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2010 13 January :: 4.23pm
:: Music: Empire of the Sun
Walking on a Dream!
We are always running for the thrill of it thrill of it
Always pushing up the hill searching for the thrill of it
On and on and on we are calling out and out again
Never looking down I'm just in awe of what's in front of me
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2010 11 January :: 1.09am
Seriously I am a glutton for punishment. I make my own damn head hurt from this shit spinning round my brain.
EDIT: Who's amazing at beating himself up mentally? *point at self with both thumbs* This guy!
Its a damn good thing I detest alcohol.
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2010 11 January :: 1.08am
:: Music: Dirty Vegas / Days Go By (Steve Osbourne Acoustic Mix)
I am a lumocks
You
You
You are still a whisper on my lips
A feeling at my fingertips
That's pulling at my skin
You leave me when I'm at my worst
Feeling as if I've been cursed
Bitter cold within
Days go by and still I think of you
Days when I couldn't live my life without you
Days go by and still I think of you
Days when I couldn't live my life without you
Without you
Without you
You are still a whisper on my lips
A feeling at my fingertips
That's pulling at my skin
You leave me when I'm at my worst
Feeling as if I've been cursed
Bitter cold within
Days go by and still I think of you
Days when I couldn't live my life without you
Without you
Without you
Days go by and still I think of you
Days when I couldn't live my life without you
Days go by and still I think of you
Days when I couldn't live my life without you
Without you
Without you
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2010 7 January :: 12.28am
Trying to not give in to old habits...reoccurring ones.
I want to do something everyone would probably think is really stupid to do. The timing seems like it could be right though. Ugh. I hate it. My stomach turns just thinking about it, and my heart says just freaking do it. My brain says no. My feet dont go. So...what to do. Sheesh.
FUCKSALT
Love, Forgiveness, Chocolate?
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2010 2 January :: 9.41pm
:: Mood: irritated
:: Music: "We Live"
Reading
I normally plow through books in my spare time. I had a lot less of it as of the last part of this year. It took me until just a few days ago to finish a book I started this summer at the lake. It was only short of 400 pages, small compared to my normal reading.
Now, however, I am reading "John Adams" by David McCullough. I had already read "Truman" by him, but this book is so different. His writing really captures the time the men lived.
One odd note that struck me as I was reading this afternoon was a statement of purpose that Adams wrote and had published on what a new American government might look like. The form of the government was remarkably similar to what we have now.
The part I found the most interesting is that he took time to outline one very important part, or function, of the government, so that it might function at peak ability.
"Laws for the liberal education of youth, especially for the lower classes of people ... no expense for this purpose should be considered too extravagant."
It is no wonder that our government cannot function if the citizenry is as poorly educated as we find ourselves today. Granted, the total level of education in this country has risen tremendously in the last century, but what has come of it? Is anyone more aware of our, or their own situation? No, unfortunately we have educated ourselves in the ways of the economy. We have neglected the very basic structures that should contribute to an egalitarian society. But instead of being able to make our own decisions about the issues of the day we must rely on politicians that are willing to curry favor for pork projects and campaign donations. Instead of selecting our political representatives out of patriotism and knowledge, it has become a popularity contest. We elect those who are endorsed by celebrities; who themselves have dubious backgrounds.
Why fix the education and create a body of intelligent citizens when the current system is working out so well for those in charge of it.
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2010 1 January :: 11.29pm
The things we learn...sheesh.
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2010 1 January :: 10.44pm
Some people feel as if they have no control. Most of the time I feel as if I have no control. The unfortunate part is that we think that life is about control.
I read a lot. I read alot in college. What I found most interesting were those pieces I read in Modern Poltical Theory. Locke talking about the natural law and how ideas like that revolutionized the way society has functioned ever since.
Instead of having an absolute law, created by an absolute ruler, we have realized that the rules of our society are inherent. We all have inherent rights just by the virtue of having been born. Whether you feel like this is a religious conviction, or just a revelation based on observing human behavior, remember this:
Someone at some point in the history of our species felt that you were special enough to fight for the inherent rights you now have.
Whether that person knew that is what they were fighting for you or not is another question. But they did, and you now have the "control" to fight for those inherent rights everyday, no matter how constrained by societal or economic forces you may be.
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2010 1 January :: 11.12am
:: Mood: snotty
:: Music: WayFM
Family and New Year
A new year, a brand new year.
Yesterday I had a conversation with Catherine about making the office have more of an internet "presence." So she has since started a blog and Twitter. I am not a fan of Twitter at all, so I refuse to join.
That got me thinking that even though we have all of these strange new ways to connect to people, most of us feel more isolated now than we would have had to before.
Which leads me to my topic this morning. I am glad we chose to stay here in Michigan so we can have days like today. Really, it's all about family. For awhile there, we were very isolated from our families. We lived on the south side of GR and they all lived north. Now, even though we live in GR, and our parents still live in Cedar, it's not that far. I am really looking forward to this summer. A whole summer with a place at the lake will be great.
So I get to repeat what generations of my family and many other families in Michigan experience. Traveling north for the weekends, getting out of town. It is a time honored tradition now. It existed rarely before the fifties, but it's been going strong for over 60 years now. In the full scope of history, it's not that long. But in the timeline of one short human life it can mean the difference between happiness and friendship and lonliness and despair.
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2010 1 January :: 1.20am
I am wondering why I keep stopping on these stupid TimeLife infomercials while I am flipping through late night TV.
Tonight's is "Romancing the 70's." Given the way I was raised I kind of expect to have a wide range of knowledge of older songs.
I know a lot of them, Jim Croce, Elton John, Rod Stewart, John Denver, and even Tony Orlando and Dawn. But apparently there was a group called "Bread." The standards seemed awfully low back then.
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2009 29 December :: 1.51pm
im annoyed with life.
nothing is going right.
but im having fun at USF
oh and boo at starting smoking.
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2009 26 December :: 11.31pm
Here I am, there you are.
How did we ever let things get this far.
I have no money, I have no car.
I like you but the distance is too far.
You may sulk, you may soar, you think like before.
A time gone past, those ways don't last.
Cherish the moment.
Just try to make them last.
We definitely need atonement.
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In other news I fucking love this song, I dont know why!
Empire of the Sun- Walking on a Dream
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2009 24 December :: 11.42pm
:: Music: "I See You" by Leona Lewis
Haunted
I see you.
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2009 23 December :: 10.58pm
Jade is my color.
I try to not look at times past. I try so hard. I hate myself when I do think of them.
I try to live by the moment. For the now.
I forgive. I forget....too much.
I am flawed. I am broken. I am human.
To those who fell away. May my deeds be forgiven.
To those who are around, thank you.
For those who would give up on me. So be it, your choice. I cannot stop you.
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2009 21 December :: 11.23am
Where'd all the good people go?!
Be content. FFS...
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2009 8 December :: 7.44pm
Updating from my phone. who would have thought that this was possible when woohu was first created i so need to get this changed and back up to speed.
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