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2011 10 January :: 6.45am
:: Mood: thoughtful
:: Music: "Made of Metal" by Dream Evil
This proper sleeping schedule is weird to me.
So it's 6:47 AM and I'm wide awake.
Why? Because I went to bed at about 7 PM last night.
Wtf is up with that? XD
I'm working on a new playlist.
I've been in a very metal mood lately.
Therefore, for a while, I'll probably put it up here.
There's one more week of winter break left.
I don't know if I'm dreading school or looking forward to it.
I'm looking forward to having something to do during the day.
I'm not looking forward to going back to school for something I don't want to do.
I only have one more semester left until I get this degree.
But after thinking about it, I've decided I want to completely change my career path.
Fucking brilliant, no?
I've been wondering for a while why the hell I'm in a design field.
I'm not that creative.
Yes, I have talent, but my creativity is limited. xD
Also, I have to laugh at my last entry.
I can't believe I actually really fangirled that much. ^ ^;
It turns out he pretty much tries to respond to everyone.
I think that's really awesome of him. :3
I really don't know what else to rant about.
I've kind of given up on the one person I really cared for romantically.
Ok, secretly I haven't, but as far as the rest of the world is concerned, I have.
Sure, I have the perfect little daydream of how I wish things would unfold.
But I'm not really counting on that coming true.
I guess that's the risk you take with having hope.
But what's life without hope, right?
I may seem cynical at times, but the truth is, I'm fairly optimistic.
You have to be in this world.
In truth, I can find the light side in just about the darkest times.
Yeah, I believe in this silly thing called love.
As long as the world has some left, there's always hope. ♥
I'm doing everything
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2011 1 January :: 8.39am
:: Mood: giddy
:: Music: "I Can't Read You" by Daniel Bedingfield
SQUEEEEEEE!!!!!
8:23 AM on January 1st, 2011.
Daniel Bedingfield responded to me on Facebook!!
Yeah, so I'm having a minor fangirl moment, sue me! :P
Can you blame me?! I've adored his music since MIDDLE SCHOOL!!!
So... I'm officially super giggly and happy!!
What a way to break in the new year!! ♥
It's actually quite funny because I'm not the type to fangirl like that.
But he responded "thank you darling" to my wishing him a happy New Year's.
And I admit it. I squeed. Like... a genuine "SQUEEE!!"
Thus, this entry being titled "SQUEEEEEEE!!!!!"
*ahem!!*
Carrying on with the rest of my day now. ^^;;
And... eating Froot Loops.
2011 is looking pretty good right about now. xD
I'm doing everything
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2010 27 December :: 4.19am
:: Mood: hopeful
:: Music: "Frozen" by Delain
I never thought of picket fences...
Only a lifelong friend.
I thought of comfort and warmth.
Lifelong happiness between two friends.
That's the future I thought of when I thought of you.
No flowing gowns or white picket fences.
Just abundant smiles and laughter.
Walks in the park and snowball wars.
A best friend to just share everything with.
But now it seems just an empty, childish dream.
Soon you'll be gone, just like the rest.
And I don't even know what to think anymore.
You truly are one of a kind.
And somehow, you stole my heart.
Keep it. I can't think of anyone I'd trust with it more.
All I wish is for you to be happy.
And I wish that I could make you smile every day.
That's all I want...
So please, don't choose solitude...
Your heart's too precious to just keep locked away...
I'll never push you again.
I want the decision to be yours alone.
And if that time ever comes, I'll be here. <3
I'm doing everything
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2010 23 December :: 8.08pm
:: Mood: optimistic
:: Music: "From That Point On" by Revis
Meh. Yes, meh. xD
I hate to say it, but Mike's probably right.
We have all our lives.
I think I'm just used to people coming and going in life.
Having someone who plans on sticking around is a new concept for me. o.-
What I do know for sure is that I really want to get to know him better.
Also, that I won't just up and walk away from things.
I plan on being there for him and being a lifelong friend.
I've realized that's what I want in the long run anyway.
Sure, I'd love to build a relationship with him one day.
But what good is it without a good friendship as the foundation?
We did take things too fast, and I have a problem with doing that a lot.
I appreciate that he's shown me that, and helped me overcome it.
Actually, this is the best I've felt in a really long time.
For once, I feel like me and him are sort of on the same page. :]
It's good to know that he's going to stick around through thick and thin. :D
Psst. Between you and me Woohu, I don't see things not working out between us one day.
But shhhh, don't tell him that. ;3
That day doesn't have to be any day soon though, and I'm okay with that.
I've gotten some great writing material out of the past few weeks btw.
And me and John have some new music in the works. :]
I'm super excited to record a new original piece, and with my new studio quality microphone! :D
Wow... this good is much needed after the past week.
Oh, and I realized that I enjoy playing Smackdown vs. Raw... XD
I never thought I would, but I do.
I got to bring my fictional characters to life as wrestlers.
It's pretty nerdy and awesome, all at once. :3
Btw... Revis totally needs to have a show in Cleveland.
Just saying. ;D
I'm doing everything
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2010 20 December :: 6.13pm
:: Mood: indescribable
:: Music: "Karmaway" by Taproot
So...
I hate that every time I see your picture, my heart skips a little.
Stupid heart.
You're so useless.
Man, I really need to stop with this self-pity. xD
Don't be fooled though, I'm actually in a relatively good mood.
Just a little emotional/mushy. :3
Looking forward to seeing Mike later this week... I hope. ^^
I'm doing everything
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