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2004 9 February :: 12.42pm
:: Music: nuthing
life's blah
my life is blah.. i will always love him but I gotta move on right? wrong.. but I am gunna let him go.. but continue to love him =/
hey Jilly baby if ur reading this I LOVE U n i sent u 2 letters... tehe miss ya hunny! I will always be here
Then i see your face
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tiptoeinthedark
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2004 8 February :: 12.38pm
:: Music: computer keys
poems n stuff
This poem is how I feel sumtimes I feel alone
But if u take the last 6 lines off then It’s how I feel about my jilly
I love her oh so much!
Today I met a great new friend
Who got to know me right away
It was funny how she understood
All I had to say
She listened to my problems
She listened to my dreams
We talked about love and life
She’d been there, also, it seems
I never once felt judged by her
She knew just how I felt
She seemed to just accept me
And all the problems I’d been dealt
She didn’t interrupt me
Or need to have her say
She just listened very patiently
And didn’t go away
I wanted her to understand
How much this meant to me
But as I went to hug her
Sumthing starltled me
I put my arms infront of me
And went to pull her neer
And realized my new best friend
Was nothing but a mirror
Sad poem
I went to that birthday party
And I remembered just what you said
You told me not to drink at all
So I had sprite instead
I felt so proud of myself
The way you said I would
That I didn’t choose to drink and drive
Though some friends said I should
I knew I made a healthy choice
You advice to me was right
As the party finally ended
I watched the kids drive out of sight
I got into my own car
Sure to get home in one piece
Never knowing what was coming
Something I had expected least
Now I am lying on the pavement
I can hear the policeman say
"the kid that caused this was drunk"
his voice seems so far away
my own blood is all around me
as I try hard not to cry
I can hear the paramedic say
"this girl is going to die"
I’m sure the guy had no idea
While he was flying high
Because he chose to drink and drive
That I would have to die
So why do people do it?
Knowing that it ruins lives?
Now this pain is cutting me
Like a thousand stabbing knives
Tell my sister not to be afraid
Tell daddy to be brave
And when I go to heaven
Put "daddy’s girl" on my grave
Someone should have taught him
That it’s wrong to drink and drive
Maybe if his mom and dad had
I’d still be alive
My breath is getting shorter
I’m getting really scared
These are my final moment
And I am so unprepared
I wish you could hold me mom
As I lie here and die
I wish that I could at least say
I love you and goodbye.
2nd one
*Near to the door*
*he paused to stand*
*as he took his class ring*
*off her hand*
*all who were watching*
*did not speak* *as a silent tear*
*ran down his cheek*
*and through his mind*
*the memories ran*
*of the moments they walked*
*and ran in the sand hand and hand*
*but now her eyes were so terrible cold*
*for he would never again*
*have her to hold*
*they watched in silence*
*as he bent near*
*and whispered the words..*
*"I LOVE YOU" in her ear*
*he touched her face and started to cry*
*as he put on his ring and wanted to die*
*and just then the wind began to blow*
*as they lowered her casket*
*into the snow....*
*this is what happens*
*to man alive.....*
*when friends let friends....*
*drink and drive.*
Lol…
practical application
he's teaching her arithmatic
he said it was his mission
he kissed her one then kisher twice and said "now thats addition"
as he added smack by smack, she sat there in quiet satisfaction, then sweetly gave him kisses back n said "now thats subtraction"
then he kissed he and she kissed him and with out explination they looked at eachother n smiled n said "now thats multiplication"
the daddy appeared apon the scene and made a quick decision.. he kicked that boy 3 blocks away n said "now thats long division.!
~tehe
In Loving memory
Seth Micheal O'Brien R.I.P big bro I love you! I will never forget all you have done forme n I know that ull b living it up wherever you are... stay happy.. ull b forever missed and in my heart :-* luv ya lots bro
9.20.83 - 12.15.03
To my dearest family, some things I'd like to say...
but first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay.
I'm writing this from heaven. Here I dwell with God above.
Here, there's no more tears of sadness; here is just eternal love.
Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight.
Remember that I'm with you every morning, noon and night.
That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through,
God picked me up and hugged me and He said, "I welcome you."
It's good to have you back again; you were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family, they'll be here later on.
I need you here badly; you're part of my plan.
There's so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man."
God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do.
And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you.
And when you lie in bed at night, the day's chores put to flight.
God and I are closest to you....in the middle of the night.
When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years
because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry; it does relieve the pain.
Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.
I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned.
But if I were to tell you, you wouldn't understand.
But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is o'er.
I'm closer to you now, than I ever was before.
There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb;
but together we can do it by taking one day at a time.
It was always my philosophy and I'd like it for you too...
that as you give unto the world, the world will give to you.
If you can help somebody who's in sorrow and pain,
then you can say to God at night......"My day was not in vain."
And now I am contented....that my life has been worthwhile,
knowing as I passed along the way, I made somebody smile.
So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low,
just lend a hand to pick him up, as on your way you go.
When you're walking down the street, and you've got me on your mind;
I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.
And when it's time for you to go.... from that body to be free,
remember you're not going.....you're coming here to me.
Then i see your face
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LOSERxDORK
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2004 10 February :: 12.11am
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: hold on- good charlotte
school today was...
fine.
ok, here's the day in a pretty long nutshell, haha.
bus ride to boces saw leanne. the cosmetology students were having a competition so all of them came in for the morning and the afternoon. i <3 leanne, haha.
bus ride to pace sat by myself today
1st period-BBA figured out that i've DEFINITLY taken this class and its the one that east rockaway is trying to deny me credit in...BLAHHH
2nd period-social studies new kid in the class named matt. now our class has 4 people [me,ciara(sp?),cherie(sp?),and matt]
3rd period-studio art started my project on mondrian and mrs. lengel said it is coming out good (im almost done with it)
4th period-english started an essay on bullying and should the state take it into there own hands instead of letting schools take charge of bullying. eddie told me that evan likes me, ok?
5th period math started working on assignment 5 and yeah thats really it
6th period-lunch well, i sat in our 'cafeteria' which is also the studio art, intro to occ,and health room. i sat with ciara, cj,matt,paul,and karen
7th period-earth science watched a little lesson on the board and then watched some of october skys (good ass movie)
8th period-freesat in the only available classroom with everyone else who had a free period and i talked to joan about taking me out of BBA because i already took the class and i have to talk to her tomorrow
9th period-economics talked to denise and read on some guy adam smith who started laissez-faire economics...yeahh
bus ride to boces relaxed..yupp
bus ride to erock slept really, watched an almost fight,and just chilled
when i got home i just hung around really, i went to pick up my pictures and there not going to be ready until tomorrow so we shopped around alittle in CVS and yeah bought a couple of things, school tomorrow and i gotta wake up at 5 to take a shower. should be fun but after that we only have 4 days left of school until vaction. i have a far away valentine, richie<3 but yeah its better than nothing, right? well, friday i think we are having a surprise party for joan in school so friday should be a even faster day then all the regular days, ahh. the temptations to smoke a cigarette are hard to resist but to my pleasure im doing very well. well, there really is nothing else to write but i will update tomorrow probably - bye.
iheartrichie<3
3 And i fall in love again.. |
Then i see your face
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thoughtskill
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2004 7 February :: 1.10pm
:: Mood: tired
Friday = great.
walked home w/ stephanie. doors locked. no one home. walked to her aunts. aunt left, when to her grammas. went to the movies.. saw lotza people there =] [ finally mOvin on ]met marks friend nick =] had sooo much funnn ! went back tpO stephs.. today is sarah*z partey .. yay
<333
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Then i see your face
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tiptoeinthedark
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2004 7 February :: 10.44am
:: Music: im listening to milkshake by kelis/ now whats your fantasy :-P
wew! good songs to dirrrty dance to .. tehe!
I'm sitting here alone up in my room
And thinking about the times that we've been through
(oh my love)
I'm looking at this bear in my hands
Trying my best to understand
I really want to know what we did wrong
with a love that felt so strong
If only you were here tonight
I know that we could make it right
CHORUS
I don't know how to live without your love
I was born to make you happy
'Cause you're the only one within my heart
I was born to make you happy
Always and forever you and me
That's the way our life should be
I don't know how to live without your love
I was born to make you happy
I know I've been a fool since you've been gone
I'd better give it up and carry on (oh my love)
'Cause living in a dream of you and me
is not the way my life should be
I don't want to cry a tear for you
So forgive me if I do
If only you were here tonight
I know that we could make it right
CHORUS
I'd do anything, I'd give you my world
I'd wait forever, to be your girl
Just call out my name,
and I will be there
Just to show you how much I care
CHORUS (2x)
* I miss him *
* I miss waking up every morning n accually wanting 2
go 2 school , cuz when I get home I can talk 2 him*
* I miss being able 2 tell him anything about me *
* I miss having a friend who cares about me like he did*
* I miss spending time with him*
* I miss just randomly calling him, even if its not
often, just to hear his voice*
* I miss looking into his gorgeous eyes*
* I miss being in his arms, because when I was,
everything was {[P-E-R-F-E-C-T]} *
* I miss feeling safe with him*
* I miss having ppl catching me smiling just because
I thought of him *
* I miss that glow about me, when I was o so happy *
* I miss the way he makes me feel *
* I miss everything about him, he's perfect to me *
* I miss having him in my life, he's everything to me*
britney spears- I was born to make you happy lyrics... thats how I feel bout *him*....
- Ali Jean
I <3 him wif alla my heart :-P
1 And i fall in love again. |
Then i see your face
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