Rachels been super busy this week, starting at Wal-Mart and all that such stuff. Havent talked to her much but if nothing else she got to know the joyful news. I was just talking to her but she left, internet stealing still so her connection is shit, she was putting some pics on my photobucket. That didnt seem to get accomplished beyond picture #1. Alas, Im happy with that 1 for now.
Spent about the last hour and a half talking to Brittani -from work receptionist/accountant- last night. We've been talking alot lately because Ive been down there fixing things for them more. Shes my inner workspace gossip talker. Its all good though. Shes my age and knows some of the same things I do -relationship wise- so we constantly chat about things. She enjoys rambling on about her wedding coming up Sept. 6th. Shes getting married at 19. Shes been with the guy for about as long as Ive known Rachel. Just kinda shocked somehow by her getting married at only 19.
Ive decided to take the week after my last Op for the airsoft season off and go down to see her. The tickets for Amtrak are insanely cheaper than anythign else around. I was shocked. GRR to KCY roundtrip was $190. Its unfortunate that MO only gets a few locations, none located in the southwest corner of the state, to choose from but it works. And based on the rest of this months event, we shall see if both is do'able. I may have to skip the airsoft event. Unfortunate, but possible. Woman > Airsoft
So when Id get home Monday from Wisconsin its straight into repacking for leaving the next morning to Kansas City where Rach' would pick me up.
Im going to have to skimp like no other for this month pull it off but Im ok with this.No spending for Kelly. If Rachel was here she'd totally budget me. Boo hiss.
/slap @ wrist
The Dark Knight was freaking awesome. I definitly would go see it again. This time I would do Imax though. It needs the bigger screen. The themes and ideals placed into the movie are really dark but very entertainining. The jokers style pulls out the worst in those around him and its good to watch. Grats Heath for the good movie before you were lost. It will be a shame to not have you around for any more of these Batman films.
Ive been fairly busy at work, just more of a hurry up to wait feeling though. We lost one of our developers and it would see the guy I hate, the old guy, is going to be leaving/reretire so I dont have him to irk me on things anymore. Im happy about that. I will miss Enrico, the developer, he was a good guy. Quiet, but easy to talk to, and willing to buy lunch for others. *gotta love free*
I called and talked to Rachel Saturday after getting done with the event earlier that day. I talked to her for awhile and I think we've smoothed things out some. I havent talked to her since then. Shes been really busy though. For instance, when I called she was doing cleaning on the new house shes going to be renting with everyone. -I miss her way too much right now- After I got off the phone with her I was walking back to the campsite and Mandie said "get ur shit unfucked?" I shrugged and said "I think so." Then she said something that struck me and I think its true too. "You two are just fed up with waiting and your taking it out on each other[without knowing it or not.]"
Blarg
Jerry, the old guy at the office I really dont like, keeps talking to me about data bases. I honestly think that he keeps thinking Im a developer or something. Hes like "could you do this and with these things I got." When that thing he would like is involving words that have meanings I dont know of in a database system I know minute things about. I dont know SQL code. I dont know what the hell your are talking about. I dont have any background with database stuff. So asking me to do these things is just like ramming my head into the wall. The things he wants involve some prior knowledge on the subject, which I dont have any everyone else here is clear of except him.
The last week in June I got to see Bill again, hung out at his house with everyone playing football most of the evening. Me and PJ took him out to lakeshores field to play airsoft on that sunday. Doc, Prez, and Osiris followed suit. As well as the other FMF members for the morning. The day before that was the cookout at Doc's place with everyone. Good enjoyable day.
Ive been fairly distant with the family. I shouldnt be so distant but I just am. Im not one to reach outwardly for talking. I have managed to make sure that I at least go get my mail and stop to talk to my mom for awhile. Its alot easier to deal with my parents now that Im not in the home.
Weekend of the 4th I stayed home for the most part. Just stopped by the parents house and had friday night pizza with them.
I was going to go airsofting last weekend but sunburn left me defininetly not wanting to do that. So I stayed home again. Im sunburned from going on the tubing trip with PJ's family. Friggin hate sunburn so much.
Relationship: Me and Rachel are still together. Ive been in need of seeing her again. I get fairly emo'esq alot lately. We are both fairly good at keeping busy so talking to her helps ease those wounds for the time being.
It would see she is taking a big step on her end to move out. We talked about it last night, although Im not sure how much got threw to her. She was on crappy internet stolen from neighbors in town. On top of this she had been drinking. We got to talking about her situation and it started to irk me more and more that she was doing this. I should be estatic that she wanted to move out. I should. But the costs of which she is doing it isnt so great. She was told she has to be on the lease and its likely it will be a 1yr lease. I asked her to see if she could be off the lease and just be an occupant. She was like "well I cant do that, I mean I cant just leave them with that higher payment." "Valid point. But do you want to be there for another year?, I responded. She says no. Then is like "we will see more of each other than we ever have this next year." (True-possibly)
[Edward Norton style Self Narration:] Thats about the time I was most irked.
I dont know how to respond to that without getting into a fight and have it end with those words spoken that I know I dont want to hear. Chances are she really doesnt want to say them either.
I just feel like she may be sabotaging herself whenever it gets to be us being close. The date of when we get to be together and not just for a visit seems to just fall farther and farther away.
[ Edward Norton style Self Narration:] And there we go...deep sigh....heavy blank stare into the abyss...yup. 3...2...1....ladies and gentleman emo moment status is a go. I repeat go for emo marker.
Rachel. I know Im asking alot to be with you and be distant from your family. I cannot apologize for that. It just feels like this is turning into perpetual long distance relationship.
EDIT: Im happy for the changes you want to make to better your life in the way you want to do it Rachel, know that first and foremost. Im just afraid you may be getting in over your head with this rent/lease issue.
EDIT 2: One of the guys here at work happened to just quote yoda for no reason and it totally was moment fitting but completely random. "I sense much fear in you...fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate...hate...leads to suffering."
Edit 3: Ugh Im totally not one for arguments. I feel one brooding and nothing has happened yet.
Talking to my Love
So Rachel is home again. Im happy again. Well...happy as a man can get when he is seperated from the one he loves and hates a good 80% of the world around him. Damn...Im a very bleak person.
Moving along
Ive taken in more time with TF2 lately. Loving it. Unlocked the new things for the medic and pyro fairly quick once finding achievement boxes. It feels like cheating, but its not really cheating when the map was designed to help the user out. Ive started honing my sniper skills. BTW if you havent seen it: Meet the Sniper and of course: Meet the Scout
I was talkin to Rach' last night and she seems pretty happy to move out with her sister soon. Im happy 'cause she wont be struggling to just talk over msn. Friggin love that. We got into a talk about music and such not as per the usual. When suddenly she was like "that reminds me of CCR..." and I was like "huh?" 'cuz what we were talking about had nothing to do with CCR. Then shes like "Cross Canadian Ragweed" and Im like W..T..F! NO!
>.< She hasnt heard the wonders that is CCR the true original. Creedance ClearWater Revival is so freakin good! So I proceeded to hassle her about making sure she hears about it. So I mentioned a few good songs to start with. Fortunate Son, Heard it threw the Grapevine, Bad Moon Rising, Green River, etc...
This month is gonna be a long one, I can feel it. Alot of things going on this month, but alot more to come.
Oh blizzard, how you tell jokes makes one laugh. I give you "the numbers" from Lost. How better to give folks a joke and keep them guessing. This whole splash screen uptill the announcement is quite humerous. Ive enjoyed reading the hype and attempts to solve the riddle.
# Day 1 - The first rune looks a lot like the one found on the Lich King swords in many official artworks.
# Day 2 - The 2nd rune is the Hel Rune from Diablo 2
# Day 3 - The 3rd rune is the Protoss Symbol found on the Starcraft 2 official site
# Day 4 - The 4th rune hasn't been identified yet, and what looks like the eyes of the lich king appeared in the center of the ice crack.
# Day 5 - A new rune has been added and looks like a viking compass. The eyes started to glow, the creature artwork from the CSS files is now complete. The runes also started to glow.
