:: 2004 5 April :: 9.18 pm

hola!
saturday night at teen nite was ok.. i always want to dance then when i get there i don't lol i like freeze up? idk. but alottsa people were there.. POP! lol and i danced with that devon kid again. whoop. anyways. on sunday me and whitney went to the cape coral yacht club-- that was really fun we played football with these 3 hott guys. they were like 18 so we decided it would be a bad idea to exchange numbers =X lol oo well. today at school was okay i skipped 5th and the first part of 6th lol me sara and travis ordered pizza. then after school i went to whitneys and my mom took us shopping. i got 3 skirt outfits =) cute.cute. welp i'm outta hurr...

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:: 2004 3 April :: 11.58 am

wow guys!!! me and leah are friends again!!!!! i'm so happy to have her back-- last week without her really almost killed me.

and i saw megan and i like totally forgot about us not being friends and i had the biggest urge to just go up to her like normal and be like "hey" but then i realized and just turned around. then she called my name and was like i gotta talk to you. (so i thought she was gunna apologize or something so i got all freekin excited) then when i back to her she was like i heard blah blah i didn't even listen cuz i was so disapointed. so i was like wutever and just walked away then allysa was like wuts wrong? and i told her and just started crying. =( why does it have to be like this. ughh...

anyways! last night was fun i guess?! just chilled with whitney and you know. lol but tonight should be crunk so i'll update later. bye.


CHANGES

"friends forever," you promised.
"together till the end."
we did everything with eachother.
you were my best friend.

when i was sad, you were by my side.
when i was scared you felt my fear.
you were my best support--
if i needed you, you were there.

you were the greastest friend,
you always knew wut to say:
you made everything seem better.
as long as we had each other,
everything would be okay.

but somewhere along the line,
we slowly came apart.
i was here, you were there,
it tore a hole in my heart.

things were changing,
our cheerful music reversed its tune.
it was like having salt without pepper,
a sun without its moon.

suddenly we were miles apart,
two diffrent people with nothing the same.
it was if we hadn't been friends;
although we knew deep in our hearts
neither one of us was to blame.

you had made many new friends
and luckily, so had i
but that didn't change the hurt--
the loss of our friendship made me cry.

as we grow older, things must change
but they don't always have to end.
even though it is diffrent, now,
you will always be my friend.


* dedicated. ilu megan *

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:: 2004 31 March :: 10.23 pm

so yea today was another shit pile dropped on my life.

last night i called wade, leahs boyfriend, to get this kids number. then this morning i told her about it and she just got all mad and walked away. she thinks i was "flirting" with him.. wtf! i wouldn't do that to her or myself i just lost one bestfriend why would i push another one away? i dunno i hope this will just blow over cuz i love leah..

anyways. after school travis took me and whitneys to her house as usual and he came inside to meet her mom.. i think it went pretty well. thennn we went to the pool and laid out for a little while. then when her mom got home we went to victory lanes for dinner. i had fun, TJ was there and i stole his hat! lol

now i'm home. and tired. and lonely and depressed so i'm gunna go get ready for bed. sounds like fun eh?

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