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2008 24 December :: 5.10 am
figuring
if i had known and not cared as much as i did then about...
i probably wouldn't be on the verge of hurting someone now.
i was committed then, so in love.
now the last thing i want is commitment to a person.
just can't kick it anymore with one.
it's gotta be 900 in different area codes.
sorry, honeys, pookies, and bishes.
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2008 23 December :: 3.49 pm
wall punch
I'm not real and I deny, I won't heal unless I cry
I can't grieve, so I won't grow, I won't heal 'til I let it go
le sigh.
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2008 13 December :: 11.16 pm
hes back
my life is more than i can handle.
he returned. said he got arrested. is getting help. still, something in his eyes. maybe i'm overexaggerating. hopefully i am. i miss him. sat around and drew with him.
the girl thing. i'm comfortable with her, but i can't talk to her about anything without stopping and defining half of the words that come out of my mouth. frustrating, but she cares so much.
music is popping back up in my life. it's really good. i think it will save me. music and art take their turns doing that.
feeling love would be good right now.
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2008 9 December :: 2.23 pm
blue and
lame ass smells
they plague.
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2008 7 December :: 12.13 am
undecided
fuck you.
all of the people i idolize who i actually know...
... i date some, become incredibly tight with the rest of em.
Then, it crashes down. They leave me, make me feel like I was nobody to them ever.
..i love you guys so much, your talents are such blessings, but, you go insane. you turn into the opposite of what you first were. you make me feel horrible for being me.
the first one was before hurricane katrina. i am dead to her.
this one is now. i am worthless to him.
so weird how things go from one way to the exact opposite. do i wish i never knew them, or just wish the best for them, because at one point, they made my life feel like it was at its best?
anger is a product of fear.
143
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2008 2 December :: 12.24 pm
:/
Mental illness has ravaged through many of my friends lately.
It is their fault that I am constantly on the run.
Maybe it's my fault for having that gumpy-ass face.
Whatever, I gotta rise above and bounce again.
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2008 26 November :: 1.39 am
DO NOT WANT AUGH >:|
THAT NOISE FROM OLE GURL.
WORSE THAN DIVIDING BY ZERO.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
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2008 22 November :: 3.30 pm
afraid of commitment
fuck fuck
you buy me lots of food
fuck fuck
i don't know if i love you
fuck fuck
i wish you got along with my friends too
fuck fuck
i slept naked with you until noon
fuck fuck
i feel like i'm stuck in a cartoon
nyuck nyuck
i feel like a goddamn baffoon
arr rar rar rar nar rar
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2008 19 November :: 3.02 pm
well, then..
fuck you, i ain't on anyone's side!
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2008 16 November :: 1.18 pm
not too sure what to do with myself.
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2008 10 November :: 8.19 pm
>:|
Every fucking day that i hate this place, I place a ton of blame on your ass.
Thanks a lot, asshole.
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2008 4 November :: 10.48 am
:/
i think my only painting homie...
just went insane. I don't know what to do... he's moved out, he's left my roommate depressed. He's left me depressed and worried.
I'm whining like a bitch bout dood, but i don't want him to get hurt how he is mentally right now. nobody's talking shit, nobody's doing anything. it's his mind doing shit, and he can't see it. :/
i hope to send him light and love to bring forth peace in his mind.
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2008 3 November :: 1.18 pm
thar be pokemans
there's a green pokemon in my way.
therefore, i cannot work.
please excuse me.
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2008 31 October :: 4.26 pm
):
i am really doing nothing with my life.
where's the bong and the beer?
it's gonna be a long night, america.
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2008 24 October :: 1.37 am
Mot drunk.
I drunk dialed my best friend, told him shit he didn't wanna hear.
I miss it so much.
I'm driving out to see another girl tomorrow... and i can't get the originator out of my head. What a fucking bummer.
This new perrigo ibu 800 makes me forget that I'm drunk. Ba-boo-bah-buuuu ffft.
omfg paula deen.
AND THERE GOES THE ROACHES IN THE BIG SCREEN TV OMFG OMFG YEAH!!!!
fuck being awake and fuck hearing this cat whine about some bullshit.
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