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Alastar

:: 2009 15 March :: 12.50am

Pretentious and Trite Reasoning for a Tattoo

Everything is connected. Our actions have effects that we cannot conceive. We are gears in a machine, but we do not know how this machine is put together. If we did, or if we could look at the schematics, we could see every possible course that our energy output could take. We would see the end result, and we would know before we acted what the exact consequences would be. However, we don't have that capability. We may be able see this on a smaller scale, but we can never have the whole picture. Too many other gears are constantly interfering, ones of which we are completely unaware. Communication is key. If we could all work together coherently and efficiently, the possibilities would be endless. We are all parts in this machine and our actions decide the outcome and the product it generates. Synchronization. Collaboration.

The gear would be a symbol of the realization that my actions have effects on everything around me. It would serve as a reminder to question more thoroughly the things I do before I do them. It would keep me aware of a larger universe than just the one I inhabit in my mind.

My ideas are a result of the culture in which I was brought up. They are a product of all the information I've ever taken in. The gear is a symbol for the continuity of time. This is the reason for the twelve cogs, representing a clock. The past controls the present controls the future controls the limitless possibilities of time.

The endless circular motion represents the cycle that every atom on the planet is a part of. It is a realization of death as not the end, but as just another turn of the gear. Renewal.

The inner gear with ridges pointing inward symbolizes the fact that though I realize I am part of a larger entity, I cannot forget about my self. I cannot forgo completely my own goals, feelings, needs. I must weigh the two against each other and make my decisions.

3 chasing my dreams | discovering the flaws


alastar

:: 2009 14 March :: 11.40am

An alter ego

They call me a mason, because I make you shit bricks
I'm known as an illness, cuz my rhymes are fucking sick
I am a magician, the way I make you turn tricks
I'm like a narcotic and you gotta get your fix

discovering the flaws


valoth

:: 2009 12 March :: 2.35pm

The problem with working in IT is that when you dont know the answer its like they look to you to wave a magic wand and make it all better. Then you tell them "I dont have an answer for you" and they just look like theyre all about to let loose in tears.

I really hate that.

Google that shit yourself. Gah.

3 chasing my dreams | discovering the flaws


valoth

:: 2009 11 March :: 8.11pm

Im officially without Grand Parents.

As of about 4pm today my Mom's father died. Grandpa Horanburg is now in a better place.

/salute to him!

1 chasing my dream | discovering the flaws


valoth

:: 2009 11 March :: 1.12pm

Marine Corps Recruit Depot San Diego

Projected Graduation date is the 10th of July. Delta Co.

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alastar

:: 2009 11 March :: 2.40am

Thanatopsis

My favorite poem. I want this read at my funeral.

Read more..

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valoth

:: 2009 10 March :: 3.56pm

What can be done to give myself solace now!? Seriously. It would ease my mind.





My boss is a godhugging(crazy creepy style) age-ist prick.

2 chasing my dreams | discovering the flaws


valoth

:: 2009 9 March :: 11.42pm

Things seem to hurt easier. I hope I have enough trust for this. I dont think I could deal with the trust being lost.

"3rd times a charm" I hope this charm is a good tidings one.

Today in a nutshell is as follows in the video.

Just when you think that you're in control,
just when you think that you've got a hold,
just when you get on a roll,
here it goes, here it goes, here it goes again.
Oh, here it goes again.
I should have known,
should have known,
should have known again,
but here it goes again.
Oh, here it goes again.

It starts out easy, something simple, something sleazy, something inching past the edge of the reserve.
Now through lines of the cheap venetian blinds your car is pulling off of the curb.
[Chorus]
I guess there's got to be a break in the monotony, but Jesus, when it rains how it pours.
Throw on your clothes, the second side of Surfer Rosa, and you leave me, yeah, you leave me.
[Chorus]

2 chasing my dreams | discovering the flaws


valoth

:: 2009 8 March :: 12.35am

Heard a joke once: Man goes to doctor. Says he's depressed. Says life seems harsh and cruel. Says he feels all alone in a threatening world where what lies ahead is vague and uncertain. Doctor says "Treatment is simple. Great clown Pagliacci is in town tonight. Go and see him. That should pick you up." Man bursts into tears. Says "But, doctor...I am Pagliacci." Good joke. Everybody laugh. Roll on snare drum. Curtains.

1 chasing my dream | discovering the flaws


valoth

:: 2009 6 March :: 10.23am
:: Music: The Beginning of the End

Watchmen
Ok so for the past like 5 days pvponline.com has been doing a satire of the new movie coming out today Watchmen

Id like to share that if you even thought about the movie then you read these days of the comic. Think Watchmen meets newspaper comic characters. With a plot to match the characters. Its good stuff. Below is the link for the start of the comics strand.

Ombudsmen

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valoth

:: 2009 5 March :: 11.16pm

And...fade to white.
Things got better. This is good.

Stress is melting off me for the moment. Now I only have to deal with it as a pool at my feet that I cant seem to shake off my shoes.

I feel fucking fantastic after wednesday. I know Im not a shapely person but I already see results of my small muscles being toned out against my even smaller bones.

Gah! Why didnt I always do this. SOB.

Gonna come back as a ripped lanky motherfucker when all said and done.

2 chasing my dreams | discovering the flaws


valoth

:: 2009 2 March :: 11.37pm
:: Music: "Insomnia Olympics" - Blockhead

April 13'th 2009
I ship out on this day. So anyone wishing for my address contact me.
The more the merrier.

To prove myself, I must beat the biggest object in my path. Me.
I want to be a Marine.
Workout starts tonight. x60 situps, pushups, pull ups
It felt good. Having the drive felt even better.


"One of these mornings
Won't be very long
You will look for me
And I'll be gone" -Moby "One of these mornings"

/sigh

14 chasing my dreams | discovering the flaws


valoth

:: 2009 28 February :: 12.11am

Gunny = Fonz

That is all.

4 chasing my dreams | discovering the flaws


valoth

:: 2009 25 February :: 12.49pm

LOL Spamhandler
So I got bored and this was funny, so I couldnt pass up the wow humor.

Improved Lay on Hands + *NEW*Glyph of Lay on Hands -- Reduces the cooldown of your Lay on Hands spell by 5 min.(Old: Increases the mana restored by your Lay on Hands spell by 20%) + Set bonus 4/9 from T3 redemption = every gcd a paladin is giving someone +50% armor and healing for the paladins max hp.

Thats 4min(talented) + 5min(glyph) + 12min(set bonus) = -21min of cd
Lay on Hands =20min


SO

Take 1 paladin spec 60%prot/40% holy
Add 4/9 T3 (chest/ring/shoulder/leg ideal)
Spam accordingly

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alastar

:: 2009 23 February :: 12.39am

Alliterated vomit

A collage of cartilaginous contusions
and what everyone usually just assumes is
painted, peeling black lacquered
barrels connecting bullets to the haggard

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