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tiptoeinthedark

:: 2004 9 February :: 12.42pm
:: Music: nuthing

life's blah
my life is blah.. i will always love him but I gotta move on right? wrong.. but I am gunna let him go.. but continue to love him =/



hey Jilly baby if ur reading this I LOVE U n i sent u 2 letters... tehe miss ya hunny! I will always be here

Then i see your face


tiptoeinthedark

:: 2004 8 February :: 12.38pm
:: Music: computer keys

poems n stuff
This poem is how I feel sumtimes I feel alone

But if u take the last 6 lines off then It’s how I feel about my jilly

I love her oh so much!



Today I met a great new friend

Who got to know me right away

It was funny how she understood

All I had to say

She listened to my problems

She listened to my dreams

We talked about love and life

She’d been there, also, it seems

I never once felt judged by her

She knew just how I felt

She seemed to just accept me

And all the problems I’d been dealt

She didn’t interrupt me

Or need to have her say

She just listened very patiently

And didn’t go away

I wanted her to understand

How much this meant to me

But as I went to hug her

Sumthing starltled me

I put my arms infront of me

And went to pull her neer

And realized my new best friend

Was nothing but a mirror











Sad poem





I went to that birthday party

And I remembered just what you said

You told me not to drink at all

So I had sprite instead

I felt so proud of myself

The way you said I would

That I didn’t choose to drink and drive

Though some friends said I should

I knew I made a healthy choice

You advice to me was right

As the party finally ended

I watched the kids drive out of sight

I got into my own car

Sure to get home in one piece

Never knowing what was coming

Something I had expected least

Now I am lying on the pavement

I can hear the policeman say

"the kid that caused this was drunk"

his voice seems so far away

my own blood is all around me

as I try hard not to cry

I can hear the paramedic say

"this girl is going to die"

I’m sure the guy had no idea

While he was flying high

Because he chose to drink and drive

That I would have to die

So why do people do it?

Knowing that it ruins lives?

Now this pain is cutting me

Like a thousand stabbing knives

Tell my sister not to be afraid

Tell daddy to be brave

And when I go to heaven

Put "daddy’s girl" on my grave

Someone should have taught him

That it’s wrong to drink and drive

Maybe if his mom and dad had

I’d still be alive

My breath is getting shorter

I’m getting really scared

These are my final moment

And I am so unprepared

I wish you could hold me mom

As I lie here and die

I wish that I could at least say

I love you and goodbye.







2nd one







*Near to the door*

*he paused to stand*

*as he took his class ring*

*off her hand*

*all who were watching*

*did not speak* *as a silent tear*

*ran down his cheek*

*and through his mind*

*the memories ran*

*of the moments they walked*

*and ran in the sand hand and hand*

*but now her eyes were so terrible cold*

*for he would never again*

*have her to hold*

*they watched in silence*

*as he bent near*

*and whispered the words..*

*"I LOVE YOU" in her ear*

*he touched her face and started to cry*

*as he put on his ring and wanted to die*

*and just then the wind began to blow*

*as they lowered her casket*

*into the snow....*

*this is what happens*

*to man alive.....*

*when friends let friends....*

*drink and drive.*











Lol…



practical application

he's teaching her arithmatic

he said it was his mission

he kissed her one then kisher twice and said "now thats addition"

as he added smack by smack, she sat there in quiet satisfaction, then sweetly gave him kisses back n said "now thats subtraction"

then he kissed he and she kissed him and with out explination they looked at eachother n smiled n said "now thats multiplication"

the daddy appeared apon the scene and made a quick decision.. he kicked that boy 3 blocks away n said "now thats long division.!

~tehe



















In Loving memory

Seth Micheal O'Brien R.I.P big bro I love you! I will never forget all you have done forme n I know that ull b living it up wherever you are... stay happy.. ull b forever missed and in my heart :-* luv ya lots bro

9.20.83 - 12.15.03

To my dearest family, some things I'd like to say...

but first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay.

I'm writing this from heaven. Here I dwell with God above.

Here, there's no more tears of sadness; here is just eternal love.



Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight.

Remember that I'm with you every morning, noon and night.

That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through,

God picked me up and hugged me and He said, "I welcome you."



It's good to have you back again; you were missed while you were gone.

As for your dearest family, they'll be here later on.

I need you here badly; you're part of my plan.

There's so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man."



God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do.

And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you.

And when you lie in bed at night, the day's chores put to flight.

God and I are closest to you....in the middle of the night.



When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years

because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears.

But do not be afraid to cry; it does relieve the pain.

Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.



I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned.

But if I were to tell you, you wouldn't understand.

But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is o'er.

I'm closer to you now, than I ever was before.



There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb;

but together we can do it by taking one day at a time.

It was always my philosophy and I'd like it for you too...

that as you give unto the world, the world will give to you.



If you can help somebody who's in sorrow and pain,

then you can say to God at night......"My day was not in vain."

And now I am contented....that my life has been worthwhile,

knowing as I passed along the way, I made somebody smile.



So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low,

just lend a hand to pick him up, as on your way you go.

When you're walking down the street, and you've got me on your mind;

I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.



And when it's time for you to go.... from that body to be free,

remember you're not going.....you're coming here to me.


Then i see your face


LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 10 February :: 12.11am
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: hold on- good charlotte

school today was...
fine.

ok, here's the day in a pretty long nutshell, haha.

bus ride to boces saw leanne. the cosmetology students were having a competition so all of them came in for the morning and the afternoon. i <3 leanne, haha.
bus ride to pace sat by myself today
1st period-BBA figured out that i've DEFINITLY taken this class and its the one that east rockaway is trying to deny me credit in...BLAHHH
2nd period-social studies new kid in the class named matt. now our class has 4 people [me,ciara(sp?),cherie(sp?),and matt]
3rd period-studio art started my project on mondrian and mrs. lengel said it is coming out good (im almost done with it)
4th period-english started an essay on bullying and should the state take it into there own hands instead of letting schools take charge of bullying. eddie told me that evan likes me, ok?
5th period math started working on assignment 5 and yeah thats really it
6th period-lunch well, i sat in our 'cafeteria' which is also the studio art, intro to occ,and health room. i sat with ciara, cj,matt,paul,and karen
7th period-earth science watched a little lesson on the board and then watched some of october skys (good ass movie)
8th period-freesat in the only available classroom with everyone else who had a free period and i talked to joan about taking me out of BBA because i already took the class and i have to talk to her tomorrow
9th period-economics talked to denise and read on some guy adam smith who started laissez-faire economics...yeahh
bus ride to boces relaxed..yupp
bus ride to erock slept really, watched an almost fight,and just chilled

when i got home i just hung around really, i went to pick up my pictures and there not going to be ready until tomorrow so we shopped around alittle in CVS and yeah bought a couple of things, school tomorrow and i gotta wake up at 5 to take a shower. should be fun but after that we only have 4 days left of school until vaction. i have a far away valentine, richie<3 but yeah its better than nothing, right? well, friday i think we are having a surprise party for joan in school so friday should be a even faster day then all the regular days, ahh. the temptations to smoke a cigarette are hard to resist but to my pleasure im doing very well. well, there really is nothing else to write but i will update tomorrow probably - bye.

iheartrichie<3

3 And i fall in love again.. | Then i see your face


thoughtskill

:: 2004 7 February :: 1.10pm
:: Mood: tired

Friday = great.
walked home w/ stephanie. doors locked. no one home. walked to her aunts. aunt left, when to her grammas. went to the movies.. saw lotza people there =] [ finally mOvin on ]met marks friend nick =] had sooo much funnn ! went back tpO stephs.. today is sarah*z partey .. yay




<333

1 And i fall in love again. | Then i see your face


tiptoeinthedark

:: 2004 7 February :: 10.44am
:: Music: im listening to milkshake by kelis/ now whats your fantasy :-P

wew! good songs to dirrrty dance to .. tehe!
I'm sitting here alone up in my room
And thinking about the times that we've been through
(oh my love)
I'm looking at this bear in my hands

Trying my best to understand
I really want to know what we did wrong
with a love that felt so strong

If only you were here tonight
I know that we could make it right

CHORUS
I don't know how to live without your love
I was born to make you happy
'Cause you're the only one within my heart
I was born to make you happy
Always and forever you and me
That's the way our life should be
I don't know how to live without your love
I was born to make you happy

I know I've been a fool since you've been gone
I'd better give it up and carry on (oh my love)
'Cause living in a dream of you and me
is not the way my life should be

I don't want to cry a tear for you
So forgive me if I do
If only you were here tonight
I know that we could make it right

CHORUS

I'd do anything, I'd give you my world
I'd wait forever, to be your girl
Just call out my name,
and I will be there
Just to show you how much I care

CHORUS (2x)




























* I miss him *

* I miss waking up every morning n accually wanting 2
go 2 school , cuz when I get home I can talk 2 him*
* I miss being able 2 tell him anything about me *
* I miss having a friend who cares about me like he did*
* I miss spending time with him*
* I miss just randomly calling him, even if its not
often, just to hear his voice*
* I miss looking into his gorgeous eyes*
* I miss being in his arms, because when I was,
everything was {[P-E-R-F-E-C-T]} *
* I miss feeling safe with him*
* I miss having ppl catching me smiling just because
I thought of him *
* I miss that glow about me, when I was o so happy *
* I miss the way he makes me feel *
* I miss everything about him, he's perfect to me *
* I miss having him in my life, he's everything to me*

britney spears- I was born to make you happy lyrics... thats how I feel bout *him*....

- Ali Jean


I <3 him wif alla my heart :-P

1 And i fall in love again. | Then i see your face

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