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2004 9 March :: 10.23 am
:: Mood: excited
Does it really matter..
Just sitting here in uprights class with another sub, with my bestest buddy Lisa Marie and Cassie!!!!
Well today i skipped 1st hour and then i forgot that it was tuesday so i missed group today..lol Kyndra is giong to kill me, bcuz shes in Mexico right now and last week she told me that she wasnt going to be here for group this week and that she wasnt going to be here this week and so i told her that i didnt wanna go to group if she wasnt going to be there and then yeah she told me that i had to, so i siad that i would and then i ACCIDENTLY =p missed it this morning shes giong to beat me up!! hehe oh wells i luv that lady i cant wait until she comes home!! =)
But neways i wrote you a letter last nite britty, and i like was all ready to send it this morning i had the stamp on the envolope n everything but i decided not to send it, but im sure that im going to send it 2marro. But yeah you have to tell me the day that ou get it. I luv you lots babes and n miss you tons babes!! *and yes it does matter* I LUV YOU!!
Chelsie thanks for everything, your the best babes..well i dont really have anything to say rite now ive gotta give cassie here computer back because shes going to get all mad n everything lol..but neways luv you all lots!!
<33 Jilly!!
Oh yeah by the way..i cant get online during the week anymore, thats me and my moms deal, only on the weekends!! But oh wells luv you all lots!! =)
Then i see your face |
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2004 7 March :: 8.53 pm
:: Mood: thankful
:: Music: Nobody knows--Kevin sharp
Is that all that i am to you..
How's my journal now everyone..better..or worse let me know!! =)
Ya know ive been thinking about alotta things lately, and one topic that i was thinking about was about who my *true* friends are..and if i am a *true* friend. And who i am a *true* friend to..
A while ago like a long while ago britty told me what she thought a true friend was, and ive stuck with this *definition* or *opinion* ever since. A true friend is someone who is there through everything, and accepts you for who you are. *or something like that*
I know that i dont have many true friends, but i started thinking, and after a while, i realized that i have more than i think that i do..Like Britty, Chelsie, Ali Jean, Brittney, Tiffany, Cassie, Lisa, Becky Dawn, James, Mike, Steffanie, and a few others. Like seriously i know that if i ever needed anything, anyone of those ppl would be right there by my side!! Do you know how lucky am i for that!!
Then i was thinking, and i tried to think of some people that ive always been a true friend to..and seriously you might think this is like my *low self asteem* talking but really i cant think of one person..yeah britty, but yeah she knows that i aint ALWAYS been, chelsie neither, Lisa and i didnt like eachother 8th grade..cassie and i neither, James and i stopped talking for a while, same with Mike..i guess i could say Tiffany Becky Dawn and Steffanie i have been a true friend too, but 1. Becky Dawn was easy, all you have to do is listen to her guy problems and give advice really..and Steffanie same, just a few more things, and just keeping touch when she just recently moved, that too..Tiffany iw ould have to say i really am a true friend to her, its been hard, but its been worth it..i luv you babes!! But really who else..i cant really think of many..maybe gloria, ive alwyas been here for her..shes sucha great person tho..i cant help it *now shes my daw daw and im her mother J* YaYaY!! lol but no seriusly the only reason i try and be there for her as much as i can is because yeah she mite be popular goofy and happy but i think there is much more to her, or much more than the rest of her friends at least, maybe thats mean..i dont care =p
But i dont know..you know how i think too much..welll thats it for today, i'll prolly write more 2marro..latah every1.
2 And i fall in love again.. |
Then i see your face |
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2004 6 March :: 10.31 pm
If only you could see the tears in my heart
Im just putting these qoutes on here so that i dont lose them =p haha
But really..they do mean something to me..=( oh wells life goes on ya know!!
"You can't hurt someone unless you really mean something to them."
"The greatest pain in life is not to die, but to be forgotten and ignored."
"At least be there to wipe away my tears if you're going to make me cry."
Then i see your face |
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2004 6 March :: 6.43 pm
:: Mood: weird
*If only life was this way..
Omg..BEST WEEKEND EVER WAS THIS WEEKEND!! Wowo and Friday too!! OmG you have no idea im soo fuckin happy rite now!! Okay friday oh wow with the snowfest games and every class being shorter, that was soo much fun!! Oh gosh and then after skool.. =)
okay me and becky were going to the bathroom, and like i was walking backwards and becky was walking forward cuz there were snowcones on the ceiling and they had every1 in 9th grades name on it..so we were looking for her name..and like we were at the last one and im like okay i dont know and im like im going to the bathroom and i walked like rite into the guys bathroom and beckys like no no no not that one no..and it wouldnt have been as bad cuz there was nobody around except nathan nimps was walking out rite as i was walking in..omg me and her started fuckin busting up!! She almost pissed her pants!!!!!! =p It was great..=D
And then we like were hanging out and doing stuff at her..and baby sitting the cutest lil girl kassi..Her niece..and like yeah then kevin came got us *her boyfriend* we went to mcdonalds then to the dance after driving around for like forever..it was GREAT!! He is soo fun and kool..im glad she got sucha good one!! Then the dance omg every1 thuoght i was high off my ass..i sweear i wasnt..really..but we were dancing the whole time it was soo fuckin fun!!
Me and chad were dancing together too, which was kinda bad cuz his gf if she found out she would die =( But i luv ashley..and i hope she dont find out..but yeah me and lisa and cassie smith and brown and like arianna and ashley b and brenda and monika and all of us were dancing together it was great!! And yeah it was just great..me and Cassie smith had a fuckin blast!!
And then stayed up at till about 3-4 in the morning talking to becky dawn..about EVERYTHING!! It was fuckin awesome!! But then today nicoles baby shower, yeah that was great i was really surprised that cassie smith actually showed up but that was fuckin awesome and then me and cassie and becky went and baby sat kassi for abit and then my mom came and got me and cassie and too bad she was grounded..but oh wells now im home and im bout to leave in a second to go to chads!!!! =) omfg i luv this kid!!
Me and Cassie i sweear are bcoming like best friends again..you guys have no idea how happy that makes me!!!!!! But tahts enough for t nite.gotta go luv you all lots!! Byes!!
Then i see your face |
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2004 4 March :: 11.19 am
:: Mood: tired
Everything must change sooner or latah..
Wow, yesterday was interesting..I got to talk to Kyndra yesterday which was AWESOME!! =) I really luv talking to that lady!!
But neways also yesterday ryan came over so taht he and josh could help me fix my lil scooter thingy..which was MAJORLY odd..i dont know why yesterday was interesting..it jus was =p
But today has been pretty good..got in trouble in woodruff's class again. Second hour was really really fun in gym playin v ball n everything!! Wow we kicked some booty!! =p Im hoping to get outta this hour, im hoping kyndra will come this hour cuz she told me that she would come today if i wanted her to, and so yeah i did. So she sould be coming soon!! =) I hope she comes soon at least.. =p
Latah t nite we've gotta go shopping for something to wear for snowfest, and then im gonna try and go to this hall decorating thingy from 4-8 but im not sure yet!!
But thats enough for now..illw rite more another time!
I luv you britty!! *never leave me*
1 And i fall in love again. |
Then i see your face |
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