Let the feelings fly

:: 2010 5 August :: 3.16am

Picsss
Pantsless Bowling!

Bacon(Brandon, Sammy's brother) and I at Sean's drumming ensemble thing..

:: 2010 5 August :: 12.13am

somedays, when i see the wedding albums of all the people i know on facebook, i get sad. I am happy for the people... don't get me wrong, but i wish that i could have gotten those things.
no wedding cake
no pretty white dress
no pictures

i wish i could have that fairy tale.

:: 2010 4 August :: 9.33pm

Some kid on Dahmer's page: I'll fuck your mom and never call her again.

Dahmer: Wolfe is the good one. De Salvo is going to fuck my mom and not call her.

Me: That's terrible. If I were to fuck your mother, I'd call her.

phil-himself

:: 2010 3 August :: 7.25am

Power Slave (iron Maiden)

Tell me why I had to be a Powerslave
I don't wanna die, I'm a God,
Why can't I live on?
When the Life Giver dies,
All around is laid waste,
And in my last hour,
I'm a Slave to the Power of Death.

:: 2010 1 August :: 11.36pm

This song is absolutely amazing. If you don't like it, go to hellll.

:: 2010 30 July :: 3.32pm

it's a bit messed up when i start singing songs in my head just to avoid these arguments. I want this fuck head of a "guest" not to come back.

:: 2010 25 July :: 12.14pm

sometimes I think my "friends" are just politely saying they don't want to see me in encrypted messages. I want a heart of stone. I hate feeling like this is all a lie.

If that's the truth tho, i guess i will never find out. My phone calls and attempts to do things can just be continuously evaded. Life goes on right, and nobody will ever truly understand how damaged i feel, how empty, or how alone.

1 Feeling | Leave a feeling

:: 2010 23 July :: 5.46pm

somedays my dad just annoys me!

:: 2010 21 July :: 11.25pm

the people who told me to open up and trust have hurt me worst of all. it would figure right

:: 2010 18 July :: 8.24pm

rayray

:: 2010 18 July :: 10.15am

Only roughly 111 more days..

phil-himself

:: 2010 18 July :: 2.11am

gettin drunk and yellin at my dog, classic

4 Feelings | Leave a feeling

:: 2010 14 July :: 5.14pm

i am feeling a bit mischievous! I wish I could come back to MI for a few days while my hubby is traveling.

And maybe I am.... oh yay!

:: 2010 13 July :: 7.16pm

I'm sick of fighting. I am sick of headaches and I AM SICK OF CLEANING UP THE SAME MESSES! I just want to be happy and calm. Is that too much to ask for?

Why is it that I don't' ever get a break, and as soon as he comes home from work that is all he gets. It's just the same redic. shit on another fucking day. And I wonder why I don't have a portfolio at all going into my senior year... maybe if i had the time to ever be creative I wouldn't feel like such a worthless sac.