skippi16
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2009 3 March :: 12.09am
life has recently thrown us some curve balls especially this week, we have grown stronger. its been very sad, and boy have i cried but i am so lucky to have the support that i do and thanks guys for all the love!
I'm doing everything
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butterfly
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2009 28 February :: 12.48am
:: Music: second chance - shinedown
Tonight was nice
However...
I'm scared of it bringing back feelings I've worked so hard to subdue.
I already feel them surfacing.
/sigh
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I'm doing everything
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butterfly
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2009 20 February :: 12.16pm
:: Mood: contemplative
why??
-because for people like you and me, there are no real friends.
there are no perfect relationships.
and there are no right decisions.
-because there is not a good enough reason not to.
there is no eternal bliss and there is no perpetual punishment.
-because there is never happiness on the other side.
there are only fantasies that fit well inside your mind and never come to fruition.
-because we must fight off our demons every single day just to be happy.
and things weren't the way we thought they would be.
-because i'm trying, i really am.
and when i smile it's real, and when i hurt it isn't.
-because people like you and me, we need each other.
just to stay alive, and just to feel less alone.
-because there is no such thing as loneliness
there is nothing to keep us here and nothing to make us go.
every place is my prison.
and it always ends like this.
I'm doing everything
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magalicious
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2009 18 February :: 8.16pm
:: Mood: blank
I'm standing on the dock, with the sun beating on my neck. The waves are crashing against the pier and I'm staring into the bottom of the ocean. The people are gone. There is just me, the waves, the sun, the gulls, the ocean. Standing. Sitting. Waiting. Hoping. Contemplating jumping the ten feet into the darkness below. To dive right in, to have the water cleanse me, to have everything washed away. To feel the fish brush past my legs, to feel the seaweed get wrapped around my arms, to feel the salt water against my skin. I want to have the courage to swim through the lobsters and the sharks. I stand up and climb onto the post that the ferry's get tied to. With a deep breath, I scream, and I dive into the water.
Fear is only as deep as the mind allows.
I'm doing everything
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magalicious
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2009 17 February :: 4.24pm
:: Mood: indescribable
Ecstasy can explode your heart.
I'm doing everything
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