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2003 18 August :: 11.16pm
:: Mood: good
:: Music: NOFX
My friend that I haven't seen in awhile came over today so I'm in a pretty good mood. My sister was out of control though. Cause my parents took my other sister out with them to look at carpet, and my other sister stayed at home with me. So anyway, my friend came over a bit unexpectedly, and we just hung out at the house. I guess my sister needed her Ritalin or something, but she just kept jumping around and throwing things and just driving me crazy in general. So then her and my friend (who is basically a bit childish anyway) kept on throwing things at each other and I swear I was going to shoot myself. I NEED ORDER!! What is very strange though, is that I like to keep everyone ELSE'S things organized. Just not my own. My room is a disaster area, but I try and keep the rest of the house clean. I'm a weirdo. Anyway, they came home and everyone was all right again suddenly. Woohoo. Not too much to write about anymore. Woot. I want the Freddy Vs. Jason soundtrack!! Ahhhh............but I'll have to wait until tomorrow to get it at Wal-Mart. I hope to see the actual movie tomorrow as well. La la dee dum.
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2003 18 August :: 7.20am
I seem to have a bad habit about staying up feeding my internet addiction when I should be happily sleeping away in my nice cozy bed. I'm REALLY tired. And yet I continue to stare at a screen. It's a fucking DRUG I tell ya. Unplug your computer before it's too late....
God knows I won't unplug mine. Hehe.
I've run out of things to look up. Hmm.....
Folk dancing lessons, perhaps?
That would be interesting too learn over the internet. That sounds quite inviting now that I've typed it out...........
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2003 18 August :: 2.45am
*I didn't write this, but I wish I had. True words.......enjoy.*
Disclaimer: This is NOT an anti Avril Lavigne site. This is a music magazine. Within the magazine there's an articles section, and within that section there is this article. Please take time to look at the rest of the site before you ask me why I run an Avril site. Also, before you email me:
- I do not devote my life to hating Avril Lavigne. I spent a few hours writing this article in July. How that constitutes obsession or having nothing better to do is beyond me.
- I run a music magazine. It is my job to express my opinions on music. Don't tell me to keep it to myself.
- Why do I know so much about her if I hate her so much? It's called research. I was not going to bash her without knowing my shit first. I don't listen to her music or look for interviews with her because I secretly want to be her. Why waste my time writing something like this if you can't back up what you're saying?
- If you can't form an intelligent thought or think of something halfway decent to say ("you suck avril rulez" is not intelligent), don't bother. I will not respond.
- To the pathetic, 11-13 year old Cult of Avril I'm-so-punk-because-I-shop-at-Hot-Topic-and-listen-to-Avril-and-like-sk8er-boiz members: Welcome to the real world. Not everyone is going to like everything that you like. Please get over it.
Avril Lavigne. Just seeing the name sends a trickle of pure disgust down my spine. Why, you ask? I mean, her songs are so deep! Her clothes are so cute! She doesn't care what anyone thinks of her! She's like, totally punk rawk! Well, my little brainwashed ones, I'm afraid I'm going to have to disagree. Let's see...where shall we start?
Avril Lavigne is a pop singer feeding off the new punk trend. Apparently, she (along with all her fans) missed the bulletin notifying those of us whose minds aren't quite as impressionable that dressing in every article of clothing ever put out by Hot Topic does not make you punk. Clothing should not define a musician's style. Rather (and here's a real challenging idea for you), their MUSIC should. Yet, the brainless youth of America continues to eat it up, as they do with anything and everything they're spoon-fed by the media, top 40 radio, and the sadistic, brainwashing, greedy trend whores better known as MTV exectutives.
In a recent magazine article, Avril proclaimed, "I don't write 'Oh-baby-baby' songs. I'm a skater punk who writes guitar driven rock." Yet one listen of the record proves otherwise. It is an album of mostly slower pop-rock tunes that would have felt at home on Mandy Moore's latest record. Avril can't seem to understand, that as much as the tries to give off a different image with what she wears, she is a POP singer. Uh-oh, here comes the retort from the angry Avril worshippers.
"She's not pop! She's rock! And she writes songs and plays guitar!"
*Ahhh this is all I could type for now. I do not wish for a life full of future carpal tunnel syndrome. If you wanna read the rest, go to http://www.recroommagazine.com/articles/avril.htm*
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2003 18 August :: 2.06am
:: Music: Cradle of Filth
Short Survey
Here's a short survey :)
Time Started: 2:11 AM
Name: Sarah
Nickname: Spiffy (don't ask)
Location: Ohio....grrr.........
Weight: I'm not going to depress myself.
Height: About 5'5'' I think
Eye Color: Green or Hazel
Hair Color: Black
Braces?: Had them taken off about a year ago
Glasses/Contacts?: I got glasses
Hobbies: Staring at various walls, listening to music, feeding my internet addiction, listening to music, bugging my parents, listening to music, playing with my dogs, listening to music, hanging out with my three friends, listening to music, you get the picture.
Zodiac Sign: Taurus
Pets: 2 dogs, 1 bird, and a turantula
Siblings: Two sisters Shelby and Morgan
Ticklish?: Maybe.............
Favorite Color: Black or red
Favorite Movie: Um.....Exorcist or Nightmare Before Christmas (so typical)
Favorite Type of Music: Mostly metal and punk
Favorite Song: Uh.........*blank*
Favorite Month: October
Favorite Number: 666 (HA!)
Favorite CD: Beyond the Valley of the Murderdolls- Murderdolls (for right now at least)
Time Finished: 2:16 AM
BEAT THAT!!
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2003 18 August :: 1.59am
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: Voivod
Well, nothing much happened today. Woohoo.
My parents are calling me Herman Munster because of these boots I got.
But I might've already told you that.
Man, I ALWAYS forget what I write about.
My best friend is starting to like her brother's friend. She talks to him online for about 5 hours a day. Sheesh.
But I am just jealous that I don't have a boyfriend to talk to. Oh well.
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2003 17 August :: 1.48am
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: Murderdolls, yes again
So, according to fuali.com, these are my labels. Hehe.
86% Goth
86% Metal Head
79% Grunge
74% Ska
74% Internet Addict
73% Punk Rock
60% Tortured Artist
42% Emo
18% Geek
Ahh......such amusement.
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2003 17 August :: 12.53am
I was just going through a chatroom looking for my friend when all of a sudden a pop-up comes up with the name ~*Sk8tr*Grrl*~ This was our conversation. Or at least what I care to remember of it.
~*Sk8tr*Grrl*~ (SG) : Hi
BlackTears844 (BT) : Hello
SG: HoW's U???
BT: Fine, and you?
SG: Me cOOlieS :)
BT: That's good.
SG: YeP!!!
SG: So, WaT kindA mUsiK u LykE??
BT: All kinds, really. But I lean more towards metal and stuff like that.
SG: mEtaL??
BT: Yep. Metal.
SG: I lyKe AvRiL, she Rox, and GC and SiMple PlAn. TeY rox.
BT: That's great.
SG: U LykE AvRil?
BT: Nope, can't say that I do.
SG: OMG!! WhY nOt?? SHe RoX!
BT: She doesn't rock in my book.
SG: YuR boOk SuX!!
BT: So does your spelling.
SG: OMG!! ShuTTup!!
BT: You're the one that IMed me. Don't tell me to shut up.
SG: I tHouGHt u MIGht B CooLies, and LyKe AvRiL.
BT: Well I don't.
SG: OMG!! U SuK!!!
BT: Well that's very judgemental of you.
SG: Huh??
BT: Sorry, I forgot I have to speak your language, "it's not cOOLies"
SG: SHuTTup.
BT: All you have to do is click the little red box at the top right of your screen. I'll go away then.
SG: Arrg......U HaF 2 LyKe AvRiL!!
BT: I don't. Deal with it.
At that point, I clicked out. It hurt my brain too much to stoop to that level. Sad thing is, that poor girl is still lurking in the chat rooms. Beware.
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2003 16 August :: 12.41am
8 days until school. Jeebus.
I still have no school clothes.
I got some new shoes, but that's it.
Oh well. I'm not going to bother my mom with it. She's got enough crap on her mind. God, I used to write in this thing like 12 times a day. Now I'm lucky if I write in it 12 times a month. Ahhh......
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2003 13 August :: 2.34pm
One hop this time.....
Take it back now y'all.
Crisscross! Crisscross!
Everybody clap your hands!!
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2003 12 August :: 2.49pm
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: Water running
Haven't written in a while. Well, yep, my mom and her fiancee are broken up. End of that. A bat is living outside my dad's patio door. It's so cute. I'm talking to my best friend right now. Woo. Nothing too much to write about. There never is.
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2003 8 August :: 10.44pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: TV.
Well, today was a very interesting day to say the least.
First off, my mother and her fiancee got into a HUGE fight, which I got really nervous around.
Then my dad's car broke down in the parking lot at Wal-Mart so we called my grandpa and he took about an hour to get there.
Finally, he got a new battery and everything is safe and sound with the car.
Oh joy.
Another adventurous day.
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2003 7 August :: 1.18pm
Part Two of installing windows. They hammered right outside mine, so I decided to get up and feed my internet addiction some more. But yet I never have anything to write about. My dad's not all bad like I thought. I remember when I used to be so close with my mom, that I just basically forgot about him. But since the divorce, and me getting to know him better, I realized that he's a pretty cool guy. He tells extremely corny jokes, but he likes some cool music, (Alice Cooper, KISS, ect.) and my mom just cares about going shopping. I'm not going to badmouth anyone anymore from now on. Or at least try not to.
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2003 6 August :: 2.48pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Hammering and Drilling
My mom's getting new windows put in the house. My room is so messy that they can barely get to my windows. HA.
I have to go to my dad's today.
Joy upon all joys. My stepsisters are getting on my nerves a bit. They constantly need attention! Ahh and they won't stay away from my safety pins so then I find them lying on the floor. Now I'm complaining again. Oh great.
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2003 5 August :: 11.17pm
:: Music: Matchbox 20- Unwell
Problem Children
......today was another boring day. humm... i have no life. i kept waking up and falling back asleep this morning, and i don't get enough sleep. i think i need sleeping pills. all i did today was go online, and read the book "beauty queen", which is a good book. i had the house to myself today. my mom and dad was at work and my brother was at his friends house. humm.... anyways when my mom came home from work she went to go pick matthew up. When matthew came home he was crying and he got in trouble for something at his friends house and he was scared to go out to the shop to tell my dad... which i don't blame him. my dad is kinda scary and when you get in trouble with him, he gets mean. but anyways i was enjoying him getting in trouble because i am usualy always the one getting in trouble, like my brother is the perfect angel or something. even if he did something wrong i would get blamed for it. anyways... no one would tell me what happend and why he got in trouble... then i started getting mad, because everytime i get in trouble everyone in my fucking family knows... but when matt gets in trouble.. nooooo i cant know. well i finally found out why he got in trouble and it was because him and his friend were playing with fire and shit happend and i can't say the rest.... so now he might get taken off the AAU baseball team he is on, because of my dad...oh well... humm.... yeah, my parnts have problem children. me with cutting myself and being depressed and haveing and attitude problem and not being home by my curfew and not following the stupid rules and always fighting with my brother and my smart mouth. And my brother with his really big attitude problem, and him playing with fire and him always wanting something that we can't afford, and having a smart mouth and arguing all the time with me and stuff... yeah thats us for ya. they wish we were perfect. but ha! thats not going to happen any time soon. there aren't even helping us in the sitation. my mom always smoking and being under a lot of stress and drinking once in a while ad going off on us kids about nothing stuff. and my dad with somkeing and drinking every chace he gets and cursing every time he talks.... and once in awhile they will fight to. yeah, thats my broken family for you.....
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2003 5 August :: 4.21pm
Cookies are good. Screw the diet.
YUMYUMYUM.
I think I have to clean my room today.
The apocolypse is near.
I have way too much stuff for my small room.
UGH.
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