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blacktears844

:: 2004 11 July :: 6.02am

Here It Comes
The occasional self-loathing whiny entry about my problem with weight. Brace yourselves.

I just wish I was thin. But yet all I ever do is talk about it, and I can never commit myself to keep on exercising, or to keep eating healthy. I lack discipline.
I think I would be 100% happier if I was just 20 or even 30 pounds thinner. I want to be able to find clothes that look good on me. I'm tired of having to hide myself behind black baggy T-shirts and baggy jeans. I hate having to wear tights when I want to wear skirts. I'm sick of it.
Ugh.

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blacktears844

:: 2004 10 July :: 6.31pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: Dreadful Dollface

Agent Neon
I just made the world's worst brownies.
And they are so good. MOOOOHA.
At least I think so. Everyone else thinks they suck. And then I made some strawberry lemonade that even I admit sucks.

I need to stop making things.

I think I'm going shopping today. Wa-woo.

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BleedingHeart

:: 2004 5 July :: 9.58pm
:: Mood: mellow
:: Music: the postal service- recycled air

my head's a balloon inflating

incrediable 4th of july weekend.


wow.

out at the beach saturday-monday


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blacktears844

:: 2004 9 July :: 2.01am

Oh god I made a really sucky site. AGAIN. Because I have no knowledge of HTML all my sites suck. *blushes*

http://druggeduphooker.tripod.com/dopestarsinc HAHAHHA

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blacktears844

:: 2004 8 July :: 1.19am
:: Music: "Showdown" - Britney Spears

I don't mean to be a tease, but would you undo my zipper please?
Went to King's Island. Wasn't as sucky as I thought it would be. Actually quite fun, I'm a sucker for rollercoasters.
Well I'm about to go fix a TV Dinner and fetch a margarita. We just picked up some mix on the way home. <33

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blacktears844

:: 2004 7 July :: 7.15pm
:: Music: Dreadful Dollface

Misstake
Well I saw Van Helsing last night, it wasn't that bad, I thought. Maybe that's because I'm a sucker for cheesy movies. =P
Well I'm supposed to be going to King's Island today but I don't really want to. Too lazy. Ugh.
On another note, go check out Dreadful Dollface. I'm sure I've promoted them on here before, but I'll do it again. =D
www.dreadfuldollface.dk

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blacktears844

:: 2004 6 July :: 5.18pm
:: Mood: painful
:: Music: The Strokes

Dun dun dun
My back hurts really bad for some odd reason. And a misquito bit my finger so it swelled up to the size of a balloon. So I have one EXTREMELY fat finger and 9 other regular ones.
I think I might go see Van Helsing tonight at the Dollar Theatre. I want to go to Starbucks too, but I don't think that's going to happen. Those Iced Caramel Mochiatto (sp?) are SO SO SO good.
My Peppermint Creeps shirt still hasn't come. =( I wonder what's taking it so long.

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blacktears844

:: 2004 6 July :: 12.19am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: The Cure

BABIES
Well I've had a busy weekend. First off, Christina came over Friday night, and we went to this wedding on Saturday (my aunt's) and she spent Saturday night here too. Then Ashley came over and me, her, and Christina all went to Wal-Mart. Well we were sitting in the food court, just drinking Cokes and stuff, and I told Christina something that was funny, and she started cracking up. Then I yelled, "BABIES!"...because I could. Then this little skinny Eminem type looking redneck came over with a crying baby under his arm and was screaming at Christina, "ARE YOU LAUGHING AT MY KID?" Needless to say, SHE was surprised, so she was like, "I'm not laughing at your kid!"
"I've seen you staring at him the whole time you've been here! If you laugh at my kid I'm going to kick your fucking ass, you hear me? You fucking freak."
He was a very angry man with a red neck. So after that escapade, we dropped Christina back off, and Ashley spent the night at my house. Today we met up with Emily and Stacie and hung out the mall. Little did we know that it closed about a half hour after we got there. We had to wait for about two hours in the foyer. Lovely, lovely times. So here I sit, writing in this. Moooooha.
Remember everyone: BABIES!

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blacktears844

:: 2004 3 July :: 1.33pm

Well my friend Christina is over here, we're just sitting here. I'm allowed on the computer again as you can see. We're going to be going to my aunt's wedding in a few and I get to wear her kickass top. <333 Talk to you all later.

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BleedingHeart

:: 2004 1 July :: 9.51pm
:: Mood: worried
:: Music: coheed and cambria- an end to a beginning

stay for a memory we'll be alright

wow.




speachless.




too much to take in at once, and so many questions unanswered.




none of this has sank in yet.





please come visit or even move back down here



<\3

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BleedingHeart

:: 2004 27 June :: 9.53pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: cky- sink into the underground

i know its going to get me again

i'm back.

my vacation in oklahoma was awesome. i didn't want to come home. the weather was really nice up there. it was really pretty at night, and i actually saw the big dipper.


...i kinda sucks to be back in sarasota

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BleedingHeart

:: 2004 20 June :: 5.31am
:: Mood: irritated
:: Music: phantom planet- california

your shadow weighs a ton

well, i am finally off to oklahoma, after 3 days and nights of nothing but horriable fueding.


i'll be back the 27th

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blacktears844

:: 2004 30 June :: 4.22pm

Well I won't be able to be online for two days. I'll talk to you all later. <33

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blacktears844

:: 2004 29 June :: 6.10am
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: DSI

DropDeadGorgeousProzacAddicted
My Dope Stars Inc. CD finally came yesterday. I ABSOLUTELY LOVE IT. <333
I suggest you all check them out. Now. =P
www.dopestarsinc.com HOP TO IT, y0.
Hot damn I love this band.

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blacktears844

:: 2004 28 June :: 3.43pm

A girl and guy were speeding over 100 mph on the road...

Girl: Slow down. Im scared.
Guy: No this is fun.
Girl: No its not. Please, its too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
*Girl hugs him*
Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on yourself? Its bugging me.

(In the paper the next day):

A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of break failure. 2 people were on it, but only 1 survived. The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his breaks broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him & felt her hug 1 last time, then had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it meant that he would die.

If there's anyone you love this much on here, re-post this.

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