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squallet

:: 2011 1 January :: 8.39am
:: Mood: giddy
:: Music: "I Can't Read You" by Daniel Bedingfield

SQUEEEEEEE!!!!!
8:23 AM on January 1st, 2011.
Daniel Bedingfield responded to me on Facebook!!
Yeah, so I'm having a minor fangirl moment, sue me! :P
Can you blame me?! I've adored his music since MIDDLE SCHOOL!!!
So... I'm officially super giggly and happy!!
What a way to break in the new year!! ♥

It's actually quite funny because I'm not the type to fangirl like that.
But he responded "thank you darling" to my wishing him a happy New Year's.
And I admit it. I squeed. Like... a genuine "SQUEEE!!"
Thus, this entry being titled "SQUEEEEEEE!!!!!"
*ahem!!*

Carrying on with the rest of my day now. ^^;;
And... eating Froot Loops.
2011 is looking pretty good right about now. xD

I'm doing everything


squallet

:: 2010 27 December :: 4.19am
:: Mood: hopeful
:: Music: "Frozen" by Delain

I never thought of picket fences...
Only a lifelong friend.
I thought of comfort and warmth.
Lifelong happiness between two friends.
That's the future I thought of when I thought of you.
No flowing gowns or white picket fences.
Just abundant smiles and laughter.
Walks in the park and snowball wars.
A best friend to just share everything with.
But now it seems just an empty, childish dream.
Soon you'll be gone, just like the rest.
And I don't even know what to think anymore.
You truly are one of a kind.
And somehow, you stole my heart.
Keep it. I can't think of anyone I'd trust with it more.
All I wish is for you to be happy.
And I wish that I could make you smile every day.
That's all I want...
So please, don't choose solitude...
Your heart's too precious to just keep locked away...

I'll never push you again.
I want the decision to be yours alone.
And if that time ever comes, I'll be here. <3

I'm doing everything


squallet

:: 2010 23 December :: 8.08pm
:: Mood: optimistic
:: Music: "From That Point On" by Revis

Meh. Yes, meh. xD
I hate to say it, but Mike's probably right.
We have all our lives.
I think I'm just used to people coming and going in life.
Having someone who plans on sticking around is a new concept for me. o.-

What I do know for sure is that I really want to get to know him better.
Also, that I won't just up and walk away from things.
I plan on being there for him and being a lifelong friend.

I've realized that's what I want in the long run anyway.
Sure, I'd love to build a relationship with him one day.
But what good is it without a good friendship as the foundation?
We did take things too fast, and I have a problem with doing that a lot.
I appreciate that he's shown me that, and helped me overcome it.

Actually, this is the best I've felt in a really long time.
For once, I feel like me and him are sort of on the same page. :]
It's good to know that he's going to stick around through thick and thin. :D
Psst. Between you and me Woohu, I don't see things not working out between us one day.
But shhhh, don't tell him that. ;3
That day doesn't have to be any day soon though, and I'm okay with that.

I've gotten some great writing material out of the past few weeks btw.
And me and John have some new music in the works. :]
I'm super excited to record a new original piece, and with my new studio quality microphone! :D
Wow... this good is much needed after the past week.

Oh, and I realized that I enjoy playing Smackdown vs. Raw... XD
I never thought I would, but I do.
I got to bring my fictional characters to life as wrestlers.
It's pretty nerdy and awesome, all at once. :3

Btw... Revis totally needs to have a show in Cleveland.
Just saying. ;D

I'm doing everything


squallet

:: 2010 20 December :: 6.13pm
:: Mood: indescribable
:: Music: "Karmaway" by Taproot

So...
I hate that every time I see your picture, my heart skips a little.
Stupid heart.
You're so useless.
Man, I really need to stop with this self-pity. xD
Don't be fooled though, I'm actually in a relatively good mood.
Just a little emotional/mushy. :3
Looking forward to seeing Mike later this week... I hope. ^^

I'm doing everything


squallet

:: 2010 17 December :: 10.30pm
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: "Bad Habit" by The Offspring

I give up.
People are a fucking constant disappointment.
I'm so sick of this unreliable bullshit.
Jesus fucking Christ.
I'm just fucking done with people.

I'm doing everything

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