:: 2003 3 November :: 4.39 pm
:: Mood: tired as hell!!

Britt u wanted me to update so yah im updatein but i have no idea wat to say and ive gotta go cuz my mom is waitin fo me outside rite dis second lol..

Neways lets see dis week was okay i guess..

fri-was horrible den good fo halloween nite!
sat-was pretty bad all i did was work..ick!!
sun-was SHITTY! urgh..

i unno work sat sun mon thurs fri sat ick!

haha and they actually thought dat i would be able to take off work to fit around CHEERLEADIN!! I cant believe dat they even asked me to be a cheerleader! hehe dats hrorible i hate cheerleaders :o)

Neways ive really gotta go now before my mom has a hard attack!! I luv u sooo much brittany and u write in ur journal again t nite so dat i hvae something to read t nite! Luv u lots bye!!

1 And i fall in love again. | Then i see your face

:: 2003 29 October :: 7.34 pm
:: Mood: numb

Another one!!
Awwe holy fuckin shit!!! Jimmy died too! Yesterday im pretty sure!! Dats fuckin crazy everyone is dieing!!

Like in da begining of da summer in june...Justin was killed in a car accident...den on July 30th Jeri was killed in a car accident...and den now Jimmy was hit by a CAR, does dat sound like a pattern going there? Urgh who da hell is next?!

God how many more innocent ppl are you giong to take from our lives?! Whose next? Am i? Is brittany? Is Amber? Is Mike? Who who who!?! Take your pick...were all here at ur finger tips...Wat da hell is it like some kind of iny miny miney mo {catch a tiger by his toe} Game or something? Were all at your finger tips as u know...so you mite as well get it over wit...you evil fuckin bastard!!

*But if you would happen to choice Brittany Marie Gamester, take me instead, give me the most painful death...rip out my heart, chop me to a million pieces while im alive, drown me, drop me from a buildin, do wat you did to Jimmy and run me over twice while im still alive like he was...do wateva da hell you wish to do wif me...jus dont take Brittany...MY ONLY WISH* <<
Im sick of everyone dieing...randy my aunt my cuzin my grandma justin jeri jimmy...geesh dont u think dats enough from my life?!

*gets down on her knees and prays {to da god she dont believe in} and prays dat da rest of her friends r okay, and live FOREVER!*

4 And i fall in love again.. | Then i see your face

:: 2003 29 October :: 7.14 pm
:: Mood: sleepy

Okay im pretty sure dat me and Mike offically started going out on October 17th but im not sure...cuz he told Ryan dat we were going out on da 15th but he asked me on da 17th, so which one sould i pick? I think im jus gonna go wit da 17th cuz dats one of my lucky numbers!! Hehe...but yah i unno, we havent really been talkin much lately...and i dont think dat he wants to go out anymore...*sigh* Jus another guy to add to dat *L---O---N---G ass lists of guys-i-went-out-wit-fo-no-damn-reason...urgh i dont wanna have him be one of those guys tho...cuz i really like dis one...its weird, its like a first crush all over again...everytime i talk wif him i get these really weird butterfly feelings, and i giggle alot, and i smile constantly, and its crazy lol...but i unno it will prolly turn out to be nothing AGAIN!! But ahh oh well...

I unno me n Britt havent really been talkin lots lately either...like t day fo example she keeps leavin forever and i havent like talked to her at all t day...I unno whas going on there either...*sigh*

Maybe im jus going to lose everyone again...all my friends...my boyfriend...everything! Well everything dat means anything to me! Urgh dis is so stupid...and pointless...im done bye!

4 And i fall in love again.. | Then i see your face

:: 2003 28 October :: 7.35 pm
:: Mood: frustrated

I had a very well as my mood says, frustratin day t day! Alotta crap jus happened to go wrong t day, on da one day dat iive gotta go talk wif Becky {stupid ass counsler lady} Urgh like wit Cassie...shes sucha bitch and i seriously dont even know why i try wit her these days! Shes always going to stab me in da bak! Shes not da same person as she was before! And da new pesron really isnt da kinda person dat i wanan be friends wit...so why cant i jus forget bout her?

And James is all pissed off at me cuz im going out wit Mike, and dats really shitty cuz he made dis really huge scene at skool t day! We were in Gym and like we had to play b ball wit eachother, cuz were in da same squad and like yah he started yellin at me and sayin all dis shit bout mike when he dont even know mike and he kept sayin dat im fuckin ruining our friendship and dat im makin him hate himself and shit like dat...urgh i luv da kid to death but dats pretty fucked up...and ex since he said all of it rite in front of everyone in gym class! Everyone heard it!! And den he left da class and went into da locker room and i left da class and jus left da building and like was really pissed off so i jus went outside on da cross country trail till 3rd hour started...i freezed my ass off too...ick!

And jus everyone else was all pissed off t day, like cassie is mad at lisa, so cassie asked sid to be her partner in tech and lisa was all mad at both of em cuz like they ditched her and i was mad cuz i was ditched too and den lisa wanted to be my partner and i didnt wanna say no cuz i luv her to death, but she dont do shit, and we'v egot a hard station this time, and im not smart enough to jus do it myself and i dont wanna do it myself and im not fuckin failin dat class and havin to take a whole semester again wit dat stupid bitch teacher! Urgh...

Den tiffany was mad at Amber and i was talkin wit amber and tiff thought dat i was talkin bout her to her and i wouldnt do dat cuz tiff is like my really good friend and i really wouldnt do dat anyway cuz i hate ppl dat talk shit behind ppls baks...i mean da way i see it, if u gonna talk shit talk it to thier face...and den like yah so tiff was all mad at me and den i tried smoothing things over wit her and amber got mad at me and yah dat was shitty too!!

But bout da only thing positive dat happened t day was...well cept dat i got an email from sara...but cuz in 3rd hour we got new seats and i sit rite in da way bak corner and autumn sits rite in front of me on dat table and still faces me and me and chris share a table! I luv chris hes been my good friend forever! Hes so cute n so sweet! I luv him!! hehe!

Geesh i had a frustratin day tho...i think dat ppl need to jus GET OVER THEMSELVES, and stop bitchin! --Words of wisdom from Jillane! hehe

Love awlays,
xox~*Jilly*~xox

Then i see your face

:: 2003 27 October :: 6.22 am
:: Mood: tired

ZzZzZzZzZ...*snores*
Urgh brittany u better not stay home from school t day! Cuz i really cant, ive got a science test to finish t day...ick! Plus yah ive already got 5 absences on B days and if i get one more ill have to do dat whole deal and like yah i dont really wanna lose credit fo all those core classes and den still have to finish da skool year wit em!! Ick! Ahh oh well ill talk wit u latah chicka...hopefully t nite! hehe

I wub yew!

Love alwyas,
~*Jilly*~

2 And i fall in love again.. | Then i see your face