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2004 14 March :: 2.24pm
Poem
Have you ever
wished upon a star
wished to be anywhere else
then where you are
Have you ever had a dream?
and everyone laughed
told you were foolish
to attempt such a task
Have you ever
loved someone so much
you'd do anything
just 2 keep them from pain
only to find out
that they didn't feel the same
Have you ever
saw something on the news
that brought a tear to ur eye
and u sit there wondering
why do children die?
Have you ever
thought that no one cared
cried out loud
and they only stared
Faith is important
its what keeps us alive
remember to believe in yourself
don't believe their lies
You can be what u want
no matter what they say
your decisions
determine how you live each day
Its too late for me
but not too late for you
Ive already given up
don't you give up too
2 And i fall in love again.. |
Then i see your face
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2004 14 March :: 11.19am
SHIT AS ALWAYS
you people don't know fucking shit about my life, and the stupid gay ass slim fast joke is getting fucking old, it's not kool.
Okay, if you are soo interested in me then why don't you write a book about me, here i'll give you all the grusome details...
My mom is a drug attict and she left me when I was 5, I go through alot of shit with it to, I've been to counselling and all that shit to get over it, and I still haven't. She lies to me, and breaks promises, and cons money off of me and my dad for dug and beer money, and then she lies and says she bought stuff for us.
I've been teased ever scinc I moved to the shit ass town, 1st grade up untill now. And themoo cow thing is getting old, and so is that fucking slimfast thing, eh em, people don't fucking drink that shit anymore, I'de think of something new here people!
I get sick easily because I have asthma. and i can't run as fast as everone else, or do as much b.c. then I get sick, or can't breath.
Yeah so what if I live with my dad and my grandma?
yeah so what if I am like my mom and look like her?
Yeah so what if I am dramatic, so Is everyone else, it's called life.
And yes Vanessa, I do know what a life is, b.c. I have one, everyone does, people just say they don't because they are jelous that some people's is better then thiers.
And, I may not be cool like some people, and I may not be sluts like some people. But the things I do know is that never trust someone, unless you have known them long enough, or unless u feel like u really can.
And I don't make up people Vanessa, your just jelous that I can get someone cuter then you can. Wait...
Why am I even wasting fucking space writting about your fat ass mouth and remarks,
because...
they
don't
mean
SHIT!
So I hope you burn in hell, b.c. I don't care about what happens to you, or anyother of your little Vanessa possies, b.c. people that follow in your footsteps, really need mental help....
Oh, and the next time you look at one of my journal entries, make sure to look at the date, b.c. It does matter, when i wrote that entrie that your mad about, it was when we were in a fight, learn to read asswhipe, maybe then ya'll learn better and how to keep your fucking mouth shut, oh and the next time you have soemthing to say,
SAY IT TO MY FUCKING FACE AND NOT TO SOME IDIOTIC FUCKING ASS JOURNAL OF MINE!
Oh, and if you don't like me like you say you don't, then stop finding out what the fucking is going on in my life, then you might realise something,
"oh wow, I finally realised, why am i wasting time getting into her life, when I should be wasting my time shoveing my fat ass hand up my own ass, I mean b.c. I have a dick as can't shove anything up there. " - Vanessa
Love
always
and
forever
Megz
1 And i fall in love again. |
Then i see your face
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LOSERxDORK
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2004 13 March :: 9.08pm
:: Music: frusturated
well, today was a decent day. i hung out with kristi,leslie,john,andrew,and greg. they are amazing they are my boces friends that ride the bus with me in the morning :) soo we hung around all day and did nothing. at 2 my mom took my sisters home and then went to the hospital to see my grandma. currently it is 8:53 and my mom is still at the hospital and sherri is at dougs house and leslie,kristi,andrew,john,and greg just left my house. sherri is coming over my house and yeah. i hope everyone had a good day :)
andrew greg john kristi leslie caitlin amanda danny mark kait lara paris alex ray and mikey are amazing sexy pieces of ass!!! :)
Then i see your face
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2004 13 March :: 7.54pm
everything gone wrong....
Everything:
Perfect:
GOD I HATE THE FUCKING ASS GOD DANM WORDS!!!! ERrRrRrRrRrRrRrR!!!!!
Tomorow my grandma leaves for a week, and then I'm gonna go to my grandpa's.... and then Ian and his cuzin migt comeover for a little bit, atleast I know that Ian's always there for me, that poopy bum though rarely ever talks to me, but I still love him like a brother, b.c. he is my brother! YAY!!! lol,,, I love Missy and Amber too!!! My one and only true blood sisters! HeeHee
So yeah, but still, I feel as if everything around me is GREAT, but everything with me is, blah... errrrr
well gotta go,,,,
love
always
and
forever
Megz
2 And i fall in love again.. |
Then i see your face
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tiptoeinthedark
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2004 13 March :: 7.33pm
:: Mood: horny
:: Music: whats your fantasy
WHEW!
lol .. the horny thing was a joke.. I'm not.. o=) I swear! not that I wouldnt mine "being with my boyfriend" I miss him alot... but yeah.. anyways .. just laying in his arms is enough to brighten my whole worls.. and forget about ANYTHING bad that has EVER happeened to me... just the thought of him makes me smile..
he said that he was going on a road trip with Zach to boston... so he had to go... well after he signed off Zach was still on.. then abouyt an hour later he went on away saying he was sleeping.. n now he is on away saying he is out for the night n to call if n e 1 wants to do anything so obviously he isnt in boston... but I trust my boyfriend... so maybe plans changed.. was just weird.. but I really do trust him!... I love him with all that I have... I would truly be heartbroken more then ever if I lost him.. he is my whole world.. my whole life... I can't wait to see him again... I'm just gunnna jump on him.. not my fault i get those *sudden urges* around him! no 1 was expecting that that night.. it was funnny.. I liked it tho.. I think they r great
lol yeah so anyways...
I am watching a movie and doingmy nails.. they were long n perty ... but they broke.. fuck A .. grrbles!...
last night Jade put my hair in 2 french braids n I thought I looked pretty for once in my whole life... I was watching a movie tonight and I realized that the girl was really pretty.. gorgeous... I wish I looked like her!... I wish I looked like Brianna 2... n sumother ppl... I dunno why Cole is with me.. he could find alot prettier... but I love him n he loves me ... its grewta.. I love him so much!
yeah well im gunna go.. prolly no 1 is even reading this but thats okay.. ttyl
Jillane! ur prolly theonly one reading htis! I love you so fuckin much baby g... hope u r doingokay.. I miss ya.. thanks for everythign homey *big hug*
I LOVE Cole M. Friant <3 with all my <3
Then i see your face
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