see them at all so it made my day :-). I got nothing accomplished tho, didnt get anything for anyone. Rrr. --Painted my toes red today and i already fucking messed one up dammit! So much for that. Ok well im gunna go try and fold some laundry THATS NOT EVEN DRY! bye.