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2006 5 August :: 11.28am
Never give up. Poptarts and Pepsi aren't worth it.
My six hour test is over and I'm now officially a 1st degree black belt.
It was absolutely not easy physical training this morning for 5 hours, but it was fun.
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2006 3 August :: 8.44pm
My black belt test is in 2 days. I'm so excited. The physical training part starts at 5 a.m. at my senseis house (he lives on a lake) and then we have to go back to the dojo about 9-930 ish for the rest. (this is the part that people can come and watch)
This time Saturday night, I'll be a black belt.
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2006 3 August :: 1.37pm
i miss you and i love you...
*sigh* another day goes by. i wish i could make things all better between us. i really wish i could just sit here and listen to you and make you proud of me but i cant. the last time i did i ended up being hurt way more. i'm glad we had a conversation without yelling at eachother even if it was only for 10 min. i miss you and no matter what, i do love you. i wish we could see eye to eye but i doubt that will happen. but i still love you and i just wanted to let you know since we dont get to talk very much anymore. some things are beyond us. just try to be happy for me and i'll try to do the same for you.
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Jacqui-Chan
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2006 2 August :: 6.57pm
:: Mood: content
The Beach
I wish life was always like today. Hanging out with friends, just sitting in the sun and the sand. I wish waves were our only obstacles in life. I only got dragged down once by a wave, and I popped right back up completely unharmed. I wish the only fights were mud fights. I wish I could stay with my best friends forever. I wish I never had to come home from the beach, from the carnival, from freedom. I wish we could just keep sitting there in the water, talking and laughing.
I wish life really was a beach.
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2006 31 July :: 10.15pm
:: Mood: crappy
I dare you...
My goal: don't talk to him (at least not by choice) for a month. Until school starts basically.
How long it will last: Hopefully the whole time... but probably not since I feel like breaking it right now.
I really hate this. I'm so sick of hurting. So sick of feeling like she's better than me... like I'm not good enough. I try to tell myself that I'm too good for him. I try to tell myself that he never treated my well anyway.... but it doesn't help. I still feel like this. I still feel like shit. I hate this. I've never had to do this before... and I do NOT want to do it now.
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2006 30 July :: 10.48pm
:: Mood: crushed
Tied up in ancient history... again
WHY am I jealous?? I should NOT be jealous!! So he kissed her, so what? I've kissed other guys... no biggie. Only it is... like a LOT!!! I know I shouldn't like him, but I do. See before the other girl didn't like him, then the other girl had a boyfriend... but this other girls is single and CRAZY about him. I HATE that. I hate that more than anything else in my whole life. I felt my heart jump from my chest and land at his feet when he told me that. And do you know the worst part? The last thing he said was, "You're still my best friend, right?" HELLO!!!! You just killed me... you made me be completely freaked out and upset all day, but of course I'll still be your best friend. Why not? I LOVE shooting myself in the foot.
I hate boys... stupid stupid creatures.
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2006 30 July :: 12.22am
:: Mood: happy
Being a minor sucks.
BOOTY DANCE!
I hope you guys had fun. :) Congrats, Stef.
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2006 29 July :: 3.16pm
:: Music: John Mayer - Hummingbird
So I have the option of buying my dream car and being in debt until some year in college, or buying a cheaper/older car that I can pay off now and own until it dies.
It wouldn't be worth it, right? Tell me not to buy my dream car.
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2006 26 July :: 11.30pm
WoW is gei.
almost as gei as scales
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2006 26 July :: 6.35pm
:: Mood: angry
Still here...
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ladybug04
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2006 26 July :: 11.38am
Wow, time is going by pretty fast. My blackbelt test is less than 2 weeks a way. I'm very nervous.
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2006 23 July :: 10.03pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: silence
Stolen survey
TEN EMOTIONS.
1. are you missing someone right now?: kinda'
2. are you happy: I'm confused which is hindering the happy thing
3. are you talking to anyone right now: No
4. are you bored: Yes
5. are you german: a little
6. are you irish: maybe...
7. are you french: Yes
8. are you Italian: maybe
9. are your parents still married: Happily
10. are you in love with someone right now: Funny how you can love but not be IN love
TEN FACTS.
1. hometown: Cedar Springs
2. hair color: Blonde
4. hair style: I don't think it's named
5. eye color: Blue
6. shoe size: 8
7. mood: Overwhelmed
8. orientation: umm...
9. available?: Pretty much
10. lefty/righty: Righty
TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE.
1. have you ever been in love: Yep, it's getting over it that's the issue
2. do you believe in love: Obviously
3. why did your last relationship fail: Because we're both stuburn, I can be a witch, and he can be the most selfish, cold-hearted jerk on the planet.
4. have you ever been heart broken: Mmhmm
5. have you ever broken someone's heart?: Yes
6. have you ever fallen for your best friend: Does it count if he turned into my best friend and I fell for him all over again?
7. have you ever liked someone but never told them: Many times
8. are you afraid of commitment: Kind of, I'm too young to know who "the one" is... so why commit to ONE person?
9. have you ever kissed someone you liked: Yep
10. have you ever had a secret admirer: Don't think so.
TEN THINGS:
1. love or lust: In a way, they're interchangable
2. hard liquor or beer: umm... neither
3. night or day: Night
4. one night stands or relationships: How about dating a few guys at once for a while... not just a night
5. television or internet: internet (it's got TV too)
6. pepsi or coke: PEPSI
7. wild night out or romantic night in: In
8. colored pictures or black and white pictures: Black and white
9. phone or in person: In person
10. aim or phone: Phone
TEN HAVE Y0U EVERS.
1. been caught sneaking out?: Never snuck out
2. skinny dipped?: Nope
3. done something you regret?: Oh yea
4. bungee jumped?: Nope
5. been on a house boat?: Yea
6. finished an entire jaw breaker?: Mmhmm
7. wanted someone so badly it hurt?: Wanted how?
8. been caught by your parents with a hickey?: No
9. danced in the rain?: Of course
10. had a hang over?: Nope, never.
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2006 20 July :: 11.14pm
uhh AP scores a few days ago.
4 in Bio and a 4 in English Comp/Lit.
Mrs. Dolbee, when you told me it was important to respect you and pay attention in class, I'm pretty sure you were wrong. I did everyone in the class a favor by being a brat and disrupting you constantly.
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2006 15 July :: 3.38pm
:: Mood: aggravated
Can't you just take ten seconds for me anymore? Is it impossible!? You think I want you to spend every waking moment with me... but that's not the case. I love hanging out with my friends and family... I need time for them and myself too. But I would like to see you more than ten minutes a week. We haven't hung out in a week and a half or more. Yet you say that I'm being selfish asking why you have to hang out with Nick and Logan all weekend and then into the week, and sleep over at Matt's for days at a time. You wouldn't even come over when my grandma died to help make me feel better! You were too tired from hanging out with your shit ass friends all night the night before!!! Well I'm sorry that her death came at an inconvenient time for you! Ass hole. You constantly call me your best friend, tell me we'll get married someday, tell me that you love me. Well if you ask me that's a crock of shit. You don't hang out with people you feel that way about only once in a while... you hang out with them at least twice a week... for longer than an hour. I know I have a job and softball, so I don't get as much time to just lounge around with my friends... but you could at least try to hang out with me when I have time. Not avoid me completely. I can't even believe you had your arm around me at that car show. You ignored me basically all day, unless it was to prove you knew my grandpa and his friends. I told you I would only see you for a couple minutes because that's always what happens when you're with your friends, but you wouldn't believe me. Proved ya' wrong again. I'm sick of being you 100th priority. I want to be at least in your top five. So give it a rest with the I love you, you're my best friend crap... I don't believe you anymore.
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2006 13 July :: 10.26pm
:: Mood: contemplative
It's HOT outside.
So, I was WAY off today at our game. It sucked. I missed basically everything at first... then I started to get a bit better. But I guess it's not unexpected being as I've practiced once in the past two weeks. Plus this week has basically sucked... way more than any other week ever in my life. My Great Grandma passed away, you see. And she just happened to be one of my all time favorite people on the planet EVER. I love her like crazy... and I'll miss her. So yea, I guess if nothing else it got me off of work. That's AWESOME.
Yea, I'm suppose to go to Bryan's tomorrow to swim and hang out. Only for a couple hours though, thank the Lord. I SO don't feel like hanging out with him. I ditched him for JD Monday... but don't tell... nobody knows that (except JD obviously). I really just don't like the kid like that. I try to, because everyone wants me to, but I just can't do it. He's nice enough... but he has NO sense of humor. As a matter of fact, I don't think he knows what funny is. We went to the movies and stuff that I found histarical he didn't even smile at. It was retarted!! Moral of the story: Bryan is not for me.
Yea, I am in a weird place right now. I mean, I don't know what to do about a lot of different things... and it sucks! See, I like JD, but he can be a BIG jerk, and I don't like that at all. I also hate my job, but I have to way to get a new job... and I NEED the money for gas a stuff. I keep being forced into thinking about college, but I have NO idea what I want to do, and I don't want to choose a college until I figure that out. So yea, I'm just all dazed and confused.
Saturday is the Town and Country days parade and car show. I'm mucho excited. Have to get up at like 6 in the morning... but it's SO worth it. We buy goodies and sit under my grandparents easy-up canopy while playing cards, and when we decide to we walk around and look at all the other cars. We talk to all my grandpa's friends and hang out with all of the other people that are like us, Car CRAZY! It's really really fun. Plus we get there so early that we are first in line for seats for the parade. Gotta love that. It's just always one of my favorite days. It sucks though... cuz this year Logan and his cousin are entering their cars in the show. So JD will be there with them. I just don't see the need to have tuners in car shows. These things are for classic, classy, and muscle charged cars. Good old things that have lasted through the ages, not pathetic little import cars that have big rims and a stereo system. Yea, you're cool because you have enough money to make your car look and sound retarted. Way to be! Oy.
Anyway, I should jet. Talk to ya' later... hope to see ya' at the parade.
-J-
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