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2004 28 February :: 6.05 pm
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: i dont want you back--eamon *or wateva*
When you smile, i melt..
Omfg guess who jus decided to show up at my house unexpectedly!!! STEVE!! Omg im in my pjs and i look like friggin satin!! =p
I HATE how im letting him use me!! Seriously like one minute he'll be kissin up on Tuesday n Brandy and then the next he's at my hosue making out wif me!! And i just let him, i dont yell at him, i dont tell him that i dont like what hes doing to me, i jus go along wif it!! And i fuckin hate it!!
Why the hell am i letting him use me/get to me like this!! I CANT be in love with the kid!! I CANT!! urgh if anyone has any advice..please let me know bcuz im all outta ideas!! ='(
Then i see your face |
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2004 27 February :: 3.49 pm
:: Mood: moody
:: Music: yeah--usher--lil jon--n luda
Without you, nothing seems worth it =(
Wow today, yeah it was interesting!! Actually it was good, besides the fact that tiffany and me almost got into a fight!! I swear iw ould have socked the shit outta her if she wasnt cassie's friend!! i hate when i try to be respectful!! =(
But besides that, one good thing was that kyndra came into skool today tot alk to me! She didnt even have any other appointments, she jus wanted to talk to me cuz she said she would talk to me again sometime this week!! Then she was late to her appt lol but i'll see her tues in group at skool!! YaY!! =)
omg i luv this song its country, its i luv you this much by some odd guy i dont know lol but its a good song everyone listen to it =p
neways i dont think me and steve are going to work out this time!! But me and James are getting real close and whats his face asked me back out, so yeah..im okay!! =) cept i miss my baby =( and wif snowfest this next week, dammit i need him here wif me..srry depressing moment, back now!! =)
i have to go to da doctor when my mommy gets home, we think that i pulled a muscle in my shoulder dammit!! =( it hurts like hell ='(
neways thats enough for now, i think that ima get offline, internet bores me anymore..the only reason i get online is for this journal, and to talk to britts, but of krose she dont get hoem till like 4 30 and is never online anymore anyway so no use being online!! Luv you all =)
love..me!!
Then i see your face |
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2004 27 February :: 3.49 pm
:: Mood: moody
:: Music: yeah--usher--lil jon--n luda
Without you, nothing seems worth it =(
Wow today, yeah it was interesting!! Actually it was good, besides the fact that tiffany and me almost got into a fight!! I swear iw ould have socked the shit outta her if she wasnt cassie's friend!! i hate when i try to be respectful!! =(
But besides that, one good thing was that kyndra came into skool today tot alk to me! She didnt even have any other appointments, she jus wanted to talk to me cuz she said she would talk to me again sometime this week!! Then she was late to her appt lol but i'll see her tues in group at skool!! YaY!! =)
omg i luv this song its country, its i luv you this much by some odd guy i dont know lol but its a good song everyone listen to it =p
neways i dont think me and steve are going to work out this time!! But me and James are getting real close and whats his face asked me back out, so yeah..im okay!! =) cept i miss my baby =( and wif snowfest this next week, dammit i need him here wif me..srry depressing moment, back now!! =)
i have to go to da doctor when my mommy gets home, we think that i pulled a muscle in my shoulder dammit!! =( it hurts like hell ='(
neways thats enough for now, i think that ima get offline, internet bores me anymore..the only reason i get online is for this journal, and to talk to britts, but of krose she dont get hoem till like 4 30 and is never online anymore anyway so no use being online!! Luv you all =)
love..me!!
Then i see your face |
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2004 25 February :: 11.57 am
:: Mood: sore
Okay just sittin here in renteria's class being bored..man this lady gets on my nerves shes a bitch!!
But oh wells..neways nothing really been happening lately..cept one BIG THING!!
me and steve finally started talking again!! Omg yesterday we were talking during lunch cuz i went up to him cuz he was sad about something and yeah i was takling to him and we jus keep gettin closer and closer and den like yeah we hugged and then we kissed and when lunch was over we went to his 4th hour so we could tell him teacher and then we walked to my 4th hour and we were kissing and everything then he met me after 4th hour and we walked together to the lobby and then like he grabbed me and pulled me to the side and we were kissing and huggin and talkin and everything till my mom got there to pick me up!! So yeah i dnot know whats gonig on wif that..he keeps sayin you need to get ungrounded soon so that i can see you and we can go back out..yeah what if i dont wanna go out wif him again. But neways..
Yeah i went to meet my counsler last night. She is really really awesome!! I like her. Im going every tues at 3 pm!! YaY!! Ima get *better* hah funny shit!!
Well ima go for now..latah everyone!!
And ali jean, did you call me yesterday?? omg if you did im seriously going to kill my lil sister!! Dude if you can call me tonight or whenever you can!! i luv you soo fuckin much and miss you tons!! =)
Love..Jilly!! <33
Then i see your face |
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2004 22 February :: 3.37 pm
:: Mood: thoughtful
well nothing has really been happening
this weekend, just worked last night
That was really fun tho, i aint seen tammy
in like wat seems like forever..but now she
wants me to come over this week and baby-
sit her lil girl, but im major busy, but of korse
i said that i would..wat a nice person eh =p
Last night steve called me after i got outta
work and we were talking for a while, and
he asked me if i would ever go back out with
him, and i said i dont know, and asked why
and he said because he wants to go back
out when im not grounded anymore, bcuz he
misses me..HAH BULLSHIT!! But no i really
dont want to go back out wif him, i need to
get my shit straight before i have a relationship
ya know..i need some time by myself, some
time for jilly for a while..then ill start dating
again, but just not right now. =)
Oh yeah you guys.. *chelsie mostly* im
getting *help* omg miss conrad/mrs beer
was soo happy lol..it was soo cute!! But
freal i am gettin help, im talking to a counsler
at skool and then im seeing one at the aware
shelter, and then im going to group counsling
at the aware shelter, and then im doing this
like second challenge day thingy to help other
students and everytyhing, *to become a
challenge day leader* and yeah then im doing
this like group counsling thingy at skool that
mrs arkison is doing, its on tues the first day,
then at the otehr group counsling is the
same day after skool..its gonna be great
you would be soo proud =p
Well thats enough for today, ima go..luv you
all soo much!! Latah!!
4 And i fall in love again.. |
Then i see your face |
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