Ariana

:: 2006 13 June :: 10.13am

I'm desperate for anyone to talk to right now.

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liz

:: 2006 8 June :: 6.58pm

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day

ladybug04

:: 2006 8 June :: 1.27pm

I have been doing lots of PT this past week. Black belt training started last Saturday. I have a demo tomorrow in Rockford at 6:30. I do have a new partner this year though, he's 12 years old and bigger and taller than me, and he's not as good as my last partner, but he's learning. (wow that's a runon sentence) but oh well, that's my update.

24 days until i'm 17!

Jacqui-Chan

:: 2006 6 June :: 10.03pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: softball world series

ARIZONA WILD CATS!!!!!!!! They could go all the WAY!
So, I'm almost sad we don't have school anymore, but not at the same time. It sucks not seeing everyone as often, but then again there are things and people I'm glad I don't have to deal with daily anymore.

This week has been so deadly... and it's only Tuesday. I've had tennis camp and softball practice the past two days. Plus yesterday I did tennis then softball then more tennis. It wore me out. Today I had tennis from 7:30 to 9 this morning and then softball from 10-noon. I didn't even get to go home between. So when I got home I ate lunch and ended up falling asleep on the coach... but that only lasted around 10 minutes. Then stupid Steph woke me up, so I went up stairs to sleep (I was WAY tired). That nap lasted 2 hours. This is like a milestone people. I do NOT take naps... ever. Ask JD, he always got annoyed because I would hang out with his family or just watch TV instead of taking a nap with him. It's not my fault though... it's just not normal.

So yea, I'm pretty much in get-over-him-quick mode now. I'm sick of being jealous when he likes someone else... and I feel idiotic playing the jealous ex-girlfriend role. It's so not my style. But you wanna' know a secret... I have a crush on Caleb. Yea, JD's best friend. What can I say? I liked him freshmen year, we had a biology fling... of course no one will understand that unless they were there. But yea, I told J that, and he said it was cool. You could tell he didn't like it much, but he did predict it. When we were dating Caleb described his dream girl and J said it was me to a T. He said if there was anyone he'd be glad to see me end up with besides him, it would be Caleb. Only issue here is that Caleb is (or at least was) in love with my best friend. Gotta' love crazy triangles of crushness. Yea, fuuuun stuff.

Oh my gosh... do you know what makes me mad? Well, not mad exactly... just annoyed. Work. That place is evil. Beth is making me work on the 4th of July since I've had so many days off. But that sucks because I actually started to go to the fireworks and stuff as of last year, I was suppose to go with a coulple friends... and I can't if I'm at work. This job is seriously gonna' start to suck when Ken and Phil leave. Carl already quit, and Kati (I think) did too. Jamie's gonna' be my only friend there! Well, none of the afore mentioned people was really my friend, just people I had fun talking to and working with. Kyle and Drew can be fun too, it's just that I don't feel as comfortable with them. I don't know, if I had another option I'd take it... but I don't. So all I can do is hope it's not that bad. I have the farm too anyway... so we'll see.

Okay, I should jet now. Have a beautiful day loves.

-Jaq-

P.S.
ARIZONA WON THE 2006 WOMEN'S COLLEGE WORLD SERIES!!!!!!!!!!! WOOT WOOT!!!!!!!

:: 2006 27 May :: 10.20pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: Switchfoot - Stars

(Misprint)
So I was looking for repairables and found my dream car.

http://www.auto-rv.com/default.asp?area=browsedetail&adname=BM1141078D

-moonroof and all!
tehe...

liz	:: 2006 27 May :: 10.07pm FUCK thanks jessa I heart you still wish I could have seen our twins grow up ill bet they arent as cute as clementine though. 1 Red Hairs Left \| Leave a Red Hair

Jacqui-Chan

:: 2006 27 May :: 12.01am
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: silence

bonfires...
I'm never going to get what I want, am I? I'm never going to be able to do stuff that I went, have a late curfew, have a guy love me back. I'm not going to get what I want ever. Why can't I just except that? Life is not going to work that way... it never has, and never will. His friends are always going to talk badly about me, they're always going to think I'm a loser, a bitch, a controlling freak. I'll never fit in, and he'll never let me. I'll never kiss him, hug him, hold his hand, or feel his touch again. I'm always just going to be his friend. I'm going to be his friend in the way that Jamie is, not the way Katie is. I'll never be the one he hugs and messes with and gives back rubs. I'll never be the one he flirts with and laughs with. I'll always be the one who's making him look like an ass. I'll always be the one trying not to cry. And in the end I'll always end up going home repeating over and over to myself that he doesn't matter, and that I'll find someone better.

I'll never be what he wants, but I'll always be what he needs. And I'll always love him... even though I won't always like him. I hate the pain I feel... it hurts worse than anything ever has before. And trust me, I know pain... I really really do. Physical pain is nothing compared to this. I just want to be the one he wants. I want someone to want me too... and I want it to be him. Why do I have to still want him? Why do I still have to love him? Why can't he just still love me?

Why am I even asking? I'll never know the answer... but I'll always wonder... and I'll always miss him. Always.

liz	:: 2006 25 May :: 10.41pm numa numa iei is like the coolest song ever. cooler than everything way better than walmart for sure 1 Red Hairs Left \| Leave a Red Hair

:: 2006 24 May :: 4.38pm

I just got a job!
This entry deserves more CAPITAL LETTERS! :)

EDIT:
And guess what happened almost 10 minutes later?
Burger King called. They asked if I was still looking for a job.
lol YESS I'm not working at Burger King! That is seriously nuts. What are the chances?

:: 2006 24 May :: 4.16pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: Coldplay - Swallowed in the Sea

In Middle School, we really weren't funny.
*cries*

liz	:: 2006 23 May :: 11.37pm I hate my job so much. Wal-mart is the worst place in the world and Ray and I have to decided to have a huge bonfire that will burn down all of Arkansas for it is the home of the two worst evils Wal-Mart and Bill Clinton 3 Red Hairs Left \| Leave a Red Hair

:: 2006 23 May :: 3.38pm

2nd interview at Steinbros today!
I'm excited.

Jacqui-Chan

:: 2006 22 May :: 8.45pm
:: Mood: indescribable
:: Music: The Real Thing :Bou Bice

Tell me that it's fate drivin' me insane.
So, I really cannot get over him. I just can't. I literally cry myself to sleep a LOT thinking about him. It drives me nuts. What I like, however, is that he hasn't gotten over me yet either. He kissed me tonight. We had a serious talk, which ended in tears, then I showed him my scrapbook and pictures of us. (Amazing pictures!) Then I asked if I should do a page devoted to us or not, and he kissed me. That was his way of saying "yes" I suppose. We just laughed after that. We wrestled and laughed and talked and had the BEST time. I wish he could hold me forever. I wish he could kiss me forever. I just love the feeling being with him gives me. Yep, *sigh* I'm in love. Funny how that's not always good though, huh?

Anyway, I should jet. I just thought I'd gush about everything. But now it's sleepy shower time... and then maybe early to bed. Who knows, I could definetly use the sleep.

Anyway, I'll check ya' later loves.

-Jacqui-

5 Red Hairs Left | Leave a Red Hair

:: 2006 16 May :: 10.01pm

The purpose behind my coke-free diet. (I found this pretty interesting...)
Read more..

:: 2006 16 May :: 7.37pm
:: Mood: sad

Just to let you know, I was being a big-ol' jerk. :(
This is a pre-I'm sorry for today. I've really gotta talk to you.