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blacktears844

:: 2003 11 November :: 9.45am

Well, yesterday wasn't as great as I thought it was going to be. Average. But today is ANOTHER DAY. Mwhahahah. Oh well. I have to go in really late for school today, because my mom overslept and I'm killing time on the computer while she wakes up. Hehe.

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blacktears844

:: 2003 10 November :: 7.41am

I really hope today is a good day.
It feels like it's going to be a good day.
I don't know why........just I hope it is.

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blacktears844

:: 2003 9 November :: 1.14am

I just got back from seeing The Pirates of the Carribbean at the dollar theatre.
There are 4 words that can make this day officially not suck : Johnny Depp in eyeliner.
YES. TWO HOURS 15 MINUTES of uninterrupted staring. Of course, the actual movie was good too.
Anyways, it's really hot and my ear is infected. But it's ALL good. :)

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BleedingHeart

:: 2003 8 November :: 11.36pm
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: father yelling, mother crying

..get divorced already
.... my parents are fighting once again. i don't see why they haven't gotten divorced yet. oh well, i am use to it....

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blacktears844

:: 2003 8 November :: 4.45pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: The Cure

I would say I'm sorry
If I thought that it would change your mind
But I know this time
That I have said too much, been too unkind

I try to laugh about it, cover it all up with lies
I try to laugh about it, hiding the tears in my eyes
Cause boys don't cry
Boys don't cry

I would break down at your feet
And beg forgiveness
Plead with you but I know that it's too late
And now there's nothing I can do

So I try to laugh about it, cover it all up with lies
I try to laugh about it, hiding the tears in my eyes
Cause boys don't cry
Boys don't cry

I would tell you that I loved you
If I thought that you would stay
But I know that it's no use
That you've already
Gone away
Misjudged your limits
Pushed you too far
Took you for granted
I thought that you needed me more
Now I would do most anything
To get you back by my side
But I just
Keep on laughing
Hiding the tears in my eyes
Cause boys don't cry
Boys don't cry.


<3

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blacktears844

:: 2003 8 November :: 3.17pm

Well, this weekend is shot. Ultimately.
I doubt ANYTHING can make this weekend good. I had a strange dream last night.
And my woman-hood is visiting today. You do the math. NOT A GOOD DAY.
*hangs self*

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blacktears844

:: 2003 8 November :: 12.49am

It is so fucking cold outside.
And I am so fucking tired.
I'm going to climb in my big comfy bed and wrap myself up in warm covers and go to sleep.

Goodnight, everyone.

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blacktears844

:: 2003 6 November :: 6.55pm


Which Anna Nicole Show cast member are you?


I am VERY afraid. *hides*

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blacktears844

:: 2003 6 November :: 6.52pm


Which era in time are you?

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blacktears844

:: 2003 6 November :: 6.48pm


Which Piercing are you?

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blacktears844

:: 2003 6 November :: 4.13pm

Today was a really good day.
Since I am in such a good mood, and extremely bored, I shall describe he-who-shall-not-be-named to you all.
He has shoulder-length straight blonde hair. Not REALLY blonde, but kind've a dull-ish blonde. He has blue eyes, and is really short. He actually comes up to my chest.
We make an extremely odd couple. Sheesh.
I'm so bored. And I feel sick. But other than that, I'm happy. :)

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blacktears844

:: 2003 5 November :: 8.45pm

General
Name::Sarah
Nickname::Spiffy.....blacktears........SNICKELFRITZ
Age::15
Date of Birth::May 1
Location::Ohio
Gender::Female
Occupation::Student
Screen Name::strange girl844
Email::loser_girl844@yahoo.com
Description
Eye Color::Green....sometimes hazel.
Hair Color::Black
Weight::Don't even ask.
Height::Around 5'5'' I believe
Piercings::I have my ears pierced twice.....more to come VERY soon I hope.
Tattoos::None yet
Shoe Size::8 1/2 I think
Wearing::Black shirt.....black pants.......PRETTY PINK SOCKS
Currents
Listening::AFI
Eating::My spit
Feeling::A bit sad
Doing::My dog. Just kidding.......I'm doing this survey.
Friends
Craziest::Ashley
Loudest::Christina
Nicest::Mandy
Bitchiest::Stacy
Jock::Mike
Prep::Megan
Rebel::Michael
Cutest::he-who-shall-not-be-named
Rudest::Stacy
Shy::Mandy
Dumbest::James
Smartest::Mandy
Weirdest::Jamie
Most Talented::Ashley
Best Personality::Ashley
Shortest::he-who-shall-not-be-named or Jamie
Tallest::James
Most Ghetto::Jamie
Talkative::Christina
Spoiled::Mandy
Drama Queen::Stacy
Drama King::Uh......Michael?
Pain in the Ass::Stacy
High Matinence::Stacy
Low Matinence::Mandy
Funniest::Emily
Druggie::Rachel
Most Likely to be President::Uh.....I have no idea.
First to Die::Renee
Boyfriend/Girlfriend::he-who-shall-not-be-named
Family
Parents::Steven and Dana
Siblings::Stepsisters Morgan and Shelby
Pets::Three dogs, dumbass bird, and a turantula
Divorced?::Yes, my parents are divorced
Music
Favorite Band::AFI or Murderdolls
Favorite Song::"Days of the Phoenix" is really high right now
Hated Band::Uh.....does John Mayer count? Cause he needs to die
Hated Song::"Bigger than my Body" JOHN MAYER
Best CD::Black Sails in the Sunset
Worst CD::Let Go - Avril Lavigne
Radio Station::103.9 The X
Music TV Station:Fuse
Favorites
Color::Clear, people
Food::Mashed potatoes right now......YUM
TV Show::Uh...Uranium
School Subject::English
Animals::Uh.......DOG??
Movies::Texas Chainsaw Massacre (original) and lately, House of 1000 Corpses
Books::1984 is what I'm reading right now
Cartoon::Josie and the Pussycats
Actor::Don't have one
Actress::Christina Ricci
Drink::Mountain Dew
Holiday::Christmas or Halloween
Scent::Vanilla Cake
Pizza Topping::Just cheese
Board Game::Clue
Video Game::Uh........Tetris?
Website::www.woohu.com of course
Book::You already asked me this question.
Computer Game::I don't play computer games
Number::42
Cereal::COUNT CHOCULA MWHAHHAH
Dessert::Hot Fudge Sundae or cheesecake
Ice Cream Flavor::Peanut Butter Caramel
Disney Character::Either Sleeping Beauty or Ariel
Place to Shop::Wal-Mart
Pastime::Filling out pointless surveys
Teacher::Mrs. Mooney
Childhood Toy::My stuffed animals
Amusement Park Ride::Son of Beast
Candy::Sour Worms
Magazine::Metal Edge
Thing to Do::Get online
Hot Drink::Cocoa
Season::Fall
Sport::Uh.....skateboarding? Is that a sport?
Bedroom
Wall Color::White
Posters:About 152 at my dad's house
Sheets:White
# Pillows::2
# Blankets::3
Size Bed::Queen Size
Share a room?::No
Snore?::Sometimes
Drool?::Sometimes
Stuffed animals?::NO.......they get pushed off
Either Or
Coke or Pepsi::Pepsi
Doughnuts or Bagels::Bagels
Day or Night::Night
Heaven or Hell::Hell
Coffee or Tea::Coffee
Hamburgers or Hot Dogs::Hamburgers
Rap or Rock::Rock
Punk or Emo::Punk
Silver or Gold::Silver
Nike or Adidas::Adidas
McDonalds or Burger King::McDonalds
Hot or Cold::Cold
Winder or Summer::Winter
Spring or Summer::Spring
Operas or Plays::Plays
Read or Watch TV::Watch TV
CDs or Tapes::CDs
DVDs or VHS::DVD
Old or New::Old
Shorts or Skirts::Skirts
Colored or Black and White::Colored
Mexican or Chinese::Mexican
Commercials or Informercials::Infomercials
Scary Movies or Comedies::Scary Movies
Bikinis or One Piece::One piece
Sandals or Sneakers::Sneakers
Dogs or Cats::Dogs
Black or White::Black
Ribbons or Bows::Ribbons
Chicken or Beef::Chicken
Cars or Trucks::Cars
Popcorn or Pretzels::Pretzels
Picture Frames or Photo Albums::Photo Albums
Candid or Posed::Posed
Pens or Pencils::Pens
Opinion
Recording Industry::Too much to think about.
Iraq::Why are we bombing them again?
President Bush::Get out of office.
Controversial Music Artists::More power to them......they're fun to watch.
Religion::Religion is overrated.
Homosexuals::No problem with them.
Abortion::Murder
Death::A bit scary
Terrorism::See above. ^
Random Words
Sponge::bob
Yellow::bird
Marshmellow::sundae
Dog::poop
Cat::lick
Cruel::mean
Phone::please ring
Rainbow::lucky charms
Animal::tiger
Queen::freddie mercury
Chocolate::toast
Trivia::games
Sandy::shore
Soda::pop
Have You Ever:
Told a Secret?::Yes
Broke a Bone?::Yes
Got into a Fight?::Yes
Plotted Against Someone?::Yes
Been on TV?::Yes
Been on the Radio?::Yes
Been in a Mosh Pit?::Yes
Been to a Concert?::Yes
Taken Drugs?::Yes
Drank Alcohol?::Yes
Broken the Law?::Well yes....but I haven't been caught
Been to a Rodeo?::Yes
Been on an Airplane?::Yes
Came Close to Dying?::No
Terrorized a Babysitter?::No
Snuck out of the House?::Yes
Smoked?::Yes
Been to Camp?::Yes
Won a Bet?::Yes
Won a Trophy or Medal?::Yes
Thrown up in Public?::Yes
Bowled a Perfect Game?::No
Stayed Back?::Yes
Gotten Perfect Attendance?::Yes
Loved Someone?::Yes
Random
Three Things Near Computer::Post-It Notes, money, cell phone
Hidden Talents::I have no talents
Worst Movie::Darkness Falls
Best Movie::Texas Chainsaw Massacre
Drive?::Not yet
Dream Car::One that runs
Sky Dive?::Not yet
Believe in Bigfoot?::Sure
Lochness Monster?::Sure
Yeti?::Same thing as Bigfoot isn't it?
Other Random Monster?::Sure
Rooms in House::5
Afraid of Roller Coasters?::No
Believe in Some Higher Power?::Sometimes
Own a Pool Table?::No
Wished on a Shooting Star?::Yes
Best Halloween Costume::Uh....I went as an old man one year....pretty cool
Carry Weapons?::No
Weakness?::I'm not sure
Ideal Way to Die?:Shot.......in the head
Way to Release Stress::Scream really loud or hit something
Trendy?::Not really
Artistic?::I can be
Realistic?::Yeah
Untie Shoes Before Taking Them Off?::Yeah
Strong?::Not really
Last Email::To my friend Christina
Last IM::To Julie
Deep Sleeper?::Yes
Story Tellerer?::No
Best Quality::I don't have one
Greatest Accomplishment::Don't have one
Best Feeling in World::Being in love and knowing you are loved back
Worst Feeling in World::Being in love and knowing you are not loved back
Half Empty or Half Full?::Half empty
Last Thing Downloaded::Uh...some Lacuna Coil I think
Use Online Terms IRL?::No
Likeable?::Sure
Need Therapy?::Yeah
Need Medication?::Yeah
Kind of Movie to be in?::Horror
Kind of Band to be in?::Metal
Kind of TV Show to be in?:Comedy
Favorite Phrase::No one dies a virgin, life screws us all
Favorite Quote::Have no idea
Imaginary Friend?::Oh yes......his name is Rumplepuss

Survey! ^^ brought to you by BZOINK!

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blacktears844

:: 2003 5 November :: 6.56pm

HASH(0x87ff194)
Jack Skellington


Which character from Nightmare Before Christmas are you?
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blacktears844

:: 2003 5 November :: 6.32pm

Sometimes I hate when life is good.
When life is so good that you know it's never going to be like that ever again, so you better enjoy it while you have it.
Then when things aren't going so good, you remember back to the times when it was good, and you hate yourself for wishing so hard that it was those times again. I can feel myself wishing, longing, trying to hold on to good moments as much as I can. But they always seem to end much too quickly, and while I'm chasing after them, prolonging them as much as I can, they've already came and went and I'm left wishing they were back, obsessing.
I just made no sense.
And I hate it so much.

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blacktears844

:: 2003 5 November :: 3.29pm

Ah, today was pretty good. Things are definetly better between me and my boy toy since I called him yesterday. Thanks to Wizard for giving me the push I needed.
I have to go to eat at my grandmas today.

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