Ariana

Ariana

:: 2005 2 December :: 4.11pm

and im staring down the barrel of a 45

so yeah went to the high school today. good fun
I missed everyone so so much.
I wish i was still in high school.
now its my dads birthday and im at home gonna eat some pizza and such.
waste some time.
laters

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liz	:: 2005 1 December :: 8.11pm frida kinda sucked. whatever. ive only got a couple hours left in the lab to get my points for class. well 2 hours in the next week. so doable. Leave a Red Hair

liz

:: 2005 1 December :: 7.44pm

well shit.
I am in the language lab. I have been here for 2 hours now.
dos horas ahora.
boring.
I am watching the life story of frida kahlo.
which is funny because there is a painting of her hanging above this computer that I am at.
I am going to go home and probably sleep and eat. grab some coffee.
tomorrow my mom and i are going to get some breakfast and then go shopping.
that would be cooler if I had some money but i remain to be poor at the moment. shoot.
ray is at work. that makes me sadness but i like the alone time sometimes.
he is so good to me.
I adore him.
frida totally just had sex with the really really old guy.
wierdness.
so I am going to try to drop by the art room tomorrow early in the morning.
trying to catch first hour.
i doubt i will get up in time though. shoot.
okay thats about all i have to say really. i have to take my movies back to blockbuster. i might borrow willy wonka from kaylee. I have to think of something great to get her for christmas.. and annie.
eh.
my list of people to buy for.
amanda K
mom
jim
julie
becca
samantha
annie
kaylee
ray.
im sure that im forgetting someone.
sorry yall arent getting gifts from me but yo soy pobre. no tengo dinero.
tomorrow is my dads bday and I got him a pretty cool fleece camo jacket thing. he will like it I hope. not so sure. but whatever. I got him scarface special edition for xmas.
cooly.
okay later later.
I wonder what I want for dinner. huh.
okay

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liz

:: 2005 30 November :: 11.39pm

so today was one of the greater of the days.
so glad matt called.
yayness.
love ya man.
now i just have to get through tomorrow because it is thursday and I have class but then on friday my mom and I are going shopping and that will be fun. had dinner at home tonight because work said do not come in because we are cutting hours. for me and ray so that was cool.
i like parents.
okay thats it. thats my day.
oh yeha i talked to dani who i love a whole bunch.
cant wait to see her again.

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liz

:: 2005 30 November :: 1.19am

So yeah.
Last yesterday I found some all stars on clearance for $10 so i called up annie and she wanted a pair too and then i got then for buy one get one half off.
so i paid $8 for a pair of construction cone orange chucks. rockin'
then today my matty came to walmart and made me all happy and I met his gf who is super hott.
now I just finished my spanish comp. and I got a 92% on my last comp so hopefully this one goes as well. I am ready to go to bed now and my roomate is trying to talk ray into learning an umpa lumpa dance.
oh yeah ray and I looked at apartments yesterday.
he and I and annie are going to get one together so yayness.

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bigty623

:: 2005 29 November :: 5.10pm

Gah! what a dumb bitch, i hate her mom.
But there is a good thing. i just got my order in at newegg so i'ma be getting my new desktop by next week :) hell yeah

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liz	:: 2005 29 November :: 1.29am take a look ahead. take a look ahead. Look Ahhheeeeaaaaaadddd. I understand about indecision. 1 Red Hairs Left \| Leave a Red Hair

liz

:: 2005 28 November :: 12.45pm

it used to be that it would bother me. it doesnt anymore. well it does but i refuse to let it. so what. the things that you were an ass about make no difference to me anymore. its funny because had i known that i wasnt going to spend the rest of my life with you I probably would have done things different. id be at a different college thats for sure. but had those things happened i would be with raymond right now and so in the end it all works out right. god has a plan. or he has a guideline. I guess we will all see.

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liz

:: 2005 27 November :: 6.58pm

Send away for a priceless gift
One not subtle, one not on the list
Send away for a perfect world
One not simply, so absurd
In these times of doing what you're told
You keep these feelings, no one knows
What ever happened to the young man's heart
Swallowed by pain, as he slowly fell apart

And I'm staring down the barrel of a 45,
Swimming through the ashes of another life
No real reason to accept the way things have changed
Staring down the barrel of a 45

Send a message to the unborn child
Keep your eyes open for a while
In a box high up on the shelf, left for you, no one else
There's a piece of a puzzle known as life
Wrapped in guilt, sealed up tight

What ever happened to the young man's heart
Swallowed by pain, as he slowly fell apart

[CHORUS]

Everyone's pointing their fingers
Always condemning me
And nobody knows what I believe
I believe

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liz

:: 2005 27 November :: 4.11pm

ha.
i am doing better,
a little self-pitying.
the girls at the jewelry counter said that ray is too good for.
im not sure if thats a good thing or not.
they also said that he must have a thing for fat girls. so not a good thing.
also im going to kick this one girls ass.
we went to high school with her.
yeah i fucking hate her.
bu ti stayed at kristens all week and it was cool.
i love that girl.
her and i and mike and ray
good fucking times.

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bigty623

:: 2005 25 November :: 11.16pm

I love her so much

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bigty623

:: 2005 22 November :: 10.19pm

well... today was a alright day, i was really fricken tired. i stayed up till midnight last night. like always mr.sabinas was being a ass. i hate him.
i wish he'd retire. other then that my day was good. i came home and cleaned the shed and also reorginized it so i can get the snowblower out. then i went over and hung out with jessica for a little bit. i had fun. i love her so much. i hope she don't go back home for a while. everytime we are together i feel that we are getting closer
-Ty

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liz	:: 2005 22 November :: 2.11pm I think that i am going to officially retire my journal. not that any of you care. 6 Red Hairs Left \| Leave a Red Hair

liz

:: 2005 22 November :: 10.23am

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything, either good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you!

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liz

:: 2005 22 November :: 10.06am

so yeah.
yesterday.
that was one killer of a day.
tiring. to add to my dismay and shit filled day it was the night of the xbox 360 release. haha losers who wanted one but didnt get one. we only had 10 with about 30 people in line for it. cant put it on layaway cash or charge only. haha.
i laugh at you.
that might be the only time i laughed all night.
it was horrible.
so much damn crying and so i have resolved to myself that I am not going to let YOU make me cry. I am above that. I control myself and at the command of mike I am no longer going to talk to you because you get me riled up too bad and I dont need it. Ray and I talked though. about the stuff that you and I talked about and about the whole one person what If i already found him and threw it away. he is cool and he understands but i think that the way i was last night scared him and now he is moving out.
so there is that. he says he is but i dont think he will. i hope not. I like him here with me. he makes every day better, knowing that at the end of the day he is going to be waiting for me is the greatest feeling. as for my "friends" I pretty much decided whatever you all have your opinion and what i say will never change that. As far as me being a whore and a bitch I didnt know that doing the things that i need to do made me those things but whatever. I guess next time i should stay stuck in a relationship where I am unhappy as long as no one gets hurt. at least not right away those things would never go away and it would drag on, yeah I found a new boyfriend pretty quick but i think that is life, why would i pass up a great guy just because i just broke up with another one. I love Pj he knows that. I always will but Im not going to sit around moping for him. I am better today, after talking to ray. yeah pj its unfair I know but its life and its the right that he gets because he is my boyfriend and at this point i think that you are just saying some things because you know they will bother me but i refuse to let them bother me anymore

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