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2003 31 October :: 7.37 pm
:: Mood: lonely
nice place...
yey i found somthing to laugh about lol.... ok so my mom goes were going out to dinner so get ready .. i ask where she said a nice place.. i said i'm no going. ok later she goes are you ready i said i'm not going... then she comes t my room and bicthes at me.. whatever lol i didn't evencare... ya so they still haven't left yet.. and my dad comes in and says "what do you want from wendy's?" lmao a nice place?? y lol at least it made me laugh!!
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2003 30 October :: 10.12 pm
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: you've never seen who you really are
i don't wanna be normal like you : )
my music is sooo random right now.. but here's wht i'm fustrated with. my mom she keeps yellign at me cuz i'm too skinny.... grrr i'm so fuckin chunky and i'm not even joking like seriously i'm not skinny!! sh'es jsut frekin crazy but yea so grr i don't wanna loose more weight cuz shes gonna like call my doctor but i'm chuncky!! sigh i dunno whatever let her call whoever they can check my blood sugar levals and she'll feel stupid.
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2003 30 October :: 9.53 pm
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: LP yea paul you suck! jk
We've nevr chosen to keep waht we've got...
alright so everyone except for 2 people that i talked today got yelled at... i guess it's a yelled at day cuz people are so fuckin...... i lost my thought. i'm soo excited for holloween!! i have somthgn to look foward to yey!! and then..... in like 40 hours i get to see carly!! ok i've said that alot of times.. but 7 months!! i've never kept a friend that i havne't seen for that long! well actually forget that.. umm it's cuz she means so much to me... bt jorie you mean alot more cuz your with me! so i love you too! lalal we still gotta talk about our *disagrement* :) well that soudns bad it wasn't a disgreement i dunno what the hell to call it.. come home alreayd so i can ask you somthing... wow jen can't spell for shit but whatever.
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2003 30 October :: 8.06 pm
lmao
Letting go of a grudge can improve your health. A recent study asked 71 people to mentally relive hurtful memories, to think of specific instances when they felt betrayed, insulted or lied to by romantic partners, family members or friends. Next, the participants were asked to add two alternate endings to the memory, one in which they harbored a grudge and one in which they forgave the offender.
Researchers then measured their vital statistics. The study found that when participants visualized holding a grudge their heart rates and blood pressures were two times higher than when they conjured up feelings of forgiveness. They also tended to sweat more and feel more hostile and out of control. Sustained anger and hostility are known risk factors for heart disease and reduced immunity, so letting go of a grudge could have dramatic and fast-acting health benefits. But how do you stop harboring bad feelings toward another person? Here are some suggestions from the experts:
Empathize. Try to understand the factors that influenced the other person's behavior, and put yourself in those circumstances. And remember, there are probably times when you have hurt someone.
Stop expecting the person to change the past. Even if they wanted to, they cannot take back the hurtful act. Also, don't wait for reconciliation before you forgive. Take responsibility for healing yourself.
Replace bitterness with a positive feeling. Find some way to wish the other person well, even if it means just hoping he or she learns to control his or her temper for better health. - Adapted from Prevention
~ Quotes ~
For every minute you remain angry, you give up sixty seconds of peace of mind.
- Ralph Waldo Emerson
Peace is not something you wish for; it's something you make, something you do, something you are, and something you give away.
- Robert Fulghum
People who fight fire with fire usually end up with ashes.
- Abigail Van Buren
The only way to get the best of an argument is to avoid it.
- Dale Carnegie
He who knows only his side of the case, knows little of that.
- John Stuart Mill
Resentment or grudges do no harm to the person against whom you hold these feelings but every day and every night of your life,
they are eating at you.
- Norman Vincent Peale
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2003 30 October :: 7.56 pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: made of glass
... to far to throw away the past
sigh.. i just realized i needa let that grudge go. i cna't be mad at her for bringing me over here. i guess it's a better enviorment and better opportunity and all that stuff... i just wish i knew happiness... how do i let it go? why can't i let stuff go???? *sigh* i'm fustratd
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2003 29 October :: 10.13 pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: oh shit i shoudl put somthign on
away from the sun
umm.. if someone says stuff alot about having sex with you.. shoudl i be scared?
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2003 28 October :: 11.59 pm
:: Mood: warm
:: Music: esmfta
the hand you hold is the hand that holds you down
yey! jen bought a hat! it's so awsome!
lol i got it from hottopic. it's tinkerbell and it has two things in the top with balls of puff.. i dunno how to explain it but it'ssooo warm.. and i love it!
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2003 28 October :: 11.45 pm
:: Mood: relieved
:: Music: el distorto de melodica
*big breath*
i'm glad were talking! and i'm happy that your taking it better than i thought you would!
i shall talk to you on im now : )
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2003 24 October :: 12.01 am
:: Mood: relieved
:: Music: tbs
on the razzle
the play was a success. i was kinda worried but it turned out wonderful.. as always. yesterday at the dress rehersal i was seriously dissapointed... but today i applaud them. of course the set crew :ahem: did a wonderful job especially with polyurathene lol. ya and everyone was great. a couple more days of erhersal would have helped. umm i'll critique it a little. casey was funny but over did some things.. but he was really funny. the littleshort kid sucks as an acto as simple as that. kurt shouldn't have been in it. elizabeth could ahve acted a little but everything else was prettyperfect. i dunno i'm not an expert or anything so whatever it was fun, a couple more days and we have to take down the set :tear: it was such hard work.. and then it dissapears...
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2003 13 October :: 11.56 pm
oh yea..and my dad got layed off
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2003 13 October :: 10.52 pm
:: Mood: very alone
:: Music: zoe jane
::sigh::
i really wish i remember what a hug felt like right now..i feel so alone and i don't even wanna write about it...
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2003 8 October :: 8.12 pm
:: Mood: easily amused...
:: Music: sponge bob!
lol
me: but anywayz.. how old are you?
saltine: thanks :)
saltine: 15
saltine: and you?
me: oooooooooooooooooooooo today is my half birthday lol
lol
saltine: lol cool :)
21929: happy half birthday to u
me: yey
21929: happy half birthday to u
me : :)
21929: happy half birthday dear jenny
21929: happy half birthday to u
21929: umm...
21929: ;-)
21929: O.o
me: :(
me: o well
me: where is er
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2003 8 October :: 6.53 pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: umm
once upon a time...
i painted sponge bob above my toilet
and lady for the blinds came with my mom to measure the bathroom window and my mom saw it and started screaming......... the lady tried to calm her down saying it coudl be worse it was hilarious though
yea i got in trouble
but i'm gonna paint patrick on the other wall
and garry under the window
and all the other ones on the other wall
yea that happened last week and i thought it was amusing enough to write down.. but i'll write later
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2003 6 October :: 10.52 pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: people=shit
hmm i wrote alot today... well many entries but anyway now i feel confused cuz christine jsut text messaged me sayign that she's sorry about today and that she's sorry and that she will make it up to me............ does she really have feelings? i've never heard those words form her....... wow i dunno now i dunno what to feel?? i'm very confused what shoudl jen do?
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