hm..........friends....boys........whatever happens to come out through my fingertips
well the friends i have at sparta i cant tell everything too....but i know theyll be there if i need them to be. i tell everything to my friend holly now. i heard she has a loud mouth but shes like my best friend. i feel that i could tell her anything. i hang out with her every weekend....any time i can. we laugh so much and have so much fun...im glad i have found a friend like her. honestly everyone else just doesnt get me. if i were to tell them something, that they wouldnt approve of id just get lectured for an hour in a half. anyways so thats my ode to holly. all my friends from cedar, well dont talk to you guys anymore but i hope youre all great. cause i am. busy....but great. so i am or was or am or was infatuated/obsessed with this guy named weston. hes going to be going to college sometime, i just dont know when. hes just everything i have always wanted, just not because he doesnt feel at all the same for me. i feel used but if i had the chance to take anything i ever did with him back i wouldnt. i might have made it a little harder for him but id ont know. i have had a crush on this kid sense the first time i saw him. i cant get my thoughts off him, and it pisses me off. im so disgusted with how upsessed with this kid i am. my dream would probably be..............one day after school, i get a call from him...and he asks if i want to go to the movies or something. i would love that. infact that would make my day....or any of these days for that matter. im probably going to see him this weekend, sense i will be partying and all....but i wish i could see him for more than that. my friend amanda...went after hollys big time crush...(this is hollys best friend, and was close to being one of mine)behind her back, and then at the party i was at the other night, amanda i guess gave him head. what a whore. that pisses me off that she did that and tried hooking up with hollys deal. in a way i think that she is trying to get back at holly and i cause we always hang out now. (when we can). so yeah there is my opinion of amanda. band is going crappy cause we only know the first two charts. we are learning the third this week and next week so mr and mrs palma want to have everything perfected by the rockford invatational next week saturday. im so nervous cause the guard doesnt even know the work for our third song, and the whole band doesnt know the drill for the third song. anyways....if we do get it then ill be excited cause it will be an awesome performance. i get to do a back walkover in the first song...im so nervous cause i can get it sometimes but others i just cant get it. oh my classes this year are good.... i have journalism....brittish lit....art...and band. pretty easy schedule....thats why i have so much time on my hands, because i dont ever have to do much in jounalsim. we have to pretty much write an article a week, and i have to write two because i have to different beats....but after the article is done, all i do is sit around for the rest of the week. um...........i need to get my senior pictures done. prestiege is doing mine so i am excited. and i might get some more done by this guy named jon. im excited to get them done. anyways today im wearing bowling shoes, a plaid skirt and a fish net longsleve shirt that is bright orange. go me!!!! well i better go write my next weeks concept. you all have fun.