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blacktears844

:: 2004 4 January :: 10.39pm
:: Mood: still sick....bored too
:: Music: More hacking and coughing...

I can't stay away from this damn computer. I finished watching Pretty In Pink hurrah hurrah. My family is watching CSI. WOOT. Wow....isn't this oh-so-interesting. I am incredibly bored. And my mom also said I wasn't going to school tomorrow. So that is uplifting. Bwhahaha......

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blacktears844

:: 2004 4 January :: 8.12pm

I am right in the middle of watching Pretty in Pink.....god I am so sick of watching movies all day. I've only watched 1 and a half....but still. I don't like to be sitting completely still that long. It's already 8:08 PM. Dear god, the day has flown by. I wonder if I shall be venturing off to school tomorrow. My head still hurts pretty bad, and my joints ache like mad. It feels very strange to walk. I am pretty sure that I will need another day to get completely well. I ate two bowls of macaroni and cheese today and some Sprite. That's it. Hmmm..

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blacktears844

:: 2004 4 January :: 6.25pm

DisorderRating
Paranoid:Moderate
Schizoid:Low
Schizotypal:High
Antisocial:Moderate
Borderline:Very High
Histrionic:Moderate
Narcissistic:Moderate
Avoidant:Moderate
Dependent:High
Obsessive-Compulsive:High

-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --


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blacktears844

:: 2004 4 January :: 6.18pm

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
LevelScore
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)Very High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)Very High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)Very High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)Extreme
Level 7 (Violent)Extreme
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)Extreme
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)Very High

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

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blacktears844

:: 2004 4 January :: 6.11pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: Hacking and coughing....music to my ears

God, could it BE any more fucking hot in this house? I just spent the last couple hours alternating between sleeping and watching The Lost Boys. Pretty good movie. I hate it being freezing cold one minute, and then blazing hot the next. This sickness sucks. I don't know if I'll be going to school tomorrow, since I still feel pretty bad. I might though. My mother is making me macaroni and cheese bwhahahah.......

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blacktears844

:: 2004 3 January :: 10.43pm

I just got back from the doctor. Turns out I have an upper respiratory infection and strep throat. What a lovely combination.
Hmm....

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blacktears844

:: 2004 3 January :: 7.23pm

God, this day has been boring as hell. Even the computer is starting to fail to amuse me. *the horror*
Tomorrow better not suck. I want some to eat.
Cinnamon Toast Crunch. OH yeah.

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blacktears844

:: 2004 3 January :: 6.57pm

"Strawberry Gashes" - Jack Off Jill
Turn her over, a candle is lit I see through her
Blow it out, and save all your ashes for me

Curse me, sold her
The poison that runs its course through her
Pale, white, skin with strawberry gashes all over, all over

Watch me fault her, you're living like a disaster
She said "kill me faster"
With strawberry gashes all over, all over

Called her over, and asked her if she was improving
She says "feels fine, it's wonderful wonderful here"

Hex me told her
I dreamt of a devil that knew her
Pale, white skin with strawberry gashes all over, all over

Watch me fault her, you're living like a disaster
She said, "kill me faster"
With strawberry gashes all over, all over

I lay quiet, waiting for her voice to say
"some things you lose and some things you just give away"

Scold me failed her
If only I'd held on tighter to her
Pale, white skin that twisted and withered away from me, away from me

Watch me lose her, it's almost like losing myself
Give her my soul, and let them take somebody else, get away from me

Watch me fault her
You're living like a disaster
She said, "kill me faster"
With strawberry gashes all over all over me.

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blacktears844

:: 2004 3 January :: 4.46pm

This cold sucks. I hate coughing up plegm every single minute. I guess I'll be staying home all night tonight, bonding with my computer as always. Fun way to spend my last night before I have to go to bed at a reasonable hour. I really don't want to go to school. I don't even want to go to see my friends. I don't feel that close to them anymore. The only friends I really feel close to...are the friends I have on here. That's pretty sad. The only friends I actually like is the ones I'll never be able to meet.
Dammit.

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blacktears844

:: 2004 3 January :: 4.46pm

This cold sucks. I hate coughing up plegm every single minute. I guess I'll be staying home all night tonight, bonding with my computer as always. Fun way to spend my last night before I have to go to bed at a reasonable hour. I really don't want to go to school. I don't even want to go to see my friends. I don't feel that close to them anymore. The only friends I really feel close to...are the friends I have on here. That's pretty sad. The only friends I actually like is the ones I'll never be able to meet.
Dammit.

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blacktears844

:: 2004 3 January :: 5.35am

It's 5:30 AM and I just snuck out of bed in order to be online. I think I need help.

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blacktears844

:: 2004 3 January :: 3.07am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: "Bitch" - Dope

I really need a hobby other than this damn computer. I was on here until 5:00 AM yesterday and now it is 3:00 AM today and still here I sit. Damn this addiction. I'm tired as fuck but I can't bring myself to get away from the computer.....get away sarah....GET AWAY!! Arg.

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blacktears844

:: 2004 3 January :: 1.09am

By the way....sorry to everyone I was talking to online this afternoon...my computer crashed and soon after that I had to leave. Sorry guys. :( *love*

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blacktears844

:: 2004 3 January :: 1.08am
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: "Strawberry Gashes" - Jack Off Jill

Bwhahaha I FINALLY got that skirt I've been eyeing on the Internet....I went to Torrid tonight. And came back with this skirt, mwahah.


Awesome.

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blacktears844

:: 2004 1 January :: 8.35pm

I am so bored. I just downloaded some music and I'm about to go in my room to read more of Helter Skelter. Hmm interesting life I lead, eh?

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