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:: 2005 9 March :: 8.16 am
:: Music: Gatman and Robbin - 50 cent feat Eminem

Sir Vay

*Your name?: Kevin

*If you could have 10 friends stranded on an island with you, who would they be?: Kyle, Jon, Jacob, Anthony, Brian, Kasie, Joe, Tom, Jesse, Nicole (two girls for 8 guys that would be a good time! =P)

*If you could have only 5 things (not people) what would they be?: Like Lauren said you gotta let one person of the opposite sex... Oh well.... My mp3 player (music is a MUST!), newcastle, italian food, a fast car or bike, my dog!

*What do you think would be the worst way to die? (Ex. drowning, being burned, being hung, cut up into little pieces): drowning, it takes 7 seconds for the water to complete fill your lungs and its painful and you are still alive!

*If you had to pick someone to marry right now, who would it be and why?: Lol no one, im not gonna marry.

*Realistically, do you think you will drink or get drunk before you are 21?: my first time I was like 2 months from being 19.

*Have you had a nightmare lately? yah

*Do you ever have a reoccurring dream? If so, what is it?: I have one but I don't remember it unless I have it that day.

*Have you ever had a dream, and then that exact same thing happened in real life? Lauren:Isn't that deja vu? Yep!.... I think I made stuff happen that I had in a dream

*Do you have a secret you have never told ANYONE???: not really, I think I told my ex everything (wish i hadn't)

*What is your absolute favorite song at this very moment?: KMK - Light it up

*What do you think of "inside jokes"?: this defines me, joe, kyle, and tom

*Do you believe in love at first sight? If no, why not?: I believe in LUST at first sight

*Have you ever wished upon a star, seriously? If so, what did you wish for?: Probably, but I dont remember.

*Do you know a member of the opposite sex who you are comfortable enough with to talk about almost anything? If so, who?: Probably my cousin Vanessa... but anything sexual I wouldn't talk to her about.

*Do you have a friend of the same sex that you could tell almost anything to? Who?: Depending on what it is I have many friends for this... But Kyle would be first probably.

*If you found out that you were gonna die tomorrow, is there anything you would want to say or do?: I would want to get onto tv and flip off the world (eminem style) and say "Peace out bitches". (It would be talked about for years)

*Right now, what is your biggest regret?: Getting with her in the first place (all of college wasted)

*Name one person who has seriously changed your life for the better: sorry can't just name one... my family!

*For the worse: no one

*Do you want to have any kids? If so how many and what will you name them?: I will adopt a son after I turn 25, so long as I have a good enough job for me and him. His name will be Seth Preston Randall

*Is there anything you oppose? (Ex- abortion, gay marriage...): Nope, I oppose opposing stuff.

*What is the worst name anyone has ever called you, and who called you that?: I'll get back to you with this.

*When did you last cry? What makes you cry?: Haha, probably watching Sports Night, they touch on some serious issues. (im a nerd)

*Have you ever seriously thought about committing suicide? If so, why?: I won't let them win.

*Theoretically, if you were going to commit suicide, how would you do it?: Drive my car off the freeway doing like 160... I would have to die doing something where all my adreneline is pumping.

*Who are 9 friends you would do anything for? ANYTHING: Mom, Dad, Kyle... MOST THINGS: TOM, JOE, Grandmas... LOTS: rest of family and friends

*If you could change one thing you have done in the last 24 hours, what would it be?: No regrets baby!

*Who can make you smile, no matter what mood you are in?: My dog, duh!

*During World War II, a woman was forced to choose to take with her to safety
only one of her two children, who consisted of one boy and one girl. if you were
faced with this choice, which would you choose or what would you do?: Yah Lauren was right... Give yourself, "NO ONE wants to bury their child."

*What is the corniest pick up line you have ever heard?: If a chick tried picking me up, it wouldn't matter what she said.

*Is there someone you can talk to for 12 hrs straight and never get bored? If so who?: Kyle or Joe... I have had many long convos with them before.

*Would you ever get plastic surgery? If yes, what would you get it on?: Bah, I hate plastic surgery.

*What CD is in your CD player right now?: Car Player: Blink-182: Blink-182 (newest one), My mp3 player is currently playing 50 Cent: The Massacre.

*Would you ever get a tattoo? If so, what and where?: yes I have two planned out for sure already... and of course my kids names on my shoulders, and brother in italian or latin on my left peck (kyle getting this too, duh)

*If you got pregnant when you were really young, like 14, would you have an abortion?: OMG who gives a shit, that was 8 years ago!

*Do you feel safe at school? On a scale of 1-10 how safe do you feel? (10 being very safe, 1 being not safe): LOL im not answering this

*What is the scariest movie you have ever seen? The funniest?: Scariest: Probably "When a Stranger Calls" back in the day! Funniest: Super Troopers (I agree with lauren here)

*Have you ever gotten a detention or suspension? If so, for what?: i think i have had detention once, probably talking to brian after i was told to stop... haha good times.

*And last, but not least, was this a better survey than you have taken in the past?: I'm not gonna lie, I like surveys (something to take up time while at work!)

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:: 2005 8 March :: 2.18 pm

my life's soundtrack

Screaming Infidelities - Dashboard Confessional
I'm missing your bed
I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak,
And this bottle of beast
Is taking me home

I'm cuddling close
To blankets and sheets
But you're not alone, and you're not discreet
Make sure I know who's taking you home.

I'm reading your note over again
And there's not a word that I comprehend,
Except when you signed it
I will love you always and forever

As for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs
And sit alone and wonder
How you're making out
But as for me, I wish that I was anywhere, with anyone
Making out.

I'm missing your laugh
How did it break?
And when did your eyes begin to look fake?
I hope you're as happy as you're pretending.

I'm cuddling close
To blankets and sheets
and I am alone
In my defeat I wish I knew you were safely at home

I'm missing your bed
I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak,
And this bottle of beast is taking me home.

Well as for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs
And sit alone and wonder
How you're making out
but as for me, I wish that I was anywhere, with anyone
Making out.

Your hair, it's everywhere.
Screaming infidelities
And taking its wear.
(x4)


I Am Missing - Dashboard Confessional
Sharp disaster in a fresh new coma
Was it worth it when it was over
Proving yourself right
You'd make the biggest noise
I'd lock my hands behind my head
I'd cover my heart and hit the deck
I'd brace myself for the impact if I were you

(It's a long way) Is there anything
(For an answer) Worth looking for
(Is there any news) Worth loving for
(Is there any word) Worth lieing for
(Is there trauma) Is there anything
(Or a struggle) Worth waiting for
(Am I missing) Worth living for
(Was the body found) Worth dieing for

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:: 2005 8 March :: 12.46 pm

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:: 2005 7 March :: 3.26 am
:: Music: We Ain't - Game Ft. Eminem

bah

I think I have consumed more Newcastle since my birthday than I have in my entire (drinking) life. I have been saving every Newcastle bottle cap since then and I have alot. This doesn't include any beer or alcohol that I have drank anywhere else.

I don't think this is a good thing either. Today I get bitched at by my parents for smoking like every now and then yet I drink alot. I told them I would probably die of alcohol before smoking kills me. My dad told me that my tomestone would say "Alcohol killed me before the smoking could"

Anyway I got the entire series of "Sports Night" which was a show I watched back in 1998-2000. I love this show, you have no idea. It's also cool that I have this series since all the current shows I watch on TV I can still somehow relate to "her". Ya ya, I know what your thinking... Your still thinking of "her", I thought you were over her? Yah I know I thought I was but its freaking impossible to get over it in such a short time, especially since we were together for so long. End it....

Okay this weekend we pretty fun... The concert on wednesday.... then on Friday Jacob was out here because it was the last weekend of his spring break and he had 3 of his friends with him. So we hung out at my house for awhile then we all (Kyle, Jon, Jacob, Tilly, Matt, Charlie, and me) went to Fullerton to visit the trio (Anthony, Jesse, and Chris) it was cool for a little bit but after awhile those turds kinda ditched us in one of their rooms so we decided to leave. I was already pretty messed up when we left, then we went back to Jacob's and I drank some more.... Skip to the next day because I don't need to tell you where I ended up with all the beer in me (toilet)...

Saturday was Vanessa's birthday party and it was pretty cool, we played some gambling type game and my aunt was getting all pissed at me because I was mocking her drunkness so she told me to get a drink too, which of course I did. When this was over Jon had JD, Kyle, and me go with him to some dudes house in pomona to play Halo (it sounds nerdy but there were like 16 gangsta ass fools there but it was still fun)....

Sunday we played football and basketball with Jacob and his buds and I was pretty fun, especially since I haven't done anything active in awhile. Then Sunday night we went to a Hookah bar and they had Newcastle on tap (BAM!) wow it was great...

So yah if you actually read that, your a trooper because I really only write this shit to document my otherwise pointless life.

Peace.

P.S. I started this at 3:07 and now its 3: 26... So yah and I am no longer listening to Game, now its HIM - Gone With The Sin (HAHA JOE)

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:: 2005 3 March :: 6.55 pm


Stole from Nadia.

(x) snuck out of the house?
( ) gotten lost in your city?
( ) saw a shooting star?
(x) been to any other countries besides the united states?
( ) had a serious surgery?
(x) gone out in public in your pajamas?
( ) kissed a stranger?
(x) hugged a stranger?
( ) been in a fist fight?
( ) been arrested?
(x) done drugs?
(x) had alcohol?
(x) laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose?
(x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator?
( ) made out in an elevator?
(x) swore at your parents?
( ) kicked a guy where it hurts?
(x) been in love?
(x) been close to love?
(x) been to a casino?
( ) been skydiving?
(x) broken a bone?
(x) been high?
(x) given someone a bruise?
(x) skinny-dipped?
(x) skipped school?
(x) flashed someone?
( ) had oral surgery?
( ) saw a therapist?
( ) done the splits?
(x) played spin the bottle?
(x) gotten stitches?
( ) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?
(x) bitten someone?
(x) been to Niagara Falls?
(x) gotten the chicken pox?
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex?
(x) kissed a member of the same sex?
( ) crashed into a friend's car?
( ) been to Japan?
(x) ridden in a taxi?
(x) been dumped?
( ) shoplifted?
( ) been fired?
( ) ever had a crush on someone of the same sex?
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back?
( ) stole something from your job?
( ) gone on a blind date?
(x) had a crush on a teacher?
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans?
( ) been to Europe?
( ) slept with a co-worker?
( ) been married?
( ) gotten divorced?
( ) had children?
( ) saw someone die?
( ) been to Africa?
(x) Driven over 400 miles in one day?
(x) Been to Canada?
(x) Been to Mexico?
(x) Been on a plane?
(x) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show?
( ) Thrown up in a bar?
( ) Purposely set a part of myself on fire?
(x) Eaten Sushi?
(x) Been snowboarding?
(x) Met someone in person from the internet (to sell car parts)
( ) Been to a moto cross show?
( ) had real feelings for someone you knew only online?
(x) taken partially nude/nude photos of yourself? (shirt off)
( ) been in an abusive relationship?
( ) lost a child?
(x) gone to college?
( ) graduated college?
( ) done hard drugs?
( ) tried killing yourself?
(x) taken painkillers?
(x) love someone or miss someone right now.

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:: 2005 1 March :: 2.57 pm


Woot.... dashboard tomorrow night at the house of blues in hollywood!

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:: 2005 1 March :: 2.32 pm

Ladies and Gents

My girlfriend wrote me this song..... thanks baby!

I looked away
Then I looked back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today is the day
I pray that we make it through
Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

And I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you

You're the only one
I'd be with 'til the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms

And I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you

Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means
Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything
Everything

I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it

And I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
And I don't want to talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you

I'm in love with you
'Cause I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you

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:: 2005 1 March :: 9.00 am


To Joe:

"Remember when Ricky Feldman hit that line drive and it hit you right in your nuts? HA HAAAA"

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:: 2005 28 February :: 10.44 am
:: Music: NONE, for some gay reason my mp3 player isn't working!


Haven't posted since my birthday....

Went to a party out in West Covina on Saturday with Jon. His homies are really cool and fun. Had a good ass time there, got pretty messed up at one point. After the party got broken up there was sort of a conflict with some wierd ass in his car. He tried to hit this dude and he ended up hanging on to the car for awhile. Then we chased his ass. It was mad crazy.

Then I was stuck in traffic on the way home so I didn't get home until 3:30.

Alright thats it.

Peace.

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:: 2005 23 February :: 10.23 am

close-mind·ed

close-mind·ed (klsmndd, klz-) or closed-mind·ed (klzd-)
adj.
Intolerant of the beliefs and opinions of others; stubbornly unreceptive to new ideas.

I'm so sick of closeminded people. I used to be pretty damn closeminded about lots of things, music, movies, cars or trucks. I remember when Fat-Lip by Sum 41 came out I hated it (Now I'm listening to it as I write this). I don't know why I did I just did. I hated trucks and would only drive an import (I want a tacoma and love driving my parents tundra). Wtf was wrong with me? Jumping to a different subject, they say every relationship teaches you things. I know at least one thing I learned/got from my most recent relationship... Being openminded, thats right before her I was so close minded about lots of things, and now I don't judge something until I try it, and I try to push this on others because its just a better way of thinking.

This all sort of just popped out of me right now because I was just reading about "Head" leaving KoRn and some people were making all sorts of comments about them. Now remember I was a pretty hardcore KoRn fan back in my closeminded days and still own all their cds (except their newest one), but I don't really consider them my favorite band and am not upset that he left. Yet after reading "good riddance... thats two down [talking about blink-182 and now korn], there really is a god" and stuff like that. This just pisses me off because if they don't like something why do they need to even open their mouth? If you don't like it, shut it off, but please don't bitch about it! I listen to pretty much anything now-a-days but there are still things that just don't catch my interest but that sure as hell doesn't mean that they suck.

Basically this all boils down to two words:

GROW UP.

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:: 2005 23 February :: 10.03 am
:: Music: KoRn

Korn guitarist finds God, leaves band
Wednesday, February 23, 2005 Posted: 8:39 AM EST (1339 GMT)

"Brian "Head" Welch (far left) has left Korn.

NEW YORK (Billboard) -- Korn guitarist Brian "Head" Welch has parted ways with the hard rock act, citing a recent religious awakening.

Welch broke the news Sunday on Bakersfield, California, station KRAB-FM.

"I had it in my heart to come here and explain to you," Welch said. "I'm good friends with Korn. I love those guys, and they love me, and they're very happy for me."

Addressing the aggressive tone of the music he made with Korn, Welch said, "Anger is a good thing, and if kids want to listen to Korn, good, but there's happiness after the anger. I'm going to show it through my actions how much I love my fans."

Welch added that he would be appearing at a local church on February 27, during which time he would "speak (about) how I got to this place in my life, and I'll answer all your questions."

On its official Web site (http://www.korn.com), Korn's remaining members said they respect Welch's wishes and hope "he finds the happiness he is searching for." The group is in the studio working on a new album, due in September, which will be its first since fulfilling its contract with Epic last year.

For now, no replacement for Welch has been named, nor has a new label home for the band."

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:: 2005 22 February :: 2.37 pm
:: Music: Blink

Hiatus
2/22/2005 11:39:00 AM

"For over a decade, Blink-182 has toured, recorded and done non-stop promotion all while trying to balance relationships with family and friends.

To that end, the band has decided to go on an indefinite hiatus to spend some time enjoying the fruits of their labors with their loved ones. While there is no set plan for the band to begin working together again, no one knows what tomorrow may bring."


Looks like an early birthday present for me... =(

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:: 2005 20 February :: 1.27 pm

Survey

Took this from Lauren!

_____Favorite_____
1. gum: Don't care
2. restaurant: Spaghetti Factory
3. drink: water/sprite/newcastle
4. season: spring
5. type of weather: not super hot but not cold
6. emotion: happy
7. thing to do on a half day: sleep
9. sport: football
10. city: dunno
11. store: dunno

_______When was the last time you_______
12. cried: probably last week
13. played a sport: christmas break
14. laughed: last night/this morning
15. hugged someone: like a million times last night
16. kissed someone: like 6 months? =(
17. felt depressed: few months ago
18. felt overworked: back when i was in school
19. faked sick: when i was in highschool
20. lied: dunno

_______What was the last_______
21. word you said: ya
22. thing you ate: sandwhich
23. song you listened to: since you been gone (haha)
24. thing you drank: water
25. place you went to: BevMo
26. movie you saw in the theatre: Hitch
27. movie you rented: can't remember

_______Who was the last person you_______
28. hugged: rielynn (cousins daughter)
29. cried over: My uncle
30. kissed: my ex
31. danced with: dont remember
32. shared a secret with: kyle?
33. had a sleepover with: amber (we slept)
34. called: brian
35. went to a movie with: steph and kyle!
36. saw: my bro
37. were angry with: my parents
38. cant take your eyes off: chick on my wallpaper
39. obsessed over: my girl back in hs

_______Have you ever_______
40. danced in the rain: yah like last night
41. kissed someone: yah
42. done drugs: ya
43. drank alcohol: hah last night?
44. partied 'til the sun came up: not that late in the morning
45. had a movie marathon: long time ago
46. gone too far on a dare: no
47. spun until you were immensely dizzy: haha ya
48. taken a survey quite like this before: yah

_______My life_______
49. name: Kevin
50. gender: defintely a male
51. birthday: Feb 23, 1983
52. relationship status: hell no!
53. nationality: Italian, Irish, German, others im a mutt
54. occupation: yah i have a pretty gay job... and im starting school again next month

_______Play_______
55. i'm feeling: bored
56. i'm listening to: Slipknot
57. i'm doing: this only because i have nothing better to do
58. i'm talking to: no one
59. i'm craving: a kiss
60. i'm thinking of: the last question
61. i'm hating: the pain in my neck

_______Love_______
62. love is: blind
63. my first love: yah lets not go there
64. my current love: is my dog
65. love or lust: lust is funner
66. best love song: NIN - Closer
67. is it possible to be in love w/ more than one person at the same time: nope
68. when love hurts, i: smoke =(

_______Opposite sex_______
70. turn ons: lots of things
71. turn offs: ignorance, rude, big ego, bitchy
72. do your parent's opinion on your gf/bf matter to you?: lol no otherwise i would be with any skanky piece of trash my dad saw =P
73. what kinda hairstyle are you into?: long/medium feathery/layered streaked??
74. what is the sweetest thing a girl/guy can do for you?: dont lie to me... THE TRUTH
75. where do you go to meet new people?: parties, school (hopefully)
76. are you the type of person to HOLLa and ask for numbers?: not really, but im working on it

_______Picky picky_______
77. dog or cat: DOGS!!!
78. short or long hair: either
79. sunshine or rain: sunshine
80. hugs or kisses: hugs are fun
81. summer or winter: summer
82. written letters or e-mails: either!
83. playstation or nintendo: xbox
84. car or motorcycle: motorcycle
85. house party or club: hmmm either both are fun
86. sing or dance: i can't sing, i can't dance... but i can dance a little better than i can sing sooo dance.
87. freak or slow dance: hmmm how about a slow freak

_______Lately_______
88. how are you today? kinda have a headache from last night
89. what pants are you wearing right now?: the ones i had on last night
90. what shirt are you wearing right now? alpinestars from last night
91. what does your hair look like at the moment: all over the place
92. what song are you listening to right now?: Sum 41-88
93. how is the weather right now? cold but the sun is out
94. who was last person you talked to on the phone?: Brian
95. last dream i can remember?: blah!

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:: 2005 17 February :: 10.40 am
:: Music: Modern Morbid Prophecies - Dead Poetic

Men's Punishment

"For the gods kept hidden from men the means of life. Else you would easily do work enough in a day to supply you for a full year even without working; soon would you put away your rudder over the smoke, and the fields worked by ox and sturdy mule would run to waste. But Zeus in the anger of his heart hid it because Prometheus the crafty deceived him; therefore he planned sorrow and mischief against men. He hid fire, but that the noble son of Iapetus stole again for men from Zeus the counselor in a hollow fennel-stalk, so that Zeus who delights in thunder did not see it. But afterwards Zeus who gathers the clouds said to him in anger:
'Son of Iapetus, surpassing all in cunning, you are glad that you have outwitted me and stolen fire -- a great plague to you yourself and to men that shall be. But I will give men as as price for fire an evil thing in which they may all be glad of heart while they embrace their own destruction.'

This is the pre-math in Promethius Bound that led to the creation of the first woman, Pandora.

"For revenge against human beings, the other gods created Pandora ('all gifts'), the first woman."

A pretty simple summary of it for you guys:

Woman was not yet made. The story is that Zeus made her, and sent her to Prometheus and his brother, to punish them for their presumptions in stealing fire from heaven; and man, for accepting the gift.

(http://www.loggia.com/myth/pandora.html)

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:: 2005 16 February :: 1.55 pm
:: Music: The Party Song - Blink 182


(Alright here we go you mother fuckers)
Do you want to come to a party
My friends pick me up in their truck at 11:30
This things at a frat house the people are cool there
Reluctant I followed but I never dreamed there
Would be someone there who would catch my attention
I wasn't out searching for love or affection
So I paid my 3 and the girls got in free shine
they payed for tequila and we headed into the party

And then in the backyard some terrible ska band
Someone in the background is doing a keg stand
This place is so lame all these girls look the same
All these guys have no game I wish I would have stayed
In my bed back at home watching TV alone
Where I'd put on some porn or have sex on the phone
Far from people I hate down from anywhere state
Trying to intoxicate girls to give in for head after the party

And then I saw her standing there
With green eyes and long blonde hair
She wasn't wearing underwear, at least I prayed that
She might be the one, maybe we'd have some fun
Maybe we'd watch the sun rise
But that night I learned some girls try too hard
Some girls try too hard
And some girls try too hard to impress
With they way that they dress
With those things on their chests
And the things they suggest to me

I couldnt believe what this lady was saying
The names she was dropping, the games she was playing
She dated this guy who now rides for Black Flys
How shes down with the 'wise well-constructed disguise
Now I'd rather go dateless then sit here and hate this
Her volume of makeup her fake tits were tasteless
So I said I'd call her but never would bother
Until I got turned down by another girl at a party

So when you see her standing there
With green eyes and long blonde hair
She wont be wearing underwear, and you'll discover
This girls not the one, and she'll never be fun
You should just turn and run because you'll find out that
Some girls try too hard
Some girls try too hard
Some girls try too hard to impress
With they way that they dress
With those things on their chests
And the things they suggest to me
Some girls try to hard
Some girls try to hard

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