forget my name

forget my name

:: 2004 16 November :: 6.19am

They're screaming at each other.
She called off the wedding. I hate when they break up because they always make this huge thing about it and they always end up getting back together so it's pointless.

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blacktears844

:: 2004 15 November :: 2.26pm

Amazing Amazing Amazing
FUCKING HELL. Last night was fantastic. Well we saw The Birthday Massacre sitting at a table before anyone started playing, and we went over there and they had us sit down and they asked us about school and stuff and signed our little pieces of paper we had. Rainbow was so fucking nice. So were the rest of them. Then after another band, Deadstar Assembly started playing and they were AMAZING. After that my friends and I went over to Dro and asked him to sign crap and my friend was blabbering on about how I was shaking during the whole thing and all that jazz, and Dro went "Aww" and gave me a huge bear hug. Then The Birthday Massacre were on so we went over there to watch them: AMAZING. After that I went over to Mubo from Deadstar Assembly and got him to sign my little piece of paper. And then Dreggs came over and I asked him. And I got hugs from both and a kiss on the cheek from Mubo. He told me I was cute and that my glasses were hot and then he went over and was talking with my mom. He loves the "moms". Then Dro came back and he signed THIS piece of paper and I got another hug and then we went over to The Birthday Massacre again and got more hugs and they signed my CD and we talked for a bit. For some reason I wasn't expecting them to be so nice. Then Cygnus signed and hugged, and finally I went up to Dearborn and signed and hugged. That man is tall. Anyway, sorry for typing so much. I just woke up.

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blacktears844

:: 2004 13 November :: 4.09pm

I'm back on the computer. We finally moved.
The house is nice. The concert's tomorrow. I can't get ahold of Ashley.

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BleedingHeart

:: 2004 7 November :: 11.02pm
:: Mood: completly numb
:: Music: Rufio- Tears

tears are feelings we cant say

its been two years one month and 9 days since you moved away and i last saw you, and all of a sudden, your standing in my driveway with lesley at 10:30 saturday night. wow. you have changed dramaticly. i'm still in terror about you. lesley and i fucking love you with all our heart. it was really nice to see you again, but when you left, it felt like someone stabed me in the heart 35465 times. please come back, i already miss you.

Happy Birthday Nick. <33

***************

i sit and watch you leave my life forever.
i know youll be gone so long.
my last words are nothing.
i tell you i care, and nothing more.
i can't say how i feel, so i cry.

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blacktears844

:: 2004 7 November :: 8.30pm

I just got back from Target. AFI Retrospective CD, and green cardigan sweater.

My friend is seriously depressed right now. And it's been going on for a while. And I don't know how to help her. It sucks.

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blacktears844

:: 2004 5 November :: 5.48pm
:: Mood: crushed

Clear Hearts
He has a girlfriend. He's had one. He loves her.

My hope just shot through my heart and now it's clogging up the drain.

At least Emily's coming over. That's the only good thing to come out of this whole day. I might not be online for a while due to moving.

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blacktears844

:: 2004 4 November :: 3.34pm

I changed my background. Waheyyy.
Anyway, I'm definetly going to see Deadstar Assembly and the Birthday Massacre on the 14th. We have to buy the tickets at the door, and hopefully we shall get there in time.
Another night at my dad's. Well I don't think there is much else to type about so I'll sign off...out?

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blacktears844

:: 2004 31 October :: 6.52pm

The Taking Back Sunday tickets were sold out. Jenny was pissed. But I guess she's ok now. According to Christina.
Girls confuse me. Even though I'm one of them.

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blacktears844

:: 2004 29 October :: 3.50pm

I finally did it. I told her how I felt. She didn't really blow up at me like I expected her too, she just didn't understand where I was coming from.
I tried to explain it to her the best I could. She got in a fight with my other friend today too.
Anyway, tonight should be fun. I'm SO going trick or treating with Amber. Haha. <3

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blacktears844

:: 2004 28 October :: 6.52am

I made my skirt last night. It didn't turn out as bad as I thought it would. It's perfectly decent, actually. Even my mother liked it. I had this small fight last night with one of my best friends last night. I was putting it off because I hate fighting with my friends, but if I had said what all I wanted to say to her, we would no longer be speaking right now. And I choose to keep the peace.

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blacktears844

:: 2004 27 October :: 2.29pm
:: Music: My Ruin

AND YOU WANT ME LIKE A HURRICANE
Today's just been one of those days. Bleh.

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blacktears844

:: 2004 26 October :: 3.14pm
:: Music: Sleater-Kinney

Youth Decay
I got some ADORABLE hot pink with black polka dots fabric yesterday at hobby lobby. I think I'm going to make a skirt out of it. Either that or a purse. Any suggestions?
I also got some stencils so I can make another shirt. I spend so much frickin' money at those places. *shakes fist*
Today I think I'm getting the tickets for the TBS concert. Wahey. Finally.

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blacktears844

:: 2004 25 October :: 3.36pm
:: Music: Sleater-Kinney

Heart Attack<3
She's getting on my nerves so bad.

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blacktears844

:: 2004 22 October :: 5.35am
:: Music: All My Life - Kci & Jojo UGHAH

Alllllll myyy liiifeeee
Well, last day of school for the week. I don't see why I always expect something big to happen when someone pays attention to me. =/
Because it never does.
I've been listening to those stupid sappy K-Ci & Jojo songs for the past three days, it's been giving me strange dreams. Last night for example, I was cleaning chalkboards after school at my old elementary school and when I missed a spot the principal poked my eye out with chalk.
I got two books last night at Waldenbooks. I even forget what they're called, and I'm reading one.
We get our ears and eyes checked at school today which makes me feel about five. The ear test is going to be hard considering my EAR WILL NOT POP. It hasn't for the past two days. I've tried yawning, that strange jaw trick, popping them the old way, I've even tried poking my ear.

Nothing.

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blacktears844

:: 2004 21 October :: 3.21pm

NEW PICTAHS
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