forget my name

forget my name

:: 2004 22 February :: 1.25pm

More details on the big breakup.
Well, I was on the phone with him last night, and I was all quiet and he asked me what was wrong, and I told him I had been thinking about things, blah blah blah.
I had been acting weird for a few days before that, so I think he knew something was up.
So I told him that I think of him as more of a brother than a friend, and I don't think I could get past that image. So he was like, "So are you breaking up with me?" and I just said, "Yeah, basically". And then we talked about the whole us still being friends thing, which of course we still are going to be friends since we were friends for so long before. At the end part he started crying a little bit and he said he was going to try and win me back and that if I ever wanted a boyfriend I knew who to come to, haha.
So yeah. I am single now.

Funny how I'm really horny now too.

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blacktears844

:: 2004 22 February :: 9.23am

I broke up with James last night.
I felt so much better. He cried.

I am a horrible person. I even did it over the phone. *sigh*

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blacktears844

:: 2004 18 February :: 4.25pm

I have to go to my dad's tonight.

James is smothering me. He calls WAY too much and he won't give me any space.
I NEED MY SPACE, BOY!
Arg.

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blacktears844

:: 2004 17 February :: 4.45pm
:: Mood: slacker
:: Music: "Graverobbing USA" - Murderdolls

I come from a planet beyond the stars...

^ My cool as fuck new shoes. They're pink and black. OH YES.

^ My cool as fuck new bracelets. OH YES.

^ A little headshot JUST FOR YOU.

I have no idea where my mother went. She went to put the dogs in the fence and that was about an hour ago. Sheesh. She better not be walking the streets. I've decided I guess I won't leave. I have too many friends here to just desert them all. Plus I can hardly go a day without updating this thing or it kills me. So, yeah. ENJOY ME MOOHA!

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BleedingHeart

:: 2004 17 February :: 3.53pm
:: Mood: distressed
:: Music: papa roach- singular indestructible droid

..a galaxy of emotions
this day wasn't worth waking up too.

...so, my mother doesn't trust me when i am with craig.

********************************

on a better note:

i now work at coldstone. you better stop by and visit me bitches.

:)

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blacktears844

:: 2004 16 February :: 5.03pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: "Get Pretty" - My Ruin

I want to go to the mall. Mallrat. MOOHA.
I have ten whole dollars. WOW.
I can't seem to find things to write about much in here anymore. I have started a MOJ too. Uh-oh. I might leave Woohu. :(
Dammit.

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BleedingHeart

:: 2004 13 February :: 11.33pm
:: Mood: numb
:: Music: silence kills

...take me away

... hm. it happend once again. i am such a dissapointment to myself.

... use me. use my body. don't worry about me. i am too numb to give a shit.

fuck.

<\3

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blacktears844

:: 2004 13 February :: 6.58pm

A Survey For You All....

What is your favorite..
gum: Eclipse....or Juicy Fruit I guess. I don't chew gum too much.
restaurant: El Rancho Grande, Texas Roadhouse, Applebees, and Olive Garden.
drink: Mountain Dew and Frappacinos
season: Fall
type of weather: Slightly warm and sunny
emotion: Happy of course
thing to do on a half day: Nothing
late-night activity: Sex you idiot......since I can't get that right now I'll say go to the mall or something...woo
sport: I dont like sports.
city: Los Angeles or Chicago
store: Wal-Mart bebay!
When was the last time you..
cried: A couple days ago.
played a sport: About 6 years ago.
laughed: Today.
hugged someone: Today.
kissed someone: Less than a week ago.
felt depressed: 3 Days Ago
felt elated: 5 Days Ago
felt overworked: About two weeks ago
faked sick: Last month
lied: Last night....shame on me
What was the last..
word you said: 6:47....I was telling my little sister the time
thing you ate: Cheesecake YES
song you listened to: "Toxic" by Britney Spears....that song is damn catchy I love it
thing you drank: Milk
place you went to: School
movie you saw: Edward Scissorhands
movie you rented: I can't remember
concert you attended: One of my mother's country concerts....
Who was the last person you..
hugged: James
cried over: TJ
kissed: James
danced with: TJ
shared a secret with: Mandy
had a sleepover with: Emily
called: James
went to a movie with: Emily
saw: Shelby
were angry with: My mom
couldn't take your eyes off of: DJ
obsessed over: Michael
Have you ever..
danced in the rain: Yes
kissed someone: OH YES
done drugs: Yes.
drank alcohol: Yes.
slept around: I wish.
partied 'til the sun came up: I wish.
had a movie marathon: Yeah.
gone too far on a dare: I dont play truth or dare as much as I'd like...
spun until you were immensely dizzy: Oh yeah, I do that all the time.
taken a survey quite like this before: Yeah, they're all the same yet I can't stop taking them.

The Favorites, Have-You-Evers.. and Last Times! Oh, the variety! brought to you by BZOINK!

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blacktears844

:: 2004 11 February :: 3.25pm

The newest pic of my gorgeous best friend Emily

Yep, and she thinks I'M the prettier one! HAHAHHA.

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blacktears844

:: 2004 11 February :: 2.55pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: Eve 6

One put my tender heart in a blender...
Well, I'm supposedly getting a kitten today. School wasn't too bad. There's not been too much to say past couple days. I don't come here as much as I used to. Oh well.

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blacktears844

:: 2004 8 February :: 12.48pm
:: Mood: weird
:: Music: "Noise And Kisses" - The Used

I feel so weird. And I need to take a bath. SO badly.

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blacktears844

:: 2004 8 February :: 10.48am
:: Mood: photogenic
:: Music: "Eleanor Rigby" - The Beatles

Glasses motherfucker
Alas, I took some pics. And yet, I am too lazy to put them all up.
So here is one.

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blacktears844

:: 2004 8 February :: 9.28am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: "Hello Skinny" - The Residents

I love the way you move
Well, I bought Alice Cooper's "Killer" last night, used. Only $7. I'm going to get a Murderdolls poster, and a sticker and a pin each of London After Midnight and the Peppermint Creeps with the money I have left. Ta-da. I tried to take some pics today but they turned out really crappy. I think my cam just reloaded so maybe I can try again in a bit. Fun stuff.

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blacktears844

:: 2004 8 February :: 9.28am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: "Hello Skinny" - The Residents

photograph

blacktears844

:: 2004 7 February :: 2.29pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: "This Love" - Maroon 5

Well, James came over last night. It was pretty fun. My grandma left us pretty much alone too. There wasn't any kissing (godammit) but there was ALOT ALOT ALOT of cuddling. I'll take it. ;)
He's tall. I usually like short guys. I have to look up at him. *sigh* I guess I should start drinking more milk.
I'm going over to my dad's today and we're going to Second Time Around (a used CD store) today and I have $20! *dances* I can finally get some CDs.
I don't really have much to say.

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