.....home, once again


..... i went to disney world friday-sunday with my grandma, step grandpa person, aunt sharee, uncle vince, cousin amanda and her soon to be husband, bryan (which i guess would make him my soon to be relitive of some kind) and there almost 4 year old daughter. it was my very first time too. it was an alright trip thing. i mean besides the fact that i was with my family, ugh, most of disney was fun. there were a lot of times where i almost slapped my brother (god i hate him) but i had to controll my anger so all i did was be bitch and what-not to him. my grandma and step grandpa person got on my nerves a lot too, but i had to deal with that. also my grandma and step grandpa person kept getting in stupid little arguments like they always do,which irritated me. then everytime you would look at my anut or uncle you would see them puffing on a ciggerrett. other than that i guess you would say i had fun. i rode some rides, ate food, looked around in the gift shops, took pictures, watched some piraides & fireworks. also i ate dinner in the princesses castle. it was pretty inside. i didn't want to come back home to my mom and dad and so called house tho. i wish they would have left me there. the next time i go to disney world i want to be with some friends instead of family. that was my first tie trip to disney......

.....yay
...... me and adam started going out today. ahhhh, yes.... happiness......

......what a loser


.....I am a loser. I can't do anything right. I beat myself up inside when i do something worng. Then i get depressed and i don't talk to anyone......

a short entry....
.....i met jeff, adam and pablo. a couple new people.

Problem Children
......today was another boring day. humm... i have no life. i kept waking up and falling back asleep this morning, and i don't get enough sleep. i think i need sleeping pills. all i did today was go online, and read the book "beauty queen", which is a good book. i had the house to myself today. my mom and dad was at work and my brother was at his friends house. humm.... anyways when my mom came home from work she went to go pick matthew up. When matthew came home he was crying and he got in trouble for something at his friends house and he was scared to go out to the shop to tell my dad... which i don't blame him. my dad is kinda scary and when you get in trouble with him, he gets mean. but anyways i was enjoying him getting in trouble because i am usualy always the one getting in trouble, like my brother is the perfect angel or something. even if he did something wrong i would get blamed for it. anyways... no one would tell me what happend and why he got in trouble... then i started getting mad, because everytime i get in trouble everyone in my fucking family knows... but when matt gets in trouble.. nooooo i cant know. well i finally found out why he got in trouble and it was because him and his friend were playing with fire and shit happend and i can't say the rest.... so now he might get taken off the AAU baseball team he is on, because of my dad...oh well... humm.... yeah, my parnts have problem children. me with cutting myself and being depressed and haveing and attitude problem and not being home by my curfew and not following the stupid rules and always fighting with my brother and my smart mouth. And my brother with his really big attitude problem, and him playing with fire and him always wanting something that we can't afford, and having a smart mouth and arguing all the time with me and stuff... yeah thats us for ya. they wish we were perfect. but ha! thats not going to happen any time soon. there aren't even helping us in the sitation. my mom always smoking and being under a lot of stress and drinking once in a while ad going off on us kids about nothing stuff. and my dad with somkeing and drinking every chace he gets and cursing every time he talks.... and once in awhile they will fight to. yeah, thats my broken family for you.....

ummm... stuff
this is my first entry. yay, i guess. anyways, today was basicly a normal sunday to me. Clean the bathrooms, dust the house, vaccum, and clean my room. yup, thats my sunday routine. fun huh?.... I made chocolate chip cookies today and they are fat. I was really bored today that i ended up playing tony hawk proskater2 on the playstation in my brothers room with him. i dont go in there unless i have to because it smells and it is all yucky and shit. but i went in there because my mom vaccumed it, so i sat on the rug, and we played 2 player games and whatnot and i lost all the games. figuers... i havent played in long time. anyways i got mad at my mom today because my brother (matthew) asked if he could go to fruitville park with craig and jake today, and she said yes! god... she will let matt go to the park but she won't fucking let me take a short cut and walk to subway (eat fresh) with my best friend lesley that i have known since before kindergarden. and my brother is only 9! dude what the fuck?!?...
but anyways.... toay was kinda boring, nothing really special happend. when i was talking to lesley online today she told me something that shocked the hell outta me. she told me that jose kinda likes me. i'm just like.. me? sarah? me? i thought she was going to tell me something diffrent. i told her she should warn me before she tells me things like that, i wasn't ready for that. humm... i watched the movie "what wemon want" with my mom today. She laughed so hard se looked like she was going to cry... i was thinking "it was funny.. but not that funny"... I talked to robert today, i haven't talked to him in 326945 days....god he is hott. hehe... well this is the end. good bye