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2003 7 November :: 3.13 pm
:: Mood: thankful
:: Music: Walk a little Straighter *By i unno*
I miss mah BritterZ!!
Awwe man! Being happy is so much better than being sad..Everyone keeps askin me how i am, and im like jus AMAZING..and they ask if there is any reason why im so happy, and i say..nope jus loving and living life!! Hehe! I dont know why, but i really honestly do feel like my life has changed! Everything feels soo much better!
My friends::thier all sayin dat im seeming much happier..haha and ya know whas funny a few ppl even asked me wat was wrong when i said dat i was soo wonderful, and i said nuffin cuz i was soo honestly happy ya know..and thier like no really whas wrong, i know ur lieing, jus covering up something..ahahahahaha dats great..but oh well i know im happy and dats really all dat matters to me!!
My family::Has even noticed dat my attitude has changed..ive been being soo friggin nice to wilson n my step dad n my mommy, some of you dat knows how mean i was before would be soo *Proud* of me..haha but really i luv my family..
I luv my friends!!
I luv my family!!
I luv my life!!!!!
WOo HOo! Im done living *down here* and its time to start *living up here* I want my life better, and dats exactly wat its going to be..
Thanks to everyone whose still surpporting me! I luv you all! I'll always be here fo you!
Me n mikey boo are great..oh gosh it feels soo much better to have told him da truth..i luv him, well maybe not love cuz i dont really know wat love is..but i really really like dis guy, i havent felt this way in..well i dont know how long its been..i dont really think ive ever felt like this! Mike i really like you, and im soo glad dat were going out! I hope da same goes fo you too! Thanks babey boy!! I LUV YOU!!
Brittany *holy shit, staceys moms video jus came on when i typed brittany* lmao!! but neways i jus wanted to say thanks fo always being there fo me when i really needed you, ur a great person and i know dat someday you'll be able to see dat! I luv you soo much and im soo glad dat were best friends..i dont care bout anything else rite now..Britt n Jill best friends forever..no more jealously i dont care bout emily stacey courtney becky whoever! Your my best friend and dats all dat there is too it, i dont care if you've got other best friends, cu zi know dat you care bout me and i care bout you and dats all dat honestly matters anyway..If you ever need anythign you know ill be here fo you too! Cuz dats wat friends are fo rite? Lets not fight anymore sweetie, cuz i hate when we fite its jus urgh stupid and pointless, i want to be da best friend dat i can be fo you, and dats all there is to it..I LUV YOU BRITTANY! BEST FRIENDS FOREVER!! NO MATTER WAT HAPPENS!! No matter wat happens in my life, even if we never talk again, ill always member you and you will be da one friend dat i tell my lil grand daughters about..hehe luv u lots!!
To all my other friends i do luv you too!
But g2g to work..so i can get dat lil present fo britters, hehe! Now i really do have to see you dis winter vaca..no matter wat..even if i have to fly into fort myers first or wateva! No matter wat ive gotta give you something special =) I LUV YOU! latah babey girl!!
LOVE ALWAYS,
XoX~*Jilly*~xOx
Then i see your face |
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2003 6 November :: 4.54 pm
:: Mood: impressed
wow they were rite..!!!
Omfg i got 107 hugs today, i was countin to see how many i could get cuz da ppl at da challenge day thingy siad dat ppl say you need 3 hugs a day to have a good day, but 12 was wat they thought was wat would really make you happy, and like i tried to get alot and wow i did!!! Hehe, i hugged alotta hot dudes too *wink da wink*
Also like steff said, after dat whole challenge day thing ive really been thinking, ive been thinkin bout everything, and ya know wat..im going to change..im going to be a better person and a better friend *ex to britt* and im going to try harder in skool and im going to be happy, and talk bout my feelings and get help n shit! Im dead serious know dat ive said dis before but like im seroiusly going to change now! No question bout it, i started t day, i stopped wif rude comments and started being nicer to everyone, and wif all my hugs hehe =)
And ive also been thinkin about my true friends and da very few dat i do have..but dats enough fo me, like before i felt like i needed to meet everyone and be friends wif everyone and now its jus like..im good wif wat i have cuz wat i have is da BEST ever!! I would like to say thanks to some of my TRUE friends::
BRITTANY MARIE GAMESTER..
BECKY DAWN MCDERMOTT..
STEFFANIE ANN LEICHT..
MICHEAL ALLAN COLMEN..
SIDNEE DEANN DUFFEY..
James Micheal Monthese..
Tiffany Marie Monthese..
Allison Jean Maloney..
Amber Lynn Jones..
Chelsea Rose Grinnell
If i forgot anyone dat really is a true friend dem im srry but those r da ones dat really r true friends..like ppl dat have been there through thick n thin and id never trade fo anything in da whole world..
Other friends may include::Brittney B *not S* Gloria *Loopi* Stephanie S. Kristie C. Ariel M. Cassie B. Lisa M. Brittani L. Steve B. Taylor S. Cassie S. Tom M. Chelsie W. *of korse* Jill Z. Liz B. Judy P. Brianna W. *Perv* Sara M. *wub yew* Jenna T. Chad B. Amanda H. *Mah Cupcake mwuhz* Tiffany H. *Always n forever* Steve-o- Alex M. Danielle D. Danielle F. Jessica B. *Big sis fo life* Jessica W. *good luck wif Evan* Evan S. *oh babey* Hailey *geel better babe* Hell*ana* Jake H. Ryan J. Ryan F. Katie K. Alandra *grrr..* Martin H. Jordan B. Jordan D. and last but not least Rachel F.
I LUV ALL OF YOU!!
g2g tho now..love ya always latah!
love,
me..
2 And i fall in love again.. |
Then i see your face |
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2003 5 November :: 9.18 pm
:: Mood: thankful
omfg!!
BRITTANY YOU HAVE TO READ DIS RITE NOW!!!
Today was like da second best day of my whole friggin life! *1st being da day dat i met brittany* im seriosuly dat challenge day thign was like life changing and im soo happy dat i went..i dont even know wat to say bout it..i feel liek im a better person now, and like wif becky i feel like were closer and its awesome and wif tiffany i feel like i got to know alotta ppl on a much diff level and like they got to know me better fo who i really was, and fo once in a crowded room i didnt feel judged at all!! I loved it, i want to change my life now, and im going to *Im going to be da change dat i want to be in da world fo now on* Im dead serious dat was like da most amazin day ever! I was soo inspired by the ppl there, and becky and tiffany and dat andriee or howeve ru spell it girl, and its awesome cuz shes goint to dj at my work on sat da 15th and yah i cant wait, cuz shes like a soph in college but sehs AWESOME, and she helped me a ton! I luv her, i dont even knwo anymore..
Hey to all my friends, if you feel like id ont appreciate you as much as i sould and i dont say dat i luv you as much as i sould, i jus want u to know dat im srry and dat all of you mean everythign to me, it dont matter if we were friends and arent now or wateva, all of you made me who i am t day and i dont know wat iw ould do without any of you, i luv all of you no more or less. Thanks fo always being there fo me! I appreciate all of you! and i will always love ALL OF YOU! Thank you!
Brittany you seriously mean everythign to me tho, i luv you soo much and i promise that things r going to be diff, you watch n see. Im changin and i want u to know dat i luv you soo much and im soo glad dat we met cuz i dont know wat i would do without you youve changed my life so much and i cant even begin to explain everything dat you mean to me and i cant even begin to name off all of da diff things dat youve done fo me and all da diff things dat i appreciate and luv about you, so ill jus say dat i luv you and everything about you and i hope dat were friends forever because my life woudntbe da same without you and i really hope dat you can forgive me fo everything dat ive ever done to you, things will be diff i promise...but ill stop now so yah if you get on t nite any time call me if you can i luv u soooo friggin much! Latah chickie boo!!
BEST FRIENDS FOREVER NO MATTER WAT I LUV YOU MORE DEN ANYTHING IN DA WHOLE WORLD!!
LOVE ALWAYS,
JILLY!!
Then i see your face |
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2003 4 November :: 9.07 am
:: Mood: cold
ahh stupid fuckers!
I fuckin hate skool, dats why im here instead of being at skool in well lets see Core plus 2/geomtry class well till 9 10 den im off to Computer Tech, ahh wif mrs rodman shes sucha bitch! She called Bri Bri stupid n all dis shit last week and made her cry, and den da next day when i had her class, SHE HAD A SUB, so i couldnt bitch her out bout it!! But i think dat im going to go to skool wif like a half an hour of 3rd hour left and bitch her out jus fo da hell of it!! *Looks innocent*
Ahh last nite was horrible, rite when i first get to work, mark has to bitch me out, and den dana screams at me, and so im all upset and den im cryin and den i have to run to da bathroom cuz icouldnt stop cryin and i got sick! ICKY!! And like when i did stop cryin i would walk out and see someone and they would say some smart shit to me and i would jus start cryin again, and dat party had like all my old teachers from last year, and like all these ppl in my grade dat go to my skool, and like all these ppl from other skools i knew, ahh it was HORRIBLE!!
And dne i had da worst headach, but my momy gave me half of her vicodine lol so i was good, but neways yah im going to get ready fo skool now LATAH GATOR!! hah
I luv u more den anything in da whole world brittany marie Gamester!!
ONLY *3 MORE DAYS* AHAHA!!
:*:~Jilly~:*:
Then i see your face |
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2003 3 November :: 10.00 pm
:: Mood: indescribable
Indescribable in a bad way..
Urgh i had a really shitty day at work t day..i told my mom dat i wasnt workin dis weekend when she already scheduled me to work, and i told her dat i wasnt going to work where ppl treatin me like shit and like i was nothing jus cuz im younger..*so basically I QUIT*
Urgh i fuckin hate da ppl there, and thier my family so yah dats great aint it?
Urgh i wish dat all of em *ex my "step dad"* would jus ACCIDENTLY fall off a cliff and DIE!! *Grabs a knife outta da drawer and casually strowls behind him, whistling* mwaha *looks innocent wit da bloody knife in her hand*
I unno, i wonder where britt is? I miss her! And oh yah britt ur friend *Daniel Lupo* says *Hey babe* hehe while im on ur sn rite now!! But neways luv u lots babe but im dead tired and im really going to bed rite this second, *Too much cryin of korse* :o( ahh shit luv u bye!!
Love always,
~*ME*~
Then i see your face |
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