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blacktears844

:: 2003 4 October :: 4.00pm
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: TV

Ah, I went to the haunted trail last night with my aunt and got the shit scared out of me. Then today we went to Middfest and there was this hot-as-fuck guy taping it. Oh jesus he was cute. But of course nothing happened. It never does. *sigh*

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blacktears844

:: 2003 3 October :: 4.10pm
:: Mood: ecstatic
:: Music: Ramones

I get to go to my aunt's house today. And you know what that means. *wink wink*
Ah I'm so glad I get to this weekend. Alot of shit has been on my mind that I haven't been writing in here and the smile that has been plastered on my face isn't true at all. Update later. Much later.

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blacktears844

:: 2003 3 October :: 6.45am

My dad ended up buying me a CD without me knowing it. Hehe, I get to save me money. He bought me the Ramones.
Ah, trying to get me to walk in the 'ol footsteps. :)

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BleedingHeart

:: 2003 2 October :: 6.13pm
:: Mood: depressed

.....fuck it
..... adam broke up with me today. i had a feeling it was coming. i'm not a good girlfriend. he just wasted his time going out with me. yes, i still like him. whatever. fuck it........

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blacktears844

:: 2003 2 October :: 4.19pm

Ah, I don't feel like writing. By the way, I don't have time. But I do get a new CD today....now which one should I get?? Suggestions.........?

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blacktears844

:: 2003 30 September :: 6.34pm

FUCK!! I just deleted an entry I did NOT want to delete........shit.

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blacktears844

:: 2003 30 September :: 6.29pm
:: Mood: calm

Closer - NIN
You let me violate you, you let me desecrate you
You let me penetrate you, you let me complicate you
Help me I broke apart my insides, help me I've got no soul to sell
Help me the only thing that works for me, help me get away from myself

I want to fuck you like an animal
I want to feel you from the inside
I want to fuck you like an animal
My whole existence is flawed
You get me closer to god

You can have my isolation, you can have the hate that it brings
You can have my absence of faith, you can have my everything
Help me tear down my reason, help me it's your sex I can smell
Help me you make me perfect, help me become somebody else

I want to fuck you like an animal
I want to feel you from the inside
I want to fuck you like an animal
My whole existence is flawed
You get me closer to god

Through every forest, above the trees
Within my stomach, scraped off my knees
I drink the honey inside your hive
You are the reason I stay alive

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blacktears844

:: 2003 29 September :: 3.45pm

If any of you want to IM me, my SNs are:

Yahoo: loser_girl844
AIM: strange girl844
MSN: loser_girl844
There you go. *nudge nudge* IM me now.

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BleedingHeart

:: 2003 27 September :: 10.42pm
:: Mood: irritated
:: Music: Smile Empty Soul- Nowhere Kids

.....family
...... i'm so fucking tired of the trailer trash house i live in and my shitty broken family. someone please adopt me......


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blacktears844

:: 2003 26 September :: 4.12pm

Good news. I'm spending the night with my best friend tonite!! YAY!. It'll be the first time I've seen her in about a month. Since then she's dyed her hair black and got her nose pierced. It will be cool to see what she looks like now. We're going to the Haunted Trail tonite too. It sucks since she's moved. :( But it's cool that I get to go there tonite. I think I'll be dying my hair this weekend. My hair is brown again. Shit. It will be black soon. Yay.

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blacktears844

:: 2003 26 September :: 6.44am

I always write in this thing before I have to go to school. Sheesh. I have a headache this morning. I don't feel like going to school. I think I have to throw up. Maybe I just need to eat. I ate last night...maybe it was bad. Ah, I don't know. SHUT UP SARAH.

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blacktears844

:: 2003 25 September :: 4.25pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: Ramones

I have about 10 minutes before I have to go. But I decided to make a quick entry just for the hell of it. I just made a Ramones/Misfits CD. But the Misfits part was still downloading, so I just got one or two songs and had to stop. I got all my Ramones though. Why do I always write about stuff no one cares about?? Sheesh. Ah well, I better go.

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blacktears844

:: 2003 25 September :: 6.57am
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: Murderdolls

I have to go to school in about 20 minutes. Arg. I just want to stay home today. School takes so long, and it's so BORING. If we could sit in there and stare at each other, maybe I'd go. OH GOD. I just saw the most fucking funniest Barbie commercial I've ever seen. It's for that cheerleading Barbie and they're all bendy and what-not, and they were doing their cheers, and Barbie had that really snotty stuck-up voice, and she asked, "How's my lipgloss??" and then the Christie Barbie said, "Girl, you so hot you need an oven mitt!!" I fell out of my chair laughing. Man, those are hilarious.
I've also tooken a recent love to America's Funniest Home Videos. They had this one on there that had this girl singing that Spice Girl's song, "When Two Become One" or something like that, and she couldn't have been more than 12, and she was getting really into it and singing to her poster. It was HILARIOUS. I've caught my stepsister doing that. Only she does that in the bathroom when she's putting on her "makeup", which is just that little girl crap that doesn't even put real makeup in there. It's so cute. She wants to be a "big girl." She's only 7. Now I have about 15 minutes. I typed all that in about 5 minutes. Sad. I don't have anything else to write about anyway. La la la dee dah. Oh well.

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blacktears844

:: 2003 24 September :: 4.14pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: Skinny Puppy

Today was so boring. As usual. Several people asked me if I was going fishing since I had my fish-nets on today which pissed me off. I just told them I was and haha, them fuckers weren't getting any fish. So there. I felt very alienated today. Like everyone was a different species or something. But I've done nothing at all. I have to eat dinner at my grandma's today. Sheesh.

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blacktears844

:: 2003 23 September :: 3.35pm
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: The Cure

Sheesh, I haven't written it awhile. Coming back from Florida, I realize just how crappy school is. So much fucking homework I had to do. So today, the teachers give us our grade for now on a slip of paper to show us how we are doing and I am doing bad. I got one A, two Bs, one C, one D, and one F. I didn't get grades for ALL my classes, those are just a few, but enough to tell me that I've fucked up somewhere. I do all my work. And turn it in. So where's the problem? Sheesh. I really hope AFI doesn't become the next Good Charlotte. Today, one member of my school's "Good Charlotte Clan" had AFI written on their hand. I went up to her, hoping we could maybe talk about them, seeing as I am obsessed (and everyone at school knows that, hehe :>) and I said, "So, you like AFI?" And she said, "Oh my god, YES!! I love that Girl's Not Grey song." So then I said, "Have you heard any of the Art of Drowning, or Black Sails, or even any of their older stuff?"
"They have older stuff?" She had a very puzzled look on her face.
"Uh, yeah, they do."
"OH. I haven't heard any of that. Good Charlotte likes them, though."
"Good for them. It's nice to see they have somewhat good taste in music."
"AFI is so punk rawk." At this point I had to bust out laughing. I think it's hilarious when people declare the "punk-ness" of something.
"Sure, whatever you say." Was my genius response to this. She, I guess, got offended and gave me a "UH!!" and walked away, making sure to flip her hair in my face before she left. Sheesh. Some people.
That was the story for today. I think my foot's asleep.

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