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cowboy67

:: 2008 11 February :: 11.57pm

i hope everyone is doing well, feeling alive, and can enjoy something worthwhile today.

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valoth

:: 2008 7 February :: 3.15pm
:: Music: The Mountaineers- Apart from this

MIA?
Ok so heres the deal, I havent posted in like forever. I know this. I know this. I also know only around 5 folks might care to actually read such a page.

So for their peace of mind. Im alive. Im well. Im happy.

Real life:


I got a raise not too long ago. I was pleased to see this coming my way after only a short while on the job.

Rachel purchased her tickets to come up here for March 7th till 16th. I couldnt be happier for that.

I plan to get into airsoft this spring and summer. Im just waiting to order a gun and gear right now. Ive stared at the page for this gun over and over. I really want to buy it! So expect airsoft rants from me alot. I havent been thsi hyped about something since I was in high school and actually doing decent in x-country.
Its my personal thing that I want to get into things like CQC/CQB whatever you wish to call it. I like seeing tatical engagements. This is mostly due to my o.c.d. mindset to be a stickler about certain aspects of my life. CQC does this for me. It says ok, heres the plan, heres how we will enter, heres where you go in guns ready to light everything in your way up with bullets, here is where you exit job done. Power, precision, accuracy, and speed.

Gaming: The CoD4 HQ TWL team hasnt started up yet, I should look into this. I still love the fact that I have 1 goal to achieve in it. Be on top. Get the points, get the job done. I should cut down my chatter when I get into a rut of being shot down though. Im sure it annoys some of the {DS} guys.

Ah yes, {DS}DownwardSpiral still in it, still love hanging out with the guys. Looking forward to 2008 get together. Shoot I wish I could go to the hangout for BRM I enjoy all of them too. Alas that meeting is when I have Rachel here and an airsoft day.

As for WoW, Im almost done with this expansion as is. Archimonde, Reliquary of Souls, Mother Shahraz, The Illidari Council, and Illidan Stormrage himself. The guild is going strong and repeating first time kills in BT has proven to not be an issue. The current focus is Archimonde down and start getting that whole instance to under a one night clear. Time permitting we could see 2/9 BT and 5/5 Hyjal on a tuesday night. Then finish BT on Wed and dick around with Sunwell, once it comes out, on Wed., Thus., and Mon.
Swipes is still geared and keeping up the gear list. Paol is all going up in life again, still needing to change that name though.

So thats that. Rachel, Airsoft, and gaming.

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cowboy67

:: 2008 6 February :: 11.16am

tax tip
this may be more news to me than anyone else, but you can claim money paid to the sec. of state for license plates, registration, etc. as deductions.

discovering the flaws


cowboy67

:: 2008 3 February :: 2.45pm

music is such a huge force in my life. it brings comfort. i feel like my favorite artists and musicians are my friends, in a way. they open themselves up to such an intense degree, it certainly does provide the kind of intimacy that deep friendships attain through reciprocal disclosure. they know nothing of me, but i definitely feel close to these people. i dream about billy corgan, tori amos, and kurt cobain a lot. these are people i relate to and respect, and feel an ethereal connection to that is unexplainable in terms of time and space.

songs maintain familiarity, like the smell of a family cottage or the no-longer annoying creak of an old door hinge. a recording of a song is always going to sound the same (in the most general sense) and the lyrics will always be the same. the vocals will sound the same, too -- even the little mistakes or off-key parts or whispers. it's so nice to listen to something that brought pleasure or kept you sane years earlier and realize that it is still effective today.

i am very sensitive to my surroundings, particularly anything musical. it's like i become part of songs when i listen to them, and i feel everything the singer and instruments are expressing, even if i have never actually experienced those things myself. it's slightly dangerous because i absorb others' emotions quite readily. it's also very beautiful. i'm glad i have this kind of sensory/perceptual experience with music.

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cowboy67

:: 2008 30 January :: 4.22pm

tax tip for the day
you can e-file your taxes AND have your money wired direct deposit to a variety of accounts (checking, savings, other financial institutions) instead of waiting for a check to come in the mail.

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cowboy67

:: 2008 29 January :: 6.06pm

lorenzo's tax tip of the day
technically, you are supposed to claim internet purchases made from other states on your MI state tax returns.

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Upchuck

:: 2008 28 January :: 11.48am

So I know I'm not around much. Here or anywhere for that matter.

It's amazing what getting married, moving to a far off distant place (well Kentwood isn't that far off and distant for some people, but it seems so to me, especially everyday when I drive to work), work 50 hours a week, go to school, and having a dog can do to you (yes, I had to figure out that I actually wanted this paragraph to only be one sentence).

All that might be changing. Well, not all of it. Well, actually, not most of it. I will still be married, working, going to school, and having a dog, but I might not be living so far away. We (Mica and I) have reached a tentative rent-to-own agreement with my parents to live in the house I grew up in. We're both very excited. As much as I resented the town when I was growing up, I really miss it there. Everyone knows I don't like change and leaving there just makes me feel isolated. My job lets me be involved in the community, and I am involved in so many things it will be nice to be back there. So, from now on we will be spending our weekends painting and doing all sorts of things to get the house ready to move into at the end of April. So hopefully I will be seeing you all soon, not jsut through the drive thru ;).

discovering the flaws


valoth

:: 2008 25 January :: 9.42am

"My Violent Heart"

You and I, we may look the same
But we are very far apart
There's bullet-holes where my compassion used to be
And there is violence in my heart

Into fire you can send us
From the fire we return
You can label us a consequence
Of how much you have to learn

You can try but you'll never understand
This is something you will never understand
Can you hear it now?
Hear it coming now?
Can you hear it now?

On hands and knees
We crawl
You cannot stop us all
you wear our bones
our skin
We will not let you in

You have set something in motion
Much greater than you've ever known
Standing there in all your grand naivety
About to reap what you have sown

Time will feed upon your weaknesses
And soon you'll lose the will to care
When you return to the place that you call home
We will be there, we will be there

On hands and knees
We crawl
You cannot stop us all
Our blood will stay
We will not go away

On hands and knees
We crawl
You can not stop us all
Our blood, our grace
Will never leave this place

We crawl
We crawl
We crawl
We crawl


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valoth

:: 2008 2 January :: 3.43pm



For Rachel.

3 chasing my dreams | discovering the flaws


valoth

:: 2007 29 December :: 3.11pm
:: Music: NIN

Hurt


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cowboy67

:: 2007 27 December :: 2.27pm

i'm in love with your pills
now i can get rid of myself
if all of this kills
why am i so hard on myself?


valoth

:: 2007 27 December :: 1.42pm

Blog Watch!
Pulled this off of WoR. Its a blog article about a chinese teen who burned a kid then blames it on wow. Personally I think Mario was a better scape goat.

Fire Mage!

Comment left on blog: "i understand where this kid is coming from... ive been jumping on peoples heads in hopes that they will drop some golden coins."

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valoth

:: 2007 18 December :: 11.43am
:: Mood: productive
:: Music: Apparat- Hold on

The good, The Bad, and The Ugly
*insert theme music here*

The video below is the review video, linked to me by pj (WHO GOT IT FROM ADDISON), that basically has an angry Australian guy reviewing games. He talks fast, hence the name "No Punctuation", and uses small stick figures combined with random depictions of literal translations to what he says. The way he goes about the rants makes it a good laugh and worthy of ones time to watch.

Moving on.

Life is good. Could be better. Ill try not to complain too much. Rachel got her gift. She loved it, and Im glad she did. I just wish I could have seen her open it. *shrug* You get 'em how you can.

Rolling along with the punches.

I took my parents to see Imax "I am Legend" because I was feeling rich-esk after the work Christmas party. Yes, christmas party, not holiday. Theyre huge on being religous at work.

A story for another day.

I need to shopping for my family yet, Im slacking. My bad.

Shoot.

Back to the Xmas party thingy-do-hickey-ma-jiggy. I got $25 in cash from 1 game. A $170 bonus for only 2months time on the job as a part-timer. Also walked away with a decent gift from the amass of gifts the Owner of our company, and the other 2 in the building. He made us do a messed up version of musical chairs as we all grabbed a present then went and did a miss matched exchange on all that. I got a $35 gift card traded in for a small cd player/stereo system. Nothing too fancy mind you, but something nice none the less.

Next stop.

I think PJ is done with wow for good, if so I may have to steal his shammy that I helped bank roll finances for.

Shoot a fool.

Picked up a fellow WoW guildy, who works at a LAN center in Florida, to play CoD4 with us now and then. Which is cool by me, always room for more at the {DS} table Id say. Im absolutely loving CoD4. Up to rank 40, which means nothing other than having all guns unlocked really.

Stepping into the twilight zone.

Winter seems to have been fairly mild, personally, even though its been snowing the roads are kept nice and clear. I love that. I need that. Ditches call to my car.

Thats everything for now.

Dont get lost.

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valoth

:: 2007 18 December :: 11.43am
:: Mood: satisfied

The Orange Box Review

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valoth

:: 2007 6 December :: 1.35pm
:: Music: Justice album

New Movie
December 14th is the release of I am Legend Im just wondering if anyone cares to go with me to see it on Saturday. I think its even going to be on Imax if so then Ill try and catch it on that.

Celebration North, Saturday afternoon Dec. 15th, Imax.


Justice music info

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