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2010 2 December :: 8.55am
:: Mood: busy
:: Music: "21 Guns" by Green Day
Arrghh!!1!
Too much crap to do.
Yet I just keep looking for ways to procrastinate. xD
Nah, I'm actually just taking a break from work now.
I had a really off night last night.
I just got really depressed out of nowhere and went to bed relatively early.
I hope Mike doesn't think I'm too much of an idiot. :\
I feel like I'm putting way too much on him way too soon.
Like my expectations are just way too high.
I'm to blame for that.
I'm glad we're taking time to get to know each other better before getting super involved.
I just get this feeling that once he really gets to know me, he won't stick around long.
I hope I'm wrong...
Damn it, I miss him. XD
I'm doing everything
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2010 28 November :: 4.04am
:: Mood: ecstatic
:: Music: "She Won't Be Lonely Long" by Clay Walker
I'm actually listening to country music...
That like... never happens. x3
I need someone to share smiles with, someone to laugh along with.
Someone who will dance this crazy dance of life with me.
Someone who's the harmony to my melody.
And something about all this seems right.
Like somehow everything's falling right into place.
And maybe everything does actually happen for a reason.
Maybe that broken heart was really the best thing that ever happened to me... ♥
I'm doing everything
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2010 26 November :: 10.38pm
:: Mood: giggly
:: Music: "Magic Taborea" by Van Canto
Correction...
TOTALLY crushing!
-giggleblush-
Wow. I sound like an ignorant 15 year old. >.>;;
But I'm smiling, so I don't really care at the moment. :D
I'm doing everything
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2010 26 November :: 8.21pm
:: Mood: giggly
:: Music: "In The Shadows" by The Rasmus
My dream romance is dead...
What Michael and I had once was beautiful.
But he's not that person anymore.
He's cold. He's selfish. He's not the man I fell in love with.
And that realization is helping me see the light: that I deserve better.
So... when better happens to come around... so be it.
In the meantime... there's this one guy who makes me grin and laugh like an idiot.
I find myself thinking about him at work, and just wanting to get home to talk to him.
I don't want to fall too fast though, and I don't want anything serious for a while.
But if he just happened to ask me on a date, I just might happen to say yes. :]
-giggleblushbutterflies-
God, I feel like a little girl all over again. xD
I'm doing everything
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2010 13 November :: 4.00am
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: "I'll Always Remember You" by Miley Cyrus
I'm so tired...
... of being without you...
Songs all remind me of you.
Pictures make me cry.
I just don't want to face the world without you by my side.
I'd give ANYTHING just to be the one to make you smile again.
I'd give anything for the love we had then...
What changed?
Whatever it was, I'm willing to do anything to change it back.
If you ever loved me the way you said you did, please don't just walk away.
I need you more than you know...
Please, just open your heart again...
And we could live our every dream together, the way we used to.
I don't know when, but somewhere along the line, I fell for you.
What happened to the days when you used to catch me...?
I don't mind if I have to wait for you...
I'd wait forever...
Just please say that one day, you'll come back home...
Don't the happy memories and zillions of pictures make you miss us at all?
I look at those pictures and all I see are 2 people so happy to be together.
Best friends, lovers, inseparable.
What happened to us?
We got lost somewhere along the way...
But can't we find our way back together...?
If you love something, set it free...
I remember cutely debating that with you because I never believed it...
But I'm willing to try it your way, just to show you how much I care...
So I've set you free...
And I pray every day that you'll come home to me...
So all I have to do is wait for you...
I'll wait for you as long as it takes because you're all I've ever wanted baby...
Please don't forget me...
I love you so much Michael...
-continues crying self to sleep-
I'm doing everything
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