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2003 23 October :: 7.08 pm
:: Mood: crazy
Will this never-ending-cycle ever end? It feels like im trapped in a down hill spiral and i cant get it...feels like i cant breath, cant see, cant help myself at all...and den when i scream fo help, nobody can hear me, or they r sittin around me gawking me like i was on tv or something, like it wasnt real. I scream help help help, but nobody helps, they jus go about thier business and ignore the lil nothing me thats falling into a deep dark hole to never escape again...not dat it matters weather or not i escape, since i was jus like a black hole anyway, i sucked everything into my deep darkness and ruined everything fo everyone including the best thigns in my life. And so i jus sit there gettin sucked in, waitin fo my entire existence to jus be forgotten in sucha short period of time. And when im takin my last breath and givin my last farewell...i look up, and there you are, standin there before me, smiling at me, as if you had done this to me, as if this was exactly wat you wanted, and i as i look into ur eyes, i see, that this was, exactly wat you wanted...
How do you like my lil story there? Geesh my week well my like last week n a half has been so horrible, everything is screawing up, and im not sure if i can even stay here at my own house yet t nite...i had to leave again yesterday and i didnt get to talk wit britt again *sigh* But ahh oh well, i unno this whole journal thing rite now seems really dumb...ill write more latah i guess...bye!
Love always,
~*Jilly*~
2 And i fall in love again.. |
Then i see your face |
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2003 22 October :: 8.22 pm
:: Mood: calm
BRITTANY I LUV U MORE DEN ANYTHING IN DA WHOLE WORLD UR DA BEST FRIEND DAT ANYONE COULD EVER HAVE IM SO HAPPY DAT I FOUND YOU, YOUVE CHANGED MY LIFE SO MUCH AND I CANT BELIEVE DAT I FINALLY FOUND SOMEONE SO TRUTHFUL CARING HELPFUL SMART FUNNY *BLONDE* HEHE AND JUS SO MANY OTHER THINGS ITS WAY TOO MANY TO NAME OFF! I LUV YOU MORE DEN ANYTHING IN DA WHOLE WORLD AND NOTHING NOR NOBODY WILL EVER CHANGE DAT!
Love always,
~*ME*~ heh
Then i see your face |
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2003 21 October :: 4.19 pm
Hey brittany EMAIL ME t nite cuz like yah i really wanna hear from you t day! But we've gotta leave like RITE NOW LOL bye sweetie luv you!
6 And i fall in love again.. |
Then i see your face |
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2003 20 October :: 9.52 pm
:: Mood: pissed off!!
Ahh..
Ppl r so fuckin gay sometimes, i mean really do they think dat im dat fuckin stupid! No im not dat fuckin stupid i know wat da hell is going on, urgh i dont wanna talk to anyone! Fuck everyone! Thier all jus fuckin stupid! Fuck everyone!!!
Omg look at dat its 9:45 and im going to fuckin bed!! Ahh aint dat scary...prolly cuz nobody wants to fuckin talk to me anyway! So fuck it i dont care! lalalalala all my friends r stupid ass fuckin retarts!! lalalalala
Bed time now!
Love always,
~*ME*~
Then i see your face |
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2003 20 October :: 8.46 pm
:: Mood: gloomy
:: Music: Damn by youngbloodz
I miss Brittany!!
Omfg i friggin miss brittany! We havent really talked in like forever! This is really shitty, her puter is a piece of CRAP! Lol neways i jus really miss brittany!
Brittany-I miss you more den anything in da whole friggin world, you mean everything to me and im so sorry dat ive been busy and dat we havent been really talkin alot lately...i hope dat we can like talk more like 2marro or something! I jus miss you girlie!!
I feel like crying for ever! My mom is like sleepin already so i cant friggin call Brittany, and she aint online so i cant talk to her there, and she really hasnt been online all nite urgh i unno i hate not talkin wit her...i miss her!!
Neways nothign else happened really t day, i didnt have skool so it was pretty boring!
All xcept da fact dat me and Mike r going out! hehe i hope dat we go out fo a while but if not den i hope dat were still friends afterward cuz hes like one of my really good guy friends! Hehe im jus glad dat we've been talkin again!
Well im gonna go to bed...!
Love always,
~*Jilly*~
Then i see your face |
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