tiptoeinthedark
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2004 25 May :: 11.40am
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: Meant to live
we where meant to live for so much more
if you think about it.. you can try and try
but that thing u want will never be yours
and things u want to happen never do
and things never happen the way you want
expecially when u really really want them too
and things always seem to happen when u least
expect them too... so I have decided... that maybe
if I give up for a while... on everything.. just maybe
something good will happen to me for once..
but i dont have much hope at this point
so I highly doubt that will EVER happen...
but that all doesnt matter cuhz...
I will always have the best person EVER
in my life!!!!....
Jillane Elizabeth Dahms!!!
is the best person.. EVER!!!
shes my best friend and Im so proud!!!
I would be absolutely NOTHING without her
Jillane! NEVER LEAVE ME ='( i'D DIE!!!
I love you!!! always
thanks for everything
n also thanks to Joshie, Caitlin, n Brianna
I'd also be lost w/o them
11 And i fall in love again.. |
Then i see your face
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thoughtskill
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2004 24 May :: 9.22pm
:: Mood: disappointed
thanks f0r n0thing..
omg..im not gonna go over what has happened in the past week like usual. no one cares. i sure as hell dont. doesnt even matter. ill just start with friday..when me markus kaela n nick went to amandas party. if you could even call it a party..more like hell..i feel really bad for draggin nick there.. i didnt even wanna go ..from the second we got there we all just stood there watching everyone cry and scream and run around from being so trashed. high drunk..everyone. havin to sit with one of my best friends as she throws up all over me and the floor as she was screamin at me but telling me she needs me at the same time.. be...markus's mom picked us up thank god..
saturday was the8th grade dance.. that was pretty good i guess.. danced with alotta ppl.. .. then the lim0 took is to mugz n jugz .. that sucked..sept 4 karoke.. rest of the night sat alone..nick got there round 11:3o after me beggin him.. ignored me for a while then hung out with me for about 6 seconds then we left..
sunday.. me n kaela went to sunsplash n met everybody there.. hung out with nick in the lazy river then left 4 a minute to go talk with kaela..then mark comes back and tells me nick doesnt wanna go out with me anymore so im jus like WHY and markus xplains its because i "cheated on him" with kevin at the dance and they all heard from brittney detrick who "saw the whole thing" who by the way wasnt even at the fuckin dance..s0o i wanted to go home right then because i couldnt stand seeing him all day but bailey n kayla boyd made me stay..had an awsome day with them.. we made a NERD HERD picked dildoz from the dildo tree and used up all our last freakin pennyz 2 get abuncha ice cream n a slurpee..go0d timez..they cheered me up s0o much and i l0ve them 4 it.. =D thankz tatter t0t n wh0pper !! MWA! .. nick kept trying to talk to me but i didnt wanna talk to him.. i guess he didnt want mark to break up with me he was jus mad .. i dont know if were broken up for good or not.. i hope not cuz i miSs him already..='[ ..
well im gonna go..
6 And i fall in love again.. |
Then i see your face
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tiptoeinthedark
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2004 24 May :: 8.32pm
:: Music: Mario wynas- I dont wanna know
my mom beat me!
me n my sis got into it
n she got in my face so I hit her in the face
so my mom comes after me n tells kendra
that shes gunna hit me back for my sis..
n yeah I hear that so I go inmy room n get a can of sumthin so she cant hit me... like as
a weapon or so shed stay away
but she baked me into my desk n gabbed
both of my arms n I pushed her away n she
shoved me back into my desk
so my ass n back hurt n I can move really
just crawl around and stuff... thats all
n then she threw that can of stuff at me once
n it hit me then she picked it up
and threw it again n it hit my t.v.
I hate my life .. nothings goign right
this is really that time that I need *him*
n he always used to be here for me to talk to
but we dont really talk n e more... I think that
I annoy him or something... I cant help it
I wish he liked me.. cuz I really like him ='(
my life's so messed up... just know
that if I had him I could deal with the rest
I just things where like they used to be with us
2 And i fall in love again.. |
Then i see your face
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tiptoeinthedark
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2004 23 May :: 2.58pm
:: Mood: curious
:: Music: leave (get out!)
yeah =P
uhm yeah so im a bitch now...
thats what people think...
better then a slut n stuff like b 4?
yeah n e ways ... im only updating a lil cuhz I like having so many responses lol.. n I just edited the last one so I coulf keep em
I know Ima goof hehe
do u ever wonder wut will happen in the future?
who you will be with?
who your friends will be?
what woulda happened if 1 lil thing was different?
I wonder... but then again I know how I want it to be
but never happens the way you want it to
9 And i fall in love again.. |
Then i see your face
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tiptoeinthedark
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2004 23 May :: 10.10am
:: Mood: broken....
:: Music: movie--- bubble boy:.'.
y do I even bother?
well there was a bat in our house
so we spent all day n night locked
in my moms room.. it came flyin at
me n I was scared I ran upstairs n
into my moms room... we cant find
it still... ahhhhhhh!Im scared it like
watchin me or something n I dont
like it at all.... ewwwwwwwwww!!
n yeah... after so much.. I realized
that I dont have a heart n e more
theres nothing to me ='(
Then i see your face
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