Random confessions of a song writer

:: 2008 26 May :: 5.19pm

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
Others only read of the love, the love that I love.

See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive

You and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just dream of
And if you could see me now
Well I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally deedeedeedee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Well I'm free, oh, I'm free

And it's okay if you have go away
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
And if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang

Cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm almost finally out of.
I'm finally out of, finally, deedeeededede
well I'm almost finally, finally, finally out of words <3

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:: 2008 13 May :: 1.30pm

ughghghghghghhgskgsd;lgkjasd;lkgjasg;lkj

i need a new job.

and i need to figure out so much and i just want to sublease our apartment and have money and be rich and not worry about stupid shit anymoreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee fuck. i hate the stupid tanning place midnite sun and cruise can go fuck itself they are seriously the worst company ever they dont care about their employees, customers, or even have any morals. all they care about is money so don't tan there anyone ever okay??? seriously, don't. you arej ust fueling their stupid money hungry owners and managers. fuck i hate my job.

i think we are going to elope. PEACE.

:: 2008 10 May :: 11.33am

Going to the drag strip today! Yay!

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:: 2008 4 May :: 4.59pm

Sublease Agreement

This Sublease Agreement (the "Sublease") is made and effective [Date], by and between [Sublessor] ("Sublessor"), and [Subtenant] ("Subtenant", whether one or more).

Sublessor is the tenant in a lease agreement dated [Master Lease Date] with [Landlord's Name] for a term ending [Lease Term End Date] (the "Master Lease"). A copy of the Master Lease is attached hereto and incorporated herein by this reference. The property leased to Sublessor in the Master Lease is referred to as the "Leased Property".

Sublessor now desires to sublease the Leased Property to Subtenant, and Subtenant desires to acquire the sublease.

NOW, THEREFORE, for value received by each of the parties hereto, the receipt and sufficiency of which are hereby respectively acknowledged, and in consideration of the mutual agreements of the parties, it is agreed:

1. Sublease.

A. Sublessor agrees to sublease the Leased Property as follows:

Sublease Term: [Term of Lease]

Monthly Sublease Rent: [Monthly Rent Paid by Subtenant]

B. Subtenant shall pay the rent to Sublessor not later than the [Rent Due Date] day of each month. Rent payments shall be made to the address for Sublessor below or such other address that Sublessor may identify to Subtenant from time to time. Subtenant shall also pay to Sublessor any other amount or charge that Sublessor is obligated to pay under the Master Lease that arises or is attributable to Subtenant's occupancy such as, but not limited to, charges for garbage, water, sewer, utilities, common area expenses, maintenance and refuse removal. Such charges shall be paid within ten days of Sublessor's statement. Subtenant shall be responsible for procuring and paying for any utilities or services not provided by landlord pursuant to the Master Lease.

C. In the event there is more than one Subtenant party, then the obligations of each such Subtenant shall be joint and several.

[Use of Furniture]

2. Obligations Under Master Lease.

Subtenant agrees to comply with the terms of the Master Lease and shall not do or permit to be done anything that would constitute a breach or default of Sublessor's obligations in the Master Lease. Sublessor agrees to comply with all of Sublessor's obligations in the Master Lease. Sublessor agrees timely to pay rent and other charges due under the Master Lease and, provided Subtenant is not in breach or default of any obligation in this Sublease, shall not do anything to disturb Subtenant's use of the Leased Property pursuant to this Sublease.

3. Indemnification.

A. Subtenant will indemnify, protect, defend and hold Sublessor harmless from and against any and all loss, cost, damage and expense arising out of or in any way related to a breach or default of Sublessor's obligations in the Master Lease by Subtenant.

B. Sublessor will indemnify, protect, defend and hold Subtenant harmless from and against any and all loss, cost, damage and expense arising out of or in any way related to a breach or default of the Master Lease by Sublessor.

3. No Assignment or Sublease.

Subtenant shall not, without the prior written consent of both Sublessor and the landlord in the Master Lease, assign this Sublease or sublet the Leased Property or any part thereof.

4. Notices.

Any notice given in connection with this Agreement, shall be in writing and shall be given to the appropriate party by personal delivery or by certified mail, postage prepaid, or recognized overnight delivery service as follows:

If to Sublessor:

[Sublessor]

[Sublessor Address]

If to Subtenant:

[Subtenant]

[Subtenant Address]

5. Headings.

Headings used in this Agreement are provided for convenience only and shall not be used to construe meaning or intent.

IN WITNESS WHEREOF, the parties hereto have caused this Sublease to be duly executed as of the date first above written.

[Signatures]

Landlord's Consent

The undersigned, the landlord in the Master Lease, hereby acknowledges consent to the foregoing Sublease Agreement.

Landlord:

Date:________________________ ________________________

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:: 2008 3 May :: 7.14pm

is anyone looking for an apartment to stay in june through sep 15??????? ............

we are trying to get rid of ours... we are moving out to save money which is going to be really great but yeah we aare just trying to save so we can get married so if anyone is interested at all let me know and we can talk details.

but as far as life goes......... i have no clue.

:: 2008 1 May :: 10.36am
:: Mood: optimistic

Everyone should vote for me for the Chevy Riders!! [[PLEASE!!]] Text 'VirgilineD' to 28546! You can be entered to win a brand new Macbook Air and I will be voted for to get a frickin' sweet job! So do it, even if you dont know me or dont like me! Please do it!! And tell your friends to do it!! You have from today until 5 pm on May 7th!! YAY!!

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:: 2008 21 April :: 9.19pm

Does anyone eat oatmeal and toast?
Now if you do, do you put your oatmeal ON your toast?
Like, do you dip your sliced toast into your oatmeal and eat it?

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:: 2008 12 April :: 3.13am
:: Mood: still drunk...

My new picture says it all...
Fuck all this bad shit happening to me, i got big titties!
Only way that can bring me down is if they get too big and they just weigh me down or I fall over or something. I dont know.
This shit isn't making sense again.
I think I should call it a night...?

moomoo

:: 2008 11 April :: 4.44pm

So things have been going great. I found out today that I got the 1st shift position. I will be starting in may, so now I will be able to have much more of a life. I'm so excited. Soon Softball will be starting, am gonna try to play on two teams this summer, maybe it will help me lose my 20 pounds lol. But am excited cuz its been forever since I played. I got almost all the classes I wanted for Fall :). This is one of the 1st semster I've gotten a pretty good schedule. I'm moving into my new place hopefully next week. I cant wait to get out of here. I think am finally starting to feel like myself again, getting back to being me. Thanks to everyone that helped me out these last months, while I've been being Ridiculous, never could of made it without you. Really shows how great you all are. I'm so excited to have a normal life again. :)

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:: 2008 10 April :: 8.51pm
:: Mood: disappointed

So, the worst of the worst happened from this shit. I lost my job today...grrreat...

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:: 2008 10 April :: 2.54am
:: Mood: guilty

#1 Reason why I say that I will not serve any of my friends that are underage!
So I went to serve this table and I saw a girl that I went to school with there. Said Hi to her and junk. Her mom ordered her a drink, I asked her for her ID. She says that she doesn't have it with her and that she recently turned 21. She was in the grade a head of me so I was like her birthday could have fallen around the right time and her mom was there with her so I figured okay, I'll get you a drink. She has 2 drinks her mom has like 4 and then they leave. I get told a while later by the rest of the table that the mom and the daughter got pulled over, the daughter was only 20, and a cop might be coming into the tavern. FUCK! I got questioned by a cop and I could have gotten a fine but the cop said that he wasn't going to press charges against me, BUT he was going to let the liquor commission know what happened and my boss could get fined up to $1000. I'm lucky that this is the first time this has happened to me because I could have gotten in a whole lot of trouble and fired. So I guess the mother is going to jail and the daughter might be too I'm not sure but fuck em, I think they deserve it. They know me, and my parents, and her boyfriend's parents are really good friends with my parents and she fucking looked me in the eye and lied to me. She put my job and my work place at risk because her and her mom wanted to have a good time. Why the hell wouldn't they just buy some booze and drink it at home where they are safe? Why would her mom be so irresponsible to let her do that? Why did I serve her? I dont know...I'm so dissapointed in myself. I might have to testify in court depending on what happens. I am so scared. I'm pissed more than anything. I would understand if I got fined. I honestly think that I deserve because that is a big deal, but for this to happen because of someone who has known me for years! That really hurts. I just cant believe this actually happened. I feel so dumb and ignorant I just dont even know. I really am ashamed and embarrissed.

This is why I will not serve any of you that are underage. Alot of people ask if I can get them drinks if they come in and I wont even do it for my boyfriend. I cant believe I believed this girl. I seriously am carding everyone for now on unless they look like 40 I am carding people. And if someone doesn't have a card, I am not serving them. I fucking learned my lesson.

No drink is worth my job no matter who it is going to.

:: 2008 9 April :: 2.25pm
:: Mood: sleepy

We finally got internet.
School is almost over. I am so glad for that. I think I'm doing really good in my classes besides math though. But she drops the lowest test and 2 of the lowest 10 pointers so that's awesome.
I decided I am not taking classes this summer. I was going to atleast take a yoga class but I really dont have the money right now. I figure I will just work almost all summer and save my money. My parents are getting taxes figured out so I should have financial aid by the fall and then I will go to school full time and only work when I can. That's the plan for now anyways.
I have to work tonight and I am not looking forward to it. I am so tired. I probably will have to buy a monster without a doubt. I am so sick of work. I feel like I dont go anywhere but school and work all week and it sucks because I barely have anytime with AJ. That's one of the main reasons why I cannot wait for classes to be over with this semester. I feel soo worn out. I just need a good night of sleep. And a night away from school or work.
My neices and my nephew are all coming over to spend the night on Saturday. I am excited. AJ's dealing with it. lol
I need to clean.
I need to shower.
And I'm kind of hungry.
I'm done. bye.

moomoo

:: 2008 22 March :: 7.56pm

Well its been a while, I really need to update this more, cuz I love reading my past entries so I should keep it more up to date on whats going on. Well I've been off work for almost week, bc of my arm. I'm hoping to go back on monday as long as the doctor says its okay. I really hope I can, I never relaized how bored I could get not working. Hopefully going to be moving into a town house soon. Its pretty sweet. St. Patricks day was a blast, lots of good fun with people I havent seen in forever. Lots of good memories. *Good times* Other then that its just the normal same old shit going on.