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Ali jean ur the best thing thts eva happened to me. I luv u wif all mah heart <3 In the end I want to be standing at the beginning with you
I can't stand being your second anymore.
Not when you're always my first.
Whoever said happiness came with sunshine
has never danced in the rain.
Your a dream come true, don't you ever leave my side, cuz it feels so right
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Britty ur the reason im alive, I would be nothing w/o u. I luv you soo much
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thoughtskill

:: 2004 12 February :: 8.17am
:: Mood: sick

i tryD tO change
saturday was pretty much perfect

[ sarah'z partey ]
soo many people were there..
we were outside most the time, me lindsey B mariSsa n steven tipped over a porta potty =] n we all jumped on this guys tramoline without permission lmao ! than we played lyk spin the bottle n shit mmhmm -n- watched findin nemo !! =] yay ! than we tried goin 2 sleEp - in the garage on tha flOor.. not the most confortable place.. it was sOo hott ! n than it would get really cold - we were up all night talkin n laughin though - finally round 7 me n steve went on the coach n i fell asleep in his armz =] n than at 7: 15 marissa n steven came in and woke us up .. lol.. than they kept us up and at 8 sarah's mom made us all get up

=]

me n lindseys list !
1. kill a duck
2. get permission
3. jump on a tramoline -check
4. tip a portapotty -check
5. have sex on a trampoline
6. sharpen our brainz
7. dO a latin dance
8. be a spy -check

is that it?

ive been sick since tuesday mornin =[
1o3 fever + my throat hurts x 10

<3.



but i changeD my minD

3 And i fall in love again.. | Then i see your face


tiptoeinthedark

:: 2004 11 February :: 2.07pm
:: Music: none

songs cuz what happened
Jilly I love u so much


thanks to everyone thats helping me with all this shit

todaywas pie eating lol. n beach day I wore my bikini over my shirt :-P



sum good lyrics 4 how I feel... only parts of the songs apply but some most










the trouble with love is- Kelly Clarkson



Ooooohhh…
Oooohhhh ya
Mmmmm

Love can be a many splendored thing
Can't deny the joy it brings
A dozen roses
Diamond rings
Dreams for sale
And fairy tales
It’ll make you hear a symphony
And you just want the world to see
But like a drug that makes you blind
It’ll fool you every time

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger then your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn’t care how fast you fall
And you can’t refuse the call
See you’ve got no say at all

Now I was a once a fool it’s true
I played the game by all the rules
But now my world’s a deeper blue
I’m sadder but I’m wiser too
I swore I’d never love again
I swore my heart would never mend
Said love wasn’t worth the pain
But then I hear it call my name

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger then your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn’t care how fast you fall
And you can’t refuse the call
See you’ve got no say at all

Every time I turn around
I think I’ve got it all figured out
My heart keeps callin
And I keep on fallin
Over and over again
This sad story always ends the same
Me standin' in the pouring rain
It seems no matter what I do
It tears my heart in two

The trouble with love is (the trouble with love)
It can tear you up inside (it can tear you up inside)
Make your heart believe a lie (Make your heart believe a lie)
It's stronger than your pride
(The trouble with love is) It's in your heart it's in your soul
(It doesn't care how fast you fall) You're losing all control
(And you can’t refuse the call)
So you’ve got no say at all
The trouble with love is (Oooo….ya)
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie (the trouble with love..)












evenescence- my immortal


i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
but now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me




i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
but though you're still with me
i've been alone all along













the first cut is the deepest- Sheryl Crow


I would have given you all of my heart
But there's someone who's torn it apart
And he's taken just all that I had
But if you want I'll try to love again
Baby, I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know the first cut is the deepest
But when it comes to being lucky he's cursed
When it comes to loving me he's worst

I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
And I'm sure going to give you a try
And if you want I'll try to love again (tryyy)
Baby, I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know the first cut is the deepest
But when it comes to being lucky he's cursed
When it comes to loving me he's worst

I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
But I'm sure gonna give you a try
'Cause if you want I'll try to love again (try to love again)
Baby, I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know, the first cut is the deepest
When it comes to being lucky he's cursed
When it comes to loving me he's worst

The first cut is the deepest baby i know
The first cut is the deepest try to love again...











I hope you dance- Lee Ann Womack


I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat, but always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed

Chorus: I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give fate a fighting chance
and when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance, I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances, but they're worth taking
Loving might be a mistake but it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out, reconsider
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance (time is a wheel in constant motion always)
I hope you dance (rolling us along)
I hope you dance (tell me who wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
I hope you dance (where those years have gone)

I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean.
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens.
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance.
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

chorus

I hope you dance (time is wheel in constant motion always)
I hope you dance (rolling us along)
I hope you dance (tell me who wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
I hope you dance (where those years have gone)
repeat 1x
I hope you dance









SIMPLE PLAN SONGS



addicted-



I heard you're doing ok
But I want you to know
I'm a dick
I'm addicted to you
I can't pretend I don't care
When you don't think about me
Do you think I deserve this?

I tried to make you happy but you left anyway

I'm trying to forget that
im addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
Im addicted to you
Now it's over
can't forget what you said
and I never wanna do this again
Heartbreaker... heartbreaker... heartbreaker

Since the day I met you
And after all we've been through
Still a Dick
I'm addicted to you
I think you know that it's true
I'd run a thousand miles to get you
Do you think I deserve this?

I tried to make you happy
I did all that I could
Just to keep you
But you left anyway

I'm trying to forget that
im addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
Im addicted to you
Now it's over
can't forget what you said
and I never wanna do this again
Heartbreaker... heartbreaker...

How long will I be waiting?
Until the end of time
I don't know why I'm still waiting
I can't make you mine

I'm trying to forget that
im addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
Im addicted to you
I'm trying to forget that
im addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
Im addicted to you
Now it's over
can't forget what you said
and I never wanna do this again
Heartbreaker... heartbreaker..im addicted to you...

heartbreaker...
im addicted to you...

heartbreaker...
im addicted to you...
heartbreaker...
im addicted to you...
heartbreaker...









id do anything





Another day is goin' by
I'm thinkin' about you all the time
But you're out there
And I'm here waitin'

And I wrote this letter in my head
'Cuz so many things were left unsaid
But now you're gone
And I can't think straight

This could be the one last chance
To make you understand, yeah

Chorus:

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
'Cuz I know
I won't forget you

Together we broke all the rules
Dreaming of droppin' out of school
And leave this place
To never come back

So now maybe after all these years
If you miss me have no fears
I'll be here
I'll be waitin'

This could be the one last chance to make you understand
And I just can't let you leave me once again, yeah

Repeat Chorus

I close my eyes
And all I see is you
I close my eyes
I try to sleep
I can't forget you
(Na na na....)
And I'd do anything for you
(Na na na....)
Repeat Chorus












perfect- sorry i cant b perfect guys...







And do you think I'm wasting my time...
Doing things I wanna do
But it hurts when you disapprove all along.

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that I'm alright
And you can't change me

Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard just to talk to you
But you don't understand

Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect












maroon 5- harder to breathe





How dare you say that my behavior is unacceptable
So condescending unnecessarily critical
I have the tendency of getting very physical
So watch your step cause if I do you'll need a miracle

You drain me dry and make me wonder why I'm even here
This double vision I was seeing is finally clear
You want to stay but you know very well I want you gone
Not fit to funkin' tread the ground that I'm walking on

When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe

What you are doing is screwing things up inside my head
You should know better you never listened to a word I said
Clutching your pillow and writhing in a naked sweat
Hoping somebody someday will do you like I did

When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe

Does it kill
Does it burn
Is it painful to learn
That it's me that has all the control

Does it thrill
Does it sting
When you feel what I bring
And you wish that you had me to hold

When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
















match box 20- real world



Well, I wonder what it's like to be the rainmaker
I wonder what it's like to know that I made the rain
I'd store it in boxes with little yellow tags on everyone
and you can come and see them when I'm...done, when I'm done

Well, I wonder what it's like to be a super hero
I wonder where I'd go if I could fly around downtown
from some other planet, I get this funky high on yellow sun
boy I bet my friends will all be...stunned, they're stunned

(CHORUS)
Yeah, straight up, what did you hope to learn about here?
If I were someone else, would this all fall apart?
Strange, where were you, when we started this gig?
I wish the real world, would just stop hassling me

Well, I wonder what it's like to be the head honcho
I wonder what I'd do if they all did just what I said
Well, I'd shout out an order,
"I think we're out of this man get me some
boy don't make me wanna change my...tone, my tone"

(CHORUS)

Please don't change, please don't break
The only thing that seems to work at all is you
Please don't change, at all from me
To you, and you to me

Yeah, straight up, what did you hope to learn about here?
If I were someone else, would this all just fall apart?
Strange, where were you, when we started this gig?
I wish the real world, would just stop hassling me

I wish the real world, would just stop hassling me
I wish the real world, would just stop hassling me
And you, and me






1 And i fall in love again. | Then i see your face


LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 11 February :: 6.16am
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: story of the year

well, school yesterday was nothing special. i went to school and went through the day like always then i took the bus back to east rockaway high school and then from there walked to the train with my mom. thennn we took the train to island park and went to pick up the lincoln (which was in an accident and had to be repaired) and we found out it was about 4400 in damage...wow. well, after that we went to pick up some papers that my mom had to fill out,drove to the diner,then my mom drove back to my aunts to pick my sisters up and then we took them back to my dads house. my mom and my dad left the house for like an hour and a half and i had to babysit for them. ugh.
well, after that my mom and i went to CVS to pick up my pictures that i had left there.

one question:
does it make sense that one hour photo is cheaper than overnight? and if so- why would people want overnight printing? ...

im really confused about that but yeah whatever it doesn't really matter, blahhhh

iheartrichie<3

Then i see your face


the-last-tear-will-fall

:: 2004 10 February :: 4.33pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: my har gettin ambers hand running through it! lol...

today...
wow... what can I say about today?

Soon, I know, I'll wake fromt hsi dream but suddenly I know, i'm not sleeping.

well... that's how I've felt lately... like this morning when I feel walking down my front steps b.c. there is alot of Ice on them*thank good my dad just got rid of it all* and then I feel 2 more times today... geesh... lol... well... Imma gonna go do sumfin.. write more later...

Then i see your face


tiptoeinthedark

:: 2004 10 February :: 12.44pm
:: Music: keys

wew!
more winter carnaval.. yesterday was p.j day n bri said i looked perty (even tho i looked the same) hehe shes a q.t :-P lol n e ways today was hat n crazy hair dayhehe.. well pig tails is crazy enough for me.. n I wore my lil pink hat :-)... tehe cuuuuuuuuuuute! tehe... Im figuring out my super powers *dont ask* lol

for the activity today we watched ppl fall off sled n we slid down the hills on our shoes n asses.. n ran down n fell.. I won even tho i went real slow cuz they all felll.. then lisie pulled me down the hill by my feet.. mypants was falling down so I thre a snowball at her n hit her in the head... it was funny.. myass is wet as Ispeak.. im at school typin this cuzmy comps GAY yes.. GAY... lol hehe a crossdreeser 2 :-P *wink* haha *dont ask* lol n e ways yea.. today is ok so far... if it turn outbad ill tell u in tomorrows journal.. n yesterday there was the obsticle corse n we were saying things about sacks n balls cuz of the tooss throughthe holes... like "dont let ur sacks just lay around" "u can do better with ur balls" "come on b a man n get it in the whole" it was great..

TEACHER ALERT GTG


*.':'.* much love*.':'.*

~ LiL Ali Jean-o

Then i see your face

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